Nick held his head in his hands as he cursed at himself. He felt horrible and ashamed of himself. Yes, he was still upset that Miley didn't tell him about his sister but how could he say that to her? How could he be so angry with the woman he loved? He couldn't even stand to be himself right now, he couldn't even look at himself in the mirror this morning.

Last night was just awful and he wished with all of his might that he could erase it or just handle the situation differently. But the nightmare didn't end after he watched the love of his life leave the police station with out any information of her ware abouts, oh no, when they arrived at their parents house everyone blew their tops. He saw a completely different side of everyone and by the end of the night he couldn't even believe they were blood related.

He exhaled a deep, uneven breath replaying the scenes of the unfolding about his little sister. She confessed to everyone about how she became a stripper and why. About being jealous of Miley and even the cocaine. Of course he was utterly surprised and shocked to here these things coming from his beloved sibling but the next thing she told theme made his blood boil with complete rage and hatred. Jesse. Ugh, even his name said in his head was enough to make his stomach curl. How could someone do that to his little sister, his Demi. It made him sick. Just as sick when he saw his parents face when hearing all of this tragedy.

Finally wanting to stop the terrible memories, Nick ran his hands down his face and groaned in frustration. He still didn't know where Miley was and he greatly feared that he would never get to see or hear from her ever again. He wanted to apologize and make every thing all better. He didn't care how long it took, as long as he got his love back. He was 100 percent positive that he couldn't live without her and he didn't even want to try. Still he feared that she would never take him back. Why would she? He was a heartless jerk caught up in the moment. He didn't think of her like that, never would, never did. He didn't see her as one of those no good cheap whores. She was different and he was lucky enough to get to find that out and discover the real her but he lost it.

"You ok?"

Nick's head shot up at the sudden intrusion. He smiled sadly at his mother, "I don't know what to do?" He looked back down at the granite surface of the bar that was placed in the middle of his parents kitchen.

Nick closed his eyes as a sigh escaped his mothers lips, "About who?"

He struggled with his answer. His whole world was falling apart right now and it was just to much for him to handle. Right now he prayed for every thing to be fixed in the next second. Nick met his mothers tired eyes as he tried to control his emotions, "Everyone," he croaked.

Denise sadly looked down then regained herself and walked over to where her son was sitting. She pulled the stool out from beside him and took a seat, "You shouldn't be worried about every one else," she confessed, placing her aged hands on top of his.

Nick stared at her confused.

Denise softly smiled, "Miley," she said, "All you need to worry about is Miley."

"But Demi-"

"Forget about Demi," she shook her head, then laughed, "I am not trying to sound like a horrible mother by saying that and I'm not. What I mean is the rest of us can help your sister without you. But Miley," she sighed, "She is the one for you. She is the real mother for Jonah and I know that you know that too. But she is never going to get to be there for either of you if you don't something."

Nick sighed devastated, "But I don't where she is," he mumbled.

"So?" Denise said, raising her voice, "Then you need to get off your ass and start looking for her."

Nick looked at his mother dumbfounded, "Mom. I have never heard you curse before."

Denise laughed, "That's not the point," she patted Nick's hand, "Love is a tricky thing. But it is also very rare and special and I would hate to see you throw this kind of love away just because you were to afraid to try," Denise choked back her tears, "I have seen you loose one love and I don't want to see you go through that again."

Nick smiled thankfully, "I love you, Mom," he leaned over and embraced his mother in a loving hug, "So, is Dad still trying to get Demi to go back to college."

Denise sighed and stood up. She walked to the refrigerator wanting to prepare breakfast, "Sadly, yes."

Nick furrowed his eyebrows together, "But I thought you wanted the same thing to."

"I did but," Denise breathed, "But it's not what Demi wants. What she wants is to make it on her own with her own terms. It's what makes her happy and I would rather see my kids happy then miserable with a diploma."

