A/N: I totally forgot to write warnings for this story so here they are :

Warning: This story contains very dark themes, don't read it if you're too sensitive. (But if you're not do not hesitate !)

Hope you'll like this chapter =)

Chapter 2 :

Puck was walking in the hallway of McKinley. He was finally back. He had been in juvie for only two weeks and it felt like years since he had last walked in here. He had never been through a darker period before. People in there were like evil and Puck had never thought people that mean could exist but they apparently did since he had met them. He had talked to them and had been hurt by them.

He would never tell anyone about that of course, everybody thought he was a badass in here and they would still believe it. All day long they had looked at him with fear in their eyes and that was perfect. It's not because a part of him within his brain wanted to go away and scream that people had to know about that. He would act like nothing had changed in him because nothing seemed to have changed in Lima. Puck had never had real friends, a part from Finn but he was no longer his friend, so there would be no one to see that something was broken within him and that was perfect.

It was glee club time and he was eager to see all of them since he hadn't seen any of them for the whole day. He walked to the choir room quickly and opened the door, he wanted to see them looking surprised at him and being happy to see him back. He wanted to feel somehow appreciated.

Yet, when he opened the choir room door faking a cheerful smile no one looked happy to see him back. They look all sad and no one was really talking.

"Puck, nice too see you back among us !" Mr Schue told him smiling, but his smile was fake too.

"What's happening ?" He asked scanning the room to see all the skulking faces of his glee mates. Something really important must have happened for even Santana to look sad.

"Kurt's gone." Mercedes said with tears in her eyes.

Puck didn't understand, Kurt's gone, was this some kind of metaphor for the gay kid to have committed suicide or was he really gone ? At the sight of everyone's faces he believed in the first option and his face paled automatically. He had yet to make sure.

"What d'you mean Kurt's gone ?" He asked everyone. Hummel couldn't have committed suicide he was so proud of what he was, he would never give up this way.

"He left on Monday during the night and we... we have no idea where he is." Mercedes explained with tears running on her cheeks.

Puck was very much relieved. He would never could have forgiven himself if Hummel had killed himself. Right, he had stopped bullying him, but still he used to and that was enough. He ran out of words for a few seconds because still, everyone looked pretty shaken and Hummel had disappeared.

"Have you told the cops ?" He finally asked, because it sounded like the most logical question.

"They said they could not do anything within three days." Finn answered.

"Okay guys, Puck I'm sorry but we've already talked about it yesterday and we need to do class so can you please sit down and you'll talk about it later. Everyone is really sorry and I know it's really hard of a thing to go through but we need to move on." Mr Schue said. Puck opened wide eyes at that statement but went to sit down. "Thanks Puck. So I had thought of an assignment but given the circumstances I decided to keep it for later when everything would be okay. I then thought of another one. I'd like everyone to think of a duet they would like to sing Kurt if he were here and sing it in front of us." Mr Schue said.

They all started to talk to each other about ideas they had, if this song would please Kurt, or this one fitted his voice. Puck tried to focus on the given assignment but just couldn't. How could everyone act like everything was normal when Kurt was somewhere maybe lost or hurt.

"Fuck it !" Puck shouted. Everyone looked at him with fear, maybe they thought that juvie had made him crazy. And maybe they were right.

" I don't want any rude word in my class Puck !" Mr Schue said severely.

" I'll say it as much as I want ! Are you kidding me ? Hummel's gone and no one has no freakin' idea where he is but it's just fine and let's sing a song for him ? Really ? Fuck all that !" Puck stated angrily at the lack of reaction from everyone.

"What is your problem Puckerman ? Kurt's gone but he's a big boy and he's quite clever he already knows he will have to come back at last. It's more like a childish whim than a real fugue. He just needs some time on his own to think things out and will be back in two days." Finn said.

"Don't worry we all agreed that in two days if he's not back we'll go look for him." Rachel added. Puck just couldn't believe that.

"Are you serious ? Hummel is twice smaller than us and you leave him alone like that ? Screw that !" Puck shouted.

"Chill out Puck he wrote a letter letting us know he would be okay and he just needed time !" Finn said taking a piece of paper out of his bag. He probably had already shown it to the whole school.

Puck grabbed the paper and went out of the room without even looking back. He could not believe that. While he was in juvie he had realized how it was to be harassed by everyone. He had been the target number one of some people. He had kind of understood what Hummel might be feeling and praised his courage. Even if what Puck had endured was terrible, it had only lasted two weeks and Puck was already on edge of giving up. Kurt had been harassed for his entire life and still stood proud.

Until now yet. Puck had walked through the school and passed the front door to sit on the grass. He lit up a cigaret and unfolded the letter to read it.

Hi dad,

First of all, I want you to know that I really love you and that's why I'm doing that.

I've always wanted to be the perfect son for you but I now know I can't,

I know you love me, don't blame yourself for anything you have been perfect to me.

I'm gone, I don't know yet if I 'll be back soon.

