The Sixth Year - The First Six Months
When I heard Emily's and her friend's comments my eyes shot to Bella, she shrugged her shoulders as if to signal I was on my own. I heard several of the boys saying how 'cool' it was that I had a tattoo but Ethan was the first to get to me so he could look at it closely.
"Cool Dad. When did you get this done?" He asked running his finger over it.
"A few years ago as a Christmas present." I answered as more of the kids got into the pool to look at it.
"Owner of Isabella Cullen?" He questioned. "You can't own people Dad. Hey, Mom has that necklace that is wrapped around her name, right? I have seen her wear it a few times." I was getting nervous and moving towards the steps to get out. I had no idea how to answer their questions and I just wanted to get my shirt back on.
"It doesn't literally mean he owns me Ethan." Bella spoke with a laugh and look that told me to go with whatever she said. "Actually it is a very romantic gesture. He showed it to me the Christmas we all came to Chicago and stayed with Grandpa and Grandma only then it just said Owner of Isabella and I was upset because he had not added Swan." She walked over to me and put her hand over my heart, stopping me from putting the shirt on. "I was upset about that and he said that he didn't want it to say Swan because he was pretty sure we would end up being married and he would rather it say Cullen. After we were married he added the Cullen. It means he is the owner of my heart as I am the owner of his. That is why is placed over his heart."
"Is that why you Dad's name on your butt then?" Evan curiously asked Bella.
"What?" Bella said as she turned to look at him.
"I forget where we were going but we were at the mall you were trying on swimsuits." Evan blushed. "You made me sit right outside your dressing room because of all the people that day and I asked you about something. When you opened the door to answer me I saw Dad's name in the mirror behind you close to your butt above the swimsuit you had on. There were other words but I couldn't make them out."
"You never said anything about seeing it Evan?" Bella asked him.
"I figured if I was supposed to see it you would show it me. I asked you about tattoos later and I didn't think you wanted to talk about it so I let it go." He blushed again and looked down.
Bella looked up and noticed everyone looking at her and she blushed. "Yes I have a tattoo. It is more on my hip than my butt and no I won't show it to you because it is pretty low. It says 'Property of Edward Cullen'. I had it done several years ago also. There is a saying that I don't want any of repeating but it is 'he owns my ass' and it means I belong to your father as he belongs to me, having it so close to my butt is just symbolism." She scanned around the crowd with a look that said this discussion is over, but Ev being young and just him, didn't get it.
"I don't understand, I mean..." Bella cut him off quickly.
"Evan some things will just need to wait until you are older to understand. Ask me again in a few years and I will explain it you again."
"Ok" he said glumly and everyone dispersed to be with their friends' again.
Bella and I moved to a different part of the deck and I pulled her down into a lounger with me. "That was close." I whispered into her ear. She leaned her head back against my shoulder.
"To close and if they get a good look at mine I am sure it will bring more questions?" I gave her a confused look. "Yours is innocent with the choker but mine is wrapped in a whip Edward." I widened my eyes remembering that as Bella nodded and continued. "Yeah, that would require much more explanation." I nodded with her, neither of us wanted to have that conversation anytime soon.
I had been playing phone tag with my father since the end of school. Father's Day was approaching and I was determined to track him down so we could see him. I warned Bella it may involve seeing my mother also. She admitted she was a little uncomfortable seeing her after their last confrontation but also realized it had to be done sometime. He finally returned my phone call after I left a voicemail threatening to visit him in the middle of the night if he didn't. As I heard his ringtone I chuckled having finally gotten his attention.
"So are you done avoiding me now?" I asked.
"I'm sorry Edward I have been avoiding your calls. Let's get together for lunch today and talk about things." He said.
"Ok, where do you want to meet?" He was being quiet and I didn't know what to make of it.
"Meet me at 12:30 at aria in The Fairmont and I will explain as much as I can."
"That's fine. I'll see you then."
As I drove to meet my father my mind wouldn't let go of the short phone call we had. What did he mean he would explain as much as he could? And why were we meeting at The Fairmont instead of the house or another restaurant? Why was he avoiding my calls and why had my mother started calling the house at odd times? I wanted some answers and as I pulled up to the valet at the hotel I decided I wasn't leaving without them.
I gave my name to the hostess at aria and she led me to their outdoor seating area. I immediately spied my father and he did not look well at all, not sick but something was wrong. He was on the phone but hung up as soon as he saw me walking towards the table. He stood up and hugged me as if I was a lifeline for him and it confused the hell out of me. I blurted out what was on my mind without stopping to think of how it would sound.
"Dad, you look like shit. What the hell is going on?" He looked at me for a few seconds before scrubbing his hands over his face.
"It's nice to see you too Edward." He said but without the fire I expected.
"I'm sorry for how that came out but it is obvious something is wrong and it took me off guard."
The waitress came over and we placed our drink and lunch orders. I looked at my father as he looked anywhere but at me until our drinks arrived. I refused to speak first. Something was wrong and I would not let this lunch be about small talk and my life until he told me what the problem was.
"Edward this conversation is going to be difficult for me. I ask that you bear with me if things don't come out as they should." I nodded that I would hear him out. "I suppose I should start with a question. How much do you really know about the last time Bella meet with your mother?" I suppose my expression told him I was surprised he knew I hadn't told him everything. "I'm aware you held some things back. I know Bella would never lie to you or hold things back but I need to know how much you know."
I was honest with him in the retelling of the conversation that Bella and I had that day. About the packet and how neither of us had read it but yes we still have it in the safe. I told him I would rather hear whatever was in there from mom herself and that Bella felt guilty over threatening her. I explained my reasons for not telling him this that day. I explained everything to him as he just sat and listened without ever moving or saying a word. As our lunch was served I waited for his reaction. He took a deep breath before talking to me.
"I understand you reasons Edward, I do and I was pretty sure you hadn't looked at that packet yet."
"So mom told you about the meeting and the packet then?" He laughed but it was off, there was no humor in it.
