Breathe Anew
Dejected
Bonjour everyone! I was going to update this story this weekend, but then I was away for it, so instead I am updating on Monday. Please find it in your hearts to forgive me.
Oh, this is the seventh chapter! This is exciting.
Disclaimer: Some of you are really good at guessing. However, there are twists that you won't even see coming.
Ah, and this chapter is the chapter that derived from the COLT chapter called "Breathe Again". As I was writing that chapter, I got this idea in this chapter. (Well, one part in it).
Breathe Anew
Dejected
Gilbert woke up that morning in his flat to find the place empty like it had been for the past two and a half months. He dressed for the day, ate a quick breakfast before driving to the hospital. It was a clear Saturday and the weekend promised to be decent. He was hoping the weather man was right so that he could do some gardening, since Matthew wasn't around. The man sighed at the thought of his almost fiancé.
Sometimes, Gilbert wanted to give up, in the hopes that it would make his life easier, but deep down, he knew that he wouldn't be able to let Matthew down or even remove him from his life.
When he arrived at the hospital, he parked his car in his usual spot and made his way to the third floor. It was sad that the staff knew him by name now and that he got to know them in return. It's not that they were bad people, but it was just testament to the amount of time he spent here watching over his sleeping angel.
"Ah, Mr. Beilschmidt, I'm glad you're here." The head nurse told him when he happened to walk by him. Gilbert stopped to greet him.
"Any changes?" The nurse knew what he was referring to and Gilbert watched as different emotions played on the man's face.
"Well, actually, yes, we tried calling you this morning, but you must have been already out." Gilbert's heart started racing.
"Mr. Williams has awakened, but I-" Gilbert didn't let him finish his sentence that he started running towards Matthew's room. He felt overjoyed. Matthew, his beloved Matthew, finally won against the coma! Everything would be fine now. Their lives could go back to where they were. He could apologize for being reckless and all would be well again.
When he got to the room, he didn't hesitate to open the door and walk to Matthew's bedside. The younger man seemed to be resting, but Gilbert didn't care and enveloped him into as tight of an embrace as he could.
"Gott, Matt, you had me scared there for a moment. I'm – I'm so glad you're okay. I'm sorry, Birdie, I'm sorry for everything. It's good to have you back." He tried hard not to sob, but he was finding it harder and harder. He continued hugging his lover until he felt a hand awkwardly pull at his shirt. Gilbert pulled away to look at Matthew.
"Mattie, I…"
"Eum…, excuse me sir, who are you?" Gilbert's eyes went wide as he let go and pulled back completely. This… this couldn't possibly be happening. This was all a joke. A little payback from Matthew.
"It's me, Gilbert, I'm your b-"
"Best friend!" The nurse said as he ran in. "He's your best friend and he's been worrying over you for the past two and a half months, Mr. Williams." Gilbert looked shocked as he stared from the nurse to his lover and back.
"Oh, eum, well, that's very kind of you, sir. I'm sorry for having troubled you so much." Gilbert didn't know what to do or say. He slowly got up, before backing away from the bed and trying to run out of the room, but the nurse impeded him from doing so.
"Mr. Beilschmidt, please come with me, I need to talk to you." Gilbert let himself get guided to the doctor's office. He stole a glance at Matthew's room and saw the younger man give him a confused look.
When he was seated in the chair, the nurse brought the doctor in and the three of them sat down. Gilbert recognized the doctor as the woman he saw two and a half months ago, on the day of the fatal accident.
"What's – what's the meaning of this?" He finally asked out.
"I tried warning you, Mr. Beilschmidt, but when Mr. Williams woke up this morning, we found out that not all of his memories came back to him." The nurse started off. Gilbert looked at the doctor, who nodded sadly.
"We performed some tests on him, nothing major, just asking him some simple questions. He knew who he was, knew where he worked, what school he went to, he remembered his brothers, the car accident… he remembers everything, which is remarkable, but when we asked about you; nothing. It's strange because it seems as though anything that involves you he doesn't remember." Gilbert felt as though he was punched in the stomach.
"Why can't – why didn't he let me tell Matthew who I was?" He asked as he glared at both the doctor and the nurse. He felt angry. He was angry at himself, angry at the doctor, angry at the nurse and angry at Matthew for forgetting him.
"Because of the tight relationship you have with Mr. Williams, we fear that if we tell him everything right away, he could potentially have a relapse. We've seen it happen before and we want to avoid that." The doctor told him. Gilbert felt numb. He was hearing words, but he felt as though he was living them through someone else. This… this was not happening. This was all a bad dream.
"Will he ever – I mean, is he going to remember?" Gilbert could feel the tears coming to his eyes. What if Matthew never remembered him? What was he supposed to do then? He wouldn't be able to forget Matthew and move on. Not after knowing him for seven years.
"Eventually, he will, but it can take many years. You will have to be patient, these things take time. We're sorry. This wasn't the type of news you were expecting to hear, I'm sure." The doctor and the nurse both gave him an apologetic smile and Gilbert buried his face in his hands. His entire world, his hopes and dreams, just shattered into a million tiny pieces, but he had to be strong, somehow, he had to keep his head above water and be there for Matthew, even if it meant sacrificing their past.
OWARI 7
TO BE CONTINUED
Don't kill me, please…
So, basically, Matthew's first line of dialogue was the line my brain threw at me when I was writing that COLT chapter. Look at what it spawned!
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Started writing: May 24th 2010, 1:45am
Finished writing: May 24th 2010, 2:38am
Started typing: May 31st 2010, 12:26pm
Finished typing: May 31st 2010, 12:53pm