I really wish I could whistle. It looks so simple when people do it. They purse their lips and blow out air, a soft ringing sound coming out. Whenever I try to whistle I just wind up spitting on whoever is near me and look like I'm blowing out candles on a cake. To many people this may not seem like a big deal, not being able to whistle doesn't exactly grant me permission to use the handicapped stall in the loos. But with my luck I know there will come a life or death event where I am forced to whistle and if I don't I will be beheaded.

"Stop trying to whistle, you're spitting food bits on me," Gwen complained at dinner.

"I must practice on every occasion in the event whistling becomes a matter of life or death."

"I don't know why I've chosen to be friends with you. Maybe I should consider my other options," Gwen said looking around the Great Hall.

"Please, who else would be friends with you? You're obnoxious."

Gwen pulled a face and flicked a pea at me. The pea landed directly in my eye. "What the fuck Gwen," I said clasping one hand over my eye and my other hand was gesturing wildly. "How could you do that! Now I'm going to have to wear an eye-patch and people will make pirate jokes at me." I threw my free hand behind me in frustration and I hit something behind me. I turned around and stared -with my good eye- at Remus Lupin lying on the ground holding his crotch and rolling around in pain.

I just accidentally assaulted Remus Lupin's penis.

This really isn't how I imagined the first time going. I thought somewhere along the lines of rose petals on the ground and bed. Classical music playing in the background and maybe a rhythmic steel drum played by Sirius Black echoing from the bathroom.

You know, typical things teenage girls hope for when thinking of having sex with Remus Lupin. I was determined that the next time I had sex with a person for the first time it would be better than my actual first time which ended with a black eye and a limp.

I should probably concentrate on Remus, a person who I've been just prevented from ever pro-creating.

"I'm so sorry," I said rushing down to him and without thinking hugged him. For a moment he stopped writhing on the floor and we both realized how awkward of a position we were in. He was curled into a ball, his hands on his crotch, while I was hugging his back, one arm around his neck and the other around his waist. It looked like we were spooning on the Great Hall floor.

"Er-it's okay," Remus said awkwardly.

I stood up and dusted myself off, looking around the Great Hall to make sure no one saw it. Unfortunately the whole Great Hall, and the teachers were staring at us. Remus stood up and smoothed out his cloak, flashing a smirk. "Next time just ask."

Oh Merlin kill me now. Remus is giving me one of those smirks that make me want to jump his bones and his suggestive comment isn't helping the matter. He may be the quietest of his group but Remus had snide witty remarks that usually caught people off guard.

"I'm so sorry," I breathed, trying to hide the blush that was taking over my entire face. "My hand has a mind of it's own and tends to rush towards a target without my permission."

"You have a vey perverted hand."

His wolfish grin had me swooning and left me dazed, which is why I said this, "my hand likes penis."

Remus looked unaffected and casually responded, "I'll keep that in mind."

I sat back down on my bench, with the intention of turning away to further prevent myself from saying anything else but Remus had other plans. He placed one hand on the table next to me and leaned down so that he was close to my face. My breath hitched in my throat and my face flushsed.

"I was wondering if you wanted to study later in the library." He said in a dangerously low voice.

"By myself? Yeah, I was already planning on it."

Remus chuckled, "I meant with me."

"What?" I asked not able to believe what was going on. Was Remus Lupin really asking me to go to the library with him? It's not exactly the let's go snog in a broom cupboard proposal I was expecting but it certainly was enough excitement for me to carry through till Christmas.

"Library, eight o'clock. I'll see you there."

He turned and left the Great Hall without another word. I've got to say his confidence is a little distracting, and not necessarily in a good way. The reason I had always liked Remus was because even though he was attractive and funny he was quiet and didn't use his looks to get women. He was acting like Sirius and it was a little off-putting. I liked the tentative quiet Remus better. His quietness led to be more observant, I always thought that he saw through people and could really get down to their core, that's what was so appealing about him. In fact, it was because of that trait was the real reason why I started noticing him, it was because he noticed me.