"Yes she did. She is convinced that Bella read it and has told you all about it. I told her she wouldn't do that. Bella has too much...class to spill some one else's secrets." He stopped talking and seemed conflicted with himself about how to continue.
"I suppose the way to do this is to say it straight out. I am staying here at the hotel Edward. That is why I asked you to meet here for lunch. I have been staying here for two weeks and to be honest I am not sure if Esme and I will be able to work things out or not." I was shocked.
"Is this because of her meeting with Bella?" I had to know and Bella would need to know too. She would feel this was her fault but my gut instinct told me it wasn't.
"Yes and no." I heard a deep sigh before he leaned back in his chair. "After my phone call to you, Esme came out of her office and asked me to give her time before telling me about it. I agreed. It was a few weeks later when she asked me to meet with her and her counselor so she could tell me about the meeting." He had been looking at me but his eyes suddenly got fierce. "I am not going to tell you much in detail but do not allow Bella to blame herself for any of this Edward. Yes the information her father put together brought everything into the light but it should have been done years ago. What is happening now lies at Esme's feet; she should have been honest with me from the start." I waited for him to tell the story but he seemed to be lost in his thoughts and a large part of me did not want to hear what he had to say.
"Dad you don't have to tell me anything if it makes you this uncomfortable." I said as I reached for his hand.
"Honestly Edward, I want to tell you all of it and have you help me figure out where I go from here. But that wouldn't be fair to you or your mother. For the first week I sat around and I could not get my mind to shut down. I started seeing my counselor again this week and he is helping me sort out my feelings. I know your mother wants to tell you about things herself...I don't know how much I can tell you." He was starting to ramble and worry me. How bad were the things in that envelope? "It goes back to well before we were married. She has known Carmen much longer than either of us thought but hadn't seen her for years until you and Tanya married."
"I don't understand?" She knew Carmen? Neither of them ever did or said anything about knowing each other.
"They knew each other in Boston?" He said absently.
"Boston? When did mom live in Boston? I thought she was born and raised in Chicago?" This didn't make any sense. My question seemed to bring him back to the conversation.
"I am at a disadvantage here son. I want to give your mother the chance to explain to you herself but I realize I need to tell you something about why I moved out."
"But that's what I have been trying to tell you dad. You don't have to tell me anything at all if you don't want to. I'll be patient and wait for mom to tell me. I don't think any less of you for moving out. I know how hard you have been trying." I needed him to understand that I know matter what happened I would not blame him.
"I will tell you this, anything that happened or that she did up until the time you married Tanya I could have easily understood and moved past. I can not say with certainty that is true now but it would have been before. It is the things after you married Tanya and especially since you and Bella have been together that I don't know if I can ever forgive her for Edward. I'm not saying we can never move pass this but I am saying that from where I am right now I don't see how we can."
I wanted to be surprised but the truth was I couldn't be. I knew my parents had problems, especially concerning my mother's treatment of Bella, add to that the information Charlie had discovered and this was almost inevitable. "I'm sorry Dad. I admit I do not understand most of what you are trying to say but I want you to be happy Dad. All I want is for you to be happy. I love you Dad, that won't change."
"I love you too Edward. Thank you for being patient and understanding." The look on his face was one of pure relief so I guided the conversation to safe ground while we finished eating. On the drive home I could not get my mind off the envelope sitting in the library safe. I was sure it held answers to most of the questions I had, should I open it? I was also worried about Bella's reaction when I told her about my lunch.
This was one of the times our honesty policy really sucked. I knew she would feel bad about this to some degree but I had to tell her and we would work through this as we had everything else. I knew our honesty was a large part of what made our marriage so strong. We had many embarrassing, hard to have conversations but not having to guess what the other was thinking helped. Yes there had been hurt feelings and times when both of us cried be it from frustration or pain but we always came out closer and stronger on the other side. I would have to make Bella see that my mother made her own decisions time and time again. Bella didn't fight back until those decisions started to affect our family, she was protecting her family and no one could or would hold that against her. We would talk then decide how we would present a united front and we always presented a united front. We may argue in private about how to handle things but to anyone outside of us the same answers would be given and probably verbatim.
I still hadn't decided if I was going to open the envelope or not when I entered the house and heard Bella on the phone in the kitchen. "I told you I can't do that. You know what your right let me rephrase that. I won't do it. You are asking me to betray Edward and that is something I would never do." I continued walking towards the kitchen and I was getting angry. Who the hell was she talking to and how did they want her to betray me?
"Yes it is a betrayal Esme." What the fuck? I thought. "You want me to try to get Edward to see your side of things, to butter him up for you and I won't do that." She is talking to my mother? "This is not my fault Esme. You made your bed now lie in it. You forced my father into doing this and you forced me to defend my family. You should have backed off long ago." Hearing that made me feel better, maybe Bella would deal with this easier than I thought. "I already told you we didn't open it. I have no idea what is in there and Edward should hear it from you." I was standing in the doorway now but Bella had her back to me. I don't think she knew I was here yet. "Why are you calling me now? That meeting was over a month ago. Yes he is having lunch with him now. No, Esme, no. Even if I did agreed with you, which I don't, I would never try to manipulate Edward like that. It is a betrayal and not only won't I do that but I am telling him about this phone call." Bella's voice was raising and I could see her hand shaking, she was going to explode any moment. I saw her face turn red in anger right before it happened. "Maybe that is what started this entire problem. If you had been honest...you fucking lying bitch you do not dictate my life or Edward's. I will not help you..." Bella was yelling now and I heard Evan call her name. I walked over to her and plucked the phone out of her hand.
"When you decide you want to be honest mother call me but until that time leave Bella and the kids out of your schemes." Bella jumped and squeaked before turning to me. "Evan is on his way I think he heard you shout." She started crying. "Go in the bedroom and I will tell him everything is fine and then we can talk." She nodded and walked towards the bedroom as he came into the kitchen. I assured him she was fine and yelled in surprise because I frightened her. A few minutes later I joined Bella in our bedroom. She was pacing and mumbling to herself. I had only seen her this mad once before, after a confrontation with Alice and Rosalie. I couldn't help but smile at the memory, the angry sex after she vented had been great. She finally noticed me and looked up.
