Chapter 8- A Day in My Life
(Jared's Point of View)
How the hell am I supposed to sleep when all I have on my mind is Kim? I need to see Kim. Or at least be with her. But no! Her brother, who is stupid and mentally fucktarded, had to come outside and ruin our moment. Stupid motherfucker. There is something seriously wrong with him. I mean, you don't see me going around and ruining any moment he might be having with his girl. Someday I will get back at him for this though. If he would've given us more time I could have given her a hug... I really need a hug from her.
All I need to know is that she's allright. There are so many things that can go wrong in one night. Trust me, everything is possible: She might be having a nightmare. She might be cold. Her pillow might not be fluffy enough. Maybe she's hungry but she doesn't really feel like getting up from where she is. Or maybe her other jackass of a brother found out that she had spent the afternoon with me, and now she has to pay the price. And, this is very very, very unlikely, she's thinking of me. Like I said, anything is possible.
I can call her... No, I really shouldn't be so selfish and demanding towards her. My Kim is probably sleeping. It is after all, twelve-thirty in the morning. Fuck! Just my fucking luck. My patrolling shift starts in thirty minutes. This sucks balls. I would rather spend the night here laying down miserably, with the freedom of thinking of Kim without being interrupted by Paul's stupid comments. Patrolling sucks so freaking bad. Ugh! I. Want. To. Be. With. Kim! Paul can go jack-off for all I care. He can be annoying like no shit sometimes.
The only reason I am going to put up with this patrolling bullshit is because I want to make sure the reservation is safe enough for Kim. She's the only reason why.
"Jared!"
Are you fucking serious? Is this really happening? No! We are not going to go through this again.
"Jared!" yet again yelled my youngest sister Annabeth, she is six years old. She busted through the door, her eyes puffy red. I guess we are going though this again, then.
Immediately my mood shifted from pist off, to concerned safety ranger Jared the wolf. Paul might be right about me being bipolar. I guess I can understand why Kim's brothers are so overprotective. Yes, I am a hypocrite. I too would rip off any guys balls who came anywhere near my baby sister. Any of my five sisters(it sucks being the only guy) that live at home;I also have two older sisters. But I think that won't be for a while because Annie is only a kid.
I got my lazy ass of the bed and crouched down to meet her devastated face. "What's wrong Annie?"
"Katy (sob) cut off all my (sob) dolls hair!" She pulled her doll from behind her. I wanted to laugh, but that would only hurt Annie's feelings. I am a jerk, but never to the woman I love or my sisters. Especially not Princess Annabeth.
I sighed and stood up straight. Compared to my sisters I looked like King Kong. "Katy!" I yelled. "Come here right now!"I waited an entire minute, more than usual because I am not a very patient guy. It's probably because of Kim. She's never fully out of my thoughts. One way or the other, my brain finds a way to connect whatever I'm doing to her.
"Katy!" I called her name once again before deciding it was useless and just went out of my room to find her myself. Annie was behind me
gently tugging on my shirt. I now stood in the middle of the hallway, outside Katy and Annie's room. The door to the left was my other
sisters Mila and Cyndi's room.
I opened the door of their room to find a small figure hiding under the covers on the top bunk of the bunk-bed Annie and Katy shared. As
soon as she heard me approach the bed she dropped the covers. She had a guilty expression on her face.
"Hi Jared," she greeted me in a small voice. Normally I would've thought that was adorable, mostly because she is in her unicorn pajamas, but she was trying to get me to not yell at her or give her a lecture. Those puppy dog eyes aren't going to work on me this time.
I pulled Annie from behind me. "Apologize." I commanded motioning her to come down from her bed. Even with her there I was taller. To me
that's freaking amazing. I smirked at her when she realized it too. "Ha! I'm still taller."
Katy got down from her bed and stood in front of Annie, rocking back and forth on her heels. "I'm sorry for cutting your doll's hair, Annabeth." Her tiny feet were drawing imaginary circles on the pale lavender carpet.
"Why'd you do it, huh? Now you have to give her one of your dolls." I patted her head, "Okay Princess Annie, go ahead and pick out one of Katy's dolls." She did as I said with out hesitation. I have to admit, Katy was being a good sport about it. Not once did she protest. I took advantage of the fact Katy wasn't looking to pick her up and put her over my shoulder.
Katy started squealing. "No! Put me down!" She began kicking, which didn't hurt at all.
