Bend And Not Break Chapter 4: I Keep Dancing On My Own

Hey everyone sorry for taking a very long time to update! School has been soo busy! I'm in my last year of University and it is the hardest year of my life! I have exams next week so wish me luck! I really hope you like this chapter! It has been awhile since I have wrote, so I hope this has brought this story back to life! I know there is a lot of Jacob in the story, but this is an Edward/Bella story so please keep that in mind! Please review, I love reviews and it allows me to see what people like in my stories and what they don't like! Also feel free to message me I love meeting new people!

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Somebody said you got a new friend
Does she love you better than I can
There's a big black sky over my town
I know where you at, I bet she's around
Yeah I know it's stupid
But I just got to see it for myself

Robyn- Dancing on my Own

"Oh Bella you look so beautiful tonight." Jacob said in his sexy, velvet voice.

" Thank you Jacob, you look so hot but I think you would look hotter if you took off your shirt." I said as I smiled and blushed as my cheeks turned red.

"Oh I think I can arrange that Bella." Jacob said as he pulled his collared white shirt over his head, exposing his chiseled six pack chest.

"Mmm Jake you look so hot I just want to…."

"BEEP, BEEP, BEEP,"

As soon as I heard the razor sharp sound enter my head which evaporated my dream I quickly sat up in bed. I rubbed my head and groaned. Then I turned over to my right side expecting to see Edward lying on the bed like an angel but he wasn't there. In his place was a small white note which read:

Dear my beautiful Bella,

I was having such a great time with you last night that I forgot to mention I had to go into work early this morning, I have to hire someone to replace Keith and I have an interview early this morning. I hope you had a good sleep and I will see you for lunch. Can't wait to see you, I miss you already.

Love,

Edward.

As soon as I finished reading his letter, I read it again, and again. I loved reading Edward's notes and how much he loved me. I truly did love him. He was the love of my life and I knew it was letters like these which would destroy the crazy thoughts I had involving Jacob in my head. I wanted him out of my head. I don't know why I just dreamt about him when it was Edward I loved. Even though I had history with Jacob, right now I was living in the present with Edward and nothing was going to change that. Nothing.

Feeling determined and less confused about my feelings, I pushed my dream out of my head and began to get ready for work. I put on my favourite pin stripe black skirt and pant suit with a white blouse underneath. When I finished my hair and makeup, I made my coffee and turned on my phone. As soon as I turned it on, a message came on the screen saying I had one missed call. Hoping that it was Edward's call I had missed, I checked the number, to my disappointment it was Jacob's. Then a message came on the screen that said I had one new voice mail. This time I knew I would be hearing Jacob's voice. I was right. I smirked at myself for being right for once. I listened to my voice mail, Jacob wanted to meet up for coffee, the same time I was having lunch with Edward. What a relief I thought. I didn't really want to face Jacob today. I wish he had never came here. So instead of phoning him, I text him saying I couldn't do coffee.

I drank the coffee I had made, quickly ate some toast and was on my way to work with Edward and Jacob both in my head.

Thankfully I arrived at my work building safe and I made my way to my desk and almost froze dead in my tracks when I passed Edward's office. There sitting across from him was a pretty woman. She actually seemed like a God. Her strawberry blonde, curly hair wrapped around her head like a halo. Her eyes were a light golden brown and her petite frame made her seem as though she was a model. She wore black stilettos, tight black dress pants and a low white and black polka dotted blouse which showed off her double D's. All of a sudden my eyes leared to something that made my heart drop like a ton of bricks into the pit of my stomach. This woman had her arm on my man, on my fiancé! What was she doing? I looked at Edward, he was smiling his beautiful smile. A smile I only saw. My heart starting to panic and waves of jealousy kept washing over me, drowning me in pain and sorrow. I shook my head, no it's nothing I said to myself as I quickly walked over to my office, sat down and tried to erase what I had just seen from my head.

" Hey beautiful, I thought I saw you in the hall, how was your sleep?" Edward asked as he came over and kissed me on my cheek.

"It was great thanks Edward, how did your interview go?" I said smiling.

"The interview went really well, in fact I just hired her on the spot! She is awesome, Bella I know you will love her. One second let me get her." Edward said as went out to grab her. Her? Her? I felt as though someone was twisting my stomach into knots. Even though I didn't want it to be true, I had a funny feeling the woman in Edward's office was the person he hired.

"Bella I would like you to meet Tanya, Tanya this is my beautiful, soon-to-be wife Bella."

If I was alone my mouth would have dropped to the ground. Even though I had already saw her through Edward's office windows, nothing could have prepared me for the woman I was being introduced to. She didn't look like a God, she was one. She was tall, pretty and had perfect white teeth.

"Hello Bella, it is so nice to meet you Edward has told me so much about you! You really are beautiful and congradulations, I hope the wedding planning is going well." She said as she smiled. Of course she had to be nice.

"Oh thank you so much, the plans are going slowly but I will get them done. Congradulations on getting the job, I'm sure you will love it here." I said trying to sound as nice as she was.

"Oh I'm sure I will." She replied as she smiled at me, then at Edward.

Even though I didn't want to keep staring at her, my eyes felt locked into place. I felt ashamed. I felt less beautiful. I actually felt ugly. I was nothing compared to her. The sudden wave of emotion started to create tears in my eyes.

"Will you excuse me, I just have to use the washroom." I said rubbing my eye quickly, ignoring Edward's questioning look.

"Of course, I'm sure we will see each other again soon!" Tanya said smiling that perfect smile.