"Is Evan ok? I didn't mean to scare him." She asked.
"He is fine. He didn't hear what was said, he just heard you shout. I told him I surprised you and you yelled." She nodded at me and went back to pacing. "I listened to your conversation for a while. I know she wants you to butter me up for something." When Bella turned to look at me I was glad she wasn't pissed at me and said a quick thank you for the fucking I knew I would be getting when her rant was done.
"She is delusional Edward. She is convinced I forced you to read the contents of the envelope. Called me a liar when I said we had not even opened it. She wants me to convince you to hear out and forgive her. See I have you so much under my spell that if I tell you to forgive her you will because obviously you don't have a brain of your own. Uggghhhh! That woman is infuriating!" I knew I should have been offended by the things my mother said but I couldn't. After lunch with my father I was strung tight mentally and emotionally now also a round of great sex sounded like the thing to calm us both down. How to make that happen?
"Bella we both know she isn't thinking straight and with dad moving out it has..."
"She blames me for his moving out too. This is not my fault. She needs to take responsibility for her actions." She was back to pacing. "Part of me wants to rip that envelope and read everything so...no I can't do that it would be...bet I could shut her up...arrgghhh." She screamed as she fell on the bed. I sat on the bed next to her and she seemed to realize I was in the room again. "I'm sorry Edward. I am just so angry right now and I am probably not making much sense. I'm going down to the gym to run off some of this energy then I'll come up and we can talk like normal human beings." She jumped off the bed and was on her way to the door before I grabbed her from behind.
"Oh no you don't I know of a much better way for both of us to burn off this energy." I said as I locked the door. I watched her eyes darken and knew she wanted this too.
"I don't think that is a good idea Edward. I mean the last time I was this angry..." I pushed her on the bed before answering.
"I remember the last time in great detail Bella and I want a repeat. We both need this; it calms us because we are connected. I want my angry sex Bella." I growled at her as I climbed onto the bed. Her eyes darkened further as she spied my hard on and pushed me off the bed and stood up.
"If you are sure then get your clothes off Edward and lay down on the bed." She said as she took her clothes off. Once I striped and laid down she was on me. This would fast, it would be hard and it would be very raw. Bella was almost never like this but it was magnificent to see her primal side come out.
She licked me once before engulfing me in her mouth to make sure my cock was thoroughly coated with her salvia. She turned around and impaled herself on me and began riding me fast and hard. I rubbed her back and hips as she took what she needed from me and I loved every minute of it.
"Mine...mine...won't let you go..." Bella mumbled as she picked up her pace. I held her hips tighter.
"Yours Bella. Only yours." I told her hoping I was giving her the reassurance she seemed to need. I felt her walls start to tighten and I knew she was close. I pushed her forward and moved so I sat on my feet before pulling her back onto me and started moving with her.
"My Edward...so good...all mine..." She was mumbling louder now and we were both so close. I heard her breathing change and wrapped one arm around her hips and the other around her chest so I could hold her close enough to me to slow down her movements. I moved one hand so I pushed in on her pubic bone and lightly ran my thumb over her clit as I thrust up into her.
"So close Bella. Squeeze my cock Bella, your cock...the cock only you make cum...cum for me baby...I love you..." She clamped down on me hard and I felt her body start to tremble as her pussy milked by orgasm from me. I knew what was going to happen and I held her closer so she wouldn't be hurt. As soon as her orgasm finished she went limp in my arms and her head fell back on my shoulder. I quickly listened to her breathing and checked her pulse, both a little fast but not bad all things considered. I laid her down and reached into my nightstand and placed a bottle of water and a small chocolate bar on top. I also pulled out the smelling salts and a cold pac before I laid back down pulling her close to me.
I applied the cold pac and waved the smelling salts in front of her until she jerked against me. "Ssshhhh Bella, you are fine. You fainted but you are fine." She was normally disoriented for a few moments. "You're fine baby, I have you. I love you Bella." I handed her the chocolate and water and just held her. I slowly ran my hand up and down her back until she calmed down. "I love you Bella, so much." I felt her take a deep breath.
"I love you Edward, so much." I felt her squeeze me tighter.
"Are you ready to talk now or do you want to lay here some more?" I asked her.
"Can we do both?" She asked as she turned over in my arms to face me.
"Yes" I said as I chuckled. "Do you want to go first or should I tell you about lunch?"
"Tell me about lunch?" She said as she settled into me.
"There really isn't much to tell Bella. He didn't go into any kind of detail. They met at her counselor's so she could tell him. He did say he could have and would have forgiven her for everything up until the time I married Tanya. But what happened during the time with Tanya and definitely our time together he doesn't know if he can get pass that or not. He is currently staying at The Fairmont and to be honest I don't know if they will get pass this or not. He is seeing a counselor on his own now to help him deal with this."
"I'm sure it was hard for Carlisle to discuss this all with you. He wouldn't want you to feel you had to choose sides." Bella stated.
"No he doesn't and that is why he had a hard time starting the conversation. I told him I understood why he wanted mom to be the one to tell me, that I loved him and I wouldn't judge or hold anything he felt he needed to do against him. I just want him happy Bella and I told him that." Bella was running her hand up and down my arm lightly in a soothing motion.
"That probably meant a lot to him Edward. It's important you keep in touch with him; I don't want him shutting us out. He is not forcing us to take sides; he has always been very supportive there is no side to take for me. Your birthday is Saturday and Father's Day is Sunday, lets have him over for dinner on Sunday and we will celebrate both." She happily suggested.
"Sounds good, I'll call and set it up. Now. Tell me about your phone call with my mother." I could see the anger making a reappearance so I grabbed her hands and attempted humor. "Easy killer, we are just talking." She slapped me on my chest and I noticed her eyes lighten.
"Much like your lunch there isn't much to tell. She wants me to tell you that I understand her reasons and you should forgive her and she will play nice now...blah, blah, blah. There you have it the entire conversation." I thought she was joking until Bella just looked at me for a reaction.
