AN: I'm updating soon because you girls are so sweet. I have the next three chapters wrote I just need to type them. I'll work on getting them up as soon as I can.
Children in the Attic
It was never that Cas didn't want to be with the Winchesters. I wasn't late nights or hard work. It wasn't waking up at six in the morning to Dean 'reliving the pressure'. It had never been any of these things that made Cas want to go home. It was for Sam.
Cas had never wanted to take from Dean and Sam's morning routine. No one ever said anything but Cas always felt like such an intruder when he was there. Sam and Dean would move around the kitchen perfectly. How Sam would get juice, while Dean made eggs and they wouldn't let Cas help. So he just stood there and observed.
Dean and Sam had been making their own breakfast for years. John was always gone or had been up far too late the night before to bother getting up. They didn't care though, they were a team. And Dean always said
"We should be happy we aren't living in motel rooms across the state. I'll take making my own breakfast any day."
Sam had simply shaken his head in agreement with his brother.
It wasn't just being there in the morning though. It was the night too, because that was when Sam would come to talk to Dean. If he had any questions, fear, nightmares it was Dean he would go to, Dean's bed that he would crawl into in the middle of the night. And many times Cas he would lie up against till he fell back asleep. The boys never said that he took from this time. They always offered for him to stay, or bushed in many cases. He couldn't shake that feeling though, not for years.
It was Dean's sixteenth birthday that really changed everything. Cas was already sixteen and they were going to go out driving later. A permit was just as good as a license right? Eh who cared they had fake ID's. John had other ideas though. Dean didn't even think John would be home, he had been known to forget the boy's birthday's over the years. When he did it to Sam he still had Dean to make the 'magic' happen. Dean didn't have that though, sure Cas, and sometimes his family, would do something for Dean. There was only so much he could swing though.
So this year not only was John there, he had no work for the day. No plans to drag the boys out. No cases, strip clubs, or failed family diners. Instead he handed Dean two hundred dollars and a box of condoms. Dean just looked at his dad for a minute before smiling and pocketing both.
"That's not all I got for you boy." John had said gruff and sleep worn. Perhaps he had worked the night before to get those gifts.
"Oh yeah?" Dean said.
"Yeah I've got a surprise for you, well for you and Cas."
"Uh?" Was all Cas threw in, but not Dean.
"Is it a stripper?" Dean had joked, causing John to laugh. More out of the fact it made Cas turn so white before turning pink.
"No not this year boy, we'll talk when you turn eighteen." The thing was Cas couldn't tell if John was joking.
"It's in my office why don't you go get it." John gestured his head toward his office.
"And take Cas with you."
"Kay."
Was all Dean threw out as he grabbed Cas by the wrist and they both headed to Johns office. When they open the door they weren't in and office at all. Instead they were in a room, a small room but a room none the less. The boys looked around at the twin bed simple dresser and single night stand before turning back to the door where John was now leaning.
"See I was thinking." John started when both boys finally looked at him.
"I always had that big bed room that I never really even use and there you and Cas still share that full bed all the time. "
Cas looked at Dean and he had a look on his face like he was catching on, Cas was still lost.
"And really Dean you always took the smallest room so Sammy got a good one."
He smiled at Dean at that point.
"So I was thinking why don't I give you may room, with a new bed and dressers and give Cas you old room." John trailed of after that.
"Are you serious dad?" Dean smiled.
"Yeah and really I never got Cas anything this year so it worked."
"You gave me fifty bucks, John." Cas chose to speak up.
"Eh money doesn't count boy, you should know that by now. So Dean you gonna go check out your new room?"
"Yeah"
Was all Dean said before heading upstairs to Johns old room. When he walked in though he froze causing Cas to run into his back. The room was done already. It had a new queen bed with gently used furniture that neither boy had seen before, all in black and very Dean. ACDC posters littered the walls and a CD case was mounted to the fare one. That room was cool.
"Got you a new bed boy and gave Sammy my old one so I could have his. Thought Cas could have yours. That work for you boys?"
"Yeah!" They said in unison before a really rare thing in the Winchester house happened, they hugged.
"I hope this will help you feel more at home Cas." John whispered to Cas after Dean went farther into the room to look around. And really, it did.