Hey everybody =) If you want to go check out my one-shots, please do! There is the new one up now!!! I also realized that my Chapter 16 was very jumbled for some reason and I re-wrote it. There is a pretty important flashback so I would love it if you took the time to read then end again.
Chapter 21
Bella POV
I knew that this needed to be done and honestly, I
think that I have delayed long enough… I took a deep
breath,
"Yes…" I answered Carlisle's question. I told them
everything. I started with the first night when Charlie came
home late and drunk. I was surprised that I had enough water in my
body to produce tears, but apparently, I had plenty!
I watched my angel's faces grow dark as I described my night, Esme and Alice looked horrified, Rosalie looked enraged a long with Jasper and Emmett. Edward looked tortured. Carlisle seemed to be struggling to stay composed.
"Was t-that the only time?" Carlisle
asked. I looked at him only since his expressions was the easiest to
bear.
"No-" a loud cracking noise came from where Emmett was
sitting; he had broken his chair. I gulped and fought against the
panic attack. Oh god- he was going to hurt me.
"Bella, its ok,
don't worry. He just cares about you." A calm voice informed me.
That only sent me reeling back to my last encounter with Charlie, 'I
love you baby' he had told me…
"Deep breaths Bella.
Count your breathing- concentrate!" Carlisle's voice reached me
and I tried to do as I was told. I suddenly felt pressure on my hand.
Before I could panic, I remembered that it was Edward touching
me and not Charlie. Edward brought his arm to my chest.
"Breathe
with me Bella." I concentrated on the rising and falling of his
chest. I slowly calmed down and I was back at the hospital; in both
mind and body.
"Good girl." Edward approved fondly before
dropping our hand back on the bed. However, the deep breathing had
only reminded me of the pain in my ribs…
"I'm sorry
Bellsy," again, comfort in the familiar nickname "I was just mad
at him." He seethed. "You know I could never hurt you."
He said hurt at the end. I looked at his bulky figure.
"I know.
I just forget. And its not you that I am afraid of, it's the
flashbacks you bring." I smiled sadly and sighed,
"Carlisle, I
want to finish this now. Do you have any pain medication that
won't make me sleep?" Edward groaned quietly and Carlisle nodded.
Once the pain started to ease, I continued my horror story,
"The
next day, when Marc came home, he had brought a guest with him." I
wasn't ready yet to tell them about Marc/Charlie- it was too soon.
"I overheard them when they were in the hallway. 'first time,
she might need taming, but no need to be gentle. She is pure, I am
afraid it will cost more.'" I repeated his words with disgust
in my voice. Everybody in the room growled, including Carlisle. I
wasn't fazed, if I could growl, I could.
"They then started
being 'nice' to me so I was sure that I wasn't supposed to hear
them. Marc told me that he bought a 'dress' that he wanted me to
wearto dinner." I frowned at the memory of that particular outfit.
"It was the sluttiest outfit I had ever seen. Instinct overtook me
as I packed my bag for school and some spare clothes and I threw them
out of my window. The man who 'bought' me then called me down
again and it was his turn to… touch me." I said unable to read my
friend's expressions as I was blinded by tears. "I ran out of the
kitchen window, and that's the night I came to you." A small
smile graced my lips as I remembered our cookie time.
"Oh
Bella! We should have figured out that night! We didn't- we would
have-" Rosalie's voice broke. I temporarily released Edward's
hand to reach out to her. She came to my side quickly and held my
hand both of hers.
"No, don't blame yourself. I didn't want
anybody to know." I said gently before chuckling without humor, "So
I kind of messed up when I showed up on your doorstep." They all
looked hurt and confused.
"The nightmare." I sighed. " I have been having that dream since I was five, but that night, it was… worse." I closed my eyes and frowned at the memory. "I scream almost every time, I should have known not to come and disturb you guys." I scowled regretfully; I was a dreadful friend.
"We
were all glad you came that night honey." Jasper said. What? How
did he-? How did he know how I felt? There were a few more minutes of
silence before Esme broke it hesitantly.
"Last time?" she
asked. I tensed, I couldn't talk about that night yet, it was too
fresh. I was on the verge of another flashback. No nononono!
"Enough
for now." Jasper said firmly as Edward reclaimed my hand, rubbing
circles in my hand. "Deep breaths." He whispered and I nodded
before calming down.
