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Monday morning rolled around and after saying goodbye to Renee as she got in her taxi back to the airport, Edward and I made our way to school.
"So ready to face the music?" Edward asked smiling
"I'm not ready for all the stupid comments were going to get but i'm ready to tell the world that your mine and forever will be" he grinned and gave my hand a gentle squeeze.
"At least you can't hear their thoughts love"
We pulled into a parking space next to Rosalie's M3 and Edward opened my door. Alice was waiting for us.
"Right Bella, under no circumstances can you be alone with Mike Newton today after your announcement" she told me while giving me a hug.
"Erm ok, but why?" I felt Edward tense and a growl slipped through his lips. I squeezed his hands gently which seemed to calm him.
"Well he isn't going to be too happy bout your engagement and seeing as he's deluded he thinks Edward forced you into it and if he kisses you, you'll run away with him"
I was nearly sick.
"Eww how the hell can he think that I'd rather be with him! Well it shouldn't be a problem I have every class with Edward apart…from... gym" I looked up at Edward; his eyes had darkened as he watched the events that would happen in gym unfold.
"Bella I'll be right back, don't move. Alice stay with her."
"No problem Edward" Alice smiled while I just stared at her waiting for an explanation but she simply smiled at me and nodded her head towards the office.
I looked over and Edward was walking back towards us dazzling me with his smile, when he reached me he pulled me into his side and led me towards school.
"Well Bella, you not alone in gym anymore" I looked up at him grinning.
"I love you" I said and he grinned back
"I love you too" He replied.
I took a deep breath as I walked through the doors and Edward led me into English. We took our usual seats at the back and I had to fight the urge to hide my left hand under the table. But I didn't I displayed it proudly. It took me a moment to look away from Elizabeth Mason's ring sparking in the light and when I did I saw Angela turning to smile at me. I smiled back at her. As she went to look away something in my expression stopped her. She glanced at Edward then back to me. I flexed my fingers nervously and caused the light to reflect off my ring once more. This time it caught Angela's eye and her eyes flashed down to it. Shock showed on her face for a few seconds before she broke into a huge smile. She mouthed the word "congratulations" at me and then turned around.
Looking up at Edward I noticed he has watched our whole exchange,
"She's the best friend you have" he said, I smiled
"Correction, she's the best human friend I have" and I gave him a quick kiss that promised more later.
The morning went quickly and soon Edward and I were walking hand in hand to the cafeteria. We had decided that rather than make a big announcement to people, I would just sit at the lunch table with them, my ring on clear display and let them work it out for themselves. The best part of this plan being that Jessica and Lauren would make sure that the rest of the school knew before the end of lunch so people were likely to get over it quicker.
After getting "our" tray of food we took a seat next to Alice. Jess and Lauren were all ready there concentrating on their make up. A few minutes later everyone else had arrived and were busy eating and talking. I sat quietly next to Edward his left arm was around my waist and I was eating with my left hand while I rested against his chest. Angela smiled at me across the table and I grinned back.
It was when I lifted my bottle of water to have a drink that I heard the first gasp. Jessica was staring at my hand here eyes wide and disbelieving. That was when I tensed and waited for the commotion to start.
Lauren who was trying to gain back Jessica's attention turned to look what had distracted her. She turned her hate filled eyes on me and Edward's arm tightened around me. Not seeing what had caught her eye, Lauren turned back to Jess and whispered angrily
"What!" Jess took her eyes off my hand and looked back at Lauren,
"Look at her hand" Jess said not troubling to keep her voice down. Every pair of eyes at the table swivelled in my direction. Lauren's mouth dropped open and she stared at me,
"NO! No, No, No, No, NO!!" She shouted "Bella Swan, what the hell?"
"Erm Lauren, calm down"
"Calm down! You are not engaged Bella, no way. You aren't!!"
"Lauren, I don't know what you call it but when a guy asks a girl to marry him and she says yes it's usually called engaged" Edward my saviour said. The whole table went silent. Mike seemed to be turning green and a few seconds later he made a mad dash for the door which made Edward chuckle in my ear. Eric and Tyler were staring in disbelief but seemed to recover themselves after a few minutes and went back to eating although with much less enthusiasm than before.
Angela got up to give both Edward and I a hug and then she sat back down with Ben who nodded and smiled at us both.
Jess and Lauren were the only ones yet to recover and their staring was making me uncomfortable. I sighed and stood up grabbing Edward's hand.
"We'll see you later Alice, love you sis" I said grinning at her. She beamed back- it was so easy to make Alice happy- and said
"Ok guys, love you too. Have fun" she winked and then stood to walk gracefully away.
