It Starts With One

A Boondock Saints

Disclaimer: I do not own anything from the Boondock Saints. I only own my character Autumn and any story lines that I add.

Author's Note: Thanks to JokerSmile and RDJfan for Reviewing and HLBabi and ILuvOdie for putting my story on story alert. Also thanks to them for giving my story a chance. Thanks to anyone else who is reading this. Reviews would be appreciated if you have the time. Here is Chapter two.

Chapter Two:

I showered and dressed and looked myself in the mirror. I sighed at my reflection and hated the sight of myself. I walked to my closet and opened up the doors. I punched in the code for my safe and stared at the Kimber Royal laying there along with other valuables. I closed my eyes and breathed in. My breath caught in my throat as a knock came at my door. I shut my closet door quickly and walked slowly to the door. I looked through the peephole and saw Murphy standing there. I sighed in relief and unlocked the chain and the other locks to open the door.

"Hey." I said and smiled slightly.

"Hey. I figured for someone who just got off the night shift that you would be in pajamas..." He said with a eyebrow raised.

"Yeah... um... something has come up and I need to go out. Sorry to cancel on this late night... thing..."

"Is everything alright? You seem... anxious." He asked.

"Yeah, yeah. I'm fine really, I just need to head out and I'm already late."

He gave me an odd look and nodded. "Alright, I'll leave your business to your own, but at least let me walk you down."

"It's okay really. I need to get a couple more things and you know how I am. I don't want to make you wait." I said trying to talk him out of taking me.

"Oh it's fine. You owe me anyways." He smiled and I knew I couldn't talk him out of it. I smiled the best I could and let him inside.

"I'll be out in a minute. Help yourself to a beer."

I hurried into my bedroom and grabbed the gun. I put the safety on and put it in the bag along with my other clothes. I pulled my jacket on and checked myself one last time. Soon this would all be over. This should be the last one... Then my debt will be paid and I can move on to my own life. I wasn't believing myself anymore... How long would it take before I lost the one thing keeping me human? Faith. Compassion.

"I'm really sorry about having to cancel on you."

"It's alright. Things happen."He said as I met him half way in my kitchen. "Sure you can't stay for a little bit longer?" He spoke softly into my ear and then kissed down my neck.

"I really should go..." I knew deep down that I would rather stay with him then take someone else's life.

He kissed up to my jawbone and up to my lips as a hand curved around my jaw gently. Our lips moved in a syncing motion of passion. My arms wrapped around his neck. I always gave into him. I envied his power and hated myself for the lack of discipline. I broke away from him and looked into his beautiful eyes.

"I should really go..."

"It is late. Can't it wait until morning?" He asked.

"I wish it could." I said.

He looked into my eyes and I knew he could read me.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He asked.

"Yeah. I'm fine." Lie.

He knew I was lying, but he never really pushed me to fess up about things. Not unless it was of great importance to him.

"Alright." He said still giving me a look of skepticism.

I walked to my door and Murphy followed me. I locked up my door after Murphy exited and stood in an awkward silence with him in the elevator.

"Need a ride or anything?" He asked.

"No I'll be fine." I said and he nodded. "I have tomorrow off... If you want to stop by?" I said.

"Sure you won't blow me off this time?" He smirked as he blew out of smoke of his newly lit cigarette.

"Promise. I owe you one right?" I said and smiled.

"Alright. I'll tomorrow." I gave him a hug and watched him exit the apartment entrance doors.

Before leaving I made sure to go to my mailbox in the main building. I got into my car and opened the plain white envelope. No names were ever included. There was always a photograph and a list of times and scheduled places for where they will be. I looked at the picture of the man. I felt nothing but guilt. This man was dying so I could save my own ass. He could have a wife. Maybe even kids!

Get yourself together Autumn! You know you can't be thinking like this.

I sighed and drove to the club where he was suppose to be at. For the most part it looked like the club is doing pretty good business. I parked in a darker area in order to change without being watched or seen. I sighed and fixed myself. I walked to the entrance and waiting in the short line to get inside. The bodyguard let me inside and I began to scan the crowd for the man. After a half an hour I decided to head to the bar. I walked to the bar and took a seat. A couple seats down I noticed the man I was looking for. I straightened myself up a bit more and connected eyes with him. He had his eyes on me since I sat down. He gave a smile of interest and I gave a small smile in return. I looked forward and out of the corner of my eye I saw him head over and sit beside me.

"Shot of vodka for me and for the lady here...?" He said to the bartender and looked at me.

"Oh I'm fine thank you. I just needed a break from the dance floor." I said and exchanged a smile.

The bartender nodded, gave him his shot, and moved on to the next person.

"The names Ben." He said putting his hand out.

"Autumn." I said taking his hand to shake.

"It's a pleasure." He said and kissed my hand.

It didn't take long before Ben had invited me back to his place. Taking advantage of the opportunity, I, of course, accepted. I couldn't feel any regret. If I did I knew I couldn't do what I had to do. Even if it was wrong for me to do it.

"Please, make yourself at home." He said as he opened the door.

I stepped inside and took a seat on the couch. He sat beside me and put his arm around me.

"Could I use your restroom?" I asked and he nodded.

"Yeah, no problem. Down the hall and it is first on the left."

"Thanks." I said bringing my bag with me.

I grabbed my pistol and tucked it in the back of my skirt. I refused to look in the mirror this time. I zipped my bag back up and turned to the door. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"No turning back..." I whispered to myself.

I saw the pictures of him and who I assumed to be his girlfriend or wife along with walls.

Unfaithful bastard...

I walked into the living room where Ben was waiting for me. He smiled as he saw me. I smiled and put on my flirting charm like back at the club. I straddled his waist and moved close to his ear.

"I'm sorry..." I whispered.

I pulled out the pistol and turned off the safety as I pointed it at his forehead. His eyes filled with panic. I stood up and kept the gun pointed at him.

"Please... please don't kill me. If this is about me cheating. I'll stop I swear. Tell him I'll stop. I won't hurt her anymore." He begged as I attached the silencer.

"Close your eyes." I spoke softly.

"God bless your soul..." I pulled the trigger and closed my eyes and turned my head away as it went off.

"...And let him forgive me when it's my time to go."