Chapter 16 :
When Kurt went into the kitchen to have his breakfast he felt really bad. He had lost his boyfriend and his best friend in two days. And the two losses were his fault. He knew that Puck would never leave him alone, but Kurt deserved it he had been more than cruel to him. He found Puck sitting in the living room, his eyes blank. Kurt went closer but didn't dare sitting next to the boy since he might be still mad at him.
"Are you okay ?" He asked softly. Puck nodded vaguely but didn't say anything. Kurt had no idea what to do, he had already apologized thousands of times and knew it would not be so easy.
Puck looked like he hadn't slept of the night, he looked almost normal when he had last seen him, but now he just looked like a zombie.
"Noah what happened ?" Puck still didn't answer he just stood there. "Please talk to me, I don't know what to do, I know I have been terrible to you and I don't deserve you to forgive me but just talk to me." Kurt pleaded with tears in his eyes. Puck turned his head and finally looked at him, he looked hurt.
"Give me a hug." He asked. Kurt opened wide eyes, this demand was really weird but he quickly moved to sit next to his friend and hugged him tightly.
" I'm sorry Noah, I never meant to hurt you. You're so important to me." Kurt said.
"I told you all this because I trusted you." Puck said and Kurt heard that he was on the edge of crying, Kurt felt tears filling his eyes. " I really thought I could trust you and you just … you used it against me." They were both crying hard in the tight hug.
" I know, if … if you want to leave me I'd … I'd understand, I deserve it. You've already been hurt too much to hear your own friend hurting you." Kurt said and it broke his heart.
"I don't want to leave you but just … just promise me that you won't ever do something like this again." Puck's tone was desperate and so was Kurt.
" I swear I'll never do it again. I'd really love to erase the moment I told you this but I can't and besides, I don't deserve you to forget about it."
" I had a nightmare. It was terrible, you were there and you told me awful things." Puck shivered at the mere memory. It must have been terrible things.
"What did I tell you ?"
"You told me that I would end up alone because I was disgusting and that hugging me was torture because I was dirty." Kurt hugged him tighter at this statement.
" I really like to hug you Noah." Kurt said, he never thought he would ever admit it but it was true, it felt really good.
"You … you also said that I deserved what happened to me since I had given you hell for your whole life. I'm sorry Kurt, I never meant to hurt you." Puck said crying.
"Don't say that. If I hadn't said this thing yesterday you'd never have had this dream. I'm the one who's sorry."
"But all those things, do you really think this way ?" Puck was seriously hurt.
"Of course I don't ! I'll never think that ! You see ? I'm hugging and I swear I don't think you're dirty or anything. You're just Noah, my best friend I met in San Francisco. And you'll never end up alone, you will find someone really good to you and have a really happy life." Kurt said, it was his heart talking.
"You're the only one who's really good to me." Puck stated bitterly.
"And I'll always be there for you I promise." Kurt said. Puck didn't add anything, he just let himself go into the hug and relaxed. " I'll never leave you" Kurt repeated. " I'll help you through this."
"I really like you Kurt. Thank you." Kurt smiled. He waited for Puck to break the hug but they stayed like this a few minutes.
When they finally broke the hug they went into the kitchen and took their breakfast. In fact Kurt ate since Puck seemed to not be able to eat anything. He just sat there watching Kurt.
"Where are the others ?" He asked suddenly.
"They're gone for the holidays." Kurt answered.
"And where is Keith ?"
"The others threw him out after what he did" Puck smiled
"They're really good guys. But we can still stay there ?" He inquired.
"Yes they said that we could stay as long as we want and they can pay until we find a job."
"That means that we have the apartment for us for two weeks ?" Puck asked with a wide smile. Kurt was really happy to see him smile again.
And the fact that he was happy to spend two weeks alone with Kurt showed that he did not blame him anymore. Kurt nodded smiling back.
During their first two days together the two boys acted like children. They put the music loud and danced and sang without thinking of anything else. They laughed a lot when Kurt intended to teach Puck the Irish jig and Puck taught Kurt a little bit of rock dance.
They had never felt this free of their life. There was no one to tell them not to do this or that and, even if the others were adorable, being just the two of them felt amazing. They walked around the city but when Puck offered to go to some bars at night time Kurt didn't feel safe.
" I'll protect you don't worry." Puck explained, he went to his room and went back " I never go outside without it." He said showing Kurt a pocket knife that looked quite dangerous. Kurt opened wide eyes. " I stole it just before going to juvie, I probably should've taken it with me when I was there."
Kurt agreed to go in some bars, they entered with their fake ID and directly drank some shots of vodka.
Yet, when some guy started dancing with Kurt, Puck went to them and took Kurt's arms.
"Sorry but he's with me." He told the other guy. Kurt being drunk just smiled and danced with him.
They had a lot of fun that night because in Lima if you even tried to dance with a guy in a bar everyone would look at you in a weird way. Not that you could really have fun in a bar in Lima anyway.
When they went back home Kurt was very embarrassed, he asked Puck to sleep in his bed since he hated sleeping by himself now.
Puck put his arms protectively around Kurt to show him that he was here and they fell asleep this way.
In the morning when Puck woke up he was alone in the bed but Kurt's side was still warm so he just left. Puck stood up and went to the kitchen where he found Kurt cooking pancakes.
"'d morning" Puck greeted him. Kurt turned to smile at him before turning back to his cooking. "How's the hangover doing ?" Puck inquired smirking.
" I just have a slight headache and drank an entire bottle of water since I was really thirsty but I'm okay." Kurt answered. He took the plate where the pancakes were on and put it on the table. Puck tasted one.
"They taste amazing !" Kurt blushed.
"Thanks, it's the only thing my dad knows cooking. My mom taught him."
"Could you teach me ? I'm an ass at cooking stuff but I guess I can learn how to do it." Puck stated.
"Well, my dad can cook it and he's the worst cooker ever so I guess you can do it properly." Kurt answered.
They ate their breakfast talking about what they could do during the day and decided to begin by going on Lombard St and taking stupid pictures of themselves to send the others. They spent the rest of the morning cooking pancakes.
Well, trying to cook pancakes since Puck let burn one out of two, he appeared to be a worse cooker than Burt himself. They had very much fun, they fought with flour and ended up white from head to feet. In the end they had managed to do eight edible pancakes and Puck was quite proud of himself. Around eleven they were back singing stupid songs of their own composition and dancing. And they weren't even drunk.
They were in the middle of a wonderful choreography when someone knocked at the door. They raced to be the first one to open the door and Kurt won.
"Hi aunt Helen !" Kurt said hugging his aunt.
"Hi Kurt how are you doing ?" She inquired.
"Very well." He answered smiling;
"Hi Noah how are you ?"
"I'm fine" he answered in a cheerful tone.
"Do you want to eat with us ? We made pancakes." Kurt offered.
" I don't want to bother the others" she answered.
"They're not there we're just the two of us for a few days." Kurt explained.
" I 'd be glad then." She answered smiling. "But I think you should go wash yourselves before lunch because you look quite white." They looked at each other and burst out laughing.