Bend And Not Break Chapter 8: Jar of Hearts

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Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?- Christina Perri- Jar of Hearts

Bella's POV:

I could feel Jacob's sweet lips on mine as he kissed me again, this time involving his tongue. He put both of his hands on each side of my face and kissed me hard.

"Mmm, Bella." Jacob said kissing me on my jawbone, then onto my neck line.

All of a sudden my phone vibrated again. It was Edward. Although anger consumed me with every time I thought about Edward, I realized there was no way I could be with Jacob. I just couldn't. For once I had to be the bigger person. I turned my phone off and looked at Jacob.

"Jacob, I'm sorry but I can't do this right now." I said pushing Jacob off of me.

"Oh my god, I am so sorry Bella you are right. I am sorry I did that. Of course you wouldn't cheat on your fiancé. That is what makes you so sweat and caring unlike some people." Jacob said lowering his eyes. I could tell he was mad at Edward for what happened today but I knew he was also talking about himself and how he had cheated on me before.

"It's okay Jacob." I said as I sighed.

"So what are you going to do? Go back to your house?" Jacob asked giving me some space.

I sighed again looking at him. I didn't really know what I was going to do. I didn't really want to see Edward and I wasn't in the mood to hear his explanation of the incident. I figured I would go home tomorrow and then talk to him with a clear head, but until then I needed somewhere to go for the night. So I told Jacob my dilemma and of course he invited me to stay over at his house. He even promised nothing would happen between us and I could sleep in the guest room. Although I knew it would be strange sleeping in my ex's house, I really didn't have another option. So I accepted his invitation and kept my phone turned off.

Instead of going to directly to bed, Jacob and I stayed up watching TV, eating pizza and talking. I hated to admit, but it was nice. It seemed Jacob had changed since we had gone out and it was nice to see how mature he had become. He seemed like a completely different person who actually cared about me. We laughed and discussed the old times and again he apologized for being a jerk. When I went to bed, Jacob kissed me. Then I went to bed and tried to sleep, although all night I thought about Edward and Tanya. The image of those two together kept playing in my head like a movie, I didn't know what had happened but it pained me to see my lover with another woman. Every time I played that image in my head my heart kept breaking. I wiped the tears away from my eyes with the blankets and turned on my side, hoping that I would fall asleep, but I knew that would be very unlikely.

However it seemed like I in fact fell asleep because next thing I knew I could feel the sun's rays shining through the window across my face. I got up, dressed and sighed. I felt awful, tired and heartbroken. Although I felt a wave of anxiety hit at the thought of seeing Edward today, I knew I had to. I had to find out what was going on. I couldn't just run from things, I had to be mature. I grabbed my phone and because I was curious, I turned it on. There were 15 missed calls and 20 missed text messages. I skimmed the messages and some of them said, Bella I am so sorry it isn't what you think. But how was I supposed to think? I decided instead of reading them all I would read the most recent one, which was sent at 630 am this morning. Hey Bella, I can't leave things a mess so I'm going to work from home today so I hope you will come around so we can talk things over. I love you so much please believe that Bella, it wasn't my fault.

I put my phone in my pocket and walked out of my room. Jacob was there in sweat pants and a white tank top, making coffee.

"Good morning Bella, I take it you didn't sleep well so would you like some coffee?" Jacob said.

"Yes please." I said grabbing the cup from his hands.

I took a sip and it tasted heavenly on my tongue.

"Thank you Jacob. I mean it. Thank you, for everything." I said taking another sip.

Jacob put his own cup down and pushed a piece of hair which had falling over my face.

"You know I would do anything for you Bella. I know I screwed up once, I just hope I can make it up to you again. I really hope you and Edward work things out because I really want you to be happy. I promise this time if you need me, don't hesitate to call, I will always be there for you." He said kissing me on the lips one more time.

"Thank you." I said as I finished my coffee, got into my car and drove to my house. It felt as though there were tiny butterflies flying around in my stomach. I wanted the truth from Edward, even if it shattered my heart like glass. However when I looked to my right, I saw a vehicle I did not recognize. My heart started to beat as I quickly ran to the front door and opened it. I could hear voices. Two voices coming from Edward's study. I walked slowly towards the study and stopped when I heard her voice. What was she doing here? In my house? With my fiancée? I thought Edward said yesterday didn't mean anything.

