Then.

I thought about giving into the darkness, I honestly did think that I was going to give in for moments of time, but then I would think about everything that I would be leaving behind. Death was telling me to come to it, let the darkness sweep me away, but there was much to much to live for rather then to die for, I was going to live. There is too much going on in the real world that I must get back to for me to just lay down and die right now. I have to fight Lucifer and keep the human race alive, find Micheal's sword, and make sure that Castiel is still alright, I hope that Cas is alright. . . He has to be alright or this whole fight to get back to life would be worthless.

He protected his whole life to get me out of Lucifer's hands and I am going to make sure that I protect him for the rest of time. He risked everything to make sure that I got out of there and made sure that I did not marry Lucifer. I mean what kind of male would do that for a female? Who in the world would want to put their life on the line for someone they love just to make sure that they did not get hurt? This must be love working into our lives. It has to be. I do not know anything else in the world it could be besides love, Castiel would have never done this before I had kissed him, I know that much is for a fact.

The darkness could sweep you even father into it if you let it, it would just keep dragging you father and father into it until you could not come out if it. I was fighting to make sure that I got out of this place and back to Castiel. I know that he must be worried sick seeing me in this state of not talking and moving about like I should be. I was going to get out of that place if it was the last damn thing that I did, I was going to do it. The darkness would change from time to time, try to play a sort of game with me and make me think that I was in a dream sort of state, but I did not go into it. . .

I could hear sometimes the sound of Castiel's voice, sometimes it was Dean and most of the time it was Sam. Some voices I did not know at all and those were the ones that I was most frightened of because of the fact that there was someone near my body that I did not know and I did not want them anywhere near my body. But all that I knew was I was getting closer and closer to coming out of this darkness state and back into the real world with how clear their voices were. But every time that I would get so close I would be pull back just a little further then the last time and have to work at it all again.

But one time I heard Castiel's voice with Sam's. . . they never were in the room at the same time. At first it was just Castiel talking as little as possible and then Sam must have either came into the room or started to talk up. . . I really did not know which it was. But they were talking about something. . . I knew that Sam and Dean had been gone for days now and that they had gone to see Bobby about something but I just did not know what right now and now they were saying something about someone being hurt. . . I could not heat what they were saying really, I knew nothing they were saying, but I needed to know so I started nearly running towards the noise. I got so close. . .

Now.

I sat straight out of this small bed with bar on either side of me, I could not tell what was going on or where I was, I as almost frightened about this, why was I not in a motel or at Bobby's house. Someplace that I knew. Where were the people I knew, Dean, Sam, Castiel or even Bobby would have been a thrill to see at this moment in time, anyone that I knew really would have made me happy. What had happened to make me come into this strange place? Why was I even here? So many things were running through my head that I had not noticed a woman walk into the room.

" Ahh, Mrs. Novak, it is good to see that you are finally awake! You had given us quite a scare back there, your poor husband was pacing around the whole hospital for most of the time that you were under." She said to me.

Mrs. Novak? Was that not Castiel's Vessels wife? I was not her, no not at all so why was she calling me this? It must have been one of those fake names, like the ones that Sam and Dean always use when they are under cover, that must be what she was talking about, but why did I need one? I went along with what she was saying.

" Were is my husband?" I asked thinking she knew of Castiel as Jimmy. . . or maybe as Castiel. . . I did not know so I went with husband instead of a name.

" I do not know right now Mrs. Novak, he went out with one of your friends. . . um a really tall fellow. But there is another person here who would like to see you if you would not mind, he has been really worried about you as well." She smiled as she look at something which was attached into my arm.

" Who?" I asked trying to remember something from the past, but I could not remember anything at all. Not one bit of information would come back to me.

" I do not know his name, but he is rather cute I can tell you this." She smiled at she said this, still looking at the machine.

" What happened?" I could not remember.

" You got into a terrible car accident, you broke many of your ribs, you broke you arm in both bones, you had a crack in you skull, and one of your broken ribs nearly collapsed your lungs. You are a lucky girl to even be alive Mrs. Novak." She smiled as she was finally done looking at everything on the machine and started to walk out. " Would you like me to go get that boy now?" She questioned and all I did was nod.