I giggled-something so uncommon for me- and wrapped my arms around Edwards's neck kissing him fiercely before we walked away.
That night Edward came straight to my house. He stood in the doorway watching as I prepared dinner for Charlie and myself. While I waited for everything to finish cooking I took the chance to par-take in my favourite past time- kissing Edward.
"Bella, Bella, Bella, you incorrigible, not that I'm complaining" he grinned
"I should hope not!" I replied
We heard Charlie's car turn into the drive and so I went back to cooking and Edward sat at the table and watched.
"Afternoon Bella, Edward" Charlie said as he walked into the kitchen.
"Hello Charlie" Edward said
"Dinner won't be long Dad"
"Ok Bells I want to catch the score anyway"
Charlie wandered into the living room and Edwards arms wrapped around my waist.
"I'm going to check in with the family and then I'll be back"
"If you have to. I'll miss you" I turned and captured his lips with mine
"I'll miss you too love, but I'll be back before you know it" I kissed him again and he walked out the front door shouting bye to Charlie on the way.
10 minutes later dinner was ready. I called Charlie into the kitchen and just as we were sitting down to eat there was a knock at the door
"I'll get it dad" I said jumping up and hoping it was Edward. I pulled the door open and the huge smile that was on my face dropped. Jacob stood on the other side of the door, his fists clenched and his huge frame shaking.
"J-Jake what are you doing here?" I stuttered
"I need to talk to you, will you come for a walk with me please?"
"Sure Jake" I called back into the house to tell Charlie where I was going and then shut the door behind me. Jacob set off walking down my street while I struggled to keep up with him.
"So he's back then?" he asked me as I finally caught up with him. I scowled at the side of his head before answering.
"Yes he is Jacob, for good and so you had better get used to it!"
"We'll see but the next time he runs off I doubt even I could make it better Bella"
"Jacob he won't go anywhere, he loves me and I love him. That's all that matters"
"Bella how can you consider staying with him? Eventually it's going to get too hard to stay together, you'll be aging and he won't people will think you have a 17 year old boyfriend when you're 30" stopped walking and turned to look at me. His face was angry but I could see his pain in his eyes and it made me sick to think what I was putting him through and yet I couldn't stop. He had to know and I had to tell him.
"Not boyfriend" I whispered, his face tightened
"What?"
"Jacob do you really think that I would let myself live with him and not tie myself to him completely do you really think I would stand by his side all my life willing to eventually die and leave him? Jake I thought you knew me better that that?"
He stared at me trying to decipher what my words meant
"Jake, we're getting married. Edward proposed and I said yes" Jacob's body began to shake and blur at the edges.
"Why?" he managed to croak out as he tried to control himself
"Because I love him Jake"
"No. Why bother? If your just going to grow old and die without him? Why bother?"
How could he not see what this meant?
"Jacob so you not see what I'm trying to tell you? He's going to change me. Jacob I wont live without him and I can't let him die just because I did!"
I had never seen Jacob look so angry and I knew what was going to happen next. His shape blurred completely and I stared to back away. Just as I heard a growl forming in Jacobs's chest a pair of cool arms grabbed my waist and lifted me, swinging me around so that I was guarded behind the beautiful figure that was Edward.
"Calm down now Jacob Black before I have no choice but to hurt you" he said hostility thick in his words. But nothing could calm Jacob down now especially not Edward and with a huge ripping sound human Jacob disappeared and in his place stood the familiar russet wolf that was my former best friend. Snarls and growl were coming from both their chests and I knew I had to stop this,
"Stop, Stop, STOP!" I shouted. Edward kept me from standing between then and for that I was glad I doubt even Jacob could control himself around me now.
"Jacob if you want to talk about this rationally, then come back when you've calmed down but nothing you say will make me change my mind. Come on Edward take me home" and I pulled him away from Jacob and back towards my house.
Later that night when Charlie was asleep I lay on my bed in Edwards arms
"I'm sorry about before Edward I shouldn't have told him"
"It's not your fault my love. Werewolves are volatile Bella, and Jacob has strong feelings for you. That doesn't really help"
I sighed and moved closer to Edward my finger traced small circles at the top of his chest where his shirt was open.
"I knew that he had feelings for me and it's my own fault they only got stronger. I should have squashed it straight it away or left him alone. But he was the only person who could make me feel even the tiniest bit better when you were gone. I was selfish and I used him. I guess this is my punishment now" Edward's arms wrapped around me tighter and he rested his cheek on the top of my head.
"Bella you didn't do anything wrong, all of this had happened because of me and my stupid decisions I'm so sorr…" I cut him off with my lips on his.