"Edward you are one sexy man. Don't you know that?" It was Tanya. What the hell did she want? What was going on? I walked slower this time and peered my head around the door. Edward was sitting in his chair and Tanya was sitting on his desk, talking to him in an intimate way. She was touching him on his face, then on his stomach. I looked in horror realizing it seemed Edward wasn't struggling or doing anything to get Tanya off of him. I came here to find the truth and the truth was staring back at me. I could feel my heart break as the tears started to fall from my eyes. Why was he doing this to me? Of all the guys I knew, I didn't think he would do this. Half of me wanted to go in there and scream at them, but the other half of me just wanted to run and hide away from my problems like a little girl. I didn't want to go in there knowing things would probably turn out worse so I quickly stumbled out of my house and called Jacob.

I called him and told him what had happened. I could hear the anger in his voice. I said I needed to get away, I couldn't go to work, and I couldn't go home, so I offered to go the Old Coachmen pub for lunch. He agreed. So I drove over. Although I was still in the clothes I had on yesterday, I looked good. I reapplied my make up in my car and brushed my hair. Then I drove five minutes to the pub where I met Jacob. We entered the dark lit English pub and were seated at a booth upholstered with red suede.

"Are you okay Bella?" Jacob asked as he grabbed my hand.

"Yeah, I just don't know what to think or believe anymore. I want to trust Edward but I keep seeing him with her, and I just don't know." I admitted as the tears started to fall again down my cheeks.

"Well I am here for you. Always." He said as he kissed my hand.

I smiled, using a napkin to wipe away my tears. Then Jacob ordered both of us a pint of Coors light.

"Are you hungry?" Jacob asked.

I wasn't hungry but I definitely could go for some more beers.

Then Jacob got up from his seat and sat down beside me.

"I hope you know how sorry I am about everything." Jacob said as he put his arm around me.

"I know Jacob." I said as he kissed my cheek.

"Get your hands off of her Jacob Black!" Edward yelled in an angry tone as he punched Jacob in the face.

"I thought I told you not to see him?" Edward yelled this time at me.

"You did. But I guess I should have told you not to cheat on me!" I yelled back as I tried to see if Jacob was okay.

"Bella I didn't cheat on you, let me explain?" Edward asked.

"Fine Edward, finally explain to me why I saw you with her yesterday and this morning." I demanded as I saw his face go wide with shock.

I was going to let him explain but then I saw her again, walking towards us.

"Why did you bring her here?" I asked disgusted that she was here. If nothing was going on between them then why was she here?

"Bella… it isn't like that." He said.

"Didn't you tell her Edward?" Tanya chimed in.

"Tell me what?" I asked glaring at both of them.

"Edward and I have to go to Canada for a week for a business meeting, isn't that exciting?" Tanya explained.

What? He is going away with her? With Tanya? I thought I was going to pass out.

"And you are going with her?" I cried out, my fists clenched tightly.

"Bella its business, if I don't go, I could lose my job." He said.

"But I saw you two, I guess that is why you are excited so you can spend more time with her?" I yelled.

"Bella that wasn't my fault, but I told Tanya that I love you and she accepts that so I think I fixed everything. Do you not trust me anymore?" Edward asked.

What? He thought things were fixed? Nothing would be fixed if Tanya was in the picture.

"So you are going on this trip no matter what?" I asked.

"Of course Bella it's MY job!" He yelled.

I glared at him.

"And you are going to go with her?" I asked again.

He shook his head in agreement.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Since when did Edward become stupid?

"Bella I fixed things, I promise. I love you." He said.

"Yeah right." I heard someone mumble. It was Jacob.

"Do you have something to say to me?" Edward demanded.

"Yeah I do actually. Maybe if you actually loved her you would show it instead of kissing other women. Instead I have had to pick up the pieces." Jacob said.

"What do you mean?" Edward said eyeing me then Jacob. All of a sudden I could see his mind make the connection.

"So while I was calling you all night, you were at Jacob's? So you are getting mad at me for going on a trip with Tanya but you spent the night at your ex's? So you think I cheated so you go ahead and cheat too!" He snarled.

"I didn't cheat Edward! You should know me! Don't you trust me?" I asked.

But as I looked at him I realized he didn't trust me and I didn't trust him. I didn't want to be with someone who didn't trust me. I didn't want to be a man who was so stupid and selfish. This was not the man who asked me to marry him. Although I still loved him. I needed a change. A break.

"We can't do this anymore Edward, I love you so much but I think we need a break."

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