Soon enough Dean came running in, I knew this is who she was talking about since the time she said the giant went away with Castiel and there was a cute one here. That how we all knew Sam and Dean be fore we all knew their names, I mean demons and angels alike knew them by these two terms, the cute one and the giant. It was just becoming something that we all knew from them. So I had known that it was going to be Dean running in, when he came in he ran to my side.

" Thank God." Was all he said for many moments. " Cas will be thrilled to hear that you are alright." He smiled at me lightly before going back into a sad kind of trace.

" What has happened Dean? Where is Castiel and Sam?" There were many other questions that I wanted to ask, but for now I was just going to ask these two little ones.

" Sam and Cas are with Bobby, on the other side of the hospital. Since we got out of the church with you, Bobby has been possessed with a demon inside of him and at one point there was a fight between Me and Sam and a bunch of other demons with Bobby as one of them. Bobby stated to fight out of it and stabbed himself with the knife and now we don't know if Bobby will ever walk again. . ." Dean placed his head into his hands, I tried to sit up to comfort him, but I could not. So I just touched him with my hands to make sure he knew that I felt his pain.

How could it be that since they had to come and rescue me from the thing that is had gotten myself into that Bobby has to pay for this? This was all my fault and I did not know how I was ever going to repay Bobby for the pain that I must have put him through, I was going to own my legs to him for this and I did not know how I was ever going to make him feel that I was truly sorry for him. I felt terrible for the making Bobby lose his legs, they should have never come for me, never.

" I wish to go see Bobby as once, I need to see him acutely." Dean smiled at this, I knew that the only reason on why he was here was because there must be someone watching over me while I was in a coma state. Dean took at wheeled chair from someplace outside, helped me into it and wheeled me out of the room and out of the wing of the hospital that I was in.

They had Bobby someplace else, someplace that I did not know at all. I did not ask any questions on where we were going or about anything else that was going on, I just let Dean push me in this chair that I did not want to be in at all and all that I could think about was Bobby. We went into a small hall on the complete other side of the hospital and into the last door on the left.

Bobby was laying in his bed, in the same type of gown that I had been place into. Sam was right next to him on his side, with his eyes that I had gotten so used to looking at. I could see Castiel in the corner of the room, he looked like he was quite out of it, with his eyes glazed over and not caring about anything at all. I knew that Castiel really did care about Bobby but he just could not show it very much. No one but Bobby really noticed when I came into the room.

" Look who's finally awake!" He said and all the heads in the room turned to see me and Dean walking into the room. . . well Dean walking and me being wheeled into the room. All I could do was smile and Dean wheeled me right next to Bobby's bed. Castiel's eyes stayed right onto me, but he did not move nor did he speak.

" Hi Bobby." I smiled as I said this and he smiled right back at me, as if there was nothing wrong with him at all.

" Hey Vicky. How are you feeling?" He did not show any pain at all.

" I'm alright but a better question is how are you?" I did not know why we were asking each other these questions because we both knew that we were feeling like crap. It must show on my face because it was clearly showing on Bobby's.

" I'm doing better now that I know that you are alright, you gave us a scare there kid." He smiled at this and I just looked down and smiled lightly.

" I am sorry Bobby, I got you into this mess and if it was not for me you would not be in the hospital and you would most likely be looking to Lucifer for the boys and everything would be fine. I am truly sorry for everything that I am putting you through." I could not look at him at all, I was ashamed to know that I was the one that caused him to be like his, to make it so that he would most likely never walk again. It was all my fault.

" Don't be sorry for me, I mean we were going to have to go and rescue you anyways, I mean we would have never heard the end of it from Castiel if we hadn't. Trust me, from the moment he got into my damn house he was only talking about how we had to go and find you and blah blah blah. It was the most annoying thing in the world!" He said and this made me smile quite hard. " Besides I don't want any pity." He said. " Now where's my damn hat!" He said and this made us all smile, typical Bobby right there for you.

Castiel finally moved from his spot, moved my chain a little and got down to my view and kissed me right on the lips. It was more then romantic it was the most wonderful feeling there is in this world. I do not know how to describe it at all because it was just amazing honestly. His lips against mine was the best feeling I could have had, it made all this feel a little better. The embrace stayed like this for over a minute before Dean tapped me on the shoulder.

