Heya guys :) So, just here to say, you guys still enjoying it? Coz I got no new reviews after the last change to part 19. Is this story now...unwanted? Well, I will finish it for you guys who are still readin it, but show me with a review this time that Rooming with CDC is still loved :) That is all...

Chapter 20-I Want To Say

Sonny's POV

I catch up with Chad on the stage of So Random, I grab his hand and turn him to face me. He looks at me, confused.

"Sonny, I have to go." He says, and I sigh.

"They'll be fine, Josh is mature enough," I say, "We need to talk about this."

He sighs, slumping down against the wall, and I sit next to him. "What is it exactly you want to talk about?"

There's a lot to be honest. That I'm leaving, that I'll miss him like hell. But then, I don't want his life to be more miserable-maybe I should wait until after his birthday? After all, I leave the Monday after.

"What's so bad about your Dad moving on?" I ask, and he looks at me, shocked.

"You're kidding?" He says, and I sigh.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean anything bad." I explain, "He should've told you about it."

"Yes." Chad says, looking away, hiding the sadness, "Yes, he should've."

"But, my point is, Chad, if he's moved on, maybe you should too?"

He goes to argue, but his mouth slams shut. "You're right." He sighs, "But I can't. It's too hard."

"I understand." I say, comforting him, "At least try. I'm sure your Mom wouldn't want you to be like this."

I see a tear show up in his soft, blue eyes, and he smiles a shaky smile. "Sometimes I think you're the only one I can really talk to."

I smile, "Thanks."

"I'm so glad you're here with me, Sonny," He says, "I never want you to leave me."

My heart sinks. Of course, you have to think that, don't you Chad? Wait till he finds out I'm leaving him, with no choice.

"I wish you knew what I'm going through," He says, "I wish you knew how I feel to have my life fall apart."

"I…" I want to tell him, but I don't know how to. His eyes are staring me down, and I sigh.

"I do." I say, and he looks surprised again.

"What?"

"I do…" I start, trying to make it up on the spot. "…Know what you're going through." I save, "I'm living with you, I'm going through every single bit of it too."

"And I'm sorry for that." Chad says, getting up, "I wouldn't have invited you if I'd known all this would've happened when you came."

"Are you saying this is my fault?" I ask, "That your Dad's moved on? That your brother's crazy? That your Mom died?"

Chad frowns, tears in his eyes, and I realise I've gone too far.

"I'm sorry, Chad."

"I know you are." He laughs, but it's an empty laugh, "I didn't mean what I said like that either."

"I know you didn't." I smile. "You'd better get home to Josh and Abby."

"Right," He smiles, turning away, "I'll pick you up later."

I smile, watching him walk off, completely unsure of the week ahead.

Tawni comes up behind me, and I sigh.

"Did you tell him?" She asks me, and I shake my head. "You know you have to tell him soon, right?" She says, and in nod.

"I know." I say, "And I will. Soon."

"Sure you will." She says, "Straight before you do leave. I know you, Sonny, and if I know you right, you'll wait till the last minute because you're afraid of hurting him. I know you will. I'm just hoping you're making the right decision here."

I sigh, watching Chad jump in his car. "I do too, Tawn," I say, "I do too."

So, once again, wanted of not? Because, if not, I won't drop it, but I will slow down :(

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