"Stop that now, let's just agree that its no-ones fault it's just how it's meant to be"
Edward smiled down at me
"Agreed" I smiled at him and kissed him before lying in the crook of him arm and playing with his fingers.
An hour later I was drifting to sleep when the phone started to ring downstairs. Startled I sat up.
"Shh its ok Charlie's getting it" Edward whispered
I listened as Charlie stumbled down the stairs grumbling to himself, his gruff voice mumbled a "Hello" into the phone and I turned to Edward
"Who is it?" I mouthed. He lay me back down next to him and gently stroked my hair while whispering
"It's Sue, she's having a bit of a rough time. Her children are both out and she needs some company, she's asking Charlie if he'll go down"
"That poor woman, I can't begin to imagine losing the one I love" I looked into his eyes as I said it and he smiled softly back.
"Don't worry love, I'm going nowhere"
"I know" I sighed and settled next to him
I heard Charlie hang up and make his way back upstairs, Edward was gone in the next second whispering for me to lie down quickly. Smiling to myself I got under the covers and closed my eyes.
My bedroom door opened and Charlie called my name. Slowly I stretched and turned over
"Dad? What's up?"
"Sue needs me to go up tonight, she's finding it hard at the moment, you don't mind do you?"
"Of course not Dad give her my love, I'll see you tomorrow"
"See you Bells"
Not 10 minutes later the cruiser drove away and Edward was back next to me. I kissed him softly and stared at his beautiful features.
"Go to sleep love" he said kissing my forehead
"I'm not tired though" I argued
"Than what would you like to do?" I smiled to myself and pulled myself closer to him
"I can think of a few things" I whispered softly before kissing him passionately. I felt him smile against my lips and pull me closer.
It had been a week since I had seen Jacob and I was feeling a lot better, if he could get on with his life then I could live happily knowing I wasn't hurting him anymore. Although at this moment I was considering hurting Alice,
"You know how I feel about this Alice! You know what I like why do you have to drag me along?"
"Because it's YOUR wedding dress Bella!!"
"Argh!!! Can we not look online?"
"But then we won't know how it looks!" Alice wined
"You will though" I tried to argue
"That's not the same Bella. Now stop arguing I am going to win!?"
I huffed and folded my arms Edward smiled at me and kissed my forehead
"I'll see you later love. I love you. Alice be nice and remember to feed her"
"I will Edward, don't worry so much" Then I was dragged away from Edward and shoved into Alice's porché. Rosalie was smiling at me from the back seat and Esmé was sat next to her. I smiled back at them hopeful that Esmé would be able to rein Alice in a little at least.
Alice climbed into the driver's seat a split second after I was sat down and I folded my arms and scowled at her.
"I didn't even get to kiss him goodbye" I moaned. Alice didn't say anything, she merely put down my electric window and I looked around to see my Greek god waiting.
"See you later love" and he kissed me deeply until Alice tutted and made to drive off. I managed to whisper, "I love you" quickly before we were speeding down the drive.
An hour later we were pulling up outside an expensive looking wedding shop, white lace decorated the windows and I had to admit that the dresses were gorgeous, looking at them gave me the first excitement I had felt for this shopping expedition.
"I told you it wouldn't be so bad" Alice said as she noticed the smile on my face
"Ok, ok you win" I said.
We walked into the shop and a small bell rang to signal someone entering. Alice went straight to the counter and spoke to the woman stood there. She beamed at Alice and shook her hand. Then she walked towards me.
"Good morning Miss Swan, my name is Diane. We have some lovely dresses available for you to look at and try on today. Just have a look through the racks and if you see anything you like just give it to me or one of my colleagues and we'll have it waiting in the dressing room. The shops been closed for you today so take as long as you'd like."
I stared at the woman, shocked by her politeness not to mention that she'd closed her shop for us.
"Oh e-erm thank you" I managed to say before Alice pushed me towards the first rack.
I sighed and stared looking. As my hands touched lace, satin and silk nothing caught my eye until I got halfway down. It was beautiful, the strapless bodice flowed beautifully into the skirt and the whole dress was covered in a layer of lace that made it look like it was from a 1900's novel. Perfect. Though it still had a modern twist, the top of the bodice had diamante inlaid in-between the intricate lace. There was also a ribbon that wrapped around the waist of the dress.
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I ran my hands over the dress feeling it softly. I heard Alice gasp and turned to see her shove a pile of at least 12 dresses that she had picked out into the arms of a bewildered sales woman and then come bounding over to me.
"Ahh Bella! That's it, that's the dress!!" I nodded slowly and took the dress from the rail.