I smiled. Then quickly walked to the washroom. I felt as though I was back in high school where all of the girls made you feel as though you were not beautiful. I guess you are never too old to feel jealous. I washed my hands and checked my phone. There was a text from Jacob.

Hey Bella hoping you are having a great day, perhaps we can have coffee tonight at seven? J.B

Although I didn't want to see Jacob, I knew Edward would want to talk about Tanya all night and I didn't want to hear about her. But I couldn't just see Jacob. It wasn't Edward's fault he had found a beautiful woman to hire. No I had to be mature about this. If I wanted to see Jacob I would just ask Edward. Everything would be fine. I smiled to myself in the mirror, but my stomach still felt as though someone was squeezing it very hard. Then I walked back to my office.

I had finished a lot of work and had not even thought about Tanya or Jacob which was an achievement. I was looking forward to lunch which was in ten minutes because I couldn't wait to sit down and talk to Edward. I felt as though I hadn't talked to him all day. However when Edward and Tanya both stepped into my office at 12 my heart sunk.

"Hey beautiful, Tanya doesn't know anyone so I hope you don't mind I invited her to have lunch with us." What was I supposed to say, no?

"No of course not." I said as I grabbed my coat from the coat rack.

" So I thought we would go down to Apple Annies for lunch? Is that okay?" Edward asked.

"Yup sounds awesome Edward." I said as he pulled me close and kissed me on the cheek.

"Can you believe I'm marrying this woman?" He said as he smiled. I smiled too as we made our way to the restaurant.

Although I was hungry for my B.L.T sandwich, I still felt nausaus especially with Tanya sitting beside Edward. It seemed as though her blouse had gotten lower because I swear I could see her whole breast. I felt ashamed as I quickly stared at my small breasts. To make matters worse, it seemed as though Edward and Tanya had known each other for years. They were talking about their job and what had happened that day.

"How was your day beautiful?" Edward finally asked.

"It was great thanks for asking." I said smiling at him.

"Oh well ours was crazy, you should have seen this…." Wow did Tanya ever shut up?

All of a sudden I heard my phone vibrate. I looked. It was Jacob.

Hey Bella, I can't wait to see you soon, can we meet up I want to know how you are doing?

I smiled.

"Excuse me, I just have to use the ladies room." Tanya said as she got up and pushed down her skirt to try and make it longer, if that was possible.

"Hey are you okay Bella?" Edward asked as he took my arm in his.

"Yeah I just didn't get a very good sleep." I said as I saw a concerned look appear on his face.

"How come Bella, is everything okay?"

"Yes Edward its fine. I'm fine." I answered.

"That is good. I'm sorry I wasn't there this morning, these few months are going to be really hectic. So I may be gone longer than I would like but remember that I love you." He said as he kissed me on the lips. Oh how his lips tasted like candy. Then he pulled away when he saw Tanya coming.

"I'm so busy at work and I thought I could finish training Tanya tonight, but I have no time. Do you mind if I cut lunch short and we can have a nice dinner tonight? How about some old fashioned pizza from Bennys and a nice bottle of wine?" He asked rubbing my hand.

Although I was said he was leaving early, I was excited for dinner.

"That sounds awesome Edward! I can't wait! Good luck with work, don't get too stressed." I said as I kissed him.

"I love you Bella."

"I love you too Edward."

Tanya said bye and then they left. Now I was alone and even my greasy sandwich couldn't cure my blues or my agonizing stomach. Even though I didn't want to get so worked up over Tanya, she was so beautiful and perfect, the opposite of me. Why would Edward want to marry someone like me, when he could have a woman like Tanya? I was just get up and leave when I heard my name being called. I thought maybe it was Edward coming back to finish our lunch, but it wasn't. It was Jacob.

"Bella what a pleasant surprise!" Jacob exclaimed as he smiled at me.

I couldn't help but smile as I saw the tall, dark haired man in front of me. He was wearing dark pants, a collared shirt and a black jacket.

"May I sit?" He asked pointing at the empty seat beside me.

"No not at all, I've been ditched so I wouldn't mind the company." I answered.

"Ditched? By who?" Jacob asked.

"By Edward and Tanya." I said trying not to say her name in hate but Jacob sensed my feelings.

Although it was a little awkward to be sitting with my past lover, right now he was the only one giving me attention and it felt good. Plus he was the only one I could talk to at the moment about Tanya. So after he ordered himself a Philly Steak and Cheese wrap, I told him all about my day which felt amazing.

"Wow this Tanya woman seems like a bitch!" Jacob said as I started to laugh.

"Yup she definitely is!"

"But I'm sure you are more beautiful than her." Jacob said as I blushed and turned my head away.

"Oh I'm sorry Bella,I didn't mean to make things awkward, I love just spending time with you like this, but its true you are beautiful."

"Thank Jacob."

"I also wouldn't worry about Tanya, everyone knows how much Edward loves you, everything will be okay." Jacob replied.

All of a sudden I saw Jacob's eyes light up like Christmas lights.

"Bella do you remember how we used to play pool all night long?"

"And you used to beat me every time!" I said remembering the times where Jacob would beat in pool.

"Yeah, well I just spotted a pool table, do you want to play and see if you can beat me or do you have to get back to work?" Jacob asked.

I glanced at my watch, I had twenty minutes. I had time for a game. What was the harm? He was my friend and I didn't really want to go back and see Tanya.

"Okay you are on! But this time I will beat you!" I said.

I had so much fun playing with Jacob, it was like old times. My smile never faded from my face and I even beat Jacob! Yes Bella finally beat Jacob. However when I glanced at my watch, my smile faded, it was 4! Oh no Edward would be wondering where I was.

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