Chapter 17
"Sasuke stop it!" Neji then yelled, almost screamed, as he scrambled up from the ground and ran behind the tree.
But Sasuke was already close enough again, to drag Neji from behind the tree and slam him back against it.
Neji frowned as he hit the tree and looked at Sasuke, seeing him coming closer. He knew for sure now that he was going to die. He felt panic rushing through him like mad, and when he saw the fist coming closer, he was simply scared to death. He could do nothing else then scream and pray for his life now.
"Sasuke please stop it!" He then screamed out of fear for his life. Sasuke had lost it badly.
Just when Neji thought he was going to get hit, the fist was pulled away and Sasuke kept still. He was frowning and growling, but his fist wasn't moving. His grip loosened. And he stared at Neji, as if hoping he would say more.
Neji frowned deeply as Sasuke stared at him. In his panic he tried to get loose, but the grip was still hard enough to bruise him in the process.
"Please let me go!" He then yelled, hoping it would make Sasuke go back even more.
Sasuke's grip on Neji loosened now as he kept looking at Neji. He growled, as if fighting against himself as his grip tightened, then loosened again.
"... Neji.." He then growled.
Neji stared at Sasuke, not being able to remove the scared look from his face.
"...Please tell me you won't kill me." He then said.
Sasuke suddenly quickly pushed Neji away and then turned around, then back to Neji again and then grabbed his head. He was fighting himself and the monster in him. Somehow, Sasuke had become conscious after hearing Neji so scared. He just couldn't stop it completely yet. The monster inside of him was so strong.
Neji quickly stood again, the push having been hard enough to toss him on the ground again as a weak doll, and he walked back carefully, hoping to get away. He was bleeding badly from when Sasuke had slashed across his chest, and he was still so dizzy.
Sasuke watched Neji from the corner of his eye and the monster in him made him follow Neji once again. He could not stop himself from grabbing Neji, but managed to take a turn and hit a tree instead of Neji. He kept pounding into the tree, telling himself to stop. To turn back. He had to stop this, because otherwise he would kill Neji.
"Sasuke please calm down!" Neji now yelled, trying to get loose, but Sasuke's hand could practically go around his waist.
Sasuke finally managed to let go of Neji again and then turned to him, looking as if he had lost his mind again. But then he talked again.
"Don't run..."
Neji looked at Sasuke and then understood that Sasuke was trying to take over his own body. So he complied and stood still, just looking at Sasuke while he bit his lip, trying to not panic. Of course, when he ran away Sasuke would follow him. How stupid of him. Sasuke was more of an animal right now then a human.
Sasuke looked back at Neji for a while, then managed to take some more distance and then let out a softer roar. His head was hurting and he felt like he could faint any time, which probably meant that if he did that, the monster would take over again. So he was trying his hardest not to lose consciousness. He felt his knees go weak and let himself drop to the floor. He had to do this to save Neji.
Neji automatically took a step back and swallowed right after, telling himself not to move. Coming closer might be threatening for Sasuke, running away would be a sign of weakness.
Sasuke started breathing in and out heavily and then grabbed to his head again. His head moved forward slowly until it hit the ground and he felt like he was shaking. It wasn't that he was shaking though, he was turning back to his normal self.
Neji let out a sigh of relief as he pressed himself against a tree when he saw Sasuke slowly becoming smaller and smaller. He was changing back into his human form.
Once Sasuke was back to his own self, he was shaking and not just a little. All he was wearing was his torn up pants, the rest had been torn to pieces, and his headache had never been worse. But he didn't care about that. All he cared about was the people he had hurt. Especially Neji and Itachi.
Neji looked at Sasuke and quickly went to his side, helping him up.
"God.. are you ok?" He then asked, searching for wounds. His eyes widened as he saw that Sasuke's head was bleeding. "Shit.. we have to get back to the house. You're bleeding."
Sasuke put his hand on his head, wincing a little from the contact and then looked at his fingers, that were now covered in blood. He then looked at Neji.
"It doesn't m-matter... Are you ok?" He asked, trying to stand on his own.
"Of course I'm ok, we need to get back to the house to stop the bleeding." Neji said, as he helped Sasuke up and made him lean on him.
"... No we need to get to Itachi first." Sasuke said, not wanting to lean on Neji, but needing to anyway.
"And he's in the house." Neji said, as he started to walk. "Come on." He ignored his own wounds because now, Sasuke was more important.
"You're hurt too.." Sasuke said as he and Neji walked back. ".. Someone needs to look at those wounds.."
"I'll look at it myself, don't worry." Neji said. When they arrived home they saw that the whole house was a mess, and a few people were unconscious. Karin was just waking up, Shikamaru, Itachi and Suigetsu were still out of it and Kiba was awake, trying to help the others to wake up together with Kisame and Deidara.
