WARNINGS: bitchy friends, white weddings, rich elite old people, sickly sweet blue eyes, AN EPISODE! Blood and blood curdling screams!
Chapter Thirty Eight: Episode (Eli's POV)
It's been a long unbearable winter. A cold hard winter filled with snow days and a blizzard that halted roads to no end. The winter was filled with a flu that kept me from school for two weeks. Two weeks that were longer than the winter themselves, I was kept from Clare. I had her in my congested thoughts those two weeks. No medication could keep her from my thoughts. Those nights where I would clutch at a blanket for warmth when I really wanted Clare's arms around my shivering torso. Months passed that hard winter and soon spring was in mind, like every spring, Lizzy's allergies act up, as does Clare's. I tend to have a slipping grade in Mrs. Veil's class in English, most of my studying concerns Clare and what she does. We were still on the "break". Many nights I slap my palm to my forehead wondering how I could be such a stupid idiot for making the break happen. I wonder at nights if she cries for me like I cry for her. March ended and April began. Declan and Holly J's wedding was tomorrow. April 7th, 2013. I had decided not to attend the wedding, most likely Clare would be there with Alli, Alli would come with Dave.. But did Clare have a date? That was a part I didn't want to know. I couldn't go. I'll give my thanks next time I see Declan or Holly J. My decision had be put to a halt by Adam who was forcing me to attend, Adam wouldn't let me be home alone and because Adam had a ring. Yeah. Adam is proposing to Fiona tomorrow during the wedding. "Are you sure Adam?" I asked. "I don't want Fiona rejecting you in front of the elites." Adam smiled. "Fi and I are in love. Deep love. She'll say yes and before you know it.. She'll be Fiona Torres. Such a beautiful name." Adam sighed. I rolled my eyes and stared at the diamond ring that was sitting in the velvet case. My thoughts started to race when I wanted to marry Clare. To have her children. Those dreams were crushed when we found our parents straddling each other on her couch. "Thinking about Clare?" Adam whispered. I was pulled from my reverie and gulped. I nodded. "She's always on my mind." I whispered, I immediately began to fiddle with my thumbs. "Clare loves you very much. I can see her face literally light up when I talk about you to her." Adam reassured me. I shrugged. "I don't believe that. Clare.. She deserves someone better than a eighteen year old schizophrenic who has anxiety and anger problems he can't control. I'm not safe for her to begin with." I whimpered. Adam grabbed the velvet box and stuffed it in his pocket. "Shut up Eli!" Adam shouted. I glanced up in horror at Adam ever shouting. He never raises his voice. "Your so pathetic! You always whine about you! What about Clare? What about the fact that her dad moved to the US and Darcy is thinking about moving away because her mom doesn't accept the fact that she and Peter are expecting a baby. What about the fact that she is ALWAYS alone? How about that she is irrevocably in love with a idiot like you?" Adam finished with furrowed brows. My mouth gaped as he continued to grimace. "Not everything is about Elijah Goldsworthy, Eli. Some things have to be about others." Adam added. Adam than proceeded to leave when he glanced over his shoulder. "I'll honk three times tomorrow when I pick you up for Declan and Holly J's wedding, if you don't come out.. Don't even bother driving Morty to get there." Adam spat. Like that Adam stomped from my house. I stared blankly as Adam's truthful words started to sink in.