"You're serious?"
"As a heart attack."
"What are her reasons? Do you understand?" I had to know.
"Oh, I don't know she didn't explain anything to me." Once again I expected something more.
"What the fuck? That doesn't make any sense." Bella laughed.
"I know Edward but I swear without telling me anything she hopes I will help you be accepting of what she tells you. Then I can work more magic on you and help you forgive her and we can move on as if nothing happened. She got mad when I told her I couldn't betray you like that and from there the shouting began and I believe you witnessed that part of the conversation. I don't know if she thinks I am controlling you or what but I want whatever you want Edward. Yes I think you should talk to her and try to have some type of relationship but ultimately that is your decision and I will back you 100%, whatever you decide." Bella had snuggled closer and was running her foot up and down my leg, very distracting.
"I have no idea what she is thinking Bella but she needs to stop with the schemes and just talk to me. I am getting tired of going through this shit with her." I was still running my fingers up and down her back skimming her ass with each pass.
"What do you want to do Edward? Do want to confront her or wait for her to call you?" She asked as her hand moved down my abs to play with my happy trail. I rolled her onto her back.
"As far as my mother is concerned I am going to wait for her to call me. But as far as my wife is concerned, my beautiful Bella I am going to make love to her so she knows I love her more than anything." I slowly slipped into her and made love to her until we were spent and the kids knocked on the door looking for dinner.
The kids had fun with my birthday since I was turning 41 and they still insisted on giving me things that said I was older than dirt. It was in moments like this that I was surprised none of the kids had ever brought up the age difference between Bella and I but I wasn't about to look a gift horse in the mouth. Bella told me she had a combined birthday/Father's Day present for me and she would give it to me tomorrow night. Dad was coming to dinner tomorrow so we sat the kids down and told them he and Grandma weren't living together at the moment and not to say anything to him about it. I heard Evan comment as he left the table that night, "She was probably mean to him too." Bella and I just looked at each other as if we didn't hear it.
Father's Day was good. We grilled, we hung out in the pool, the typical gifts were given and my dad seemed to relax and enjoy the day. He had fun playing with the kids and I was glad to hear him laugh again. I can't say the subject of my mother was off limits, she was just never brought up in conversation. It did make me feel a little sad that she wasn't even missed, or so it seemed. She had no idea she was shutting herself out of some very happy family moments. I made arrangements to see my dad for lunch again before he left and patiently waited for the kids to go to bed so Bella could give me my gift. I was hoping for kinky sex.
I checked that the kids were in bed and locked the house up. I walked into the bedroom and noticed that Bella had several candles lit and she was sitting in the middle of the bed in a deep blue nightie I had not seen before. I watched her as I changed into my pajama pants. She hadn't said a word but I did notice a envelope in her hand. I climbed onto the bed in front of her and she held the envelope out to me. "I wasn't sure what to get you so I hope you like it. Happy Birthday and Happy Father's Day Edward."
I opened it and removed the piece of paper. It read:
Tonight you get a big surprise,
I wish I could see it in your eyes,
When someone says you're gonna be,
An extra special person to me.
I know you can't see me
I'm tucked away
Close to New Year's is
My arrival day
Each of you play
A special role
You'll guide and love me
A hand to hold
God said I'm a gift
Sent from angels above
I can't wait to see you
I'm a bundle of love
I love you daddy - Baby Cullen
"Your pregnant?" I asked shocked. She nodded. I pulled her to me and wiped her tears. "I am so happy Bella. You have no idea how happy you have made me." I laid her down and pushed her nightie up so I could talk to my baby. "Hey baby it's your daddy or as your siblings will tell you your old man. Your mommy and I can't wait to meet you." Bella giggled as I licked and nipped my way up her chest paying special attention to her breasts. When I reached her face I couldn't hide my smile. "I love you Bella." She smiled widely.
"I love you too Edward. So are you happy with your present?" She asked with a laugh.
"Yes, very happy. Have you been to the doctor yet? Do you know your due date?"
"No, I have an appointment after the 4th of July but I took several home tests and they all came back positive. I did a quick look on the calendar and if I got pregnant in Mexico then I should be due right after the first of the year. I was hoping you would go to the doctor with me?" Was she crazy of course I was going with her?
"Yes I want to go. I want to be very involved if you will allow me to be."
"Of course I want you there. What kind of a crazy question is that?" Bella had her 'what the hell Edward' look and I knew I needed to explain.
"Bella, Tanya never let me do of those things when she was pregnant. She didn't want me talking to her stomach, going to the doctor's appointments or any of it. To be honest I doubt she wanted me in the delivery room except to bitch at me and she did that a lot. She was that way with all three of the kids."
Bella kissed me and pushed on my shoulder so I would roll onto my back so she could straddle me. "Well, I want you there for all of it. The doctor's appointments, talking to my belly, rubbing my tired feet and you are definitely going out to get me whatever weird craving I have in the middle of the night. In delivery you will hold my hand, feed me ice chips and cut the cord when it is all over. If you fail to do any of those things I will put Tanya to shame in the bitch department Edward. I'm hormonal, don't mess with me on this." Bella said with a light growl as she used her teeth on my nipple.
I sat up quickly and pulled her to me. "Slow down Bella, I want to make slow, sweet love to my baby mama." She giggled at me as I pulled her nightie over her head.
"I'm your baby's mama." She said wistfully as she helped me remove my pants.
"Yes you are and I am sure the baby will be gorgeous just like its mother." I said as I slid into her and started rocking her slowly and made love to the soon to be mother of my child. When we fell asleep both of our hands were resting over her stomach. I woke with Bella snuggled against me and a big smile on my face. Bella was having my baby and I couldn't be happier. As I slowly ran my hand over her stomach I noticed it wasn't as flat as normal, if felt like there was a slight curve there and I was hard just thinking about it. Bella was beautiful and I was sure she would be magnificent with a big rounded belly carrying my child. Bella wiggled back into my erection in her sleep and sighed my name, I wasn't the only one that was going to wake up with a smile.