"Hey." Neji said, while he helped Sasuke into the house.
Sasuke quickly looked away as he saw everyone who was awake staring at him.
".. Are you ok Neji un?" Deidara asked worried, then turned to Itachi, who he was sitting next to. The elder had just let out a moan.
"Yeah.. I'm ok." Neji said, nodding to Deidara. "I need some bandages for Sasuke though, do you know where I can find them?"
"Wait a second." Kisame said as he walked towards the kitchen and started searching for bandages.
"Woah man, you look bad." Kiba said, frowning to Sasuke. "Are you ok?"
".. Don't ask me that." Sasuke said as he pulled away from Neji and stumbled to Itachi, sitting down next to him like Deidara had. Sasuke could care less about himself.
"Come on, it's not like you can help it." Kiba said, shrugging. "How is Itachi anyway, Deidara?" He was taking care of Shikamaru in the mean time. Karin now stood to wash her face.
"I'm not sure.. I'm sure he took quite the blow un. Itachi wake up." Deidara said, shaking Itachi softly. Sasuke kept silent now as he looked at Itachi and grabbed his hand softly. If anything serious had happened to Itachi, he would never forgive himself.
"Seeing his face I believe that yeah." Kiba said, frowning. Half of Itachi's face was all black and blue. He took a look at Neji, who wasn't looking all too good himself.
Deidara stroke through Itachi's hair now, still worried sick.
"Itachi please wake up un." He said, shaking his boyfriend again.
"Neji go take care of yourself." Sasuke said, his eyes not leaving Itachi for even a second.
Kisame came walking back with the bandages now and handed them to Neji, who gratefully took them.
"I'll take care of you first, your head is bleeding." Neji said, as he took some of it off and started to wrap it around Sasuke's head. Kisame sat down now and stared at Itachi as well, hoping for him to wake up.
"Damn.. he probably has a concussion." He said, as there was still not a reaction coming from Itachi.
"... I hope that's all he might have.." Deidara said, continuing to stroke through Itachi's hair and over the cheek that wasn't bruised. "Thanks for saving me Kisame un.."
Sasuke let Neji take care of him, as he felt his eyes getting heavy. He was tired, but he didn't want to give in. Not until he knew everyone was ok. He turned around slightly and saw Shikamaru waking up.
"Don't stress about it." Kisame said as he kept looking at Itachi.
"Shika!" Kiba meanwhile cheered, giving Shikamaru a big hug. "Damn sleepyhead, you'd better stay awake! And I know you weren't knocked out for real, you just acted like you were."
"Yeah well running away would have been a stupid thing to do. Might as well keep quiet." Shikamaru said, rubbing his head.
"... Can't we do anything to wake him up un?" Deidara asked.
Everyone looked at Itachi now, and Kiba let out a snort.
"Funny that no one is really concerned about Suigetsu." He said.
"I was concerned." Juugo bluntly said.
"..Suigetsu will be fine." Sasuke said and pushed Neji's hand away out of reflex when Neji made the bandages touch his wound too hard.
"Sasuke calm down." Neji immediately snapped. Right at that moment though, a groan came from Itachi.
Sasuke leaned forward immediately, ignoring Neji for a second. Deidara did the same thing, quickly grabbing Itachi's hand.
"Itachi? Can you hear me un?" He asked.
Itachi frowned slightly as his hand moved up to his head, and let out another groan in response.
"Itachi." Kisame now said, hoping to get more out of Itachi then just a groan.
Deidara stroke Itachi's hand now as everyone looked worried and waited patiently for Itachi to say something. Sasuke even stopped breathing for a second. What if Itachi was anything but ok?
Itachi slowly opened his eyes, letting out just another moan, as he rubbed over his head. He immediately closed his eyes against the light again.
"...My head hurts." He then groaned, his voice sounding hoarse.
"Oh thank God un." Deidara said, letting out a sigh as he heard Itachi's voice. ".. You'll be fine." Sasuke let out the breath he had been holding.
"Do you remember what happened?" He asked.
"...Not really." Itachi muttered. His mind was all clouded right now, he only felt immense pain.
"We need to get him in a bed and give him a painkiller un." Deidara said.
"He has a concussion doesn't he?" Sasuke asked.
"Probably, and not a small one either." Neji, who had been observing Itachi as well, said. He finished tying the bandages around Sasuke's head. He then walked towards the kitchen and started cleaning his own wounds.
"Can you carry him Kisame un?" Deidara asked, not letting go of Itachi's hand. Sasuke now got up and followed Neji into the kitchen. He knew Itachi would be ok, they had to talk later. Right now, he had to talk to Neji.
".. Neji.. I'm so sorry.." He said, once he was in the kitchen, next to Neji.
