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Ok so I want your opinions on a detail for Chapter 6 before I start it, more information will be at the end of this chapter, enjoy and please R&R!
Disclaimer: So, I own the system Sony Vegas 09, I also own a special edition of "The Tales of Beedle the Bard" that cost me £50 when I was 14 (I'm such a nerd to spend so much on a book *whines* but it was worth it!) I don't own the Darkest Powers Trilogy in any way, they all belong to Kelley Armstrong... Now if I only could have read minds...
Four
Letting a string of profanity halfheartedly leave my lips, I slowly made my way back to the motel I was sharing with Dad and Simon. People would find it suspicious if I stayed out here much longer on my own, and the last thing I needed to do was draw extra attention to myself. As it was, I didn't need any help with that, since I started changing the... problems I'd had before started to clear up and stop, but with my size people were bound to remember seeing me around. Staying out here whether it be over anger or guilt wouldn't help anyone. It'd just be plain stupid. So I started walking fast enough that anybody who saw me wouldn't get a good look and slow enough so I wouldn't appear like I was guilty of anything.
I couldn't help but let my mind wander back to the "voice" of the wolf inside my head. About how different we were from one another, and how alike we were also. With the wolf its all instinct. Territory isn't to be crossed, and members of my "pack" have to be protected at all costs, like that guy who was going to knife Simon. I threw him against a brick wall because I couldn't help myself. Instinct told me I had to protect Simon at all costs. I nearly did that again with the girl who attacked Chloe. Would have done if it wasn't for Chloe. Chloe. I'm not like that, as a person I prefer facts and figures, things that have a definate answer, a right or a wrong. To be logical. But me and the wolf inside are a lot more alike than I like to admit, even to myself. If someone were to hurt Dad, Simon, or Chloe, wouldn't I do whatever I could to prevent that? Whatever instinct told me to do at the time to save them?
I know I'm not good enough for Chloe. When it comes down to it Chloe deserves someone who can keep her safe, someone who is safe. And I know that I'm anything but. Like all people though I'm selfish, and hell I'll admit a bit insecure. I want to be the one to look after Chloe, to keep her safe, be the first person she turns to. Not like I'd admit it though, I know Chloe can look after herself, she proved it that night with the Edison Group more than enough, but still all she can do, she cant protect herself from guns, knives. Just because she's got a super charged ability doesn't mean she's invincible. Theres a lot of ways someone could get to her, harm her. Harm my Chloe. I won't let that happen though. I hope I can make it up with her, I know I was a little harsh but her and Simon are keeping things from me, hiding things.
Simon.
I need to talk to him, find out whats worrying him so much, although I have a pretty good idea of that already. Ever since we all escaped, and I talked to Dad, me and Simon have grown apart slightly. When it comes down to it he's my brother. I've got to be honest with him, I always have been before, but this is different. This is personal. I have to talk to Simon later, sort it all out. I hate the thought I'm causing him problems, after everything else thats happened, but some things a guy just has to keep to himself. I'll have to make him see that.
I was outside of Chloe's motel door by this point, and placing my ear to the wood - With my hearing this wasn't needed, quite the contrary I could hear from my own motel and there was less chance of being caught spying from there, but I needed to be close to her, even if there was no way to comfort her like I should be doing. I could hear noises, like tears being held in, I knew she was crying. I felt the guilt hit me in waves, and if there had been a little more time, if they hadn't arrived just this moment, who knows? If Tori and Lauren had been a little longer maybe I would have broken that barrier, gone in there, and comforted her as best I could. If I was Simon, I would open that door, walk over to her bed, hold her in my arms and comfort her, letting her know I'd always be there to chase everything else away.
But I'm not Simon. And that is why I moved away from the door, and carried on walking.
Thats not to say I didn't keep my ears open though, whats the point of having such an ability if you're not going to use it? I could hear Tori prattling on about her usual inane problems, about how she chipped a nail or something. It was Chloe I was listening out for, but I have to admit what I heard Lauren say to her made me see red, made the wolf snarl in anger.
"Maybe it'd be better if you two cooled things down Chloe? It's obvious you've both had a fight, why else would you be in this state?" I could hear the cooing tone in Lauren's voice as I held my breath for an answer that could change everything. If she wanted free of me so be it, I wouldn't stand in her way if thats what she truly wanted. But by God I hope she didn't.
"You're wrong. Derek has only ever helped me, when the Edison Group were after me he was the one who helped us, who helped all of us escape from them! And what about you? You took me right to them. If I would be better cooling things with anyone, it'd be you, because when it comes down to it Derek's shown I can rely on him time and time again, unlike you!" Chloe spat this last bit out, I was quite surprised she could be like that with her Aunt, and quite proud too. What I heard being said next and by who shocked me though,
"You're more than bias Lauren, and I know it must be tough, we've been on the run longer than you so were almost used to it now, but leave Derek alone. When it comes down to it, as much as I hate saying this especially if wolfboy were to find out, but I'd trust Derek over you everytime. And its not just because he knows what he's doing either, its because he's honest, he doesn't have any ulteriour motives in things. Can you honestly say the same?"
