All cats are gray in the dark

by ladymaja

Summary: Kitty (22 yo) is spending her summer vacation in Canada at Logan's cottage when suddenly she gets attacked and captured. In order to escape she's gonna need to take a helping hand from a killer.

Chapter Nineteen: Deal with it!

Kitty's sitting in front of the infirmary room.

"Kitty!" – she hears someone yelling her name. She turns to her right. Rogue and Bobby are running towards her. They stop next to her.

"What happened?" – asks Rogue breathing heavy.

"Logan's in there." – she answers pointing towards the door with her head.

"We know! We heard!" – says Bobby in a rush. "But what happened?"

"Did Sabertooth do something?" – Rogue asks.

"He passed out." – Kitty murmurs.

"What?" – asks Rogue.

"He passed out, Rogue! He literally just passed out!" – she yells. That's the truth. That's what really happened.
"We were in the garden. The three of us and. . . something. . . happened. . . Logan. . . saw. . . And he was in a shock. . . he just froze and. . . and didn't move for like two minutes and. . . and then he collapsed!" – she explains or at least she tries to, but she fazed. She's obviously panicking.

"Kitty, calm down!" – says Rogue and she starts to stroke her back with her gloved hand. "It's okay! I'm sure he's fine!"

"But what the hell happened?" – Bobby asks. Rogue elbows him on his ribs to shut him up.

"Hey!" – they all look up. Scott, Jean and Ororo arrive. Then there's a quiet bump.

"What's going on?" – asks Kurt. (A/N: Yeah, I'm not gonna toil with accents, I'm having enough trouble writing in English. Sorry!)

Great, they're all here. – thinks Kitty.

"Someone please just tell me what is going on!" – says Jean. She seems to be worried. They all are a little jumpy since Victor's here.

"Logan saw something and he passed out." – says Bobby.

"What? What did he see?" – asks Ororo.

"Us." – murmur Kitty. They all look at her. She's staring at her feet.

" 'Us'? " – asks Jean.

"Me and. . . me and Victor." – she says. There's silence for a couple of seconds.

"Oooh." – says Jean, Ororo and Rogue in a chorus.

"What?" – asks Kurt. "I don't get it!" – all the boys look clueless.

"Where's Sabertooth now?" – asks Ororo.

"In there with the Professor and Dr McCoy." – Kitty answers pointing at the infirmary's door.

"I still don't get it!" – says Kurt. Kitty grunts in annoyance.

"HE, LOGAN, SAW ME, KITTY, KISSING SABER-DAMN-TOOTH IN THE FREAKING GARDEN!" – Kitty screams angrily. Her face is crimson red. - "Do you get it now?"

All the girls are starring at their feet, blushed in the awkwardness of the moment. And all the guys freeze, just like Logan did before.

"Oh, God! Please don't faint you too!" – Kitty craves.

"You. . . him. . . wha. . . why? . . . wwwww." – that's all Scott can mumble.

"You. . . SABERT-. . . gar-. . . -den. . ." – that's Bobby's striking reaction.

"I. . . . . . . . . No." – and that was Kurt. There's another minute of awkward silence until Jean finally speaks up.

"So. . . you and him?"

"Yep."

"You know he's. . ."

"Dangerous? Yeah."

"But you. . ."

"I can handle it. He wouldn't hurt me, you know. He's just. . . complicated."

"So, you're saying it's not a onetime thing?" – Rogue asks. Scott winces.

"No. It's not."

"I can see why Logan freaked out." – says Ororo.

"Yeaaah. . . that's not exactly why Logan freaked out." – she says.

"Oh God, Kitty. What is it then?" – asks Rogue a 'little' stressed.

Before Kitty could answer the door opens and Victor appears. They all look at him with wide eyes. He looks at them, and then he turns to Kitty.

"I assume you told them." – he says.

"Only about you and me." – she answers.

"Stop! Okay? Just let's stop for a minute!" – says Scott. They can tell he's trying to fight the panic back. " 'Only' about you and him? What the hell does make you and him being together an 'only'?"

"Well. . . " – says the Professor behind Victor. "It seems so Logan and Victor have the same father. They're brothers." – he says calmly.

Everyone – except for Kitty and Victor of course – are standing there with their mouths dropped. Wolverine and Sabertooth. . . the mortal enemies. . . are brother? No wonder Logan passed out when he heard. They're not far from fainting themselves.

"I'm going to bed." – says Rogue. They all look at her.

"But it's only 5 pm!" – Kitty points out.