"All right then!" I put her down and sat her on the top bunk. "Last time you're doing that. Okay? Because pretty soon you won't have any dolls left." I bent down to the bottom bunk to give Annie a kiss on the cheek and left the room. My next stop was Cyndi and Mila's room.
I entered their room to find they were doing some girly shit. Or in other words, doing of the hair. It also smelled like nail polish in in here. Ugh... I miss when they were nine like Katy, or six like Annie. Way better than having to deal with the grusom two-some's major teen years drama. Well, teen and pre-teen. I can't believe Mila is two years younger than my life. My love, Kim.
And that just makes me feel like a pervert. More so now. A lonely shity perverted wolf guy. That sucks. Big hairy-
"Hey Jared..." Cyndi greeted me from her bed. I snapped my attention back to my sisters. Mila was putting rollers in Cyndi's hair. She nodded in my direction, acknowledging my presence. Obviously she was too into her work to give me anything better. Nice to know how much I am aprcieated.
I nodded back at them, "I gotta go. If mom finds out, tell her I'll be back at five. Only if she asks though. You guys will cover for me right?" I demanded. My mom had the night shift at a dinner that ended at two thirty. I don't think it is too much of me to ask Mila and Cyndi to take care of the littler ones. They had to. It's their job as werewolf sisters.
They both smiled at the same time. "Sure. As long as you aren't doing some lame shit." Mila spat out. Always has to be the smart ass out of
those two. Just because she's a year older than Cynthia she thinks she's a bad ass chick. Well I only know one bad ass chick, and I'm sorry honey, but it ain't you.
"No I'm not doing some lame shit. It's complicated and you guys know I can't tell you. Just trust me on the fact that I'm not doing anything
stupid." I backed away. "Now go to sleep. It's late and I don't want you chicks mopping about how you're tired in the morning. Anyway, why
are you trying to beatify yourself if you have no school tomorrow? Is it because someone has a date? See you guys in the morning." Secretly
I was hoping I would be that somebody having a date with a beautiful girl by the name of Kim.
But tonight, while I drove Jordy's ungrateful ass home, he gave me some advise. Not so much as advice as a warning or demand, I should
say. I say ungrateful because he said it would be best to cool it on the dates. First he pushes me in what I like to call the right direction: finding a reason for me to be with Kim outside of school. The next day he takes three steps backwards: him telling me I had to cool it. My stupid ass had to question what he said.
Apparantly I wasn't being as smooth as I thought I had been at the movies. Jordy told me everything I had done wrong:
1.) I wouldn't, more like couldn't, keep my eyes of her. She was oblivious to it though.
2.) My hand would not for the life of me relax. It kept going into my jean pockets, then out
near Kim's, then back into my pockets.
3.) I couldn't keep myself from grinning my idiot grin the entire time.
4.) I kept getting a little too close to her for his liking... Like I give shit about that reason. For me it wasn't close enough.
I am not staying away from her. That's the last thing I'd ever do. Because soon after I would die from the pain of being away from her.
I ran out the back door into the open woods. My brothers, Sam and Paul, were mostlikely already phased or maybe just about to.
Slowly it's becoming easier for me to phase without having to be enraged. My body sank to the floor as the overwhelming sensations took over my entire being. I was shaking within seconds of stepping out of my backyard. All it took was three seconds for me to explode. How fucking awesome. Yeah, I amaze myself sometimes.
Yeah you amaze me too jackass, Sam said in wolf form. Now stop being so damn consided and get your hairy ass here... now!
I growled, Someones in a good mood. And I began to run at top speed. There are three things in my life that I try as hard as fuck to avoid. Sam when he hasn't had breakfast. Sam when he's been away from Emily for too long. And Sam when he's in a bitch of a mood. I came up with these things two hours after I phased.
Don't give me your sarcasm because I'm not in the fucking mood right now. By the way, where is the other clown?
As soon as he asked we felt the added connection.
I'm five miles away. Give me a sec. Paul said.
Always has to be the motherfucking diva... I stated in my head.
Paul and I arrived at the same time. Sam gave us our patrolling areas for the night. We of course followed his orders.
What's wrong man, I asked Sam.
He played a memory in his head for us to see. A memory of him trying to grow enough balls to try and propose to Emily.
So your balls in a knot because of that? Paul's stupid ass asked. I totally disagree with him. Well it's not my fault if you disagree with me or not. That's your problem not mine.
This is serious shit man. Don't be screwing. Someday you might imprint or fall in love and we're gonna give you nothing but shit because that's what you're giving us. I warned him. Then I turned my attention back to Sam. Propose. Just do it, either way you know she'll accept it.
