Hello again, thanks for the reviews and alerts so far. A couple of you have even added me or the story to your favourites and I am unbelievably flattered.
As before, this chapter is unbetaed and though I have tried to make sure it is mistake free some things may have slipped through the net.
Also, I keep forgetting to say that these boys and girls are not mine (I wish Edward and Jasper were though!)
It is time to hear a little something from Alice.
I love Jasper, I think I've loved him since the moment I met him in that fifties-style diner in Philadelphia. We were both students at Penn State, I was studying psychology and he was majoring in history. The first time I saw him I knew he was the one for me and that we would be together forever. It sounds stupid and naive to think that and I like to think of myself as neither of those things but something about Jasper just seemed right and my instincts are usually pretty good when it comes to men and particularly good when it comes to Jasper.
Quite early on in our relationship Jasper confessed that he was bisexual and he told me that he had fooled around with a few guys before we'd got together but that nothing had happened since he started dating me. However, he didn't want to promise that he'd never be attracted to, or would never want, another man again, as he wasn't keen on making promises he wasn't sure he would keep. He did promise to always be honest with me and that he would never go behind my back or cheat on me. I was surprised, of course, when he told me, especially considering his straight-laced military family. His Daddy was a real tough-guy and I couldn't imagine Jasper's home life being a place filled with openness and tolerance. Jasper was his own man though, he wasn't afraid of his father and he wasn't afraid to be himself either. I found that a huge turn-on, I still do. Although I was surprised at his being bisexual it didn't bother me, I didn't feel threatened or worried, I was secure in our relationship even back then, I knew he loved me and I loved him. Nothing could get in the way of that. Except...
Edward. I remember the day Jasper first met Edward. It was the start of new semester at the university and Jasper came home all keyed up and excited. I was in the office typing up some case notes (I work as an educational psychologist) and he swept into the room and pulled me into his arms before kissing me passionately. When you've been married for a few years the passion tends to fade a little, even for Jasper and I. Although our sex life was still varied, exciting and frequent it wasn't the same 'have to have you right here, right now' passion that we'd had in the early days of relationship. So when he literally swept me off my feet in the little box-room we call an office and then bent me over the desk and fucked me until I was panting his name and coming harder than I could ever remember doing. I was not surprisingly quite taken aback. I wasn't complaining but I did wonder what had gotten into him. It turns out that Edward was what had gotten into him. After he'd finished fucking me into oblivion and we were snuggled up on the sofa together, he started to tell me about his day and about a new member of the arts and humanities faculty – a man by the name of Edward Cullen. He didn't mention anything specific about being attracted to him that night but from the way his eyes lit up as he mentioned Edward and, judging by the thorough fucking I'd just received, I knew that there was something there. Edward had re-awakened those feelings of attraction towards men that Jasper had always harboured but which had been buried, or sleeping, since we got together. I was conflicted, on the one hand I couldn't deny that I had enjoyed the spontaneous, passionate encounter we had just shared but on the other I was pretty sure that I didn't have that much to do with the cause of Jasper's sudden passion. I wanted to be the only reason Jasper's pulse quickened, the only reason his breathing hitched and the only reason his cock hardened. I'd never met Edward Cullen, I wouldn't have recognised him if he passed me on the street but I hated him at that moment. I hated the insecurity his existence made me feel, I hated the fact that he'd made my husband hard and I hated the light in Jasper's eyes when he talked about him.
As the days turned into weeks, Jasper continued to find ways of mentioning Edward, small, seemingly innocuous ways of talking about him but I noticed every time and every time my heart broke a little. Eventually, Jasper seemed to realise what I had known from the beginning, he began to acknowledge his attraction to Edward and he quietly and hesitantly told me of it one evening as we sat together on our sofa. I can picture the scene now. I was knitting, my stockinged feet in his lap, whilst he read through his lesson plans for the following day.
"Alice." He spoke my name quietly and I looked up to see him with his head down, fingers twisting together in his lap.
"What is it Jazzy?" I asked although the sinking feeling in my stomach told me that I already knew what he was about to say.
"Alice, honey, I'm so sorry but I've come to realise.." He paused and lifted his head to look me in the eyes before continuing. "I've come to realise that I am attracted to Edward. Only physically though." He added quickly, as if that made things better. "I love you Ali, only you. But I have to admit that Edward turns me on. I'm really sorry if this upsets you sweetheart, but we always swore we'd be honest about these things and that is what I'm trying to be here." He reached down and gently lifted my foot to his lips and placed a tender kiss on my instep before turning back to me and trying to gauge my reaction. I remember being frozen for a few minutes. I felt as those I couldn't breathe. Nothing of what Jasper had said was the least bit surprising to me but every word pierced me like a knife in my gut. I remember feeling sick, physically nauseous and tears were beginning to form in my eyes. I didn't want Jasper to see my reaction, to see how hurt I was, I quickly jumped to my feet and dashed out of the room muttering something about cramps or needing a drink.
I sat in our master bathroom and let the tears fall unchecked. My husband, the love of my life had just told me that he wants someone else, he has just told me in so many words that I am not enough for him. He may not have used those words exactly but that is what he was saying. "But", the little voice in my head reminded me, "he's only physically attracted to Edward, he doesn't love him, he only wants his body – if you let him have that he will have scratched that itch and he will love you even more for letting him do it. After all, what harm can it do and this Edward might not even like guys. Jasper could get down on his knees and offer to suck his cock and he might not be the least bit interested." Somehow, I knew that Edward would be interested though, after all who wouldn't want a piece of my Jasper? Even after 8 years together he still made my knees weak and the things he could do with his tongue – my God!
Sitting there on the edge of the tub, I resolved to let Jasper have his fun with Edward. Hell, we could both have fun with Edward but that would be all. I would still have Jasper's heart and Edward could go and find his own soul mate to play with once we were done with him.
However, in bed tonight I sensed that something had shifted. Edward wasn't just a plaything for us to bring into our bed and discard once he had ceased to be useful. Jasper felt something for him and I was powerless to do anything about it. I couldn't go back on my word, I had said I was okay with bringing this man into our bed and I was, but not on a permanent basis! I'd even told him that I was sure that I would love Edward, when actually I was sure that I would hate him. Worst of all, something told me, that once Edward had been under our 500 thread count, Egyptian cotton sheets he wouldn't be leaving them anytime soon.
So, Alice has had her say and she's not as happy about things as she has led Jasper to believe. What will happen when Alice meets Edward? Will there be fireworks?
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