Chapter Four: Concentration (Clare's POV)
I almost lost it. Right there. I could've allowed the screaming tears to break through and finally fall to death, but I held my ground. I wouldn't be so weak in front of Eli.. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing me so weak and pathetic, having to console me when I cry. I felt guilt walking away from his beautiful figure, walking quickly to math class. I quickly found Alli sitting down in the classroom already, she smiled slightly and waved me over. I quickly took the seat next to her, my breathing ragged from the brisk walk. Alli eyed me carefully. "You alright there Clare?" Alli asked, her neatly trimmed eyebrows raising. I laughed a quick laugh and shook my head. "I just broke up with Eli." I whispered through a thick throat. Alli's eyes seemed to fall and she looked at me sympathetically. "Oh Clare. I'm so sorry. I know it must be hard." Alli than laid a reassuring hand on my shoulder. I shrugged her hand off and Alli returned her hand in her lap and quickly changed the subject. "Oh look! Jenna's taking this class this semester!" Alli exclaimed. I looked up to see Jenna waddling into class, many eyes widening, even Mr. Armstrong's. Jenna merely smiled and took the seat in front of me. "Guess the secret's out." Jenna murmured and gently placed a hand on her protruding stomach. Alli smiled and placed a hand over Jenna's. "It's gonna be okay Jenna. This baby will be a doll." Jenna giggled and looked at me. "Hey Clare." I nodded and smiled slightly. "Hey Jenna." Despite the fact that me and Jenna had an on going fight about KC, we became somewhat friends, she turned out not all that bad. I feel sorry for her that KC would leave her, struggling and pregnant. I snarled lowly and Jenna looked at me oddly, I was eyeing Eli walking past the classroom towards his next class, he looked at me for a moment and then lowered his head. "Oh.. Eli." Jenna mumbled. "Are you two still together?" She asked. I shook my head. "I'd rather not talk about it." I mumbled, keeping my head low and away from his emerald eyes. Jenna nodded and turned around as soon as the tardy bell had rung. I started to shake my leg, something I tend to do when I'm nervous. My mind was suddenly on Eli.. I wanted the images of his beautiful face to rid of my mind, but I didn't want them to stop.. They were too perfect.