He sighed deeply, I want to do it the most perfect way possible. Should I do it in the morning, at night? During dinner. Some fancy shit or just in a peaceful meadow. Really I have no idea where the perfect spot on earth would be. If I could, I'd fly her to the stars and propose there...
Paul gagged, You really gotta stop being such a love sick puppy.
Shut up! I barked at both of them, Emily is not a material girl, okay. She loves you and wants to be with you. I think you should just follow your instinct and propose. You will know when. And you Paul, I said, Shut your stupud ass up.
He sneered at me. Sorry. Not everyone is as blinded by love as the two of you. I seriously hope my stupid ass doesn't end up imprinting. The last thing I want is to have my balls in a knot daily, like someone I know, because I'm in love!
Stop it! Can you ass holes solve your drama's later? Right now you have responsibilties, Sam ordered.
And here I am having this guy's back... Now he decides that we need to put our drama's aside?
Dude! The only reason we're talking about this is beacause you need the help! Paul thought.
You need to calm down. That doesn't matter anymore.
Sam nodded, Jared is right.
The rest of the patroll went without any conversation whatsoever. It was very awkward. My only comforting thought was of course, Kim. And I got bad reactions from Paul for that. He may not have said anything, but I could tell he was very annoyed. So I was so glad when four o'clock rolled around the corner. Patrolling is always the same. Now with Kim in my thoughts it's a little different. But every second I am here. I actually wish I was with her.
I ran home as fast as I could. Which was pretty damn fast if I do say so myself. When I got home it was four fifteen in the morning. I came in through my bedroom window and landed quietly on my bed like the good ninja-werewolf I am. I grabbed a clean pair of boxers and ran to the bathroom to take a shower. I really needed one, no freaking shit.
After my shower I jumped on my bed and closed my eyes. I had finally come to the point in my night that I could think of my Kim. I could finally have peace of mind and just admire her from my memories. It wasn't very long before I fell asleep.
======================================================================================================== Waiting sucks.I can officially say that my whole weekend sucked ass.
On Saturday I woke up ready to run out and find Kim. But I don't want to scare her off. I'm the kind of guy who acts on impulse, but I can't do that now. If I screw up then my life will be over. So I babysat the whole day. I can't trust my dumb ass with anything. I didn't leave the house because then I would just end up ruining everything. My mom was grateful though.
Then Sunday I couldn't get out of bed. It was literally impossible for me. Annie and Kate came into my room to bring me my breakfast. They think I'm sick. And I am... love sick. That probably sounds cheesy but it's the straight out damn truth. I, Jared Thail, am love sick for the first time in the history of forever. Maybe it's because I've never been in love before Kim.
Kim Cohnell changed me. Before her I could only be described as one thing, a player. Now I won't ever be that again. I don't see girls like that anymore. They just are there. Kim stands out though. She's a force to be reckoned with. She is amazing. The most amazing thing.
Her smile's brighten this dull reservation. Her eyelashes fan her beautiful face. Her essence brings joy to the universe.
That was basically my Sunday. Just thinking about Kim.
======================================================================================================== There has never been any other time in my life that I've been this exited to go to school on a Monday morning. My alarm clock was set to seven a.m, an hour before school starts.
I don't know how I managed, but I was at school on time, fully clothed and everything. I don't remember anything. I just remember waking up and now I am here. It was like I was numb or something.
I think I knew the exact moment she arrived at school because my heart started beating faster. Faster than normal, even for a werewolf.
My eyes quickly scanned the small groups of people in hopes of finding Kim. I soon spotted her brother's car and walked towards it. More like half ran, half jogged, and half skipped.
Okay. Okay. Okay. I can do this... I think. For Kim. Yeah, for Kim I can do anything. So I will.
I almost fell when I saw her small form gracefully climb out of the car.I think she's either trying to punish me or secretly give me a present.
Kim wore my two favorite colors... black and blue; it looked so good on her. A light green down to her knees skirt with a black jacket. I wasn't thinking perverted(not yet), I just thought she looked very adorable. Like if she were coming from the '50s. Her hair was just straight, but that was way more than perfect with me. Pure perfection.
She looked cold. Her shoulders looked so weak as she shivered. That was an excuse for me to get close to her. I am after all a natural space heater.
"Hey!" I yelled. She snapped her head in my direction looking very alarmed. Fuck, I think I caught her off guard. "I'm sorry! Did I scare you. I didn't mean to. I'm sorry" I started to panic.
