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His silence spoke volumes. I stared into his frozen eyes for what seemed like eternity. Trying to convey just how much I loved and needed him.
"Edward, please say something" something in my voice awoke him from his frozen state. I could see the regret burning deep within his soul and it shocked me to think that Edward may just want this as much as me if not more.
"Bella, oh my beautiful Bella, you know we can't I don't have that much control. It wouldn't be a case of me hurting you, I would most likely kill you and I could never and will never risk your life. Please just try and see it from my perspective. Bella, my love I want you in everyway until the end of time and beyond but until your unbreakable I'm afraid that part of forever will have to wait."
Tears had started to fall halfway through his speech in a slow but steady stream but now they were flowing over my cheeks like a never ending river. Rejection and disappointment flooded through me an yet understanding flowed right along next to them. I knew exactly what Edward meant. I could understand his reasoning easily and yet something deep inside me told me to fight, to show Edward that though his fears were real and justified, my soul screamed out that they weren't right, we belonged together and tonight we would be together in the most intimate of ways.
"Oh Edward" I sighed and traced the lines of his face while he wiped away my tears. "Of course I understand, of course I know why you say no. What I don't understand is why my soul is screaming at me not to give up, to show you my love in the most real of ways. This one gift I could give to you in some payment of all the wonderful things you have given to me. Edward I love you more than my own existence. Please, please for me just let us try, just let us be together as one. Lets tell the whole world that we belong together and will be together long after time ends." Edward closed his eyes slowly and sighed. Though not an frustrated sigh as I expected. This felt more like acceptance. I touched his cheek and his eyes fluttered pen. I pulled myself closer and hovered near his lips before pressing mine against his.
Edwards lips responded with passion equivalent to my own and though I didn't know how it happened suddenly he was on top of me, hovering so that I didn't feel his weight. His lips roamed down my neck, reaching my collarbone and I let out a moan as he caressed my side. He stopped and looked up at me grinning. My heart sped up and I pulled his head down to crash my lips onto his once more.
"Bella" He said against my lips "Bella, love" this time he pulled away to look in my eyes though he hovered over me still "Bella, we cant" his face held nothing but i hadn't come this far to give up now. I shook my head
"No Edward we can, I need you, I love you please I swear you wont hurt me but if it makes you feel better, if anything happens, if I feel anything wrong I'll tell you I swear. I love you so much I need this Edward. Please" I whispered the last word before gently bringing my lips to his. It was up to him now I had said all I could.
He groaned against me lips and kissed me back. My hands wrapped into his hair as I pulled his face closer and one of his hands caressed from my hair down to my knee. Then in a motion that took my breath remaining breath away he hitched my knee up against his leg and lent closer letting me feel some of his weight. His mouth moved from mine to allow me to breath
"Bella" he was almost as breathless as I was "I'm not sure about this, what if.." I cut him off
"Edward I'm sure. You wont hurt me. If we live our lives by what if's we'll never live. I love you and need you. Edward make love to me" My words sounded husky from lack of oxygen and yet they had the desired effect. Edward looked deep into my eyes kissed me lightly and said
"I love you Bella, promise that if I hurt you, you'll tell me to stop I want this too be nothing but…pleasurable for you" he smirked as I flushed red
"Edward this isn't just for me" I made sure his eyes were focused on mine and took his face between my hands to keep it there "let yourself go, you love me and wont hurt me. Enjoy, live and just let us be together, Edward and Bella not vampire and human. Just us" and so it was, his kisses became more passionate and my legs wrapped around his waist locking at the ankles. His mouth travelled further south than it ever had before as he unbuttoned my shirt painfully slowly. My back arched as he removed my bra, his kisses covering the newly exposed skin.
My hands moved then, unlocking from my hair and returning the favour. When his shirt had joined mine on the floor, he moved back up to my head and whispered softly,
"You are so beautiful, what did I do to deserve you?" I smiled at him and pecked his lips.
"You gave me you"
It didn't take long after that for my jeans to hit the floor in two pieces.
Heat flashed from my head to my toes and I fumbled with his pants. Soon I was looking at every inch of the man I love just as he was seeing every inch of me for the first time.
I couldn't get over his beauty and he was mine! He kissed my deeply as he rolled to hover over me once more.
"Bella, I love you" he said passionately
"and I love you. Thank you for everything" I whispered back. And from there we entered into a passion filled afternoon, taking each other to new highs and exploring each other as we never had before.
I didn't know how long I had been sleeping but it was dark when I awoke and I knew the instant that I felt every inch of Edwards cold marble body against mine, that I never wanted to wake up another way again. My head was on his chest, my hand resting over his heart while his arms were wrapped securely around my waist. I lifted my head to look at his face, his eyes were closed and a contented look was plastered on his face.
"Good evening sleepy head" he said slowly opening his golden eyes and dazzling me with his beautiful smile.
"hi" I said back smiling back. A happy bubble surrounded us both and we were content in our own little world.
"How are you?" he asked. I turned onto my stomach and stretched my legs examining how I felt.
"I feel wonderful, a little sore understandably but apart from that I have never been better" I pulled myself up to kiss Edward and smiled against his lips.
"Thank you Edward. For everything I love you"
"Oh Bella, you have no idea how much I love you, you've made me question everything I have ever believed in. Bella without you my life just wouldn't be worth living. Today has been the best day of my existence and its all thanks to you. I love you my Bella, my love, my life"
I pulled him to me and kissed him passionately. And because it was still new to me it thrilled me when he responded with as much passion. So when Edward jumped away from me a few minutes later it shocked me to the core. Tears filled my eyes instantly and hurt racked through me.