Neji looked at Sasuke while he was pulling off his shirt to clean the wound better, and he let out a slight sigh.
"It doesn't matter Sasuke." He then said.
"Look at me and say that again." Sasuke said, a look of guilt on his face when he saw all of Neji's wounds.
Neji bit his lip slightly.
"Look.. of course I didn't like what happened, but you can't change this." He then said. "The monster is inside of you, it's part of who you are. I love the rest about you, which is so much more than just the risk of you becoming a monster."
".. I said look at me." Sasuke said. "How can I believe you, if you can't even look at me?"
Neji looked at Sasuke now.
"You won't believe me anyway." He then said.
".. I was stupid for not believing you or Itachi." Sasuke said. ".. It's hard to understand why you would still love me.. but I believe you do now."
"You do?" Neji asked, pleasantly surprised by that.
"I do... and I love you too." Sasuke said. "I still don't think you should be with me, and I still have issues... but if you want me... I would be the biggest moron in the world not to accept it."
Neji slightly smiled now.
"Well.. I'm glad to hear that." He said. "Let me ask you one thing though. Why did you become a monster this time?"
".. I was mad at you and Itachi for loving me.. 'Cause I just don't think I deserve it. It got angry because of it.." Sasuke said.
"..Did you become angry of furious?"
"Furious." Sasuke answered. ".. I broke down.."
"Do you think that something like this might happen again?" Neji quietly asked. He didn't want to admit it, but he had been really scared.
"I don't know.. Not if I can get happy again." Sasuke softly said. "It only happens when I really break down... it seems to be anger that does the trick, but it's really despair. I just show it as anger.."
"So just now you were just desperate, right?" Neji asked, trying to not sound like he was saving his own butt.
"Why do you wanna know Neji?" Sasuke asked, knowing these questions weren't just out of curiosity.
"..Just to know for sure you won't change all of a sudden." Neji said, shrugging.
"... So you're scared of me." Sasuke said, looking at Neji with a look of guilt once again obvious on his face.
"Well.. not scared, but if I have to run for my life every month or so..." Neji said, shrugging.
"Then you don't wanna be with me." Sasuke said, finishing Neji's sentence.
"...I'm not sure." Neji said. "Like I said, I love you and don't want anything more than being with you, but having such a high risk to die... I couldn't get away Sasuke."
".. I get it.." Sasuke said and then looked at the ground. He then let out an awkward laugh. "..Guess I shouldn't have thought it could work out now."
"...Sasuke please... tell me that it's an emotion you barely ever feel..." Neji muttered. "You tore the whole house apart looking for me..."
".. If I had been a good person I wouldn't ever feel it.. right now I feel like giving up all the time.." Sasuke said. ".. I thought maybe you and Itachi could save me... but I understand now that I can't ask that of you."
"I want to make you happy so you won't have those feelings anymore Sasuke, but I need to know how intense this emotion is." Neji said. "Because if you turn into a monster every time you get angry, then it's an impossible case and I'll be dead within a month."
".. If you say things like that, you make it worse.." Sasuke said. "It's just so stupid that all the time I could have had with you I wasted on trying to find my memory. And now that I have it, I'm wasting my time trying to forget.. I'm just not meant to be happy I guess."
Neji just let out a sigh now.
"...You're only making things more difficult for yourself." He then said. "I'm just asking you a question Sasuke, and all I need is an answer."
"No you're asking me questions I don't have the answer to Neji." Sasuke said. "I don't know if this will happen every month, I don't know how I will feel tomorrow or in a week or in a month. I think I have it under control, but I just don't know."
"The only thing I want to know is what emotions you feel when you become a monster." Neji said, frowning deeply while getting frustrated.
"I just told you didn't I?" Sasuke said annoyed. "Despair, devastated, like giving up, that's what I feel like when it happens."
"Well I obviously missed that part." Neji now snapped. "Considering your reaction just now, I guess I have to think about this some longer. You said you wanted me back, then why are you acting so difficult?"
"You're the one who isn't sure whether he wants to be with me or not you know. That's why I'm being 'difficult'." Sasuke snapped back. "You're still scared of me, you still hate a part of me, so why the hell should we even try? 'I' want you, but not if you're not sure whether or not you want me too."
"I can't believe you Sasuke, I just want to know how big the chance is that I'm going to die and if you don't want to give me a safe feeling by answering my questions I won't ever feel safe with you again." Neji snapped, giving Sasuke a glare.
"Yeah well I don't know how big that chance is." Sasuke snapped back. "That's what I'm trying to tell you."
"And 'I' am trying to find that out." Neji snapped with a slight growl. "You have your damn memory back, you know what happened when you became your monster state. I don't get it how you can't remember how often you feel the emotions you felt when you became a monster before 'this'. I know that me crying almost never happens, unless I have an emotional period. Then I cry once or twice in a week. Don't you have any knowledge about yourself?"