I couldn't believe Tori, Tori of all people was sticking up for me! She must have caused herself more damage than just break a nail when she was out with Lauren earlier.
I was nearly back to my motel when I heard them arguing with one another. It was Simon making all the noise though. Dad and Simon never argue, so I did the thing any curious person would do, I listened in, looking for answers. It didn't take me long to work out what or should I say who they were arguing about. It was me of course, or more specifically what I wasn't telling Simon.
"I'm worried Dad! Don't try and brush me off again! I know there's something you and Derek are keeping from me and if its serious I want to help! Is it to do with the Edison Group?"
"No son, its not. I am sure Derek will tell you in his own time-"
"You know as much as me that Derek keeps everything to himself if he can help it, whether its bad for him or not! Did you know he didn't even tell me he'd started getting the symptoms of the Change until it happened?" Dad and Simon both went quiet then after that little admission. Damn you Simon.
"No he didn't." Dad coughed then, "But I'm sure Derek had his reasons."
"Oh he had his reasons alright Dad! He doesn't care what happens to himself as long as he knows everyone else will be safe! And you wonder why I worry about him? He would have gotten himself shot when we escaped from Lyle House if I hadn't been with him! I know he thinks he can handle everything himself, but he needs someone to rely on too."
"I know you worry about him Simon, but when it comes down to it it's Derek's decision to tell you, not mine. Just know that its nothing that can hurt you or anyone else, and give your brother time. He'll talk to you eventually, he just needs to get his mind around it all first."
I couldn't believe Simon sometimes! Yes he only mean't well, and yes he only wanted to help me, but he made me sound like I totally disreguarded all safety when it came to myself and that wasn't true! I looked at things from all angles, and if I had to get hurt so the rest could escape then so be it, but that was always the last option. And that's what I would tell him. Walking into the motel door, I spoke directly but didn't look at him when I said,
"It's technically none of your business Simon. I know you want to help but some things you just cant help me with." I was expecting some sort of speech on how were brothers and we have to look out for each other, or maybe some snappy retort, instead he asked me,
"Are you ok Derek? You're not looking too hot."
"I'm never looking too hot Simon. But I'm fine." Damn, he'd noticed I wasn't one hundred percent. Last thing I needed was Dad telling too, so I did the only thing I could, "We need to have a talk, walk with me outside for a bit?" The cool air would help me and my symptoms, keep me away from Dad's prying eyes, and I did actually want to talk to Simon, it was time he knew. Perhaps he could even help me in some way?
We were walking in silence at first, I was ahead of Simon though because I knew exactly where I was heading, he didn't. He caught up quickly though and asked me,
"Is it the change Derek? I know you, and I know you're not well. You can tell me."
"Of course not Simon, and I know I can tell you anything, just like you can with me. So maybe you could tell me what you were doing meeting up with Chloe, what it was about?"
I heard Simon's deep intake of breath before he quickly told me, "It was to talk about you Derek. Were worried about you, me, Chloe, we just want to help but you won't let us! Please Derek, some things you just cant handle on your own all the time. You ask us to put our complete trust in you time and again, well now I'm asking you the same thing."
"You shouldn't be worrying her about me Simon, I'm fine, I can handle it, everything will be fine and back to normal, or as normal as things get around here soon, just leave it to me."
"Yeah well I'm not so sure Derek, you've been edgy, you've been going off your appetite, and you've been pacing around for days and its not just to do with the Edison Group! I just want to help you, were brothers Derek, its what we do."
"That all might be true Simon, but you couldn't hope to understand, some things you wont ever understand, and I don't need your help. Get that?"
"Yeah its true I'm not like you, some things I wont understand... But you never know if you dont give me the chance to help, what I will understand and what I wont. Give me the chance to help you for once..."
"Fine Simon, I trust you. But its serious, as you've probably guessed its about me being a werewolf," At his slight nod for encouragement to carry on I continued, "Its about my instincts, their becoming uncontrollable, Dad's told me some things that I didn't know before. The problem is serious Simon, its..."
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Now the question from the start is I wanted your opinion for Chapter 6, I am stuck between whose perspective to place it in! (Derek or Chloe's) So if you could let me know which you'd prefer in a review or PM that'd be lovely, also I am contemplating upping this story to an M, so I'd if you'd prefer it as an M or to remain a T.
Apologies if Derek was out of character or did you enjoy it? Hope you liked the chapter, love to hear from you, and until next time.