Chapter 9-What is a Good Friend?

I was staring at my hands. God I felt like such a horrible person.

Jordy is like my best friend, aside from Demi, who always is there for me. Then the one time he isn't I start bitching on him. I should learn to treat people better than how I do now. Because someday they're going to realize that I am not worth waiting for and I will end up as the lonely cat lady from La Push.

Now I know the first thing I will be doing when I see him is apologize to Jordy.

The chair next to me squeaked as its owner pulled it, "What are you doing?" Jared asked me as he took his seat, sounding very curious.

My heart skipped at the beat from the pure happiness I got by hearing his voice. I tried to control my voice,"I'm thinking about apologizing to Jordy... I think that I may have over reacted." I said without looking at him.

Jared sighed beside me. "He told me about what happened, and I think that I should be the one saying sorry for you getting in trouble. It was after all my idea."

"I went with you guys willingly. I mean it's not like I was forced to... because I had a great time. Don't blame yourself, okay?" I insisted .

"Kim-"

I cut him off. "No."

He tried again, "But it-"

"Jared can you please stop trying to pin this on yourself?" I demanded finally looking at him. And I was like, wow...

He took in my tone and finally complied. "Whatever you say." he said smirking. "I don't think you should have to apologize though. It is after all his fault that your brothers got mad."

"Well yeah, but I was being way too mean about it."

He laughed. What the hell?... "You? Mean? Not even. Kim, you're like the nicest person I know, I think." I didn't know whether to take that as an insult or a compliment. As if he was reading my mind he said,"that's a compliment."

I blushed. "Thank you, I guess..."

"Well you're welcome... I guess."

I started laughing. My laugh caused him to laugh, which caught the entire class' attention. Even Ms. Janes's attention.

She made her way over to our table. "Can you two please keep it down? And Jared, pay attention because this class is not for you to break out your best moves for Kim. Got it? If I have to come over here one more time, I will move you two. I know it's mostly you, little Romeo."

"Little?" said someone in the class.

"Oh I don't think anyone wants to make this personal with Jared." Ms. Jane said turning back to the class. "That's your final warning." she shot back to us.

I straightened up and tried to not look at Jared. The last thing I want right now is the teacher yelling at him, much worse moving him, because of me.

About two seconds after I decided to ignore him, I started to get really bored.

"Psst." I heard Jared whisper.

I moved my head to look at him. "What?" I mouthed. He shoved a folded piece of paper towards me.

Without the teacher's notice I opened it.

I am sorry though becuase well, if I wanted to hang out with you I should've asked your brother's for permission. It wasn't right of me to just sneek you. So next time I will ask Wesley for his permission. I mean it's not like I would like it if someday a guy like me decides to hang out with my little sisters without asking me first. So I am sorry.

I picked up my paper from the table and began to write.

But it would have to be your sister's choice, not yours. If she wants to be friends with a guy 'like you' then why would you oppose to that? I passed the paper back to him as quietly as I could.

He passed it back to me a minute later. Because I don't like guys like me. So they better stay away from my sisters. I know that's hypocritical. A guy like me is full of their bull shit and I don't want my sisters in their mess. I guess its reasonable for your brothers to dislike me.

Reasonable for them to dislike him? Not even; only a brother who is protective would see it that way. In a way that's sweet that you care for your sisters like that, but they might not exactly see it that way. And for your information I don't need to ask anyone for permission.

Permission? For what?

Very quickly wrote back, To be friends with you.

"Kim," Ms. Jane called, "Can you do me a favor and run these papers to the main office?" I stood up and she handed me the stack of yellow papers. "Oh! And also these two boxes."

I sighed, "Miss, I can't carry all this."

"Yo Ms. Jane," called Kenny. Holly shit, I had forgotten he was in this class. "I'll help her."

She smiled, "What a very gentleman thing to do."

He smirked, nothing like Jared, and grabbed the boxes. "C'mon Kim."

I looked over to Jared to see that he was staring at the floor. As I walked past him I dropped our note on his lap without the teacher's notice. He looked up quickly and smiled at me.