"Yeah well things have changed in my life you idiot." Sasuke snapped back. "I 'used' to turn into that monster every month or so, but I also 'used' to hate Itachi and I also 'used' to refuse to love someone. Things have changed, so I don't know how often anything will happen."
"That's not what I asked from you, is it?" Neji growled. "You know what, stay in this room, go cry in a corner, filled with self pity, and I'll let you hear if I will stay with you or not. 'Now' you gave me the information I needed, thanks 'a lot' for answering my questions this fast." He then turned around, walked out of the door and slammed it closed behind him.
"Whatever." Sasuke snapped after him and then went upstairs to check on Itachi. Neji would never understand it anyway and he would just be unhappy staying here. So if he wanted to go, then Sasuke was gonna let him.
Itachi closed his eyes while Karin was busy with healing him. He still had a huge headache from the concussion, and Karin was healing his damaged head. He could feel the throbbing pain easing away. Like always, healers amazed him. They could take pain away as quickly as it came. As he felt Karin was nearly done, he opened his eyes.
"Thank you Karin." He then said. "I feel the pain erasing already."
Karin nodded at him, smiling.
"You're welcome. You should be able to do the things you usually do now, with a slightly higher risk of getting a headache though. That headache should be gone in a few hours." She said, nodding once again and taking the stuff she had used to heal Itachi with, with her. As soon as Karin was out of the room, Kisame got up to close and lock the door, as Deidara sat down on the bed next to Itachi and grinned at him.
"You know we should celebrate you're ok un." He said.
Itachi slightly snorted at his blonde lover now.
"I'm still having a slight headache you know." He then said.
"Well they say sex works wonders with headaches un." Deidara said and wriggled his eyebrows as Kisame came walking back as well.
"Scoot over." He said as he sat down on the other side of Itachi, smirking broadly.
Itachi sat up a little and smirked at Deidara.
"You guys'd better make it true." He then said, as he pulled Deidara closer and kissed him full on the lips.
"Oh we will." Kisame said as he pushed the two smaller men to the middle of the bed and then sat down beside them, starting to kiss Itachi's neck. Deidara just pulled on Itachi's clothes as he kissed his lover back passionately.
Itachi let out a slight moan as he followed his uke's wishes and loosened his shirt and pants, letting Deidara undress him. He moved an arm backwards and used it to pull Kisame against him. He kept on kissing Deidara though, making the kiss slightly fuller.
Both Deidara as Kisame pulled off Itachi's shirt completely and Kisame made quick work of Itachi's pants. Deidara chuckled a little into the kiss now.
".. You've never undressed before me when it's just the two of us un.." He said, obviously enjoying that with Kisame next to him, he had a little more power over Itachi. Kisame laughed a little, before starting to kiss from Itachi's neck to his chest.
"Hmm.. let's hope you like the change." Itachi hummed as he moved his hands under Deidara's shirt now. He knew Deidara needed a little more attention than Kisame right now. And if Kisame didn't like it he knew he would show it immediately.
Deidara looked at Itachi and then let him pull off his shirt, before diving in for another kiss. Kisame now managed to get to one of Itachi's nipples and started sucking on it as his hand came closer and closer to Itachi's underpants, and especially what was in them.
Itachi moaned while he moved his hand into Deidara's pants and stroke over the hardening bulge in them, trying to get Deidara in the mood. He was obviously teasing Deidara right now.
As Deidara moaned as well and bucked his hips slightly, Kisame stopped kissing and sucking on Itachi's skin.
"Give me a little attention too will ya." He said, grinning, but obviously meaning it too.
Itachi gave Kisame a slight smirk now.
"I'm taking care of my uke here now." He then said. He did turn his head a little and kissed the huge man on the lips passionately, while he kept on stroking Deidara.
Kisame grabbed Itachi by the hair and kissed him back. This time, Deidara took his chance to touch, kiss and lick Itachi's body, while moaning from what said man was doing to him. Both Deidara's hand as Kisame's now moved down and they stroke over Itachi's cock at the exact same time, not caring that each other's hands were in the way.
Itachi let out a groan as the actions from both his lovers lead his underwear to slide down, making him fully naked. And excited. He started to harden, so he quickly pulled down Deidara's pants as well. He then reached backwards and started tugging on Kisame's pants.
Kisame pulled off his pants and shirt and once all three of them were completely naked, he kissed Itachi deeply again and started to stroke Itachi's length roughly. Deidara tried pleasing Itachi as well, but Kisame was in the way, so he scowled a little, trying to push Kisame away.