"I'd like to try this on please" I told Diane
"Of course Miss Swan, just this way" I followed her into the dressing room and embarrassed I stripped to my underwear. Diane wasn't fazed as she slipped the dress over my head. It felt smooth and soft as it slipped over my body.
Diane buttoned up the long row of pearl buttons on the back and I look a deep breath as I looked into the mirror I gasped. Even I had to admit I looked good. The dress accentuated all of the right parts and even added to my height.
"Bella would you hurry up were dying out here!" Rosalie said from in the store.
I took another deep breath and pulled back the curtain. Rose gasped, Alice beamed and if Esmé could cry I would bet money that she would be.
"Bella you look amazing!" Wow, Rose was saying that!
"Erm, thanks Rose. I love it. This is the one!"
"Your not kidding Bella! Edward is going to adore you in that." Alice said
"Bella you look beautiful, Alice picked you out some shoes and a veil would you like to try them on?" Esmé asked me
"Defiantly" I beamed
Once they were on I looked again in the mirror. The simple veil was attached to a tiara and flowed softly halfway down my back. I smiled and span around laughing and for once not falling over,
"I can't believe I'm actually enjoying shopping!"
"Finally!!" Rose and Alice said together.
After I had unwillingly taken the dress off, Alice began looking for her bridesmaid dress. Rose was sat on one of the chairs watching and I made my mind up then. Alice turned around and caught my attention. She was beaming at me and she nodded at me encouragingly. I took a deep breath and sat next to Rose,
"Rose why are you sat here?" She looked at me confused
"Human charade Bella" I smiled softly at her
"I mean why aren't you looking for your bridesmaid dress" Rose looked at me shocked
"B-Bella, Thank you!" She said beaming and for a moment I was stunned again by her beauty. She pulled me up into a hug and I hugged her back fiercely
"Rose don't mention it" I smiled at her when she pulled back and she rushed over to Alice as they looked through the dresses.
20 minutes later they had found their dresses and they looked fabulous in them. Both were the same a long ruby red dress with a ruffled bust. Just under the bust lay a beautiful diamante broach in the middle of the fitting waist. (Dress on profile)
We walked out of the shop by 1 o clock. Esmé went home saying that Carlisle needed her and Alice and Rose dragged me around the other shops. Coming out of the 4th clothes shop Alice told me were going to look for my wedding present for Edward. I smiled and agreed then I looked across the road and stopped. Alice had hold of my hand and tugged when I stopped
"Come on Bella I thought you wanted to get this present?"
"I've already found it"
Alice looked at me confused
"Wha…" She cut off when her face went blank and a vision overtook her. She come out of it and looked at me shocked, then she smiled
"You're sure?" she asked
"Defiantly" I said
"Erm guys what's going on?" Rose asked
"Bella's getting a tattoo" Alice answered
Rose stared at me shocked. I felt my blush creep up my neck but Alice pulled me across the road before anyone could comment.
We walked into the dimly lit shop and looked around. Tattoo designs covered the walls and skulls and pin up girls dominated them.
I walked up to the counter and a man came out from the back room.
"Morning Ladies, what can I do for you today?" I could feel myself becoming more and more nervous and I stuttered while I answered him
"I-I-I would like a t-tattoo please" obviously this guy had dealt with a lot of nervous people because my nervousness didn't faze him.
"Ok not a problem what would you like?"
"Oh ermm I'm not sure." I said I hadn't thought that far
"Ok well what is it for, a special occasion? Or just on a whim?" he smiled as he said it
"It's a wedding present for my fiancée" I answered, surprise crossed his face but he kept his composure,
"Ok well you could have his name? Or if you don't like that idea is there a nickname only he calls you? A place even that belongs to only you?"
For a moment I thought of the meadow, but how to immortalize it in ink? I couldn't think, I knew I didn't want a big tattoo and so I thought harder. An image of a dark underground passage and crimson eyes floated to the front of my mind and I knew straight away what I wanted.
"Got it" I said "I'd like to have La tua cantante on my hip please"
"No problem, and how do you spell that?" Alice stepped forward then and wrote it down for him. I chose the font and then sat down while he prepared the stencil.
"Ahh Bella I'm so excited for you! And Edward is going to love it!" I looked at Alice
"Are you sure Alice" I lowered my voice "Have you seen it?"
"Yep Bella, he'll be shocked at first and he might seem a little angry but you'll be fine his…male…instincts will help" she smiled cheekily just as the man came out from the back
"Are you ready?" he asked I swallowed loudly and dragged Alice into the back with me.