And she started laughing. "No... its okay." Once she finished her sentence she managed to compose her self enough to look me in the eyes. "That was kind of messed up. Sorry."
"What are you apologizing for? On the contrary, I'm happy that I made you laugh somehow." I really was happy that I made her laugh. That sound alone brought pure joy to me. I really, really wanted to hear it again. That's going to be my goal for today, to make Kim laugh as much as possible.
A small hint of blush touched her cheeks that was accompanied by a small smile and I couldn't help but feel smug that I caused it. Well at least I hope that it was me that caused it. Fuck. I really wish I could be more confident in myself. But I fight of my nervousness when Kim is around me. I began to stare at her.
Her face... So unbelievably beautiful.
"You two!" Jordy yelled from a distance, "get to class."
"Shut up Jordy!" Kim yelled at him. She's so adorable when she tries to be threatening. "Where were you yesterday?"
He had a confused expression as he slowly approached us. "What do you mean?" And then it seemed to hit him. "Oh! I- um... well that's hard work. Like really hard work. Lifting and loading. Oh and cleaning up afterwords..." he shuttered "no thanks. I'm good."
Kim slapped his shoulder when he stood in front of her. It made a loud thud that seemed to satisfy Kim. She giggled at Jordy's expression. "What. The. Fuck?" Jordy yelled rubbing his shoulder. If it wasn't for the sound of her giggle I would've lounged at him for yelling at her. No body yells at her. Man, woman, unicorn. Straight or gay. No one can yell at her.
"I don't think cleaning a garage is that bad. And you weren't even going to lift anything, John was kidding about that. I had to carry boxes and this load of George's crap out of there! And it was your fault I had to do that! What the hell Jordy? You promised that you were going to help me!" Her amusement was starting to turn sour.
"I'm really sorry... but I was offered the choice between taking my little sisters to Chuck E. Cheese or cleaning." Jordy crossed his arm, "and I am not ashamed to say I chose Chuck E. Cheese."
Kim was about to throw her bag at him. I can tell. "But thanks to your stupid big mouth, I got in trouble." If looks could kill... "I could've been at Chuck E. Cheese too, if you would have helped me! What the hell?" She began looking in another direction.
I was ten seconds away from tackling him, he probably would've liked it, for pissing of my Kim.
"I have to go to class. See you guys later." Kim said giving me a sad look. That look stabbed my heart.
I wanted to go after her so bad, but I felt a hand on my arm. And it was defiantly not the hand I wish it could be. It was Jordy's hand. So I shook his arm of. "Jared."
"What do you want?" I sneered at him.
He looked surprised by my tone of voice. "Damn. Not even a hey man or sup'? Just flat out what do you want? That's pretty straight forward don't you think?"
"Don't bullshit me. Why is Kim so upset?" I demanded stepping one step closer to him. I easily towered over him. "No. A better question would be, what the hell did you do to piss of Kim?"
He began staring a hole into the floor ,"She's mad at me-"
I interrupted him. "No shit. Really? I hadn't noticed. Why is she mad at you? When I ask I'm asking you to get to the point."
Jordy looked up to glare at me. "I wasn't done yet stupid ass. I like to explain myself fully so that shit isn't left misunderstood."
The nerve on this kid. I raised an eyebrow at him. At least he has balls. Most ass holes would've backed away by now. "Then finish." I grumbled.
"I was teasing her about her, um our, get together with you on Friday and her brother Wesley, the one that hates you the most, walked in right at the perfect moment. Which was when I said, I'm surprised he didn't give you a good night kiss or something. Which I was."
I too was surprised that I had enough strength in me to not grab Kim before George made her come inside.
"Then they were like, who was going to kiss you? Why were you out? Where the hell was George? So she had to explain the entire thing. And I don't know if you've noticed but George is the only one of her siblings that is fond of you. He tried to somehow help but he is no good at that. Really long story short: Kim ended up having to organize the garage."
"So this is all you fault?" I accused him.
"Yeah and I feel so bad about it. I mean they might not ever let her see you outside of school."
In reality I heard all of what he said but the words that rang in my head were she might not ever see you again outside of school. That's never an option. My ass that's going to happen...
"Jordy you have to fix this."
Jordy sighed. "I know I do. I don't want to ruin the progress that had been made.
Progress?
"What progress?" I asked apprehensively.
"Get to class you tw- Jared?" said the dean. He squinted his eyes. "Ah it is you. May I please speak to you?" he motioned for me to walk all the way across the quad, for him. Fuck that...