"I want to sleep now." I wanted to
avoid anymore conversation. They all nodded and waved goodbye as they
stood up reluctantly. This frustrated me, I wanted to hug
them, I really did, but I was scared. Tears sprung to my eyes as
anger overtook me due to my lack of physical contact. Jasper turned
around in surprise before he asked,
"What's wrong Bella?"
Alice gasped when she saw my tears.
"Oh Bella, are you in pain?
Carlisle!" She called. I shook my head strongly even though my body
did actually throb.
"I can't touch you." I said pitifully.
"I want to be able to hug you." I cried. All their faces crumpled
as Rose approached me slowly and bent down to give me a short, gentle
hug. However, I still tensed. I hated my body's responses.
"You
will." she whispered "You just need time." She said sadly and I
nodded before determination over took me.
"Emmett, can you
please help me sit up?" I asked. He looked shocked but nodded and
approached me slowly. He put his arm behind my shoulders and I
stiffened but nodded for his to continue. "Thank you." I said in
relief as I reached for his hand gave him a short squeeze and pulled
back. It was short but he was obviously pleased.
"No problem
Bellsy."
"You know, that sounds oddly familiar." I chuckled
and so did they, but it was forced. I could feel my eyes droop and
Edward said,
"Okay, time for bed." He laughed at my pout but I
gave in. I didn't feel determined or courageous any more and I
felt more comfortable around girls.
"Esme, Alice?" I asked.
They nodded in understanding and helped me lay down once again.
"Go
to bed Bella." Edward pressed.
"Mhmmm" I mumbled in
agreement before searching for his hand; it comforted me. I found it
and he held on to mine. I never realized how cold his touch was, but
like everything else about him; it was comforting.
I fell asleep, not caring hat all the Cullens were still here, watching me. The fact is, they are still here even when they know the truth…
They really are my angels.
Edward POV
I really wish I
could sleep. This day has been draining and I just wished I could
escape it all for a few hours. I looked down at Bella, our fingers
still intertwined. She also looked worn… I was being selfish, her
day was obviously worse than mine or any of my siblings. Having to
relive her… ordeal must have been extremely painful and not to
mention traumatizing. To even think that someone could,
could-
"Edward, stop. You need to stay in control for Bella."
Jasper reminded me. Bella started whimpering. Carlisle had to go
attend to other patients, but he was still close by.
"Carlisle,
I think Bella needs more pain medication." I said in a normal
volume.
Be right there. He answered in his
thoughts.
Bella's hand then grasped mine tighter.
"No
no no. Your not my father…" She murmured then started thrashing.
Oh no- another nightmare.
"Alice, Esme. Restrain her!" They
gently held her down.
"Bella, its okay. You're here with us,
you're safe." I said while she held onto my hand like it was her
life-line.
"Bella," I begged. "You're hurting yourself.
Please wake up, please. For me." Her eyes shot open and she looked
around wildly. Esme and Alice released her immediately. She looked
down to our hands; hers was white due to the force she had been
holding mine with.
"We are all here, always." I calmed her. My
family hovered a few paces behind her bed. They didn't want to
crowd her.
"My leg really hurts." She whimpered at the
exact time Carlisle arrived.
"Bella, I am going to give you
medication for the pain and to help you sleep okay?" She shook her
head frantically.
"Please, I don't want to sleep."
"We
will all be here when you wake up. We will protect you." Jasper
said with a fierce emotion burning in his eyes. Bella slowly
nodded.
"Giver her something that knocks her out cold. She can't
take any more physical or emotional pain." Jasper whispered too low
for Bella to hear. Carlisle agreed.
"I think she will need it
every night. At least until she is strong enough to fight." Sighed
Carlisle. I tapped into his thoughts,
My daughter never
deserved this. Never. I sighed as well. Bella should be living a
happy life.
The medication was helping as Bella's hand
loosened and eventually became limp. A soft knock interrupted the
silence. Nurse Roberts walked in.
"Excuse me, but somebody is
here to visit Miss Barker." An old man followed by a teenage boy
walked in. We all gasped before narrowing our eyes.
What was a werewolf doing here?!
Hehe… The werewolves finally get involved. But they do not have a large role, so sorry for pro-werewolves. Oh and again (sorry to repeat myself) I believe it will be truly beneficial for you to read the one-shot in Carlisle POV as it gives new insight to the story =D
Thanks again to all my readers! Your reviews cheer me up beyond belief and make me love writing!