I lay on the bed and lowered the right side of my jeans. I held Alice hand tightly when the machine started and took a deep breath
"Here we go" he said and I held my breath tensing. I think I may have actually hurt Alice. I whimpered as the needle touched my skin, it hurt, A lot!!!
Alice whispered in my ear "Think of Edward Bella" and I worked a little bit. I lay and took myself to my happy place, the meadow with Edward, we were lay side by side on the soft grass and the sun shone down softly making us both sparkle.
"Ok Bella you're all done" I opened my eyes and looked at the man
"Seriously?"
"Yep your all finished, well done" the corners of his mouth turned up in a small smile.
I stood up and went to look in the mirror, even backwards it looked amazing and I was sure Edward would agree.
After getting a dressing over it, we paid and walked out of the shop.
"Guys cam we go home now please?" I asked I couldn't wait to show Edward my tattoo
"Course Bella, I know you want to show him. You'll have to wait though he's gone hunting until tomorrow morning
I pouted and slumped to the car
"He could have told me" I said
"Emmett dragged him sorry Bella" Rose said. I sighed and looked at her
"It's ok I can cope for one night I suppose. Plus it'll give the swelling a chance to go down. I smiled and touched my hip lightly.
I awoke the next morning in my own bed. I sighed and rolled over smiling. Edward was back today. And speaking of Edward I felt a cool hand run down the length of my cheek
"Morning" I said
"Good morning love, did you have fun yesterday?" I opened my eyes and looked into his golden ones.
"I actually did, I have the prefect dress and 2 perfect bridesmaid dresses"
"Rose was thinking of that when I went in, it was a very kind thing for you to do"
"It was nothing" I looked at him nervously "Were they thinking of anything else?" I said apprehensively
"They were blocking me actually and I presume you know why?" he said as his mouth moved up and down my throat placing light kisses as he went.
"Mmm maybe" I replied. He pulled away to look into my eyes. I kissed him lightly on the lips then moved to get out of bed "Human moment" I said as I stood up. I stretched but soon wish I hadn't as a cry of pain came out of my lips as my hip stretched. He was beside me in a second
"Bella, Bells what's wrong?" I smiled sheepishly at him, it wasn't the right time just yet
"Nothing, nothing I'm fine my hip clicked that's all I'm fine" I kissed him again and grabbed my shower things. Once I was done and my hair was dry I walked back across the landing heading back to my room. I paused at the top of the stairs and listened, the house was silent and so Charlie must have gone to work. Perfect.
I closed my bedroom door and lay back beside Edward on my bed. He kissed me passionately and I responded with as much enthusiasm.
"Mmm, I missed you Bella" his kisses got more passionate and I thought my heart would break out from my chest. My hands rubbed his back gently as he hovered over me and then they trailed round his neck and to the front of his shirt. Slowly I undid the buttons and pulled his shirt of his shoulders. My lips followed my fingers as they traced the lines of his chest.
Edwards cool hand pulled my face back to his and he kissed me again with ferocity my shirt joined his next and his lips made my skin heat up. His nimble fingers made quick work of my button and zip before I pulled them away. He looked at me confused
"What's the matter Bella?"
"Nothing I just want to tell you something, before you do that" I smiled at him "I got you a wedding present, but you have to have it today"
He grinned at me
"Is now really the time" he asked his head ducking again to my chest. Gasping I pulled his head back up
"Yes, I said breathlessly "Look" he pulled back so I could stand up. I turned around and took a deep breath before sliding my jeans off
"Mmm I like this present" he whispered just loud enough for me to hear. I looked over my shoulder and smiled at him
"This isn't your present" I said and then turned around, "this is" and I pulled the dressing off my hip.
Edward stared, and stared and stared.
"Edward? Edward, say something please" I said earnestly
He reached out and pulled me back onto the bed. He lent over my hip and stared at it more. Breathing the words onto my skin and he mouthed them.
"Bella, why did you do this?" he asked gently. I instantly stared to get upset.
"Because I love you and I thought you would like it?" I said as a tear slipped out. He looked up at my face straight away and then shocked at my reaction kissed me, hard.
"Don't get me wrong Bella I do, I just wanted to know what was going through your beautiful mind when you did this" I hovered again over my hip before pressing a very light and gentle kiss on it.
"I wanted to get you something permanent, something that was between us and only us but I also want the world to know that I'm yours and only yours. This seemed like the way to do it. I'm your singer and that will always be true even after I've changed because I will always belong to you."
He stared into my eyes for a long time smiling.
"Hey and don't forget, this is another human experience to tick off the list" I grinned as he smiled wider and then pulled him to me once more.
"I think your I little overdressed Edward"
"I agree" He whispered into my ear before carrying on where we left off.