Hours Before.
The way that he felt going all around my body was intoxicating. I do not know what had come over us, but we had both felt this odd emotion that just made us attack like wild animals at one another. I had no idea what I was doing and neither had he, but we just knew in some way where things were and how to get them out of the clothing they were in. At first it had just started with kissing in a motel room and ended like this. It was like someone was watching over it to make sure that we were going what they pleased. It was like we were in this odd show where someone was controlling everything that we were doing, but I liked it so much. His lips being pressed up and down my body, feeling the chill run up my spine, I loved it all so much that I did not ever wish for it to end. It felt like someone had jolted my body as intensely that they could with electricity and I could just feel every part of my body, every inch of my skin come to life. It was like a train wreck that was setting afire.
Now.
It all started off normal. . . in a way. Sam and Dean had said their goodbyes to Bobby and went off to a motel miles outside of the city that they had left him to figure out what to do next. They started to think about just hunting down any other thing besides the devil, but that was the most outrageous idea I had ever heard of. Then the boys said that they were going to trace down Lucifer and kill him, but I did not know why they would want to commit suicide, even if it was the only real thing to think about hunting down. But they needed sleep first so we had to stop for the night. They even got Cas and myself a room right next to ours, Dean was thinking on how Cas might need a little action and that I might like it too. At first I wondered what he was talking about and what kind of action might Cas need, but soon I forgot it as the boys went into their rooms and we went into ours. Cas was his normal and un-normal self. He just sat with the lights off in one of the chairs that they had in the room for comfort and did not speak a word.
I smiled a thought how I could control him if I wished, that with just one simple kiss I could have him doing anything that I pleased for me. But I would never do that, I would never want Cas to do anything that he did not wish to do, I would never force him into anything. Ever. I could see everything in the dark, so I walked along the rooms just to see what is around I do not know what I did this, I just had a feeling that it was the right thing to do. I noticed how there was a single bed in the room that could fit two people as if Cas and I were going to sleep together. Why would Sam and Dean get a room with two beds and get us a room with only one? I wondered thinking that we did not need to sleep nor did we really please to in any way either. None of it mattered though, I would be able to protect Cas better with this one bed and he would be able to do the same with myself. Lucifer must have been getting his end of the world blue prints out and that was why he was not looking for me anymore.
" Castiel?" I asked, trying to make it sound. . . more then my voice normally sounded. Something that I did not expect to hear, but I liked. I could only think if Cas liked it or not, and just hoped that he ever noticed the change in voice.
" Yes?" He did not move from his seat, neither did he even turn his head. He just sat there. He knew that there was no danger and that he did not need to come running to my aid.
" Would you come in here? I really need you here with me right now." I said as I sat on the bed and felt the bedding, the blankets and then moving up a little more to feel the pillows. I did not know what I was doing this at all, I just wanted to know what they felt liked. . .
" Why?" Again he did not move one inch, just asked his question from his spot of a statue. It was the way that I was used to seeing him, the way that he has always been and I believe always will be.
" Please. Just come. Like I said, I really need you here with me." I didn't know why I felt like I needed him around, I just needed him in a way. I could feel my heart rising and becoming faster as he come near me and stood in front of myself. He seemed so different in this light, like it was a new light on him, like it was something that was new about him.
" Yes?" He said in a tone that just made my whole body shake, it made me feel so much unlike myself. It made me feel like someone I was not, someone who needed him, someone who was going to have in no matter what. I was a little frightened by this feeling, but liked it as well.
I could not help myself, from where I was sitting with my legs over the side of the bed I pulled him, by the tie, onto myself. He had not known that was going to happen and placed his hands on my sides, I think it had happened just in the moment of time, but I liked where they had landed. He sat there in shock as I smiled in an odd way and just starred at him, we both did not know what had just happen but I could tell that Castiel had liked it, mostly because I had loved it more then any angel or fallen angel should. . . I moved inch by inch closer to his body and pulled him to my lips, again by the tie. His lips were soft against mine and soon melted into mine, going through the motions of our lips combining into one. My heart was climbing with every second of us kissing and pulling at each other. Every moment, every second, every movement made my heart race just a little more then the second before, making the feeling become even more extreme.
The kisses started to get faster and faster. Our lips were started to get rougher and rougher with each other, it felt as if we could not stay at once pace or someone would come in and stop this moment all together. Castiel's hands brushed through my hair, soon they would brush about half way down and then pull a little bit, making me want to scream almost but in a sort of good way, I could not explain this but it felt good. . . Soon Castiel's tung slipped into mine and it felt even more intoxicating then when we were just kissing. My hands started to slip into the in side of his shirt and started to pull him closer like that, but that didn't last long because in one single moment the tables flipped to say the least. From my mouth something came out, it was almost a release of breath but also a release of pleasure as well. From that second Castiel took over the moment as if he had come out his shell full charge.
I do not really remember what happened for the next few minutes because one second I was sitting up with Castiel in my lap and the next second I was on the bed with Castiel on top of my, kissing my lips, cheek, neck, ear, anything that he could find that was showing on my face that could make that noise again he was going for. It was like he was trying to make sure that I was liking what he was doing, that he needed to hear that noise to make sure that I liked it. He was an animal searching for something that would make the right noise for him, searching for something that would attract him in all the right ways. I could feel my hands caressing and moving over all the mussels that were going insane on his back, even inch of his flexing and moving. It was almost like something was attacking or annoying him on his back and he needed to get it off, but he liked it as well. His body started to mold into mine and I could feel every inch of his body, every part of clothing that needed to come off fast. Ever bit of him that I wanted to be touching me.
