Hey guys. Now I hate to toot my own horn, but this is quite a sad chapter. Oh, and thanks so much to all of you who reviewed last time. I'm really happy that you guys like my writing that much, so I appreciate all that :) Anyway, chapter time!

Chapter 13-I Want You, But Can't Have You

Chad's POV

I wake up after the operation, and the doctor tells me I can probably walk again, as long as I use crutches. That's good enough for me, as long as I can go see Sonny. It's been a couple of days and she's still asleep. I'm getting kinda worried. Scratch that, I'm terrified. Sonny could be dying in that room, and it's all my fault. If I hadn't got mad at her, Josh wouldn't have got mad and set off that fire, and if I hadn't tripped and fallen, she wouldn't have wasted her time-and her life-saving me. I get a sick, horrified feeling in my stomach, and feel like I need to see her again.

I wander up to her room with my crutches. I just want to make sure she's OK, but when I arrive, my wishes seem the total opposite to the reality. Connie, her Mom, is sat outside her room, sniffling into a tissue. The rest of her cast are sat there too, Tawni's eyes look red and puffy, Zora's fast asleep, but seems to be kind of upset in her sleep, and the boy's faces are creased and lined with worry.

"Is she OK?" I ask, knowing the answer.

"She's not great," Connie says, choking out the words. Nico pats her on the back, and Tawni continues speaking for her.

"They're operating on her right now," She says, "They don't know how it will turn out or anything, so we're…" She sighs, "…worried that she might…well, you know."

"I know." I sigh, sitting on a spare seat, "I can't let this happen."

"Chad, you can't just stop people from dying." Tawni says, "It's not possible."

"I know." I groan. "Why does this have to happen to someone as amazing as Sonny?" I ask out loud, "It's all my fault."

"It's not." Connie says, comforting me, "Things like this just happen."

"I know." I say, "But if Sonny…you know…" I sigh, "I don't want this to happen. I'm sorry, Ms Munroe."

"Don't worry," She says, "It will be fine. Sonny will be fine."

I know she believes it as little as I do, but neither of us mention it. We don't want Sonny to die-it can't happen. Sonny's too good a person to die at such an early age, and well…she's…she's Sonny. She perfect, and perfect things shouldn't disappear. I sigh, holding my head in my hands, suddenly feeling ill.

A man comes out and sighs, before telling us we can go in, but only two at a time. Connie insists that we all go before her-she's so caring. Nico and Grady go first. Then, Tawni wakes up Zora and they go in. They come out and sigh, looking down at me and Connie in our seats.

"You guys go."

I look to Connie, who sighs, getting up, and I follow her in, shaking.

I see Sonny's perfect, yet sleeping, face and I almost burst into tears. Connie's eyes look red and puffy, and she hugs her daughter softly, before speaking to her. I smile, trying to hold myself together. When I hear the story of Sonny's youth, I do feel a tear fall down my cheek. I hear about how bubbly and sweet she seemed as a kid, and wish I'd known her then. I don't care though. I love her now, even with her condition now. Connie steps away and lets me talk to Sonny, and I try for a smile, stepping close to Sonny and sitting down on a seat next to where she's sat.

"Hey, Sonny," I say, "It's Chad. Um, so, I guess I'm the least likely person you want to see right now, right? Well, um, I'm gonna be OK, so you know. I guess that's not the thing you really want to hear right now." I chuckle, "I wish you were OK, Sonny. Why did you safe me? It was a dumb idea, no offence. You should've just let me die there, the world would be better without me, not you."

I stare at her lifeless body, and hold her hand tightly. "If only you'd wake up. I just want to apologise, for everything. The recount, getting those actors to show up at your performance, your house, my house, when I yelled at you, well, everything. I've messed up a lot, haven't I?"

Connie smiles at this point, but I carry on. "I just want to tell you, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, and I love you, OK? I really do, so you can't die. I don't know what I'd do without you, Sonny. I love you, I haven't stopped in months. Even when we weren't dating. I just wish you'd wake up."

I sigh, "Please, Sonny! Just, please! Can you even hear me? Please!"

I break down, crying, for Sonny, because I feel like I'll never hear her sweet voice, her laugh, anything, everything. I just want her to live. She can't die. She just can't.

"Sir?"

I feel a hand touch my shoulder and I look behind me to see the doctor.

"Could you please go now?"

I don't want to be trouble, that's the last thing any of us need right now. I leave with Connie, wiping away my tears. I turn back to Sonny for the last second, heart-broken and sad. I sigh, turning away, leaving Sonny. I wish I could stay with her forever, but there always seems to be something keeping us apart. I sit next to Tawni outside and burst out crying, and an amazing thing happens-she comforts me. They all do.

I laugh, "If Sonny could only see us now."

I hope you guys liked it, and don't worry about Sonny. She's not dead yet, OK? I'm not that cruel...or am I?

lol, until next time, my lovelys ;)