Then.
She was dead, as dead as she could be and it was all my fault that she had died, if I had been stronger, faster maybe even, I should and thrown her out of the way, gotten her out of there quicker, done anything I could to protect her like I was supposed to. Instead I just watched and was stunned of what I saw, her body, falling to the ground with Lucifer's sword stuck into her torso and she words coming out in such a painful way. I should have just left right then with just her, not worrying about Sam and Dean, just gotten her to the hospital then, anything that would have saved her. But I did not and she was gone now, without any chances of coming back because no angel would bring back a fallen angel, not even God would do that. I would try my hardest if we had the chance, if there was time after this war was done, I will do anything to get her back into my arms.
I knew that for the time being that I would have to just keep going on, keep working and make sure that neither Sam or Dean would say yes, which I was worried at this point that Dean was going to. Every day Dean was getting weaker and weaker, ever since Ellen, Joe and Victoria had died he has been more and more depressed and becoming sloppier with his jobs. Sometimes he would take all of this anger out on whatever it was that he was hunting, other times he would do the worst job in the world at killing something. It all depended on what emotions he was going to have today and what it was that he was killing. Anything in the form of a human with blond hair and the same type of eyes as Joe was the hardest for Dean to kill. I could feel it coming from him, the way that he would walk out of the motel rooms for many hours and just be in his car outside of the room just sitting in silence. He was going to say yes and it was going to be very soon at that, I did not know when or how, but it was going to be fast and Sam and I would have to stop him from saying anything like that.
There was no reason why I did not die because Victoria died, I do not know what to say about it but the fact that everything in heaven must to too hectic to send any Archangel's down to kill me off, I knew that soon they would though. After the battle would be done and everything would be settle up there, if I was even still alive by then, if Micheal somehow won and the world was save, or we managed to save the world, they would be coming after me soon enough to collect. I knew that there would be no paradise for fallen angels, how could there be anything like that up there, no, I would be going straight to hell and I would be there happily, knowing that one day, even if it's a millennium away, I would be seeing Victoria again. She was the only thing that I could think of, all day and every day all I could see was her in my head, she way she laughed and spoke and how truly beautiful she was, everything about her just made me want to cry, it killed me on the inside more then it should for a emotionless angel.
It was nearly six months from the day that all of them had died, it seemed like it was only yesterday that it all had happened. Lucifer was still running a muck all over the world on things that he could and did destroy, getting all of the horsemen all set up for their battle and getting ready for the end. I was losing more and more hope about this plan to kill the devil since the only Archangel we had was now dead and there were not others that were ready and willing to stop him. We had nothing left to do but try and find those rings of the horsemen, but I doubted that they would give them over easily and I knew that they were much more powerful then the other two would have ever been. It was an odd thought to think about, mostly because of the fact that soon I would be useless for fighting, I was becoming human rapidly now. Soon there would be nothing that I could do compared to Sam or Dean, they have both been trained since the day that they were born pretty much and I have never had the training that they have. Ever.
" Have we gotten him yet? Is there anything that we can do to get him faster?" I heard one day as Dean was fighting with Sam and Bobby.
" No I doubt it. We have many of them waiting at the cemetery to retrieve him, but there is no real thing that we can do besides wait."
" There is no time for waiting! We are in the middle of a war right now, we need him right now and there is no way around this, get him now or I will have you head shoved onto one of those swords do you hear me?"
" Of course I do, I will be there to retrieve him right now."
" Cas is there something wrong?" Sam said as he started to come over to me, but I straightened up and started to get ready to fly to where the angels were going.
" Yes, the angel's are speaking about something big, really big." I said as I started to leave but they kept proceeding to speak to me.
" I thought that you couldn't hear them talking in your head anymore?" Bobby asked.
" I thought so as well, this must be very big for me to be able to hear them. I must go and check this out." I said and then I was gone.