It was third year and I was leaving Potions class. James and Sirius went running past me and knocked into me, the impact was hard and I fell down, my books and ink scattering on the ground. I cursed under my breath as I gathered up my things. Suddenly another hand reached out and started gathering my things. I looked up and was surprised to see Remus Lupin kneeling in front of me.

He looked up at me and gave me a shy smile. "Sorry about them, they get carried away some times too much energy, I've been telling them to cut down on their sugar intake."

I stared at Remus curiously, not able to say anything. I was silent as I stared at him through my bangs, my hair blocking my view. Suddenly Remus reached out and brushed my hair away from my eyes. "That's better, now I can see you." He smiled one last time and handed over my books before standing up and following after his friends.

That's when I fell for Remus, he saw me, he took the time to observe me. He wasn't like James or Sirius or Peter who were too wrapped up in themselves to notice anyone else. But Remus was quiet and took his time and observed. But now, now he was just like the others.

Despite my dissapointment with Remus I still met him at the library later that night. He was already there sitting in a plush chair, a book in his hand. I couldn't help but smile to myself as I watched him. This was the Remus I knew, the slightly withdrawn person I fell for all those years ago. His brow was furrowed in consentration but a serene look graced his face, momentarily blinding me from the scars that littered his body.

Maybe the Remus that I'd seen the past few days had been a fluke, maybe the Remus that had written me a list of his favorite books was back. I set down my books by his chair and he looked up. A smile graced his face but soon morphed into a smirk. I could feel my hope draining and I sighed heavily as I sat down in my chair.

REMUS

Well that was odd. One minute she looked happy to see me and the next she looked dissapointed. She certainly was an unpredictable bird. Maybe I just needed to lay some charm on her more, that usually worked for Sirius. Me trying to be charming and more smoothe was awkward most of the time. I better related to Ella, constantly saying embarassing things, but I knew that in order to get her to hang out with me more to set her up with Sirius I would have to act like Sirius. Who wants to hang out with someone quiet that would rather be reading a book than out in society anyway?

"Is something the matter?" I asked.

She looked nervous at my question and bit the inside of her lip while crossing one leg over the other. The action was rather distracting as the skirt shifted higher up on her legs and revealed smoothe milky white skin. "I don't know if it's my place to say anything but you've been acting weird the past few days."

I looked at her, so she had noticed my change. But instead of her seeming to like the change she seemed put-off by it. "What do you mean?" I asked making sure that she wasn't talking about something else. I mean, I hardly knew this girl, how would she be able to tell I had changed so easily?

She looked even more nervous and I felt momentarily bad for making her so uncomfortable but I wanted to hear what she had to say. She licked her lips carefully and chewed on her bottom lip, the effect was very distracting and it was clear she had no idea she was doing it. "Well, I don't really know if it's my place to say anything."

"No please, go ahead."

She sucked in a deep breath, "well you're acting like...well-Sirius. Not to say that being Sirius is bad it's just that, well, there's already one of him should the world really be allowed more than one? Youve always been the quiet but thoughtful one of the group, that's what was so appealing about you. Er-" she looked down in embarssament. "What I meant to say is that you were fine how you were. There was no need to change."

She slowly raised her eyes to look at me. I was floored, she actually noticed me when I was the quiet Marauder. Not only noticed, because most people noticed me because of who I hung out with, but seemed to understand me. I opened my mouth to reply but was cut off by Sirius who came traipezing in.

"Sorry I'm late Remus, ran into Snivellus on the way. Oh," he said looking between me and Ella. "Am I interrupting something?"

Ella looked upset and slouched in her chair and pulled out a book from her backpack. She sighed heavily and didn't spare one glance at Sirius.

Maybe getting her and Sirius to get together will be harder than I planned...

A/N: Okay so this chapter is different, less funny but I needed to start establishing Remus/Ella because up until now we've only seen why Ella likes him but we've got to start seeing Remus noticing her, slowly, but it will happen. Tell me what you think :) 18 reviews on my last chapter? You guys are awesome!