So freaking amazing. I sighed and concentrated on his perfect smile. His teeth were white and perfectly straight. They contrasted perfectly with his dark skin tone... mocha colored, yummy.

I felt myself bump into something.

"Kim!" Kenny screamed as he fell to the floor. Oh! That landing had to hurt, I winced then realized something. I was about to trip over him.

Holly. Mother. Fucking. Shit.

Before I could fall I felt my small hands in Jared's warm ones, saving me from falling on poor Kenny. Damn his hands were really warm. They were rough but the feeling was incredibly nice. "Are you okay?" Jared asked, or more like demanded.

Maybe this is the wrong moment but I blushed. Just because he was technically holding my hands. "Yeah..." I said looking at the floor. Kenny was still on the floor. "Oh! Kenny! I am so sorry!"

"Ow. It's okay... just watch where you are going. Please."

"Kenny, get up." Ms. Jane ordered. "Mr. Jared since you've saved the day once you might as well save it again. Take your seat. Aly help Kim. Please take my stuff to the office please. Apparently it's too much for certain people to handle. Please go back to your seats... everyone" she said looking around. Damn. I almost fell in front of all these people. That would've sucked. "And Kim, if possible, don't injure Aly on the way."

She picked up the stack of papers I had dropped and lucky me... I got the boxes.

We walked to the office and began talking about how much more embarrassing that situation could have gone.

"So," Aly said to me as casually as she could manage as we walked out of the office empty handed, "I've noticed that lately you've been talking to Jared..."

I smiled, "Yeah. What about that."

"I was gonna ask you if you two are like together. You, going out?"

That made me smile. I wish, "No. What would make you ask that?"

"Well you guys seem to be awfully close. And trust me it seems like you like each other."

I was about to choke on air. Did she just say it looks like we like each other? That implies that it seems like he likes me in a way other than a friend. No. No. No. I am not going to get my hopes up. "I don't know what you're talking about." I said in a defensive tone.

"Girl! You have got to work on your lying. I know you like him. Hello! Half the school's population has had a fantasy involving him. But its more than obvious he likes you. I don't know why you are denying it. I mean if he liked me I would be jumping him by now. But I guess you aren't that type of girl... My point being, he likes you. How can you not tell?"

I shook my head, "Because I am not his type of girl."

"And who are you to decide that for him?" she asked walking inside the class room.

"Thank you girls."

I sat down and began to think about what Aly had told me. Jared must have sensed I was concentrating because he didn't try to disturb me.

All too soon the bell rang.

Shit. I wasted time that should've been used to talk with Jared.

I got up and walked outside with Jared behind me. "I never thanked you for saving me. So thanks I'm going to have to pay you back some how. It would've really sucked if I had actually fallen."

"That was no biggy, alright." then a mischievous smirk reached his lips. "I have to tell you something. But I'll do it later, you're going to be late."

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I walked into the cafeteria. Jordy was already sitting at our table. He turned when he heard me approach.

"I'm sorry!" We said at the same time. He stood up and picked me up in a tight hug. I can't really describe it as a bear hug because Jordy isn't that strong.

Shortly afterwards Noah arrived at our table.

"Hey Kim Possible."

I groaned, "Please do not ever call me that ever again. Or I will beat the shit out of you."

I sat back in my seat as Noah and Jordy began their routine gossiping. I only waited.

"Where is Jared?" Jordy asked me when lunch was almost over.

Well that's the question I keep asking myself. "I don't know. He was here... but-"

The bell rang cutting me off.

... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Jared wasn't there during sixth period either. So naturally I zoned out the entire hour thinking to myself, What the hell? Where is Jared at?. It was boring as hell.

I was now at 'my oh so lovely home'. I raced to my room and took out my phone. It was time to call someone that I missed terribly. Someone that I haven't seen in more than a month.

My big sister Mandy.

So I dialed her phone number and it began to ring. She picked up on the seventh ring.

Hello?

"Hey Mandy." I said as I jumped on to my bed.

"Kim! Oh my God! I haven't talked to you in like... forever!" She yelled into the phone.

I rolled my eyes. "Uh, well actually two weeks ago."