Itachi noticed while moaning, and he grabbed Kisame's hand and guided it towards his ass instead, allowing Deidara some space in front of him. To make it up to Kisame he moved his hand back and started stroking the blue haired man behind him.
Deidara immediately kissed Itachi now and started to rub his cock again, now that Kisame had something else to do. Said man groaned at Itachi's movements, but did as requested anyhow and started rubbing Itachi's entrance firmly. His other hand was wrapped around Itachi's body, toying with one of his nipples.
Itachi gasped slightly while he kissed Deidara, enjoying the touches of both boys immensely. He did know that now he had allowed Kisame at his entrance he wouldn't let go of it anymore, so he had to work on getting Deidara in the mood. So he broke the kiss and lowered himself down, letting go of Kisame, and started to lick over Deidara's organ, while moving one hand under Deidara and starting to stroke his entrance.
Deidara had to move back a little and grabbed Itachi by the hair as he started licking. He moaned loudly and swallowed a little at seeing Itachi so... not dominant. It was both weird, as strangely empowering. Kisame smirked now and started inserting his fingers into Itachi's body, rapidly thrusting them in and out. He knew Itachi barely needed any preparing.
Itachi groaned a little as he immediately started deepthroating Deidara, knowing he should hurry. He stopped for a moment to wet his fingers and then he continued again, moving his fingers over Deidara's entrance, teasingly pressing onto it.
Deidara started panting heavily now, closing his eyes as Itachi worked his body so well. So far for any power he had had over Itachi. Kisame now grabbed Itachi's cock again, giving it a firm squeeze.
"Hurry up with that uke of yours. I'm not gonna wait a whole lot longer." He said.
Itachi let out a groan, wanting to glare at Kisame, but of course he was too occupied at the moment. He did what Kisame asked him to do and pushed two fingers into Deidara, gently getting him prepared for the big deal.
Deidara let Itachi prepare him for some longer, before stopping Itachi's hand and head from moving. He then let himself fall on his back gently, moving his hips up a little and looked at Itachi.
".. I'm r-ready un.." He breathed out. He didn't want to make Itachi or Kisame wait any longer.
Itachi nodded as he looked at Deidara's body hungrily and immediately crawled on top of him, letting Kisame's fingers slide out of him. He kissed Deidara passionately and took a hold onto Deidara's legs. He slowly slid into his uke now, already feeling a presence behind him that could only be his huge seme.
Deidara moaned and threw his arms around Itachi's neck, closing his eyes again. Kisame then pushed Itachi over even more and grabbed his hips, before pushing into Itachi and then immediately setting a pace, making Deidara moan once again, since it made Itachi move as well.
Itachi moaned loudly as he barely had to move anymore, as Kisame moved both of them forwards and pulled them back.
Deidara grabbed Itachi's head now, moaning loudly. Kisame's pace was a lot faster and heavier then he was used to. If they kept this up, he would come very fast and Itachi would have to get him in the mood again. Kisame now even made his thrusts a little harder.
Itachi broke the kiss while panting.
"K-Kisame, easy.." He then gasped.
"I'm n-not going to slow down." Kisame groaned to Itachi. "Y-you're used to this, so let's get blondie used to it as well." As to prove his point, he gave a deep, heavy thrust, making Deidara whimper.
"It's f-fine.. ah.. Itachi un.." He moaned, spreading his legs a little more so the thrusts that he knew would come later, weren't going to hurt too much.
"Y-you sure?" Itachi asked Deidara, as he placed his hands on the bed, making sure that his thrusts into Deidara wouldn't be with the same strength as Kisame used on him.
"..Y-yes.. don't h-hold.. hn... back un.." Deidara moaned back as he felt that Itachi was doing just that. He wanted to please Itachi the exact same way Kisame did, only then as his uke. Kisame started to give slow and very deep thrusts now, ones that Itachi couldn't stop.
Itachi moaned loudly as he kissed Deidara's neck and kept on moving inside of Deidara. He frowned slightly as he felt Kisame's organ throbbing inside of him, noticing Kisame was close already. Sometimes it was like Kisame was a sex bomb, exploding within just a few minutes. They were just getting started.
Deidara's breath got stuck in his throat for a second as Kisame gave such a hard thrust, transferring that to Itachi, that he came instantly, spilling his seed over his own and Itachi's body. As Kisame, and thus Itachi, kept thrusting, he moaned. It made his orgasm really long and good, but a little painful as well.
Itachi did everything he could to make Deidara's orgasm as pleasurable as possible, trying to stop his body from moving forward and giving Deidara kisses everywhere and slightly stroking over Deidara's nipples. He himself was moaning and panting as Kisame kept on thrusting inside of him with his huge cock, making him shake in pleasure and sweet pain.
