Then.
I know that I was dying, Lucifer who's eyes were so saddened that I did not think that he would stay around very long, which he did not. He had to go and make sure that Death would be all happy and so that distracted him while the rest of us were able to get out alive. He kept looking over and trying to see if I were okay, trying to make sure that I was still alive is a better work for it I think. His eyes were so saddened that I did not think that he would be able to keep away from me for one more moment because he did not know why I could lose everything right now. It was very sad because while all of this was happening there was also Castiel, pulling hair out of my face and trying to keep the wound from bleeding out even more. It hurt so badly but still there was nothing that I could do about it, so the pain was just something that I would have to live with for the time. I knew that I was going to have to get up and try to make it over to Sam and Dean so that we would be able to find Ellen and Joe and get the hell out of here.
I tried to get up, I knew that I would have to get up, no matter how much Castiel tried to make me stop and kept telling me to lay back down I got to my knees before I got light headed and Castiel finally just pulled me up and scooped me into his firm arms. I wanted to scream because of the fact that the wound was now in a different spot and even worse then that it was not gushing out even more then before, I could feel it getting onto Castiel's shirt and tie. He ran me over to the boys, not caring if Lucifer or Death saw him running, he was running like he was a dead man in any way. Soon we were right next to Sam and Dean in the bushes and they were just starring at me as if they had seen a ghost as they would say. I knew that I was dying, I knew that I could die right now and it hurt so badly, my fingers were becoming cold along with my toes. Soon we were in Deans car with Castiel's coat wrapped around me and my wound.
Dean was driving as if he was driving away from a million demons. He was driving at over a hundred miles per hour and it was not the best thing for me when he took sharp turns. It made me want to be sick though, it was not very great and it did not like this new feeling of sickness. It had now lost all feeling in my arms and legs, it was a chilling feeling and it was very numbing as well. As we drove out of the town they had told us that we had lost Ellen and Joe during the war, Joe we think had died because of how badly the hell hound had gotten her, which I do not think Dean would ever forgive me, well Meg, for. And to get away from the hounds and to try and kill Lucifer, Ellen gave herself up and tried to make it so they would have at least a little time to get away from the hounds. They both risked their lives to make sure that Lucifer would die and their lives were both taken away for nothing now, because of the fact that there is no way to kill Lucifer. Not a way at all. We were near the hospital now, I was started to black out again.
" God I don't know if we can get her anywhere that is not infested with demons and that has even people there right now. I think that the nearest hospital would be out of this state. . . she's really bad Dean. . ." Sam said as he looked through his first aid kit. " Rub this in there Cas." Sam said and Cas poured fired into my wound and made me scream more.
" I am so sorry baby, please do not move like that. I have to do this." I kept screaming and trying to get him to stop, soon Sam was holding down my arms.
" I'm going as fast as I can right now, just calm down and make sure that she will get there in one piece and still alive okay? Cas start to wrap something around it to make sure that the blood will stop coming out of the wound." Dean said as he started to speed up again.
" She is going to be alright wont she." I looked up at Sam and Dean, eyes wide I could feel and theirs were just as wide. They looked at one another and then back as Cas and I.
" Let. . . me answer for them. No I. . . I wont be making it Cas." I sighed as another heat was of pain ran thought my torso.
" You do not say that Victoria! You are going to be just fine do you hear me! You are going to be just fine I promise. Just stick right here with me and make sure that you keep your eyes opened, I have heard that it makes a difference when you keep your eyes opened." Castiel said.
" It does, if you don't keep your eyes opened then you could die from going into a coma and just letting go I guess." Sam said.
" If you believe in that." Dean muttered out as he passed another car.
" Your going to be just fine Victoria, promise." Sam said as he moved his thumb over the arm that he was holding down to comfort me.