"No thanks, I'm good." I said as calm as I possibly could; which came out sounding sourly.
"I'm not giving you an option Mr. Thail. When I said may I speak to you I meant now. Not later. And most certainly not an option. Now" He pointed directly to his office. At least I'm polite enough to say no thanks. "And get to class Jordy." he added.
"This conversation is not over." I warned. I wasn't bluffing because to be honest I never bluff.
"Now means now, Jared." The dean called. When I was finally in front of him he handed me a paper.
"Bye Jared," Jordy said, "try not to piss him off too much."
My hand was itching to crumple up the paper... but I didn't. "What the hell is this for?"
"Parent teacher conference. What? Did you think it was some kind of reward?" he asked sarcastically.
I felt myself beginning to start shaking."Why? What did I do wrong?" I asked thru my teeth. Shit. This just gets harder and harder. If I don't calm down then I am for sure going to phase and tare apart the dean... which doesn't really sound like such a horrible idea.
He rubbed his forehead. "Why don't we go to my office because I have other matters to attend to." I nodded and followed him into the main office. Once we were inside he motioned for me to take a seat.
"Well," he began " you were absent for more than a month. Your mother didn't make an arrangement and she hasn't sent a reason for you to be excused. Care to explain?"
I laughed once without humor. "Not really."
"Really? Well then I guess I'll be seeing you and your mother on Friday after school, then."
"I won't show up. And my mother won't either."
"Jared!" he slammed his fist on the table. That didn't really help my whole trying to calm down situation. "I am getting really tired of al of your nonsense! I am trying to help you get your life in the right direction..." I began toning him out.
"Jared! Listen to me! Don't waste my time be-"
"Then don't." I yelled. I sat up straighter. "Why are you always giving us this bullshit that you care and that it's for our benefit not yours? Face the truth asshole, if it wasn't part of the job then you'd give shit about us. I know it. So just stop trying." The dean's face was appalled beyond what I had expected to accomplish. It gave me a great sense of accomplishment. "Doesn't suck to have your shit told to you like that?"
"It really ,as you kids say, sucks to hear you think that. Truth be told I do care. Why else would I have gotten a job as an educator? All I want is to help you do better in life."
"Thanks but no thanks." I said, "I already have all I need." All I need is Kim. My shaking stopped.
"Really? What is it?"
As soon as he asked I started grinning.
"It's a girl,right?"
I tried to be casual about it, "Why do you think that?"
"Hmm, because I have three sons. And well I was quite the lady's man back in the day..." Ha that's hilarious. I tried to hold in my laughter, but like most things I do I didn't succeed.
"Look I don't think I'm obligated to tell yew all my shit, so..."
He sighed, "Jared please work on your sailor's mouth."
"Huh?"
"Your cussing. Do you not even realize how frequently curse?"
I guess I do I curse a lot. But who says sailor's mouth anymore? "Oh yeah. I guess no..."
Once again he sighed, "Just go back to class. And I'll reconsider whether or not I'll schedule a conference with your mother."
"Thanks I guess. And I'm sorry for calling you out on your shi-" I caught myself before I could cuss. "badness." I then looked at his name tag ," ."
In my mind I was being put thru torture waiting for third period to arrive. In reality only two mimutes remained.
TWO MINUTES, ONE MINUTE...RING
I grabbed my backpack and sprinted out of class.
When I got inside class Kim was already sitting. Before taking my seat I stood there looking at Kim. She looked like she was deep in thought. Her hands were on her lap as she fiddled with her fingers.
And then it hit me like a shit load of bricks.
I've never wanted something so bad that I would die for it. But at this moment what I really wanted, what I would die to get, was plain and simple for most people. Anyone could get to,but it wouldn't mean as much to them as it would mean to me. I wanted the world to melt away so that it would only be Kim and me. I wanted to have the words in me to tell her that I'm hers forever. Most importantly... all I wanted was to hold her hand.
to be continued...
sorry for taking forever it's just that i was working hard on practicing for my friends quinceañera -mexican remember- and then i started some stupid shit... anywhosers::this chapter focussed mostly on Jared's home life and what he seems to go through;) i am not giving up on this story! nope[: i have big plans for it. so be patient but i think the updates won't take as long any more 'cus i'm on summer break;yupp i passed! dedicated to my dork yessi[: and the bestie jocelyn who keep asking for updates |READ. ENJOY. COMMENT|
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