"D-don't hold back un..." Deidara whined, softly hitting Itachi's chest. Kisame smirked as he started licking and sucking on Itachi's neck while keeping his pace steady now. He knew Deidara needed to get back in the mood and he was just about nice enough to give him some time for that. Otherwise, the thrusting would really start to hurt.
"I don't want to h-hurt you Deidara." Itachi panted, as he started stroking Deidara again. He looked at his hot uke and licked his lips, trying to think clear while Kisame kept moving in and out of him.
Before Deidara could respond, Kisame pulled Itachi up on his knees, making Itachi's organ slip out of Deidara's body. He grabbed Itachi tightly and started thrusting into him like a mad man. You could hear from the sounds it created, that Itachi's ass had a lot to endure. As Deidara looked up at Itachi getting fucked like that Deidara started panting. For some reason, that was a very arousing sight. His hand moved to his own cock and he started stroking himself, staring at Itachi and Kisame.
Itachi gasped and groaned, and sometimes let out a soft scream as Kisame hit his point immensely hard. When he tried to move down to Deidara Kisame pulled him back, and when he tried to let Kisame ease down punishment soon came by an even harder thrust. So he just took it, tossing his head back into Kisame's neck, panting like mad.
As Deidara watched the scene a little longer and he had turned himself on as well, he moved up to grab Itachi's hand, wanting more than just his own hand on his cock. Kisame continued his thrusting though and he kept Itachi to himself, until he came inside of him, digging his teeth into Itachi's neck a little.
Itachi actually let out a whimper now as Kisame's sharp teeth came into contact with his currently sensitive skin. He shivered as he felt Kisame filling him up. He waited for Kisame to pull out, before he lowered himself towards Deidara and started stroking him as well, getting him onto the mood.
Deidara moaned as he felt Itachi back on top of himself and put his legs around his body.
"... I w-want more then s-stroking un.." He moaned and then kissed Itachi roughly. Kisame in the mean time was busy turning himself on again.
Itachi kissed Deidara back passionately as he once more pushed in, having the need of fucking Deidara again as well. He arched his back though, to both reach Deidara's point as to present his backside to Kisame, knowing it would excite the blue skinned man greatly.
"Y-you just can't get enough, can you." Kisame said smirking as he looked at Itachi and was quickly behind him again, kissing and rubbing Itachi's body. Deidara held onto Itachi's shoulders and looked at him with a look of lust on his face. His point was being hit so wonderfully now, he was begging Itachi with his eyes to keep it up a little longer.
Itachi read the language in Deidara's eyes and hit Deidara's point precisely and at a pace he knew Deidara liked it the most. Pleasure was racing through him like mad as he did this, but he also enjoyed Kisame's touches.
Deidara threw his head back now, enjoying Itachi inside of him, moving like that, the best he could. But then he felt the thrusts changing again and when he looked at Itachi again, he saw Kisame behind him, pounding heavily.
Itachi gritted his teeth together and kissed Deidara's neck, before arching his back even more, to keep on hitting Deidara's pleasure point. He himself was slowly coming closer as well.
Deidara pushed his head back again, as this time, Itachi managed to give him sweet pleasure, but Kisame made it deeper and faster and therefore even better this time. Apparently a change of angle was all Deidara needed to squirm and moan louder than he had ever did.
Itachi was pleasantly surprised to have Deidara writhing beneath him like this, enjoying the sight. It was simply beautiful to see, and it made Itachi come close to his orgasm right away.
Kisame felt Itachi coming close, since his ass was tightening around his cock. And it felt amazing. He looked at Itachi pounding into Deidara and knew neither of them were gonna last very long.
"...O-oh... G-god Itachi un!" Deidara moaned. He was gonna come any time now.
Itachi groaned in response and started thrusting faster and harder, wanting Deidara to come quickly as well. He quickly grabbed Deidara's organ and started stroking it, as he was already becoming dizzy from pleasure.
"..H-haah... hn.. a-almost.." He groaned, lowering his head while panting.
Kisame made his thrusts even heavier and with two of those, Deidara's hips rolled and he threw his head back, coming heavily and screaming Itachi's name. He came all over them, but he really could care less as he felt pleasure take over his body and his ass clenched around Itachi's still thrusting cock.
This led Itachi to let out a scream as well, hiding his head into Deidara's neck as he had his orgasm. The heat of Deidara clenching around him together with the view was too much. He kept on slightly thrusting into Deidara as he enjoyed his sweet release, panting into his neck heavily.
Like some kind of wave, Kisame groaned and bit Itachi's neck again as he came as well, thrusting into Itachi heavily while he released inside of him, enjoying Itachi tightening. Deidara just closed his eyes as he held Itachi weakly and panted like mad, barely having any breath left.
Itachi gasped as he let Kisame slip out of him, the last of the sperm splattering over his butt, while he got off of Deidara and crashed down next to him, panting loudly. He closed his eyes as well, spend after his amazing orgasm.