"E-Edward" I stuttered wanting an explanation as to why he was rushing to out his clothes back on. Instantly he was back by my side, his arms wrapped around me
"Bella, Bella calm down, I'm sorry I jumped away, I'm sorry I panicked. The others are on their way back. Alice just warned me in her head, she saw what happened well she stopped looking when clothes got removed" He grinned "I'm sorry I scared you love but we really do need to get dressed and downstairs they'll be here in 5 minutes" I looked at his face and smiled
"Sorry I over reacted, lets go" I said and hopped out of the bed. Cool arms circled my waist.
"Mmm, maybe we shouldn't go down" he whispered huskily in my ear. That flash of heat seared through my body again and I forced myself to pull away slightly and turn in his arms,
"Are you sure you want Emmett to catch us like this?" I asked him. Fear flashed in his eyes and he said,
"Good point" before kissing me quickly and flying back into panic mode. I pulled my underwear on and buttoned up my shirt. It was then I realised that my jeans were currently in two halves on the floor.
"Erm, Edward" he turned to face me finishing the last button on his shirt and I held one piece of my jeans in each hand. He chuckled and darted into his closet coming out again in a second, holding a pair of jeans identical to the ones he had ripped.
"I do love my sister sometimes" he said as he handed them to me. As soon as I had them fastened I was in his arms and flying down the stairs. We were sat on the couch, Edward slowly brushing my hair for me when Alice, Jasper, Rose and Emmett walked in.
"Hey guys!!!" Emmett's booming voice called as they opened the front door "what have you been up to while we'v…" he stopped half way through and stared at us open mouthed. I felt my cheeks heat up as his mouth closed and a grin spread wide on his face,
"Bella, Edward would you like to explain why our house smells like sex?" Edward cursed under his breath and my face flushed beetroot red.
"HA!!" Emmett shouted "Edward lil' bro, you finally got some!" Emmett bounded over to us and clapped Edward on the back and ruffled my hair. "And Bella, well done!!! You finally got him to give it up!" Emmett was enjoying this far too much. I looked with pleading eyes to Rosalie who strode over and hit Emmett on the back of the head.
"Ow! What the hell Rose?"
"That was for being an insensitive jerk" She said glaring at him. If anyone could control Emmett it was Rosalie.
"Oh and Bella…Well done" she smirked and pulled Emmett away leaving me to cringe into Edward.
"So it was you two that I felt the huge wave of lust off as we were coming back?" Jasper asked smirking, I sighed and turned to face away from him refusing to meet any more amused faces.
"Leave it Jazz" Edward said quietly
"Hey I don't mean anything. I'm happy for you guys, you have no idea how much happiness and love is radiating off you about now"
I smiled to myself and Edwards arms tightened around me in a hug.
"I'm just so glad you two finally worked out a compromise and got something you both enjoyed out of it" Alice smirked.
"Ok, ok enough, Edward can we go t the meadow please?" I asked him desperate to escape from all of the sarcastic comments.
"I wish love" Edward said smiling at me "But Esme, Carlisle and your mother are about to pull up, the days not over yet" I groaned and tucked my head into Edwards chest.
As soon as Carlisle and Esme walked over the door way, their eyes went straight to us. Esme's face was shocked while Carlisle's was more concerned. Alice stood from her seat on the couch and bounced her way over to Renee.
"Come on Renee, come and show me what you've bought. I've got some ideas as well that you might like" she dragged Renee away into the kitchen while I gave her an apologetic smile knowing there was no way to win against Alice, Jasper followed soon after no doubt to try and keep her emotions under control.
When Carlisle and Esme sat on the couch across from us I knew there was no way to avoid this conversation and the thought made me tuck myself further into Edward's side.
"So is there anything you would like to talk about?" Carlisle asked
"No I muttered, my face still hidden in Edwards chest while my hands clutched at his shirt. The only thing that could calm me in this situation was his sent and so I breathed it in like it was my own personal oxygen. Carlisle's voice sounded amused and I looked slowly up to see him trying not to smile.
"don't worry Bella, were not going to give you "the talk" we just want to make sure that you weren't hurt and everything went…erm…well..ok I suppose" he asked and naturally I blushed.
"Everything was far better than ok, and of course I wasn't hurt just like I said, it was perfect" I couldn't look at my 2nd parents while I said this and so I focused on my hands.
"Then that's wonderful, I'm very happy for the both of you" Esme smiled as she said this and stood up to give us both a hug,
"Now Bella, you must be hungry what would you like to eat"
"Anything Esme, if you make it it's bound to be delicious" I smiled back at her and settled back against Edward glad at least that we wouldn't have to sneak around now that everybody knew.
I spent that night at Edwards, Renee left after having something to eat, Alice and Jasper went for a walk and Rose and Emmett had long since disappeared upstairs. I would have hated to be Edward when that happened, he sat next to me on the couch an arm across my shoulders and every now and then a particularly strong thought would break through his mental shield and he would wince beside me.
After the seventh time of this happening I grabbed his hand and stood up pulling him with me. I walked quickly over to Esme and Carlisle,
"Goodnight Esme, night Carlisle" I gave them each a hug and kiss on the cheek and then led Edward up the stairs.
We reached his room and as soon as the door closed behind him I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled his face down so that his lips would meet mine. When I broke away I rested my head on his chest and his arms wrapped around me.
"Let me distract you" I whispered, he gave me a questioning look and I grinned. Our night together had given me a boost of confidence and I was dying for revenge on Emmett,
"Well I don't know about you but I reckon we could give Rose and Emmet a run for their money"
"Edward looked at me shocked but then a mischievous smile graced his face and he cupped the back of my neck and dipped me low to press his lips to my neck. As he pulled me back into his arms he looked deep into my eyes and whispered
"I love you" and we continued together deep into the night.
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