I moved my hand lower and ran a finger through her folds surprised at how wet she was. She groaned and rocked her hips back into me. I moved her hair and started kissing her neck and back as I slowly circled her clit with my thumb while my fingers ran over her wet lips.
"Edward" she sighed. "Don't tease...not nice." I maneuvered my arm under her and started playing with her nipple ring as I ran my finger up and down barely entering her.
"Edward" she whined. "More...please." I gently moved her leg on top of mine and positioned my cock so I could run through her folds and tease her some more. I slowly rocked my hips and felt her juices coating me. "Mmmm Eddie...so big." She must be dreaming about masturbating and that damn dildo. I couldn't have that now. I put more pressure on her clit and tugged her nipple ring harder.
"I love you Isabella." I whispered in her ear and she moaned in response. "Wakey, wakey kitten. I want to fuck your sweet pussy." She moaned again and I held her lower lips apart as I moved my cock faster. "Can I have what I want kitten? Do you want to feel me inside, fucking you? Do you Isabella?"
"Master...yes. Please fuck my pussy...please." She was starting to wake up quickly and as I slipped into her I felt her jolt awake.
"You are so wet Isabella. Were you having a naughty dream? A naughty dream for a naughty girl." I asked as I bit down lightly on her neck.
"Yes Master. May I cum please?" She asked. She has always had very vivid dreams and I could feel her walls fluttering around me.
"Not yet Isabella. Maybe not at all." I slowed my pace down. "You said Eddie in your sleep. What were you dreaming about?" She moaned. "Were you dreaming about your replacement cock?" I asked as I thrust harder.
"Not replacement Master. Make do, my make do cock." She moaned deeply as I hit her sweet spot. "Nothing replaces Master...so good." I felt my balls start to tighten and knew I wouldn't last much longer. "Please let me cum Master...please." Isabella begged, I loved it when she begged and it pushed me over the edge.
"Cum for me kitten, now." Her walls tightened as I exploded into her. I thrust slowly into her until we both calmed down from our orgasms. "I love you Bella. I think it is time we told the kids our good news." She giggled as we both got up to face the day.
The kids were ecstatic and full of questions we couldn't answer yet. When was she due? Was it a boy or a girl? Which room would it sleep in? We promised to let them know as soon as we had answers. I think Charlie might have cried when Bella told him. He swore he didn't but I heard a sniffle. Carlisle was just as happy when we told him. He asked if I was going to tell my mother and I didn't know.
I told him about her phone call to Bella when we met for lunch and he wasn't surprised. "She is very worried about telling you Edward. She is at her rock bottom. As upset as I am with her when she does tell you listen with an open mind Edward." I was shocked.
"After the way she has treated Bella you want me to just forgive her?" I couldn't have heard him right.
"I am not saying to immediately forgive her Edward. I am asking you to not immediately write her off. She is your mother and she loves you. I believe that. When she tells you don't react immediately take some time and talk to Bella first."
"Why are we talking about this now? Has something happened?" We haven't talked about this since the first lunch.
"I met with your mother and my counselor today. If she wants to work this out then it will be with a person I am comfortable with. I don't know if we can work it out or not but I have loved her and been married to her for forty years. I refuse to give that up without at least trying to understand more of what she told me. That meeting is also how I know she is working up to calling you soon. Just hear her out Edward." He was being very sincere and earnest.
"I will. I promise to hear her out and talk to Bella before I do anything. I want to understand and have a relationship with her. I understand she is my mother and I do need her. Her treatment of Bella has been fueling my anger. It is as if she either doesn't see or doesn't care about everything Bella has done to be with me and the kids. She is the best thing in my life and it hurts that my mother doesn't see that." After that we returned to lighter subjects and ate lunch.
A month later Bella and I were sitting in Dr. Lam's office waiting for our name to be called. As I looked around at the other women in different stages of their pregnancies I couldn't help but picture Bella like that. I leaned and whispered to her. "I can't wait to see you with a rounded belly from my baby. You will be so sexy that way." She giggled and leaned over to kiss me as our name was called.
Bella had decided to go back to the doctor at Northwestern that had diagnosed her. We both hoped that since she was aware of Bella's problem she would be able to foresee any problems it may present with the pregnancy but especially labor. We also needed to know if we needed to stick to 'vanilla' sex until she had the baby. Bella was embarrassed and I said I would ask the questions but we needed to know. I, as a man, had no idea what to expect at this appointment, even though I had three kids. So I was interested in everything.
The nurse came in and did the standard stuff, blood pressure, weight, had Bella pee in a cup to make sure she is pregnant and then I helped Bella into her sexy gown. She didn't appreciate my easy access comments. Dr. Lam came in to perform the exam and while I had heard women complain about them I had no idea how truly personal that type of exam was until that moment. I was extremely happy Bella had a female doctor. I was pretty sure I couldn't handle a man doing that for the next nine months.
"Do you want to here your baby's heartbeat?" Dr. Lam asked. We both answered yes quickly and she moved a microphone over Bella's belly until the sound filled the air. We were both sporting huge grins but I was confused about something.
"Is it supposed to be in stereo like that?" I asked.
"Let me check your urine test Bella." Dr. Lam said. She moved to the door right as the nurse brought in Bella's file. She flipped through the pages and nodded before setting it down and looking at us. "Yes, the heartbeat is exactly as it should be. Lets do the ultrasound and get you a due date. By your last period you think about mid January?" Bella nodded. She squirted the gel and started moving the wand over Bella's stomach.
"Do you see anything Edward?" Bella whispered.
"A lot of static." I responded and Dr. Lam laughed.
"Let me take some pictures and I will show you exactly what to look for." We watched her and the heartbeat flashing on the screen. She sat the wand and looked at Bella. "I have to ask. Do multiples run in either of your families?"
Bella and I looked at each before looking back at her. "No, I am an only child and as far as I know there are not twins in my family." I answered and looked at Bella.