" You two have to go get a room, all this angel loving crap is giving me a rash." I smiled and laughed a little at this and Cas just took my chair and moved me outside of the room and started to wheel me to another place that was not my room. He instead took me outside into the cold air, if someone noticed that it was not supposed to be this cold in the middle of fall they may notice something terrible was going on, but no one could put all those pieced together. Castiel took me to a small bench and sat there next to me.

" I feel terrible for Bobby, you should not have came for me Castiel. If I would have known that it would cost anyone their body for me I would have never even let you come in to rescue me. You should not have came for me." I said trying to adjust myself into my chair in a more comfortable way but really could not.

" Victoria, I would have came for you alone if I had to. I would have rescued you if there was a thundered demons there waiting for me, if there were over a thousand I would have came for you too. I would have done anything to make sure that you were okay and not in the arms of Lucifer! Bobby agreed to come along because they all thought it would be a suicide attempted if I had gone alone to find and rescue you. They all chose to come along, this is not your fault at all Vicky." He looked at me. " All I know is that I was too late to protect you from getting hurt once again in the hands of Lucifer, but I will not have it happen again. I'm going to protect you with everything I have and make sure that you are alright for the rest of time." I smiled at this and I could feel blood rushing into my face.

" I am fine Castiel, I just want to make sure that he does not get his hands on you. If he does he will kill you and you know that this is true. He will take no pity on you and he will make sure that it painful and I do not want him to even see you, let alone hurt you because I know that he will hurt you. I love you more then I will ever love anything in the world and I am going to make sure that if either of us get hurt that it will be me before you." I said but Castiel just shook his head.

" You have been put through enough lately and now it is my turn to protect you from everything out there Vicky. You need to be kept safe for awhile to make sure that you will recover fully and not get into any more accidents, we never know when we could fully go human and honestly I do not wish for you to get hurt again. It kills me to see you in pain like you were, to see you not move or open those beautiful eyes of yours, it killed me to watch you like that." He had a saddened tone to him. " Lucifer will never come near you again, and so help me if he does I will ship him back into hell myself if I have to, I will do anything to make sure he does not touch you again." And with this Castiel's angry came to him, something that I had never seen before and it scared me a bit. His eyes were different from anything they have been before, they were changed as if to say that he was a whole different person.

A doctor came out and saw that I was outside, he did not show his face very much but just came outside and stared at us for a few. He did not say anything but he just smiled for a few moments. Then he showed his whole face, just by looking up at us, I gasped and Cas straightened up. We did not speak to each other, none of us really did or said anything until he spoke up first.

" Looks like you two have gotten into quite a mess with one another now haven't you to love birds?" He said in his normal annoying voice. " Common Sis, we all knew that when Lucifer got out of hell he was going to come straight back for you and make you his forever. We have all known that he has had the biggest crush on you of all people for years now! Why would it have changed just because he was out of hell? It wouldn't!" He laughed with this last little part.

" Gabriel, why did I not think that you were going to be here? I mean you always did love playing dress up when we were children and you did love to play doctor on me." I smile with this and he did as well. He came to my level and gave me a light but caring hug.

" You know that you still have work to do right?" We both nodded. " Good. So tell me what you two are planning to do about Lucifer, I mean he's going to try and kill you at any chance he gets to." He said at this looking straight at Cas.

" I will not allow him to even touch Cas." I said and did not allow the chance for Cas to talk.

" Oh giving your life for Castiel's, that is so not going to work." He said at this and then he thought for a minute. " Well if you're going to try this I guess that you will need a healthy body."

If moved himself around me and simply touched me on the head, I could feel all of my bones shifting back into their place, my lungs barely moving and my skull going all back into place as if nothing had ever happened. It was the oddest feeling in the world and I did not like it what so ever. He did this and smiled back at me like we were still kids and I had fallen and cut up my leg, he was always the one that was there when I got hurt, so Lucifer always used to blame him for me getting hurt, being little Sister I got away with it.

" All better little Sis." He said like he used to.

" Thank you Gab." We both laughed a little and remember the past.

" I have to get out of here now, those damn boys are onto me and to be honest I don't want to get stabbed again, they still think I'm just a tricker." He smiled and I stood and gave him a giant hug, like we used to when we were simple children. " Bye Sis." And then he was gone without any other words.

" Bye Brother."