Really, she sounded confused, it seems like more than that. Well, how have you been?

"I'm good. I am really happy actually..." I was on the verge of squealing.

"Hmm... Sounds like more than good Kimmy. Why is that?"

I started blushing and felt so grateful that she couldn't see me do so. "There's this boy..."

She started giggling, causing funny noise, "Could this boy be the famous Jared you told me about once?"

"Yes."

Mandy laughed again. "Oh Kim! And how's that going for you?"

I sighed. "I like him. I've been having a crush on him the entire year practically. But now I like him... a lot. I mean he always makes me smile. And he always listens to what I have to say... and he already took Jordy and me out to see a movie."

"But was it like a date?"

"Well I don't really think it counted because he also took Jordy so... you get me right?"

"Wait! Wesley let you go with him? What the hell? Whenever I wanted to go out with a boy, he would be such a little bitch about it. But I guess he would let you go if Jordy was there. Honey that's good to hear though. I'm glad to hear that you are happy."

"Thanks. So how have you been."

"Ugh. Bored! I am either inside an office or at their condo. They won't let me do anything fun. It's boring as fuck. You know I was gonna call you tomorrow to tell you that I am thinking about coming back."

"You should so come back! We miss you a lot." I admitted.

"Well you should miss me... kidding! I want to do wanna leave. I mean I haven't really made much progress. They're always too busy or too tired to pay any attention to what I am saying... You know what? I am going to go back. I see absolutely no point in staying here any longer."

"When?"

"Umm... I don't know. Maybe tomorrow or tonight. I like really miss you guys and my friends. Hey is George there? I need to like ask him if he can pick me up. I really really can't take being here any longer."

"Yeah... Hold on." I hopped of my bed and ran to George's room. I walked in because the door was already open. He was sitting on his bed strumming his guitar. "Mandy wants to talk to you."

He put his guitar down gently and took the phone from my hands. "Hey Manders . What's up?"

I decided to take a seat on his small couch. "Really. It's that boring without me?... I was kidding! You don't have to be mean... All I was doing was saying that of course you missed me... Aww baby sis, why do you gotta take everything up the ass?... Maybe I won't pick you up then," I gasped but he winked at me. "Yeah that's what I thought... Oh yeah I met him... one word: steroids. He's taller than me!" and that's how I knew they were talking about Jared, "well I guess you will meet him when you come back... Are they cute together? Mandy, what the hell of a question is that? No I will not answer that... I think that is more of a Jordy question. Well okay then pack your things I'll pick you up around nine o'clock... Because I have shit to do first... Yeah love you too. Yeah tell them I'll be there... Well then, Hi? I guess. No... listen I don't really want to. Ugh... I have to go. See you at nine."

I was beaming at him. "We're picking her up tonight?"

"We?Kim don't give me that look" I glared at him, "Yeah so I guess we are picking her up. You know mom is there right?" I nodded. "And you aren't gonna pull any stupid shit, right?" I nodded again. "Good. Because then she would ground your ass and you won't be able to see your pretty boy Jared."

I blushed. "Shut up." I muttered.

"Ah,"he sighed, "notice you didn't deny it?" he came to sit down next to me, "Kim we I think we should have a talk about this."

"Ugh ! Is today have a talk with Kim day? Listen this girl from school already beat you there. And so did Mandy..."

George put his arm around my shoulder. "Another day then?"

I nodded. "Yeah... Or just not ever?" George smirked and I'm guessing that's a no.

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We arrived in Port Angeles at eight forty. My parents house wasn't to far from the bay so we made it there before nine o'clock.

There's only one word to describe my parents living style: ridiculous. Straight out... They live in a condo that looks more like a house. So what's the difference? Oh yeah, these condos are in the wealthier side of the small town.

I knocked on the door three time and my mother opened it. She smiled at me and moved forward to give me a hug. I wrapped my arms around her small waist.

People always tell me that I look almost exactly like my mother. I don't think so because she's gorgeous and I am not. She's taller than me, not by much, and has more of an round shaped face than Mandy or me. She's really pretty, but I think she kills it with the amount of make-up she wears. For a thirty nine year old, she has it going on.