"Are you going to let her.. Uh.." Nick felt like his tongue was swelling. As much as he couldn't stand to know what his sister had been doing for the past few years, he knew his mother was right. He just wanted for her to be happy, "Continue to be a stripper."

Denise sighed, "It's not my decision. It's hers. If she wants to be a stripper that is her choice and I will support her no matter what, that is what we all should have done from the beginning and that is what we are all going to do from now on."

Nick felt his fists tighten at the sudden thought of Jesse, "Is she going to press charges on that bastard?" He seethed through clenched teeth.

"Nick! Language," Denise warned, "Jonah could walk in any minute, " She sighed, "She said no-"

"What!" Nick pounded his fists on the table and shot up out of his seat, "She has to! If she won't I will!" he fumed.

Denise sighed sadly, "I want to too, but it's her choice and there is nothing that any of us can do about it."

"Nothing we can do about! I will make sure that son of bitch rots in prison for what he did to her!" Nick looked at his mother one last time before storming out of the kitchen and up the staircase to Demi's room.

"What the hell is this about!" Nick yelled as he barged into her room.

Demi jumped, shocked, "I could have been naked!"

"That's not the issue right now!" He seethed, "How can you not press charges, Demi!" Nick pressed.

Demi sighed and sat at the foot of her bed, "I just don't want to go through all of that. I just want to forget it and moved forward."

"But he should get what he deserves!" Nick looked at her in disbelief. How could she just let him walk away a free man?

"Nick please," Demi choked on her tears, "I-"

"No Demi!" He yelled louder, "How can you just let him get away with this! It's worse enough that you let him touch you like that and now you don't even want to press charges!"

"Wait," Demi shook her head and stood up. She slowly walked toward him with each word, "I did not let him rape me! I said no repeatedly. I pushed, punched and kicked him. I did every thing I could to stop him," she breathed shakely, "It's hard to keep fighting when you know your going to loose."

"But Dem-"

"Daddy."

Demi and Nick looked at the door, both of their hearts breaking at the child in front of them. Nick kneeled down as Jonah starte running to him with tears streaming down his red cheeks.

Nick held onto his son as Jonah placed his head in the crook of his neck and tightly laced his arms around his neck, "What's wrong buddy?"

"I he-eard yelling an-nd I got sca-rr-red," he cried into his fathers neck.

"Oh Jonah," Nick rubbed his back and sat on the edge of Demi's bed.

"I wan-t M-il-eeyy," Jonah sobbed, wiping his eyes.

Nick felt his heart break even more. He wanted Miley just a bad. What if he never found Miley? How could he explain it to Jonah. And even worse, if he did find Miley but she didn't take him back then she wouldn't be there for Jonah and that would hurt them worse. But poor Jonah didn't know of anything that has happened which hurt Nick and made it very difficult for him

"Don't worry buddy," he soothed, "I will get Miley, " Nick gently pulled jonah away from his neck and wiped at his tears, "But until then, how bout you go down stairs with grandma and help her make breakfast. Sound good?"

"Ok," Jonah mumbled, climbing down from his fathers lap and going downstairs.

"So you still don't know where Miley is?" Demi sighed, exhausted, taking the empty space next to Nick.

"No clue."

Demi laid her head on his shoulder, "Don't worry, you'll find her and you will get her back."

"Why are you and mom so sure?"

"You and Miley just have that once in a life time kind of love. You guys would die without each other, literally." There was a silence, "You should go to the hospital. She is probably there since she has recently spent every hour there."

Nick softly smiled, "I hope so," he breathed, "I'm sorry Demi. I was just frustrated but I will support you no matter what your decision is, with anything."

"Thank you," Demi whispered and hugged him, "I love you."

"I love you too," Nick pulled away and smile at his sister, "Everything is going to be fine again and don't forget that your are strong enough to do anything and win anything."

Demi nodded and pushed his side, "Get a move on bro! You got a woman to find!" She giggled.

"Ok, Ok," Nick laughed, "I'm going."