Kisame just sat down on the bed, smirking at both boys that were exhausted now.
"You're a bunch of pussy's, exhausted already." He said, panting just slightly. Deidara just let out a groan, that meant Kisame had to shut up. He kept laying on his back though, his hands beside his head and breathing in and out deeply.
"...You're just an a-animal." Itachi groaned while he was trying to get his breath back. "Don't you dare t-to take me again."
"Fine, fine. I'll take you another time." Kisame said and laughed a little. "And I'm half an animal remember?" After a while longer of panting, Deidara turned on his stomach, laying closer to Itachi, but still panting a little. He needed some sleep.
"Hmm, I know." Itachi hummed, as he pulled Deidara close to him.
Deidara just closed his eyes, holding onto Itachi and knowing he could fall asleep any second now. Kisame lay down next to Itachi, putting an arm around him and pulling Itachi up a little when he did.
"You're not gonna sleep now are you?" He asked.
"I actually was planning on taking a nap yes." Itachi said, as he opened his eyes and gave Kisame a kiss on the mouth.
Deidara had already passed out now, nuzzling closer into Itachi's neck.
"Hmm fine, I'll just have to take a nap as well then." He said, grinning at Itachi. "Sleep well."
"You too." Itachi said with a slight smile, before closing his eyes again and putting his head onto Kisame's shoulder. As Kisame shut his mouth Itachi sighed and slowly drifted off to sleep.
Two days later, Neji was sitting outside against the edge of the forest, looking at the city they were all still living in. He was not thinking of anything else then the emotional raven who he happened to be in love with. He had been harsh to Sasuke, but Sasuke had been acting difficult. The choice between safety and happiness, it was a hard one to make. Every normal person would choose for safety first, so he was torn up in between what he should do. Sasuke was not clear in the expression of his emotions, and that way Neji was not able to guess what to do: it made the situation even harder than it already was. There was also a very strong urge to go back to Sasuke. He was torn up in between the two possibilities.
As Neji was staring at the city, a little further away, Sasuke walked by, not particularly doing anything. He had gone out for a walk to calm down, and was now roaming the streets aimlessly. He spotted Neji though and stood still in his tracks, looking at the brunette. Two days. Neji had already taken two days to think whether he wanted to be with him or not. And it annoyed Sasuke to no end. He kept looking at Neji, hoping he would come to him or say something or anything.
Neji looked at Sasuke as well now. He was silent for some time before looking away with a sigh. Just a second later though, he urged Sasuke to come to him.
Sasuke kept standing there for a while, doubting if maybe he should just walk away, but he couldn't resist. He walked to Neji, but refused to meet his eyes or sit down next to him.
"I something the matter?" He asked, as stoic as he could be. Which was really stoic.
"...You won't like everything I'm going to say to you now Sasuke." Neji said. "...I can't let you go, I want to be with you, but I won't feel safe. You can't give me an indication of how big the danger is, which will force me to be on my guard all the time I'm around you."
"Well if you don't feel safe we shouldn't do this." Sasuke said, still keeping a straight face even though inside he wanted to scream at Neji to stop feeling that way. But Neji didn't like his emotions, so they had to go.
"I don't know what I'd rather want, not feeling safe or feeling miserable." Neji answered. "I think that the last thing is something I want to avoid."
"So what do you wanna do then?" Sasuke asked, crossing his arms and looking down on Neji.
"I'd rather be on my guard for the rest of my life I guess." Neji said. "I can't let you go Sasuke. I might not always say it, but I love you with my whole heart."
"I know you think that's true, but I think you're wrong." Sasuke said, still keeping up his emotionless facade.
"I know what it is to love." Neji shortly replied.
"There's also such a thing as hoping for me to be the man you want me to be. Which I'm not." Sasuke said, giving Neji a look.
"I know you think that's true, but I think you're wrong." Neji said, before giving Sasuke a look as well, gazing deeply into Sasuke's eyes.
"You want a strong, balanced person who you can feel safe with. I'm not even close to that." Sasuke said.
"...I learned to be the strong and balanced person myself right now." Neji said, sighing slightly. "You are strong as well, the balance is getting better. You are right, someone like that would be best for me, but now you happen to be the one who makes me feel happy."
Sasuke looked at Neji for a while and then sighed, sitting down next to Neji.
".. I don't think you're making a wise choice. I want you... but I want you to be happy too. And you won't be with me." He said.
"I'll be unhappier without you." Neji muttered. "You should believe me on that one."
Sasuke looked ahead of him now and stared into the distance.
"... Do you really think it's wise to stay with me?" He then asked.