Ambulances, cars that we were screaming by, at this time Lucifer was long gone and I did not know why I was even trying to stay alive right now. I knew that I was dying, that I would never come out of this hospital alive and I knew this. Why was I trying to keep calm to make sure that I would not get more hurt, why was I even allowing these people to take me to the hospital? Was it because I wanted to comfort Castiel, that I wanted to really see how this whole war turned out, really I did not know anything besides the fact that I was still gushing blood and these people were not stopping it besides covering it with a little bit of cloth. I could feel all of the blood leaving my body and the pain of it all too, the pain was the worst part. People kept telling me that I was going to be okay, that everything was going to be just fine. But was it really going to be okay? They knew that I was dying they all knew it.
" Just stay with us okay? We are almost to the hospital, the ER staff there is the best they will fix you up just fine Victoria okay?" One of the people said as they stuck a needle into my arm, I yelped and Castiel glared at the woman.
" Cas, I'm so sorry." I whispered and he came closer to where I was.
" Shh, don't say that. You are going to be just fine, there is nothing to be sorry of. Now just try to relax a little, I believe that we are going to be there soon." He smiled as he held onto my hand tightly. His hands felt so warm to mine, like they were almost on fire is how hot they really felt to me.
" She's lost a lot of blood, call in and tell them to get a blood transfusion ready to go when we get there, she is going to need one as soon as we get there." Great, another surgery and another time that I will be stuck in that damn hospital again. Just what I needed when we have a huge war on our hands, not.
" Cas, keep fighting this battle, they need you here then down there with me. Promise me that you will stay here and keep battling for this world, for me if that is what it takes to keep you here, anything to make sure that you will stay here and come destroy yourself." I whimpered, the tears were coming back. I really did not like the emotion of fear it was terrifying and the worst feeling you could have, you can even feel it in the pit of your stomach it hurts so badly.
" Shh, Vicky do not cry this is not the time for crying. Now I will stay up here but when this battle ends I will come and find you on the other side, heaven or hell I will come and find you. I promise you I will find you again." He said as we got to the hospital, they pulled me out of his and led me into the hospital. The whole time Castiel was by my side, holding my hand and trying to tell the people everything that was happening. They started to try and pull him away from me, saying that they were going to work on me and he was going to have to stay there and answer some of the questions that they had for him, like he was they bad guy here.
" No, she is my wife and I want to go with her. You can ask me questions while they work on her I really do not care. But I will not leave her side right now, not ever if I can have that happen. But she needs me right now and you will not take her away from me." He growled as he ran to my side, none of the nurses or doctors tried to stop him, surprisingly.
They started off by finding out what type of blood I was and once they got that they started with a transfusion right away. I do not know why they did this I mean they still said that they would have to go in and stitch things up because I was injured really badly. I guess that since their job is to care for every person that happened walked into the door that they would not just leave me dying on this bed, they would have to try and help. So they told Castiel that he would have to wait in the waiting room while they worked on me, this time he waited but I knew that I would not be coming out of this alive, call me a pessimistic if you want, but I just knew that I would not.
I hoped that I would be going back home to see my family, the people that hated me but since I was family would welcome me with open arms. But I knew that even that was a lie, they hated me more then anyone and were in too big of a war to take time out and say hello to me. Besides I was a fallen angel, you never see people like that going into heaven. Hell was calling my name out and I was going to welcome it like a old friend, maybe that was what Lucifer was doing right now. Why he really bailed out when he did, maybe this is Death's first victim, maybe that lucky person number one was me. I will welcome him and say hello with open arms. To get away from this pain, this hell would be one of the greatest things in the world, although I could not feel most of my body, the things that I could feel were now on fire, the purest of white fires that you could get.
Then it had happened, death. At one point I was looking up over my body and then a reaper came to take me away to a new place, she seemed nice and I knew that I could not stay here forever, no matter how much Castiel looked around to find me and no matter how many different ways he would try to bring me back, it was time for me to go. So I followed her onto the other side, it was a dark place that I really did not expect to see, she told me to just follow the road, that it would take me to the new place that I would need to be in, that it would be the place that was right for me. I knew that she was telling me in happier words that I was going to hell, so I took my time walking down the road because I did not want to see hell anytime soon.