Nick took a deep breath as he stared at the familiar hospital door. He read the room number over and over again just to distract himself. His heart raced out of control at the strong possibility that only a door could be the separation between him and Miley. He took one last deep breath and turned the knob.

His heart squeezed at the lack of his love in the room. He turned to Mr. Carter and sadly smiled.

"Nick," Mr. Carter welcomed with a warm smile, "Come in. Is Miley with you?"

Nick sat in the chair next to the uncomfortable looking bed, "Hello sir, uh erm, no. Miley isn't with me. I actually came here hoping she was with you."

Mr. Carter nodded in understanding, "I saw the news last night. I was hoping Miley would come to me but she hasn't but I know that she is alright. But you don't look alright. What's on your mind?"

"I messed up, really bad," Nick hung his head in shame, "I think I've lost Miley forever," he breathed, "I hurt her sir, and I regret it and I didn't mean any of what I said to her. I was just so made about last night and finding out about my sister that I could have lost the love of my life."

"Listen, son," Mr. Carter tried his best to sit up straighter, "I may not know what happened last night but if there is one thing that I am sure of is that the two of you are going to be just fine. Miley just needs time to reflect and gather herself before she deals with a situation. No matter what has happened between you two you'll be fine. She needs you and you need her but you just have to give each other time and the support. Don't run away just because it gets hard at some points, that's what makes you stronger," Mr. Carter smiled and reached over to pat Nick's back, "All she needs is your support and love. If she is secure that she has that from you then she will never leave, no matter what."

Nick nodded and smiled thankfully and more full of confidence, "Thank you, sir."

"Hey, Mr. Car-"

Nick's head shot up at the sound of that sweet voice that he had come to live from. He felt his body stiffen and time stop. Even though she had light bags under her eyes and looked devastated, she was still the most beautiful woman in the world to him. She looked just as shocked as him to see each other in the same place.

"Hey," Nick breathed, standing up.

Miley stood frozen. She kept her wide eyes on the man in front of her. The man who completely shattered her heart last night. She cried the hardest she ever did last night and she barely gotten any sleep and the sleep she did get was filled with dreams of the man she was completely, head over heels, in love with. As much as she hated to admit it right now, she missed him and was glad he was here. She missed his absent last night in her time of need. It wasn't the same crying on Samantha's shoulder and having her arms wrapped around her. She only wanted and needed him. She couldn't live without him and she didn't even want to try.

"Hello sweetie," Mr. Carter greeted with a smile, "I'm glad you came today."

Miley finally broke her stare from Nick and smiled at Mr. Carter, "Of course I came today. I'm always here for you and I really wanted to talk to you today and say that I am sorry for-"

"Stop it, Miley," Mr. Carter cut her off sternly, "You have no reason to be sorry. This is not your fault and Ecstasy can wait for later. Right now I want you and Nick to talk."

Miley glanced at Nick who was still staring at her. She tried her best to hide her blush and she cursed at herself for blushing at a time like this, "But-"

"No "buts" Miley," Mr. Carter shooed them away, "Go and talk. Now."

Miley nodded and turned to the door, feeling Nick's presence following her. She stopped in the middle of the hallway, turning toward him, trying her best to avoid his eyes.

Nick cleared his throat, "Um…Let's go to the cafeteria," Miley nodded and started ahead. Nick hesitated but put his hand on the small of her back.

Miley looked around cafeteria. They had already been sitting there for 10 minutes and neither of them said a word. She just sat there aimlessly looking at anything that caught her eye while Nick stared down at the table. But Miley's thoughts were interrupted by the soothing voice she craved for the past 12 hours.

"Um…" Nick started, turning toward her, "First, I want to apologize. I feel really terrible for saying what I did. You have to believe me when I say that I didn't mean any of it. I was just frustrated with the situation, but I have never thought of you like that and I never will."

Miley breathed in shakily, praying to God that she wouldn't cry. Not now, "You hurt me Nick."