"Not at all." Neji said. "I'm a fool for wanting that. But you know what they say, love makes you blind. And stupid. My brain tells me to leave, but my heart screams at me to stay. And I'd rather follow my heart in this case, because when I do so, it always brings me happiness."
"What about my happiness?" Sasuke suddenly asked, still not looking at Neji.
"I hope I can make you happy with staying with you." Neji said, sighing a little. "Both me as Itachi, and our friends of course, will do everything to make you happy again as well."
"You think staying with me in fear is going to make me happy? You think telling me you're stupid for staying, a fool even, is going to make me happy?" Sasuke asked. "Because if so, you got it all wrong. Of course I want you to stay. But not like this."
"I have to get used to the idea and you can't expect me to not fear you in the first week." Neji answered. "I won't be that happy in the first week or weeks, neither will you. But we have to get through that point."
Sasuke stared at the ground now.
"... Well I don't know if we can." He said, then looked away. Neji didn't want to see emotions in him, so he would just have to push them away.
Neji looked at Sasuke now, frowning slightly.
"Why don't you have hope for this?" He then asked.
"Because you don't want 'me'." Sasuke said. "I know you think you do, I know you think I am still that person from before, but I don't want to fall even more for you with the biggest chance of getting hurt in the end. Because I swear, if one more person I love is going to leave me in the end, I'll... I'll at least do something horrible."
Neji gave Sasuke a pained look, before turning his look away.
"I want to fight for this relationship but if you don't want that, I guess we need to end this." He then said.
"... I don't wanna drag you down with me.." Sasuke softly said, still turned away from Neji as he knew every emotion he could ever feel was right there on his face.
"..Don't you think it's the opposite now I'm clinging to you like crazy?" Neji muttered. For once, he was clueless what to do now. He was just so confused. What should he do?
"You're not dragging me down at all.." Sasuke said. "... All I want is for us to be happy again, but I don't know how to do it.. I wanna believe we're strong enough to take this, but how can we if I'm not even strong on my own? How could I ever be strong for both of us?"
"...You know I'm not defenceless Sasuke, there is no need for you to protect me now." Neji said.
"I know that... That doesn't mean I'm not supposed to be strong in mind for us to work out. And right now I'm not." Sasuke said.
"...So what do you want to do?" Neji asked.
Sasuke was silent for a very long time now, before sighing.
".. I want you to tell me what we should do." He said. He had no clue anymore. And no matter how much he hated it, right now he just had to rely on others to make the right choices for him.
"...I thought that was clear by now. I want us to fight for our relationship." Neji replied.
Sasuke was silent once again, this time even longer than before.
".. Then we should do that." He finally said.
"Are you truly willing to do so?" Neji asked, looking at Sasuke.
Sasuke finally turned to Neji again and looked him straight in the eyes.
"... If you truly think it is me you want and not the person I was before." He said.
"...You barely changed Sasuke." Neji replied, frowning slightly.
Sasuke smiled and let out a chuckle as he looked ahead of himself again.
"I'm 'just' messed up now." He said.
"..Before this you were only thinking of getting your memory back." Neji said. "..I actually like you better now."
"That's nice." Sasuke said, letting out another chuckle, making it obvious he was being sarcastic.
Neji looked away, once more.
"I would like you to not think of your problems now and think of our relationship." He then said. "I'm not talking about the fact that I'm afraid to lose the last person I love either. I want us to work out. Stop talking about how much of a dick you are or how useless you are. Do you want to be with me or not?"
"I do." Sasuke immediately said and as to prove his point, he put an arm around Neji's back, grabbing the fabric of Neji's shirt on the other side.
"Then please stop talking and let's just go for it." Neji said, as he put a hand on Sasuke's knee.
Sasuke looked at Neji and then sighed, but smiled as well. He pulled Neji closer to him.
"Ok." He said. "I'm ready to fight for it."
"Good." Neji said, giving Sasuke a nod and a slight smile. "Then so am I."
Sasuke grabbed Neji's hand and pulled him onto his lap. Resting his head against Neji's shoulder he sighed once more.
".. You know I love you right?" He asked.
"I do Sasuke, I do." Neji said, as he gave Sasuke a kiss onto his head. "I love you too. Just stop being so stubborn."
"I'll give it a try." Sasuke said and laughed slightly. He closed his eyes as he took in everything Neji was, pulling him in a tight embrace. Sasuke knew, that even if he was going to drag Neji down with him, Neji was going to pull him out of whatever misery anyway. For some reason, suddenly, he was sure Neji would save him.
Neji gave Sasuke another kiss onto his head as he closed his eyes as well, putting his arms around him. He knew they were going to have a tough time the coming weeks, but he was sure they would be fine in the end. Because both him as Sasuke would fight for their relationship, to keep what they had. And that was worth more than anything in this world.
The End