Sorry guys, I was finishing up a paper for my Geography class and I lost track of time. I know I said I'd post it tomorrow or in this case... yeasterday. I'm happy for the support though from you guys. Thanks for understanding. I am not going to give up on this story. I will try and find time to write more and upload more chapters. Thank you again.
Now, the moment of truth. Here are the two new chapters to "Breathe Me".
Disclamier: I do not own Alec, Max, Logan or any of the other characters from Dark Angel. I do own Isis, Chuck, Dimitri and a new character whose name I have yet to decide on. Later, chapters.
Enjoy :)
~~Alec's Apartment~~
Isis slowly walked inside. She looked around and felt like she was entering a cage. She knew she was taking a chance in coming to his place, but she was trying to be brave. She was fighting her fears here. Being near him was a challenge for her. And she was going to take it to overcome her fear of being alone with Alec.
"So this is his place?" she thought to herself.
Isis heard the door close and Alec locking it. She turned around to see him standing by the door. Alec looked at Isis and all he could think about was going to her and hugging her, holding her in his arms. Shit, he wanted to kiss her so badly. But he knew he couldn't. Alec walked closer to her but stopped when Isis stared backing away. They stood in silence for a good minute before Alec finally broke the spell.
"I had to," Alec said.
"You had too?" Isis repeated.
"If I didn't end it, Renfro would have." Alec said.
"Why not just come out and tell me? Why say those hurtful words?" Isis said. Why kiss me? She thought.
"Cause I knew if I just told you, I would know I was still able to come back to you. I would have just have been more careful to get to you." Alec said sincerely.
Isis was now looking up into Alec's eyes. He had walked up to her and was now standing right in front of her. Just an inch away. How he had gotten that close was unknown to them both. Isis went to move away when Alec reached for her arm and stopped her.
"Let me go, Alec" Isis said nervously.
Alec realized what he did and let her go. Isis quickly walked across the living room, giving them enough space apart from each other. She was scared, he could sense it. Things weren't going as Alec thought they would. Alec looked towards Isis. She had her back towards him.
"After you left, they came for me."
Alec couldn't believe he had failed her. She had told him how scared she was of being taken away. He had left her unprotected and they had taken her. Done who knows what to her. He hated himself for being weak and not fighting for what he wanted. And what he wanted so badly back then was to be with her. Hold her and God talk with her. She had been there for him through so much and he just left her like she was worth nothing to him. But if she only knew she was worth more to him. More than his own life.
"The first two weeks, they ran tests on me. Trying to figure out how I survived this long." Isis said feeling her emotions getting the best of her with the memories of the past hitting her hard.
Alec could hear the way Isis voice trembled. He looked away and wished he could take it all back. He had thought Renfro had told her, but who was he kidding. That bitch wouldn't tell a soul anything. She didn't give a damn about them. Why do something noble like telling the truth? She was nothing more than a selfish-bitch looking out for her well being. No one else.
"Renfro told me," Isis said.
Alec looked up.
"She knows?" Alec thought.
"She told me things, that didn't make sense." Isis said turning around to look at Alec.
"I asked her, if…if she had anything to do with you leaving," she said.
Alec took a step across the room but stopped seeing Isis follow him with her stare.
"So you know," Alec said.
"Know what?" Isis asked.
"Why I did what I did," Alec said confused. Does she not know? He thought.
"She never answered me. But…she didn't have to," Isis said.
"Isis, I…"
"What you said…hurt me," Isis said.
Alec saw her eyes glaze up.
"What you did…." Isis couldn't bring herself to say anything about the way he had kissed her. It had hurt her more then she wanted to admit. Her first kiss, it was never how she thought it would be. She had imagined it would be sweeter, soft. Not painful and cruel.
"I'm afraid of you" she said.
Alec didn't want to here that. He didn't want her to fear him.
"I never wanted…" Alec tried taking a step closer to her but Isis backed away from him.
Alec noticed she kept looking towards the door. As if she was waiting for him to attack her and she could run and escape him.
"I won't hurt you," Alec said.
"I've heard that before," Isis said with a pang of anger.
"Isis, I had to. Renfro, she…she told me I had to stay away from you. She didn't say why, only that I had to or….or she would end it." Just like they did with Rachel," Alec confessed.
Isis stared at Alec and was shocked at what she heard. She felt a tear fall from her right eye. Renfro had threaten him with hurting her? Isis was confused. She didn't know what to think anymore. What he said and did to her, it sure as hell didn't seem pretend. It felt real, it was real.
"I couldn't let them…do to you, what they did to Rachel."
Isis wiped the tears away from her eyes.
"Max told me…about Rachel," Isis said.
Alec's eyes widen. Max had told her about Rachel. That wasn't her place, he thought.
"She told me…how she was in a coma. That…she saw you crying by her bedside before she died..."
It was Alec's turn to turn away from Isis. Isis could see Alec was hurting. Could this be what Joshua meant by his painting of Alec? He was still filled with sorrow, sadness from losing Rachel not once but twice, now. She was his first love and Isis knew what it felt like to lose such person.
"Max should really learn to keep her fuckin mouth shut. She doesn't know anything about what happened," Alec said with anger.
Isis looked towards the door. She could hear the change in tone in Alec's voice had gotten lower. He was mad. Just then a flash of that night came to her mind. How he had grabbed her and yelled at her by cursing at her and telling her she meant nothing to him. He had left bruises on her arms from holding her with his hand in a tight grip. She thought about heading towards the door.
Alec tried to calm himself down. This was not turning out the way he wanted. Fuck he thought she might want to be friends again. He had hope for something better but had thought being Isis, she would have suggested they be friends again. But everything was coming out wrong. Just then Alec heard a clicking noise and looked towards the door to find the door to the apartment wide open. He turned to look at where Isis was and she wasn't there.
"Shit," Alec said as he ran out the door.
Isis was running down the stairs as fast as she could.
"ISIS?" came Alec's voice from a floor above, shouting for her to stop.
Isis looked up and saw him running. She kept moving till she was pulled back. She screamed and tried fighting her attacker off.
"Isis, stop. Stop."
Isis was turned around and she saw Alec held her in his arms.
"Please….please just let me go," she cried, tears were falling down her eyes.
"No, I won't. I did that once and am not doing that again," Alec said.
"What's going on?"
Isis stopped fighting Alec and turned to see Jann standing a couple of steps away from them. Alec turned to look at Jann and wished the guy would have just walked away when he saw Isis with him. The guy couldn't take a hint, he thought. Isis saw Alec was distracted and she took the chance to knee Alec in groin and push herself away from him. Isis ran past Jann and kept going. Jann turned to look at Alec who was holding himself.
"You okay? That looked like it hurt," Jann asked.
Alec looked up at Jann .
"What kind of stupid question is that?" Alec said through clutched teeth.
Alec tried fighting the pain he was feeling in his groin and ran passed Jann to catch up with Isis. Isis reached the bottom of the building and was outside. She looked in both directions.
"Isis, wait!"
Isis turned and saw Alec coming out of the building.
"Stay away," she said pointing at him.
"Isis, I did it to protect you dammit!," Alec said raising his voice.
"Well you didn't. If anything you pretty much handed me over to them." Isis said shouting back at Alec.
"I know I fucked up, but I never thought…."
"That's just it, you didn't think. You…you let those bastards take me! You let them use me to get what they wanted! Let that son of bitch rape me…. "
Alec felt the color drain from his face.
"What?" Alec said.