"I know and I'-"

Miley put up her hand to silence him, "Let me talk," he nodded and she continued, "You hurt me really bad, Nick. I never thought that you would but you proved me wrong last night," Miley felt her heartbreak when Nick hung his head, "But I know that I hurt you too and I'm really sorry that I kept those secrets from you but I felt that I couldn't betray my best friend."

Nick looked up at her, "I understand the stripper secret but drugs. That could have killed her Miley. Don't you understand that. It would have been better to betray your best friend if it was the right thing to do for her."

"I know, I know," Miley shut her eyes, "Do you remember that night I came to your place at 3 in the morning and I was crying," Miley opened her eyes and saw Nick nod, "I had found out about the drugs that day. When I confronted Demi she told me that I was the reason for her taking them. I wanted to tell you so bad but I just couldn't and I knew it was wrong but I felt like if I kept her secrets then I could still have some of her as a friend."

Nick reached over and took both of her hands into his, "I understand but I wish you still would have told me. But now Demi is fine and everyone is fine," Nick sighed, "I want us to be fine again. I want to be with you again. I want to have you back in my arms and hold you at night after we make love. I want feel and hear you breath when your sleeping in my arms. I want all of you. The good and the bad, I want it."

'Do you mean it?" Miley's lip quivered as she tried not to cry.

Nick placed his thumb on her lip and pulled her face closer to his, "With all my heart," he whispered, then took her lips in upon his. Gentle and full of love. Neither of them wanted to pull away, they both waited for this moment all night and both of them thought that it wouldn't happen ever again.

They slowly pulled away, leaving a lingering lovers taste on both of their lips. Miley placed her forehead on his and breathed deeply with her eyes closed, "I don't want their to be anymore secrets between us. I want us to tell each other everything from now on, even from our past," she opened her eyes and leaned away from him, "I'm going to tell you something that only Mr. Carters knows about me. Not even Demi knows this."

Nick breathed deeply, preparing himself, "Ok," He grabbed both of her hands again, "You can trust me."

Miley breathed in shakily, "When I was in high school I was head over heels in love with this guy, and we dated. He was my first time and I only gave him my virginity because I thought he loved me too. Just a few weeks after we had sex, I found out I was pregnant. I lived with my grandmother because my mother couldn't take care of me and I haven't see her since she left me at my grandma's house. As for my father, I never met him. Anyway, my grandmother kicked me out when I told her. Then I went to my boyfriends and I was sure he would be by my side but he told me that all he was looking for was sex and thought I would be a nice ride and that he wasn't ready to be a dad and that I should leave him alone from now on. So there I was. A knocked up, homeless 17 year old. Then I found Mr. Carter he picked me up off the street and took me in like I was his own and he paid for my abortion. He was against it but I begged him, because I didn't want to bring a child into this world and have it live an unhappy life. Then I started working at Ecstasy." Miley looked at Nick, nervously, "I would never get an abortion now. I was just so young an-"

Suddenly, Nick leaned forward and captured not just her lips, but her heart and soul. She quickly kissed back, moving her lips in sync with his. Now she was 100 percent convinced that he would stick by her no matter what. She smiled, through the kiss, ignoring her tears at this point.

"Thank you, for telling me," Nick mumbled against her lips. Then he pulled away, "Don't be afraid of your past because without it you wouldn't be who you are today."

A/N: REVIEW PLEASE :D! First off sorry for the long wait :| This the longest chapter I have not just written for this story but all my stories. I honestly think it suckz so sorry for giving you a long sucky chapter. Oh, and just to let you guys know, I have hinted about Miley's abortion in a previous chapter, some of you got it ;) Oh, and A BIG MEGA SUPER THANK YOU to allllll of my reviewers for the last chapter! WOW! I got 10 reviews in less than 24 hours of posting that chapter! I was shocked and so thankful to each of you :D Just remember that this story only has a few chapters left.