You probably know why I'm leaving, this town is not made for me and everyday is like hell to me. I've tried hard to live with it, but I recently realized that I'm making every other male life hell when I talk to them. There's always a risk for them to be treated like me. People in here are too narrow-minded to ever accept someone like me in their world. I know you are not like them but one person accepting me out of forty thousands is not enough for me to face it. I'm going to try my luck somewhere else and I hope it will be better.

I feel terrible for leaving you alone dad but now you have Carole and Finn to comfort you and I know they won't let you down like I did.

I'm sorry dad and I love you more than anything. I hope you will forgive me for giving up.

Kurt.

When Puck read the last words of the letter there were tears in his eyes. He hadn't cried for four years and here he was, crying for a letter written by Hummel ? Of course he knew that Kurt was not the happiest boy in the world, no one would be in his situation. But he had never imagined he could feel that bad. Puck knew this was not his fault but he still felt guilty for having bullied Kurt. He had never bullied him for being gay, he knew lots of gay guys and had no problems with them. But he had contributed to making his life a hell like every other people in Lima. He also felt terrible because Hummel was the one to show him that even if you go through terrible things you still can live with them not feeling ashamed of yourself.

And now Kurt had given up and Puck didn't know if there was a way he could be stronger and go on as if nothing happened. He folded the letter and put it in his pocket. He got up, went to his car and sat in it not starting the ignition. There were some things he needed to know before making his mind.

When the school bell rang and everyone went out of the school Puck waited two minutes before taking his phone and calling Mercedes.

"Puck ?" she asked.

"Mercedes, what exactly happened with Kurt ?" He asked bluntly.

"Why d'you want to know that ? What was this reaction you had ? Have you got any problem with Kurt ?" She asked coldly.

"You ask me if I have a problem with him ? You're the ones who were singing for him while he's we don't know where !" He shouted.

"Look Puck I'm sad too but just give up, Kurt's just gone for a few days and when he'll realize he's better here, he'll come back." She answered but she didn't really seem to believe in her own words.

"How can you possibly think he's better here ? Have fuckin' read his letter ? Lima is hell for him he won't ever come back ! Just tell me what happened to make him go away and I'll leave you alone." Mercedes sighed on the phone.

"He's had an argument with Finn and his father. There's this new Sam kid in glee club and he wanted to sing a duet with him but Finn told him not to in order not to spoil Sam's reputation and his dad agreed." She explained quickly.

"Thanks Aretha, see ya" He said before hanging up. Puck was outraged. No wonder why Hummel had gone if even his brother and father told him homophobic stuff.

He wondered if Kurt would ever answer if he called him. Of course he wouldn't. But still he could leave a voice mail that he would maybe listen to. He looked for Hummel's phone number and pressed called. Much to his surprise there were rings which meant Kurt had not switched off his mobile and still had battery, that was good. Yet as expected he did not answer. After the "bip" Puck said.

"Kurt where are you ? Well stupid question. You can't give up now, I know you've been trough terrible things and if I were you I'd be gone for long. But you're strong, you've always been and if you give up now there's nobody to be brave for those who are about to give up." Puck's voice was shaking, great he was about to cry leaving a message to Hummel. But the memories of what happened haunted him and he hadn't the strength to go through it. "Look I know you don't want to come back but just think of it okay ?" He hung up feeling more than stupid.

This voice mail was so lame. He started the ignition and began to drive to the Hudmel house. He parked his car in the alley and went in front of the door. He waited a few seconds before Carole opened the door. She looked devastated.

"Puck ? Hi how are you ?" She asked but there was not the usual warmness in her voice.

"Hi Carole, I just learned for Kurt. I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry." Puck started;

"Thank you Puck. I … Burt is devastated, he won't talk to anybody. It' so hard." She said with tears in her eyes.

"Finn gave me this, you should give it back to Burt" Puck said taking the folded letter from his pocket and handing it to the woman.

"Thank you Puck" She said taking it.

" I wondered, has Kurt taken some things with him, like clothes ?" Puck inquired.

"Yes, he has taken a travel bag and many of his clothes. He has also taken his wallet and mobile."She listed.

"Okay, thanks. I'm really sorry for what's happening." Puck said again, hugging Carole. Then he turned on his heels and went back to his truck. That was a good thing that Kurt had taken some clothes, he hadn't given up in being himself. Puck drove to his house and found his mom in the kitchen.

"Hi mom" He told her.

"Hi Noah, are you okay ?" She inquired looking worried.

"Yes mom. It's just, there's a kid in glee club, he left without warning anyone and we have no idea where he might be." He explained.

"Oh poor kid ! Why did he leave ?"

"Because he's gay and being gay in Lima apparently sucks." Puck stated a little angry.

"Oh that should never happen." She said.

"Yeah, whatever. I'm hanging out tonight, don't wait for me for dinner." He said before heading to his room. Puck grabbed a bag that was on the floor and started gathering things he would need. His phone rang. Puck fumbled into his pocket before reaching it. Hummel was written on the screen.