It started with that trench coat, the one that I had wanted to rip off for so long, the one that was hiding way to much for my liking at all. I had never really liked that coat, or what it had been hiding from me for so long, how it had been hiding Castiel's body which was perfect. It came off within seconds of my fingers touching in, it was as if my hands were magnets and his coat was going to follow it where ever I lead it. He starred as he watched my take it off and just smiled and thought about all the different things that he could be doing besides kissing me – or that's what I think he was doing at least. From kissing it lead to hair pulling as I took his shirt off and even unbuckled his belt. Soon my black dress was flow straight across the room, leaving my untouched body on his, I could feel my heart start to climb in a way that it never has before, I could feel every inch of skin, every pound of my heart, I could feel everything that was going on with me. His skin was mending with mine, warmth from his body was leading all through mine and it was making me shiver a little.
After the dress, there was really no stopping what was going to happen between us. There was no turning back and saying no, there was no saying that one person did not what to do it anymore. It just happened, I mean there was no asking each other if we wanted it, there was no are you sure it was just a look in Castiel's eyes and a nod that got the ball rolling. Not a moment passed where I did not think that this was completely right and that I would not ever want to go back and change anything that had happened. I really do not think that I want to change it, nor do I believe that Castiel would change it if he could as well, I think that he was pretty happy with what happened too. I know that Dean will be proud of him when he finds out, that's what will really make Cas happy about all of this, besides the fact of having sex, besides making me happy, Cas will be happy to know that he made Dean proud.
I know that it was a sin, but then again we would never be allowed in heaven anyway so we really did not care if it was a sin or not, we were becoming different people, we were honestly becoming people. This made me laugh a little, thinking about becoming a different person or becoming someone new and being able to try all different things, like having sex and sinning. All of it made me laugh a little, even if I miss being an angel I just think about all the new things that I can do, all the new things that I will be able to do without the chains attached to my ankles, telling me that it is wrong and that I should no do anything like that. I am almost free now, and sex with Castiel was just the first perk.
Later.
The breathing rose and then fell, it was hard to keep it a one right place, it was hard to keep anything from having some kind of attack. I did not know what I had screamed so loud when I was not being hurt and was not afraid, but I had screamed and it had been a lot as well. We did not notice to shadows that were not ours on the wall, two shadows that stood in shock as we fell off of one another and into the sheets around us, both with wide smiled on our faced and with heavy breath that fell from us to each other in every kiss. The figures on the wall just stood there and waiting, almost knowing what we were doing and just waiting till we knew that they were there. It was not like we did not know that they were there, we just did not have the energy to move and we also did not really want to move either.
They did not move an inch from where they were a s Castiel and I spoke in little phrases to one another and smiled and laughed and held each other. We were in our own little world that was so far away from them that we did not even remember that they were alive or who they were. We were back in our own little patch of heaven, where no one could tell us what to do or when to do it or who to do it with. We were happy and that was all that really mattered no one else could come into this world and ruin it, not Father or Micheal or even Lucifer could come into this world. No one could that we would worry about having in here, it was our world and it was a world that I do not think I could go back to again even if I tried to, it was a world for only Cas and I to go into.
" Vicky, I really love you." Cas said and all I could do was let the blood rush into my cheeks and smile. The words stuck into my throat and would only come out with a little coaxing. It did not take much because Cas went right back to kissing me after he had said it, not expecting anything from myself.
" I love you too Cas." This time it was Cas who's face light up and he smiled with such force that I thought it would hurt him to smile that hard and that wide.
I smile and turned, keeping Cas's arm with me at all times, as if it had been a safety belt or something that I could use to protect myself from anything and everything in the world. I looked over to the boys, in only sweatpants, both looked tired and were annoyed. It was not like they were annoyed as more of a shocked type of phase had come over them. I believe that they thought that there was someone that was getting hurt of in this room and that they were going to need and help them at any chance that they had. I did see a gun in Dean's hand and what I think is Ruby's knife in Sam's hand, but they were so low and so close to their bodies that I could not really see them as well as I wished to be able to. They still looked like they thought some type of hunt was going to be going on and instead all they got was some type of insane show.
" Now there. . . . yes?" I asked and Dean smiled as wide as a kid with candy. Sam just looked really tired as if he had not gotten any sleep since we had gotten into the motel, I hope they had not heard me. . .
" Oh wow." Sam said before turning to leave and turning back again and saying in a higher tone then before still not really looking at either Cas nor I just looking on the sheets or maybe on the curtains of the window. " Congrats and all." He said and left the room, leaving Dean standing in the middle of the room just smiled as wide as he could and Castiel and myself confused about why Sam had said that.
" Wow, just wow. I can't believe what I'm seeing right now, holy crap." He said still as giddy as could be and just as. . . I could not even explain it if I tried. It was like someone who was going to do something that they always wanted to, or seen someone they dreamed about seeing for years or maybe all their life. It was odd in all the ways possible. " Cas and Vic, in a bed together, having sex. Wow I would not believe it if I hadn't seen it with my own damn eyes. What got into you dude? What waiting till you got married just didn't mean anything anymore?" He smiled while saying this putting his hands up into the ear as if he was being shot at and walked out of the room, smiling the whole way.
" I will never understand him." I said lightly before kissing Cas on the cheek and neck again.
" Neither will I." He said lightly. We both stayed there in the moment of time for the rest of the night. When we got told that they horsemen were going to be coming into town soon. . .