White. It was a white wedding. Balloons, embroidered table cloths, velvet chairs. Everything in a rich wedding. I took a sip from my champagne, surprisingly, when your surrounded by the elite, they encourage teenagers to drink. Cheers to that. My glass clicked as it was slammed onto the glass tables. A couple of old people passed by to glare at me, I widen my emeralds and mouthed "What?" They hummed and left murmuring about my appearance. Sure I wasn't dressed in fancy suits and or had the most fancy shoes. I was wearing a blazer over a white dress shirt, a long black tie and black skinny jeans. Just to piss Holly J off I wore my combat boots. There was a loud tapping sound on the microphone sending chills down my spine. I turned back to see Adam at the microphone with a goofy grin. I sighed heavily. Fiona better say yes. "Uhmm.. Hello. Before I begin I'd like to congratulate Declan and Holly J Coyne. You two look great together." Adam complimented. I turned to see Holly J in her white bridal dress and Declan had his arms around his bitchy bride. They mouthed thank yous to Adam. "Anyway. I'd like to propose something important." Adam revealed. Many people raised eyebrows as Adam pulled a box from his pocket. "Fiona Coyne. I know you're out there sweetheart and I was wondering.. If you'll marry me FiFi." Adam asked in a choked. Silence. Declan's face fell and Holly J's jaw fell open. Adam shot me a panicked glance, I wasn't prepared to back Adam up. Suddenly clicking heels rushed towards center stage. Fiona stood there out of breath with flushed cheeks. "Baby.. Are you proposing?" Fiona gasped. Adam nodded and approached Fiona, Adam knelt in front of Fiona and opened the box revealing the glittering ring. Fiona covered her mouth and squealed with delight. "What do you think?" Adam questioned. "Yes! A thousand times yes!" Fiona screamed. Adam stood as Fiona pressed her lips to his. There were groans from the crowd as they cringed from Fiona kissing Adam, they didn't accept him. The only ones smiling was me, Declan, Holly J, Alli, Dave and.. Clare? My emeralds widened as Clare approached Fiona and Adam giving both of them hugs. I stared at Clare's body. Her ruffled curls complimenting her round face which had minimal makeup, hoop earrings hanging from her ears, she wore a beautiful blue dress that hit just above her knees. The dress complimented her oceans. She wore black strap heels. She was absolutely beautiful. I wanted to stand up and march to Clare, grab her beautiful figure and kiss her fiercely and feel her lips move around mine in a fiery explosion. Instead I sat there rigid like a moron. "Ladies and Gentelmen, it's time for the bride and groom's first dance as husband and wife." An announcer announced. The dance floor cleared as Declan led Holly J to the center, they leaned against each other and kissed one another. Soon Fiona and Adam joined as did Dave and Alli. I even spotted Sav and Anya, Anya sporting a small baby bump. No miscarriages this time. I sat alone at the table staring at the couples spinning around the floor. I sighed and leaned my head into a balled fist. I traced the embroidered floral patterned on the cloth. Just like Clare's dresses she wore in her sophomore year. Simple times. I heard happy giggles emerge from the slow song. I glanced quickly to see Clare dancing happily with another guy. I felt the anger. He had platinum blond hair and bright blue eyes. He spun Clare around and she giggled like a child. I felt the chains unloosen. The muzzle being broken off. The straps being gnawed off. The feeling was overtaking me again. The feeling that made me paranoid. Made me insane. Not here. I plead with my insane side. Kill the whore who betrayed you. Kill the whore. The insane voice ordered. My sane side started to slip and I felt myself sinking, The wet grass leaving me knees to feel wet. I unclenched my teeth and let out a blood curdling scream. People gasped as I ripped my blazer sleeve off and stared at the deep red scar from my clawing. I quickly reopened the wound feeling the flesh dig into my fingernails, the blood pouring onto my shirt and hands. I screamed as the pain overtook my being. I could feel hands on me, aggressive hands. The voice ordered me to elbow them. I did so. My eyes locked on Clare's dance partner, he stood by Clare, holding her dearly. Dearly my ass. I stood and charged at the dirty oceans. My vision becoming black as I felt immediate pain in my brain. I screamed and clutched at someone's arm. I allowed the fingernails to scratch the arm. High pitched screams filled the air and I felt myself loosing complete control of who I am, Who I was. The high pitched the scream. The complete hurt. Then I suddenly blood splatter on my face. I opened my eyes to see bleeding oceans.
CLIFFHANGER! I had to squeeze another Eli episode! I wanted to go deeper, but I didn't want to scare any of you! YES! Eli did hurt someone other than himself, we'll find out in the next chapter! Can you believe only three more chapters! NOOOOOOO! I am thinking of a sequel! Maybe I will proceed with one! DON'T FORGET TOOO!
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