I was right about only one thing in this whole mess, it was something that was very big. The angels had brought back Sam and Dean's younger brother, Adam. Most likely for one reason and one reason only, so that Michel would have a vessel to as Sam and Dean say, to take to the prom in. I do not understand but that was the only real reason that I could think about that was make since to them. They have given up on Dean taken his place and stepping up to become the vessel, so they went to the only other living Winchester, well living now. There were many angels that were on guard and were waiting for him to come up from his grave, but I was the only one there that was ready to help when his hand popped out of the ground, all the others were laying dead around me. At this time I did not know who he was or why he was there, all I knew was that he was important to the angels and I did not want them to have him for that reason, so I brought him back to Bobby's.
" Help." I said as I came back into the study with Adam over my shoulder, he did weight quite a lot there.
Sam and Dean came and rushed him over to a bed where they laid him down. They just stood there, in complete shock as they looked at the face of their brother. I knew that they must have known him because of their faces but I could not understand from where, I had never seen this boy because and I have seen most things about Dean's life before I went to hell and brought him back. He did not look like anything to me at all, I did not know him and I could not understand why the angels would want to have him so badly, he was just a kid that looked no older then to be about. . . 18 maybe a little more maybe a little less I really did not know, but I could not understand why they would want a kid like him during this time and why he was so important, he was no vessel and he was nothing big at all. He would be needing a shower and he would be needed food rather soon or there would be no way that the angels would ever have the chance of getting him this time around either. I branded his ribs as Sam and Dean told me the story.
" He's our brother, well half brother at least." Sam said.
" Yeah, too bad he was dead and should have never been able to come back into this terrible world or hunting." Dean said as he looked down at his younger brother with pity " Why did they bring him back?" He asked as he looked up at me.
" The only reason that I can see is that they need him for something big, they most likely think that since you will not step up and take you place as Michel's sword, that they can just go in and use the next best thing." I said.
" That makes since if you think about it Dean." Sam said. They kept going back and forth about random little things like how much they did not like it and about the normal things as well, I could not hear them at this time, the angels were speaking again, but not about Adam at all.
" How did she come back, did anyone bring her back when they dropped Adam?"
" No, she was not even in heaven, someone went down into hell and got her back for some reason."
" Why would someone do that, what angel did this?"
" I do not know, all I know is that she is back and that she is becoming more and more powerful every second that she is back. No one can explain in."
" Well just leave her, we need to find that stupid little kid, he must be with the Winchester's by now, they have to have him."
" I will let Zachariah know about this." That was all that I got from them.
" What are they saying now?" Bobby asked, I must have been better very weak because Sam was holding me up.
" Someone- not an angel brought someone else back, but this time from Hell. It's a woman and she is becoming stronger within minutes, I can not tell you how she is or what she is but they really do not care about her, meaning she has not a lot of importance to them right now. All they want is Adam back." I said as I looked over to the sleeping child.
" Well who could it be? Anyone that we can think of that would help out Lucifer's side if they had a female on it?" Bobby asked.
" I can name five off the top of my head." Dean said with a smirk on his face.
" Shut up boy." Bobby said with a hiss.
" Lilith?" Sam asked, his widening as he said it.
" No, she's ruling hell while Lucifer's ruling earth." I said as I tried to think and think about who it could be.
" Well then I have no clue." Sam said as we all went our own ways, I could feel something coming on, this time I knew I hit the ground.
" Castiel, I do not know if you can hear me, or if you are even alive right now. But if you are please please come and find me. I do not know where I am or how I got here, but please come and find me. I need you right now, I just got back onto earth and I really do not know who the hell brought me back. Are Sam and Dean okay? Are you okay? Please. . . please just come and find me soon. I really need you babe." Someone had prayed to me, someone who had the same voice as Victoria. It. .. it could not be her. No.
" Cas? What is it?" Sam said as he came over to where I had landed, but I was gone, going to find whoever it was that was praying to me.
Now.