"Well, I remember Grandma Swan talking to her brother about the baby that died at birth and I think he was a twin. Both my parents are only children but my Grandpa on Renee's side had a sister really close to his age but I am not sure if they were twins or not. They had a falling out before I was born. Why?"
Dr. Lam pointed to the screen. "See this little peanut right here. This is your baby." Bella and I both gasped and leaned into the screen. "Now look at this peanut right here."
"Twins?" Bella squeaked.
"The hormones in your urine suggest multiples and this peanut is bigger than the other one. This peanut holds a set of twins." She stated and waited for us to react.
"Triplets?" I said standing up.
"I am pretty sure. At the next appointment I'll do another ultrasound and I should be able to see more but if I was in your shoes I would be ready for triplets. Now do you have questions for me?" Bella blushed as I started asking my questions. After I had my answers I was glad I asked this visit instead of waiting.
Yes she would keep a close eye on Bella's condition but didn't expect any problems at all until the delivery and women having triplets generally had a c-section anyway. It took a few tries of being vague about our sex life until she caught on to what I was asking. Time in the playroom was fine just be aware that for the first trimester she would tire more easily, be extra careful with bondage and suspension. With triplets she would start to show quickly and her bump would need to be accommodated, a side from that Bella should listen to her body. She also warned that in the second trimester is normally when the mothers-to-be become exceedingly horny and I would love that. I took her comment in stride knowing Bella and I would both love that.
On the ride home we decided not to tell the kids there was more than one baby until we were certain of how many there were. The kids were glad everything was okay with the baby, Evan was glad he wasn't going to be the youngest anymore and everyone was happy with the due date - January 9, 2011.
The summer flew by, the kids had their activities, and Bella's pregnancy was going great. We had been in the playroom a few times with shortened sessions and everything was fine. It was confirmed at Bella's August appointment that we would be welcoming triplets. Everyone was shocked but excited for us. Bella and I had several discussions and decided after they were born I would get a vasectomy, six kids would definitely be enough for both of us. We had also decided to convert the library into a nursery. It was next to our bedroom and there was no other bedroom on the main floor then we would turn one of the lower level rooms into our library/office.
The end of August saw the kids getting ready for school to start. Emily would be a senior, was still dating Justin and looking into colleges. Ivy League colleges which made me very proud of her. Ethan was starting high school and seemed a little bit apprehensive about that but we assured him he would be fine. Bella talked to him privately about the code word system she and Emily had set up last year and told him to use it if need be. If something was happening and they needed to talk to her they were to send her a one word text - the code word - and she would find them when classes changed to discuss the problem. Emily's code word was pickles and Ethan chose pizza. Evan was moving into middle school and couldn't wait to start at the big school as he called it. Bella and I were busy at our respective schools setting up for the new year. The plan was for Bella to work until Christmas break and then start her leave, we hoped the babies would adhere to the plan too.
The week before school started is when the call came from my mother asking me to meet with her and her counselor later in the week. She was finally ready to talk to me. Taking my father's advice to heart I asked Bella to come with me. She would wait for me in the lobby so I wouldn't be alone after the meeting. When the day arrived I was nervous and it was a quiet drive to the office building, I was trying to prepare myself for anything. In the lobby Bella guided me to a sitting area and took my face in her hands.
"I love you Edward, the kids love you and the babies love you. We need you Edward. I need you. Nothing you hear in that room will ever change those things. We will all love and need you as much if not more after the meeting." I nodded my head. "No, not good enough. I need you to understand nothing can ever change my love or shake the faith I have in you. Nothing." I pulled her to me.
"Thank you. I love you too Bella. I thank god everyday for the life I have with you. I need you too." She kissed my forehead and I stood to go and listen to my mother. When I walked into the office she was sitting nervously in a chair. I walked over and hugged her before getting down to business.
"Edward, I'm sorry for all the hurt I have caused to you and the kids. I want to make amends and be part of the life you all are building with Bella. I know it may take a long time but I want to start today by telling you how and why everything has happened."
"I want that too mother. I want you to be able to be a part of our lives. I promise to listen with an open mind. I love you." She took a deep breath and started her story with how she was actually an orphan.
. "The couple that ran it used us as slave labor, as I got older and began to develop I ran from the home because the couple did nothing to keep the boys away from us. On the streets is where I meet Carmen Rosser and she took me back to the abandon house a group of them stayed in. That was when I was Susan Moon, which is the name I was born with. We spent our days on the streets committing petty crimes, panhandling, theft and some prostitution. Nights were spent trying to stay warm and away from the cops, sometimes we did and sometimes we didn't. I had been with them about a year when I was caught by a man trying to pick his pocket. Charles was very nice to me, offered to get me off the streets, clean me up and give me a place to live as long as I agreed to be his wife. We lied about my age, I was really 16 not 18 so we could marry. Charles was 28 at the time. Things were fine for awhile and I moved on and tried to forget Carmen and my life on the streets then Charles lost his job and I found out I was pregnant. He started beating me and with the hopes of making a new life I fled Boston. He caught up with me in Chicago, beat me so bad I miscarried and left me in an alley to die. My 18th birthday was spent in a hospital recovering. There an elderly woman claimed I was her lost niece, Esme Platt. I denied it at first but she kept producing pictures and talking about the life Esme led before she ran from her parents and in an act of self preservation I told her I was starting to remember things and maybe I was Esme."
I was having a hard time believing what I was hearing. She was actually Susan and just took over Esme's life. Even though I could see why a young, scared and scarred girl would do that, I was shocked. But the question I couldn't get out of my mind was why come clean now? She had held this secret for over 40 years, what had changed?
"I do not understand what this has to do with things now?" I asked her. She was being open with me and crying and I felt bad for asking but I needed answers and sooner rather than later.