"Kim! Honey I haven't seen you... since... I don't even remember when. It was ages ago! You look so beautiful baby." My father and Mandy came from behind my mom. Mandy walked over to stand next to me. My mother clasped her hands, "Justin, honey, look at our girls. They're turning out to be true beauties."

Dad smiled. "Kimmy. Its nice to see you here." He walked over to Mandy and me and gave us a bear hug. "My girls." he sighs. "Where is George?"

My dad was old, no offense to him: forty eight years old. But he didn't look that old late thirties. He looks like an older version of John.

I turn around to see George making his way up their front porch. "Right here." dad let us go and went to hug George.

"You should come more often."

I sigh, "Mom why don't you and dad stay with us more often?"

Her face looks uncomfortable, "Honey we have work here. Our house is almost two hours away. It would be easier for us to move the family here, but we won't do that because you guys like it over there."she smiled, "but I am going to visit you guys soon. Like in two weeks honey. While your dad goes on some business trip."

Even though my mother is fake sometimes, I love her. Her true self is in there somewhere. All I want her to understand is that all the material shit she care about matters nothing to most people. Money isn't the answer to everything and keeping appearances is bull shit. On top of it all that I miss her a lot. I miss seeing her everyday. I miss how close this family used to be. I know they do love is still but it makes us want to not love them because of how they act.

Its moments like these were she acts like a real mom that make it bearable to see how she and my father act when they are with their competitive friends.

I nodded. "Why don't you just come with us home. For a day?"

My father grimaced ,"I have to work tomorrow baby girl."

Mom must have seen the disappointment on my face evident, "But I don't." she volunteered.

Immediately my eyes got brighter. "Then let's go."

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I didn't go to school the next day. My mom had arranged for us girls to have a relaxing day at the spa. It was a fun day to be with her. Mandy and I had convinced her to not wear any make-up and to just be a mom.

My phone vibrated around eight o'clock. "Hello?" I asked not recognizing the number.

"Hey Kim, it's me... Jared."he greeted me in a husky voice. I was about to faint, but then I noticed there was a slur in his voice.

"Hey... are you alright? You don't sound too good."

There was a pause. "No. I've been better. Kim, how come you didn't come to school today?" he sounded depressed.

I felt butterflies in my stomach. "Oh, my mom wanted to spend the day with Mandy and me so she insisted that we stay with her the entire time. Yesterday I went to their condo and like yeah...we ended up not going to school today."

"Well today sucked a lot 'cus you weren't there."

I felt my cheeks get warmer. "Really? Well I'm sorry then."

"Don't apologize. That's cool that you spent the day with your mom. I know that you really missed her."

"Yeah I did... Jared I hope you don't mind me asking but, are you alright? I mean you really don't sound too good."

He started laughing, which caused shivers travel down my spine, "Oh that's because I'm wasted."

I gasped. "Where are you calling from? I don't recognize the number." I was really worried that he was calling from a pay phone out in who knows where.

"Sam's house. Remember him?"

"Yeah." I wanted to slap him. "Jared you really shouldn't drink."

He sighed, "I'm sorry. Are you mad at me now?"

"No, not really. I am surprised though. Why are you drinking."

His voice sounded pained. "To forget the shit that's going on. I don't want to think of it. I want to get so wasted I forget my own name at some point."

"But there's a better way," I insisted, "you could talk to someone about it."

"Who would listen?"

I felt a bit hurt when he said that. "I would listen. As long as it would take."

"Really? Even if it was hours?"

"Yes. I would. I will, if you feel like talking. Even if it takes hours."

to be continued...

so this was a chapter that gave me ideas for the future. i am happy to inform that i have written their first official date together(i don't count the movies because Jordy was there). i will post it a lot sooner if i get reviews for this. please reviews! i mean you've made it this far so a quick review isn't too much of me to ask. is it? two fingers up, cus im out...

PLAYLIST::
-Polythene Pam by The Beatles
-Blue Orchid by The White Stripes
-Can't Stop by The Red Hot Chili Peppers
-Stuck in The Moment by Justin Bieber
-Another One Bites the Dust by Queen