I knew that he was standing there, looking over me, I knew who it was and that he knew all along that I was going to be right here. I could not speak, I could not do anything but let the rain hit me in the face and just sit here and weep to myself. This must have been it then, the end of the world must have happened and there was no humans left on this earth, no one was left and there was going to be no one to help me. I did not want to look up at him, I did not want to know that he was speaking to me or to see him in Sam's poor body. I knew that if I did all that I would see was evil, there was most likely not even a Sam left in there by now, maybe with some type of heart Lucifer had just let him die, slowly is better then just having to live with it all for the rest of time. I just sat there and he came to my level and wrapped his warm arms around me and sat behind me. Trying to calm me down a little.
" Shh. Everything is going to be just fine now that you are back, there will never be anything wrong again. It's alright, shh Victoria, everything is just fine. You are alright now and I will never allow anything that horrible to happen to you ever again, I am just sorry I did not retrieve you sooner. It's alright Hun, I'm right here." He said and I just started to sob out harder, knowing that Castiel must have been dead.
" You are alright Victoria, you are going to be just fine. I'm going to make sure that you will be just fine and that you are going to be the strongest girl in the world right now, nothing is going to happen to you, nothing at all. I promise you that. Just calm down right now, just breath and relax." He said as he wrapped his arms tighter around me and placed his lips onto my soaked hair.
" Get. Off. Of. Her." Someone growled from behind, I whipped my head back to see him, standing in the rain.
At first he was hard to see, he was one the other side of the land that we were on and the rain made ti even harder to tell who he was. All I knew was that he was around the average height for a male and that Lucifer was tensing up as he got closer. That's when I started to notice body features that I really knew so well, the hair shape and color, the trench coat that has made it through so much, that awkward stride he does while walking and more then anything else, I knew that voice so well. The one that had made those vows with me, the one that I could trust to tell me the truth and the one from the man that I loved more the life itself. It was someone that I knew would protect me and I knew that I had protected him well too.
" Cas!" I screamed as I tried to get up but Lucifer dragged me down.
" Sorry Castiel, you see there's a slight problem with all of that. You see, I brought her back and let her keep her little soul that you people seem to care so much about. So there is not big problem about that, see I own her right about now. If I wanted to, which I really don't, I could just throw her back down there, so don't think that I wont, because I will until you lose all of your angel powers. Then you two will never know that the other is alive!" He smiled as he pulled me up.
" Lucifer! Just stop it alright!" I screamed as I started to try and pull away, but I was very weak. I could not feel anything but I knew that I was standing and that I could walk, it was odd, there was something wrong.
" No, you do not want to do this to her. You know what hell is all about and you know how bad it is, you would never send her back there again if you had the choice, I know that is for sure. You are trying to make it seem that way to me, but you would never be man enough to do that to her, you love her too much to do that. Just as I do." He said as he got closer, Lucifer's grip got tighter and I somehow got stronger.
" Let go of me." I said, just at that time lighting started to strike from the sky. I did not know if I had done that or if it was just nature, but it sure made me feel a lot stronger then before. It made me think that I had done it.
" Oh, I see that that power boost is helping." He smiled as he moved away a little. " Be that way, but I will be seeing you very soon Victoria." He smiled as he vanished, leaving me with a fierce and painful red mark on my hand.
" Victoria." Was the only thing that Castiel said as he came over to me and gripped onto my as tightly as he could, I just sank into him and took in his scent once more, it made me cry again, he was alive and he had heard me!
" Castiel, th-thank God you are alive. I was so wo-worried that you had died and that everything in this world was over, th-that there was nothing left but Lucifer. I am s-so happy to see you!" I got out as I looked into his eyes, he did the same to me.
" Shh. Everything is fine for the time being, now just come on, we have to get you out of those soaking things and get you back to Bobby's before anyone else finds out that you are back, Sam and Dean will be pleased to know that you are alive. . . again and that you are well." He smiled as he took me back to their house.