"When you came to us with the news of Tanya being pregnant I was shocked but happy. You were out of college and the time seemed right for you to start a family. You were going to marry her and seemed to really want the baby. When you came to us saying Tanya wasn't sure she wanted to have it and you didn't know how to stop her was when I thought of paying her like a surrogate. I went to her with the intention of a one time payment, she got her money, you got the baby and everyone was happy. But you proposed to her and she latched onto that and saw a way to get even more money from me. I had no idea who her mother was until the night before the wedding at the rehearsal. I was shocked to see Carmen walk in. Over the years Carmen and I developed a friendship again and I paid Tanya to stay with you and to make you happy. I thought you were happy until you told us otherwise and I had no idea Carmen was behind Tanya's idea for the payments until I stopped them. Over the last five years Carmen has come to me at different times demanding that I either get information on you or break up you and Bella. If I refused I was threatened with exposure of my past, so I did what was demanded of me in order to keep the bubble I had built of my life intact."
"So you have paid Tanya from the beginning? Once I left her why continue the payments. She made me miserable mother." I said to her. "I know the only reason you are telling your story now is because of the information Charlie dug up. Would you ever have come clean on your own?"
"The last lunch I had with Bella, I went home that day and called Carmen telling her I was done with it and her. She laughed. Once she found out who Tanya was marrying she has been pulling the strings the whole time. She feels I just walked away from Boston and left her behind. She is jealous that I married Carlisle and is resentful of the fact that I left the street girl behind me and started to believe I was the society girl I portray. She saw an opportunity to inflict damage on me and my family and she took it. I am taking back control of my life and knew I had to tell before she did."
"Would you have stopped and told us on your own? I need to know mother."
"I had been trying to stop for years Edward. I see how happy you are with Bella and how good she is to you and the kids. I'm not blind Edward. I just couldn't see a way out of the hole I had dug myself into. I would have told and soon. I could see that Bella would never leave you and I didn't want her too. She loves you so much Edward and you deserve that in your life."
"Why did you call her a few weeks ago then?"
"I wanted her to help me with you. I knew if Bella understood what I had done and was willing to talk to you it would be easier to have you forgive me. I won't lie to you anymore Edward, I do have problems with you and Bella together. I don't see what Bella gets out of being with you and I have seen the looks you garner when the two of you are out in public. Wouldn't life be easier with someone else? I also understand that nothing will come between the two of you. I will do whatever it takes to be able to be in your life again." She stated through her tears.
"You are contradicting yourself. On the one hand you don't understand and want me with someone my own age and on the other you realize Bella will never leave me and how happy she makes me. Is it really so hard to just be happy I am happy?" I was missing something and I was starting to let my anger get the better of me. If felt like she was blaming Bella for everything. "You blame Bella don't you?"
"I understand that my actions are my own fault. They were my choices and I accept that." She said flatly.
"But?" I prompted.
"But part of me feels that if Bella wasn't in your life this never would have gotten so out of hand." She said and I could hear the censure in her voice.
"Don't you think this would have happened regardless of the next woman I was involved with? That woman just happened to be Bella." She looked at me blankly.
"We are working through her issues of blaming Bella and Esme is learning to take responsibility for her own choices and mistakes but it can be a slow process Edward." Her counselor stated. "I think we have made a good start here and should stop before things take a down turn. Would you be willing to come back and talk some more Edward?"
"Yes but I need time to absorb this and I need to speak with Bella. I will call when I am ready to do this again." I turned to my mother and took her hands in mine. "I want you to be a part of our life. I miss being able to talk to you and the kids miss you too but you need to come to terms with the fact that that life includes Bella. I love you mother. I'll call when I'm ready." As I left the room I heard them talking about how the session went as well as could be expected. The first thing I saw when the elevator doors opened was Bella and I instantly felt better, she would help me sort through everything, the things my mother said, my feelings, everything. It was one of the things I loved about her most, her ability to see all sides of an argument and the calming effect she had on me.
Bella drove home as I told her what happened during the meeting. I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't realize the car had stopped until I felt her pulling on my hand to get out of the car, she had stopped at a small park close to the house. After she settled us in the small gazebo she wiped the tears I hadn't known I was crying and just held me as I let go of my pent up emotions and the jumbled thoughts running through my brain. When I calmed down I pulled Bella onto my lap and buried my face in her neck and hair allowing her scent and the knowledge that she loved me beyond reason to help center me again.
"I understand there is a lot to think through but if you could only ask one question of her what would it be Edward?" Bella whispered.
"Why?" I whispered back. "Didn't she know we love her enough to see passed everything? Didn't she trust us enough to tell us her secret? Did she care at all about our happiness? Was she only trying to cover her own ass? Just...why?"
"And if you never get the answer to that question. I am not sure Esme understands the reasoning herself. It sounds as if she was almost acting on instinct, something that has kept her alive in the past. What if she can never explain because she truly doesn't know? What then?" She asked.
"What are you asking Bella?"
"If she can never give you the answers you want what part do you want her to play in our lives? She is your mother Edward, you love her as you should. As you think through things keep in the back of your mind that it is a very real possibility that she is unable to give you answers because she doesn't have them not because she is intentionally withholding them. Are you willing to let her back in and move forward from here without understanding the past?" She asked while running her fingers through my hair.
"I want to Bella. I want her to be there to see the new babies and be a part of the family again but not if it causes any of you pain or discomfort."
"Then we work through this with that end goal in mind. Process your anger, betrayal and hurt you are right to have those feelings but do so with the thought that once you do they will be left behind. You can't truly forgive if you hold it over her head forever. People make mistakes but they should be able to make amends and move on from them. I will be with you every step of the way. I want what you want Edward. I want you happy, remember that. I love you." She leaned and kissed me. Bella would help me through everything as she always has, she was my rock. As strange as it may sound the day she tied herself to my desk was the day my life was truly blessed, I don't know where I would be without her.