"Don't care. I had enough for today." – she says and walks away. The others follow her. Only Kitty, Victor and the Professor stay. Hank leans out the door.

"He's about to wake up." – he states. The Professor turns to Kitty.

"I believe it's best if you and Victor talk to him alone. I count on you, Kitty."

"Sure, Professor." – he's asking her to play the lightning rod, that's obvious.

Hank walks out, and Kitty and Victor walk in. They close the door behind them.

Logan's lying on a bed. His eyes slowly open. His vision is slightly blurry. He winks it away and sees Kitty sitting next to his bed. She puts her hand on his forehead.

"Logan?"

"Half-pint. . . " – he looks around the room and notices Victor leaning against a wall with his arms crossed in front of his chest. He jumps up.

"YOU!" – he grunts and extends his claws. He almost faints again for standing up too quickly. Kitty puts her hands on his shoulders and gently pushes him back.

"Sit down, Logan. Don't push yourself." – she says. Logan looks at her and pulls away from her touch. Kitty's heart sinks.

"Logan, please. . . don't be mad at me!" – she pleas. Her eyes well up. Logan notices this. His expression softens, but he doesn't say a thing.

"Jimmy." – says Victor. Logan grunts. He's snarling at him.

"Don't blame the girl."

"Oh, I don't blame her! I blame YOU!" – Logan growls. "How dare you lay a finger on her? She's just a kid!"

"I'm not a kid, Logan." – she puts her hand on his. "I love you, Logan. You know that. I never meant to hurt you. I never wanted to make you feel betrayed. Believe me! But. . . It happened. It just happened." – she's about to cry. Logan winces. He could never stand watching Kitty cry. It's like the opposite of good. He quickly pulls her in a hug.

"It's okay, Half-pint. I'm not mad at you. It's just. . . " – he looks Victor in the eye above Kitty's head and swallows a grunt. He lets go of her, his eyes still fixed on him. If Kitty wouldn't be here he'd already cut off his head. Victor's aware of that. The bald man's not stupid.
Now about the other thing. . .

"If it makes you feel any better, we're only half brothers. Same father." – says Victor.

"No! No it does not make me feel better! You tried to kill me! Not once! Not twice! You've been hunting for me for years! Hell! Decades!" – he yells.

"I was just. . . keeping an eye on you."

The grunt that comes out of Logan's throat is more animalistic than ever.

"Look, Jimmy, I'm sorry! I was mad at you, and handled it the wrong way. When you left team- "

"That's it? That's your excuse? You were resentful because I left Weapon X?"

"Because you left ME!" – Victor yells. Logan winces in surprise. "You turned around and walked away! After all I've done for you! I raised you, damn it! I was the only one who cared about you when we were kids! I took every job I could since I was 14, to put food on the table, to make you strong! To keep you alive! BECAUSE BROTHERS PROTECT EACH OTHER! . . . And then you just turned around and left!" – Logan's in a shock, Kitty's holding onto his hand. Victor takes a deep, calming breath before he goes on. "Listen. I understand why you did what you did. You were not like me. You've never really been an animal. But that's how I felt. Betrayed. Stepped over. Alone. It hurt. I was mad at you. I wanted you to suffer as much as I did. . . And I'm sorry for that."

When Logan realizes that he's finished and that he's still staring at him, he looks away bemusedly. There's a minute of awkward silence. Logan finally looks back at him.

"Tell me what my name is." – he demands in a calm voice.

"James Howlett."

"I. . . I. . . " – Logan mumbles.

"It's alright." – says Victor in a soft voice. "I don't expect you to jump into my arms. I know things between us will never be the way they were before. And it's fine." – he steps closer, puts his hand on Jimmy's shoulder and gently squeezes it. His expression's serious though.
"I just want you to know that you've never done anything wrong. Don't be afraid of the past. You're not an animal. You never were." – Logan closes his eyes, takes a deep breath and nods.

"Just take your time and think about it." – says Victor. Then he grabs Kitty's hand, pulls her up and swings her over his shoulder. Logan snaps up his head, but is too confused to react.
"Hey!" – Kitty squeals.

"And about her and me. . . " – Victor smirks. "Deal with it!" – he says and walks out the room, with the flouncing Kitten on his shoulder.

A/N:

Okay, Okay. . . I really had NO idea how to put this huge emotional mess between Logan and Victor. . . To tell you the truth I've been thinking about it since I started to write this story, but couldn't come up with anything. So I've decided that I'll just let it loose and write whatever comes to my mind. This is the result!

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