Now.
Hell, what a horrible place to be. I do not know what the time difference was from here to there, it seemed like forever though I mean it really did seem like I was there for longer then I had lived as an angel. The things that they did to me, the things that they did when their bosses were not looking, horrible. They violated me in more ways then one, I mean they ripped me open and teared and pulled and shredded me from limb to limb and then would make me hole again. But they would also rape me over and over again in the same way. They would do it over and over again until they had me cried and pleading and screaming for them to stop, all the things that I was ashamed of came out then. They were all different people, all wanting the same thing though, they all wanted me to be afraid of them and to give into this place and to take it all in and become like them.
Each day there was someone coming over at the same time, telling me that I could make a deal with him to trade in with him. That I could take up a knife, or if I wanted to I could take up a demon and pleasure he or she before it was their time to go up to earth and I could never have to have this happen to me again. Every day I would spit in his demon face and made sure that he knew that I would never degrade myself to anything that he was saying. I would have rather spent all of my life being ripped up and raped then to do it to anyone else, or please any of man the Castiel. Each day the demons would tell me that Lucifer was winning the war upstairs and soon all of my angel friends would be coming down here and getting hurt like I was. I did not listen to them though, I listened to the sound of my own screaming, the pain, anything besides them. I would never give in to one of them, not a single one of them would get me to talk to them, to say a word, or give in to their ways of life, I would never do it. I screamed and cried and I yelled and tried to get at them like they were getting at me, but I knew that I could never get at them like I wanted to. They had to chained down to the table and I was naked the whole time as well. They had my arms and legs chained down, but at any time the demon could unchain me if they wanted a little more of a challenge.
They loved to call me names that were just so degrading. They would call me angel and they would call me things like hot tits and other things. I wanted to cry when they did this, I think that them raping me was worse then them hurting me. They would slap me if I did not do what they said and they would bring out the knifes and start to cut me when they were raping me if I did not do what they said for a second time. If there was a third time, which was a normal thing for me I guess, then they would just go to the knifes and start to rip and tear again. When this happened it would be worse then anything else, they were angry and they were not going to let up until I was a bunch of threads. I could feel everything when they were ripped me, they could cut me leg off and I would still feel it when they would light my leg on fire or cut off my toes one at a time. I would just scream a little more and more and pleaded for them to go back to what they were doing before, that I would behave. They did not care as this point, they were going for revenge this time.
But at one point, when they gave me a little time to rest up before the next session would start happening, when I was soaked in blood and sweat something happened. I do not really know what it was or how it had happened, but I could feel the fire on my hip, it was something that I did not expect to see and then I could hear demons screaming, a white light and then there was nothing. No screaming, cutting, the smell of burning flesh was gone as well, there was just nothing again. I did not know what to do but all that I could think about was relaxing, taken in the time that I had. Then it was all over again, I was on the soft ground again of the earth, it was down pouring but I did not care I let all of the rain hit me in the face. I didn't know what to do but cry a little, the start to scream because I was so happy to be back. I stayed there for hours being in the rain and I could not think of what to do or who to call, I did not know if anyone was still alive. . . I prayed for Castiel. I knew that if he was still alive that he would come right over and find me, where ever I was. . .
" Castiel, I do not know if you can hear me, or if you are even alive right now. But if you are please please come and find me. I do not know where I am or how I got here, but please come and find me. I need you right now, I just got back onto earth and I really do not know who the hell brought me back. Are Sam and Dean okay? Are you okay? Please. . . please just come and find me soon. I really need you babe." I cried from my knee's starring up at the raining gray sky and looking back down at the ground. " Unless you are back down there waiting for me to come and find you. Maybe this war is over. . . maybe it's all over. I am by a maple tree, come soon." I begged into the ground as I fell from my stance, crashing back into the ground.
" Victoria." A gravely voice said from behind me.