Love 11: Hands and Kisses
Ayumi's hand was so small, so very small. It occurred to Conan.
Her hand was so small and so soft and so gentle. Why did it have such a unique feeling then?
Was it because they were 'boyfriend' and 'girlfriend'?
Was it because she used some type of special soap that made her hands so soft?
That could be the truth…
But her hands… her tiny, delicate hands that held onto his so firmly.
Well, sometimes the grip was firm. It was firm when she was scared or excited.
Her grip was playful and loose when she was happy or unfocused.
Her grip was loving when she stared at him and asked him if he liked her every day.
He never really knew how to answer that.
She always asked, never hesitating on a good day, but on a hard day hesitating until she's blue in the face. She would always want a clear answer, and when he gave her none, she gave up for the remainder of the day.
When he responded with an "I like you, too" to her "I love you" she never questioned it. She never asked why he never returned it. She just let it go, or so it seemed.
But then there the two of them were, the heartache in her eyes definite and distant at the same time.
This was the time to give her the real answer, as to why he never said he loved her.
He didn't, he said. He didn't love her. He said he was sorry.
She nodded and told him in a shaking voice it was alright before walking away.
She hasn't called him for weeks.
He's worried.
He doesn't know what to do.
He's losing his hair over this.
He picks up the phone and calls her.
He gets the voicemail.
A few more weeks pass, and he's called her several times- her, answering none of them. He tries to ask Haibara what's wrong.
Haibara says that Ayumi hasn't said anything to her about it.
The whole month passes.
They haven't had any contact.
He desperately misses her hands.
Two months have gone by now without direct contact, they only saw each other discreetly at work while she was passing by him in the hallway.
He called her name.
She didn't respond.
He desperately misses her lips on his cheek.
Three months have gone by now without one word. She emailed him, but it was a forwarded chain-mail message. Everybody on her contacts list had the email sent to them.
He desperately misses her hugs.
It's been four months, and he sees Ayumi in a café with another man.
He asks Haibara why.
She tells him Ayumi wants to tell him it's over.
He desperately misses the rainy days where he'd sit and cuddle with her.
They're a week into the fifth month, and he gets word that Ayumi and this other guy are getting serious.
He goes home and cries into his arm against the wall.
A week after that he hears a knock on his door. He's on vacation and he doesn't want to be bothered.
It's Haibara.
She and Mitsuhiko are getting married.
He smiles and says he's happy for them- and he is, but he misses her eyes.
A week after that he hears that Ayumi broke up with this new guy.
He goes home and jumps for joy but wonders why they broke up.
He asks Haibara.
She tells him Ayumi still isn't over him.
He goes to her house and knocks on the door.
He hears a few clicks before she opens up.
She stands there, eyes red and hair a little shaggier than usual.
He realizes he missed her.
He doesn't wait for her to talk; he grabs her waist and pulls her in.
He's been craving her lips.
She's been craving his as well.
Her arms wrap around him and she lets out a gentle moan.
He deepens the kiss and moans himself, realizing how much he missed her voice.
It starts getting serious and they're against a wall.
He rubs her shoulders and she cries a little as though he's toying with her.
Finally, the two pull away and he realizes how badly he's wanted her in his arms again.
She's thinking this is a mistake and that she shouldn't have done this, but she doesn't tell him.
She stares up at him with those big blue eyes that were still filled with the hurt he'd seen that day. They're filled with something else, though.
He pulls her in again and gives her a tiny hickey on the side of her neck, leaving behind a kiss.
She enjoyed it and she asks him once more if he loves her.
He says no.
He says that love doesn't come close to how deeply he cares for her.
She invites him in and she locks her door.
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O.O Wow, I didn't think I'd actually get that descriptive with a make-out scene (though I suppose I've been even more descriptive than that before) but I think this turned out nicely! I've always loved reading the stories like this, especially the Kazuha and Heiji ones. They always have a certain feeling to them that makes it all the more dramatic to me. I hope this one had the same effect on you! ^_^ I'm surprised how many of you non-ConanxAyumi fans are coming and saying my stories are good! O_O I… I couldn't be more honored! :D I've never really gotten compliments from people who read a story I wrote and didn't support that same couple! I mean, seriously! Thank you guys! (Feels full of self for writing this, though, since it's about my writing. T.T) Thank you all so very much! I really hope you guys enjoyed this! Please review and tell me what you think! Thank you!