School started back up and everyone seemed to adjust well. The kids all seemed to be doing well and Ethan was liking high school more than he thought he would. The teachers and staff at both schools were shocked to find out we were having triplets. The Lab schools promised to be very accommodating of Bella. The students and staff loved her, they did not want to risk losing her as a teacher if it could be helped. Gianna and Chelsea saw Bella's pregnancy as the time to step up their flirting with me until I warned them that even though I was a man it could be considered sexual harassment. That calmed them down just as it had the teachers in Forks. I had another meeting with my mother and once she realized I wanted to work things out with Bella's blessing she relaxed and we started working on our issues. After that session I realized forgiveness would be the easy part, trusting her again would be hard especially with the people I prized most in life, Bella and the kids. That was the meeting I told her about the triplets, she was shocked but seemed genuinely happy for us. I had lunch with Dad once a week and it was during the last one that I caught on to how much his forgiveness of my mother depended on mine. He admitted most of his anger with her was over the fact that she had put her needs before mine. He felt my happiness, as her son, should have been her driving force. As a parent I understood his perspective but Bella's insight allowed me to see mom's side also. I made it a point when we discussed her to be positive with him about how our progress was coming. If I could repair my relationship with her I was sure he could also, they were still seeing a joint counselor.
Bella was getting bigger and having an ultrasound once a month to check the babies. As much as we wanted to know the sex of the babies we were waiting until we knew the sex of all of them and one of the twins was being uncooperative so November was almost on us and we still didn't have a clue as to what they were. We decorated the nursery in neutral greens, creams and yellows and started stocking it for the triplets. Bella was just entering her third trimester and she still wanted sex all the time. The doctor was right I had enjoyed her second trimester and the hormones that came with it. She was to big for us to play in the playroom but we were still having sex at least twice most days. As I sat in my office at school I couldn't help but chuckle and think back to the first time her belly got in the way.
I felt something tugging on me and when I looked at the clock it was 2:30 in the morning. I felt the tugging again and looked down to Bella trying to pull my sleep pants off. It took me a minute to realize what she was doing.
"What are you doing Bella?" I tried to pull her up to go back to sleep. "Get up here and go to sleep baby." She finally got my pants off when I realized I was naked and she triumphantly held them and my boxers over her head.
"Yes" she said as crawled up my body and tried to impale herself on my cock but couldn't get the angle right. "A little help here Edward." She said and I could tell she was irritated.
I was still trying to piece together exactly what was happening and figure out when I got an erection. I think out of habit I positioned myself and thrust up into her. She always felt so good. I may have been late to the party but I was fully a wake now.
"Yes finally!" Bella shouted and immediately started rocking on me but couldn't get leverage because of her belly. "No" she wailed and leaned back instead in a effort to get deeper penetration. "Need more damn it." I heard her mutter and it sounded as if she was getting angry. I sat up and stilled her movements.
"Bella tell what this is about. What do you need sweetheart, just tell me." When she looked up at me her eyes looked almost feral and I knew she wanted to cum and she wanted it now. I had seen that look in the playroom when she had been denied orgasm just not quite so fierce. I helped her to her knees and moved behind her, sat on my feet and lowered her back onto me. I supported her belly with one arm and moved the other so I could play with her clit. I thrust in short movements keeping friction on her sweet spot and circled her clit.
"Yes, so good Edward." She murmured. "Need to cum Edward. Love your big dick. Yes, faster." I picked up my pace some and shortened my strokes even more. "Feel it. I'm gonna cum, yes." I felt her walls start to tighten around me. I couldn't believe how wet she was. "Please need to..." She was whimpering and I pinched her clit as I pushed in harder. "Finally" she yelled as I felt her start to cum and her pussy muscles milked me at an insane rate.
"Fuck Bella" I shouted as I exploded inside her.
"Mmmmm" she moaned. "Thank you. I needed that sooo bad." I chuckled at her and lowered us back to the bed.
"What the hell was that Bella? Not that I'm complaining." I could feel her blush on my arm as she molded to my body more.
"Sometimes I have very erotic dreams. They get me very worked up Edward. Tonight was the first night I haven't been able to find relief on my own." I could tell she was pouting. "My belly got in the way and I was just so horny. I'm sorry for attacking you." She was obviously embarrassed so I ran my hands over her belly feeling the baby's kick as I planted kisses on her back and shoulders.
"Don't be embarrassed kitten. That was hot as hell and I love fucking your tight pussy and feeling our babies moving inside you at the same time. Wake me up like that any time baby. I'm getting hard again thinking about my naughty, wanton little slut needing my cock so badly she attacks me in my sleep." I bit down on her neck and moved her leg on top of mine. "Get ready baby here comes round two."
"Ohhh yesssss" she moaned. Round two was as fast, dirty and satisfying as the first one.
I shook my self from the memory as Bella called to remind me to talk to my Dad about Thanksgiving. The weeks leading up to the holiday were full. My parents were going out on dates now, Emily asked if Justin could be invited to Thanksgiving dinner, Ethan had a girlfriend, Samantha, that he wanted to take to the movies over the short break and we finally knew the sex of all the babies. At her last appointment Dr. Lam reminded us that few multiple births go to full term and we should be prepared for Bella to go into labor at any time. The doctor wanted Bella to at least last until December for a safer delivery.
Thanksgiving saw Bella sitting at the kitchen island mixing things in bowls and telling the rest of us how to cook dinner. In the end it didn't turn out to bad. Dad had dinner with mom at her house. They had been talking about him moving back in to the house, maybe, after the new year. After our dinner we gathered the kids and got both sets of parents on the phone to announce the sex of the babies, a boy and twin girls. We warned everyone they would probably come early so Charlie and Sue made plans to come out for two weeks around Christmas and hopefully the babies would be here before they left.
Now that we knew their sex Bella and I put the finishing touches on the nursery. The only thing we needed now were the actual babies and it wouldn't be too soon for Bella. She was getting very big and was never comfortable for very long and I loved every minute of it. When it was over I would miss rubbing her feet and the late night taco runs I had to make at least three times a week. As I watched her sleep next to me I hoped the delivery would go as smoothly as her pregnancy had.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or its characters.
Please read & review.
Thanks for reading!
Avant Garde Awards - Carlisle from House of Hope is up for a Best Carlisle character award. Be My Master Head Master is up for Best Lemon. Voting starts on the 20th.
Vote for Carlisle & BMMHM
twilightfb-awards(dot)blogspot(dot)com