It Starts With One

A Boondock Saints

Disclaimer: I do not own anything from the Boondock Saints. I only own my character Autumn and any story lines that I add.

Author's Note: Sorry it has been so long! I've been busy with a lot of school stuff, but here I am now and I hope you all enjoy. Also this one is kind of a filler. Sorry. Thanks to Jokersmile, Pa!ge, and eXsTorDiNaRily InViSiBlE. Also thanks to the couple other people who alerted or added the story to their favorites. enkoy and lets continue on with the story.

Recommended Song: "Never Gonna Be Alone" By Nickelback

Chapter 12:

"Fuck!" I screamed as I held my arm. Blood slipped through the lines between my fingers.

"Autumn! Stay with me!" Murphy said as he held onto my and applied pressure to the wound. "Do you have any Bandages Rocco?" He asked.

"And an iron?" Connor added.

"A what?!" I shouted and regretted trying to sit up. "Fuck." I muttered. Tears streamed down my face as I yelled in pain.

"It's alright Autumn." Murphy whispered into my ear soothingly as he held me.

"Shouldn't we take her to a doctor or something?" Rocco asked as he brought in bandages and the iron.

"You know we can't do that. How would we explain this mess?" Connor said and stood up as he grabbed the iron and put it on the stove.

I clinged onto Murphy and cried into his neck.

"We have to get the bullet out Connor." Murphy said to his twin.

"I know. Need to find something to pull it out." I kept my eyes closed as Connor searched.

"Make it stop Murphy... Make it stop." I muttered into his neck.

"It'll be over soon." He spoke gently as he stroked my hair. I folded into his lap and hissed in pain.

Connor eventually found something to pull the bullet out. It was one of the most painful experiences I have ever had... or at least I thought it would be. Murphy kept his lips against mine to keep me from screaming. When the bullet was out, Connor cleaned everything up.

"Hold her." Connor said with the iron in his hand.

"Get the fuck away from me with that!" I yelled as I jumped up and used the wall for support.

"You're going to bleed out if we don't fix it. This is the only way." Connor argued.

"Fuck that!" I argued back.

"Autumn, please." Murphy said and put a hand out. "We have to fix you up, or we can't help you."

I looked into his eyes and sighed. "You're sure this is the only way?" I asked hesitantly.

"I'll make it as quickly as possible." Connor said. I could tell he was getting fed up with me. He had every right to be annoyed and mad at me. I sat down in the kitchen chair and took a deep breath.

"I'm ready." I said. Murphy grabbed a towel to gag me with so I wouldn't scream too loudly. I nodded to him to give him the okay and kept my eyes closed. It seemed like forever just sitting there waiting for the intense pain to come. When it did come, there was nothing I could do, but struggle and scream. Tears streamed down my face as I cried out in pain. Murphy held as tightly as he could without hurting me further. My eyes began to blur and my ears began to ring.

This isn't good... This isn't good... This... I blacked out.

Murphy's POV:

I felt Autumn begin to go limp. I caught her before she fell.

"Stop!" I exclaimed and Connor looked at her with worried eyes.

"Is she alright?" He asked.

"I think so... I think she just couldn't handle the intensity." I replied. "Do you think that will be enough?"

Connor looked at her wound and nodded. "It should be alright. Just bandage it up." He replied.

I picked her up and brought her into one of the bedrooms and put her down gently. I grabbed the bandages and gently covered up her arm with it. I grabbed a cold wet towel from the bathroom and dabbed it gently on her forehead and neck. I put the towel in the bowl. She began to come around about an hour later.

"Murph..." She barely got out.

"I'm right here Autumn." I spoke as I placed my hand in hers.

"I fucked a big time this time huh..." She said softly her eyes remained closed. "Connor will never forgive me or trust me. I know I don't deserve it anyways... So I don't expect anything less."

I gave her hand a gentle squeeze and her eyes slowly opened. She turned her head slowly to look at me.

"God, my head is aching!" I murmured. She began to try to sit up.

"Lay back down Autumn. You don't need to be up right now." i said pushing gently on her shoulders.

She laid back down without any protests. I didn't doubt that she would have a major headache as well.

"You hit the ground pretty hard." I said.

She let a small smile cross her lips. "I'm a damn fool to have believe in Pietro."

"We're going to get him together." I said and kissed her hand. "I promise."

"...And my sister?" She asked.

I nodded. "Yes."

She looked at me with questioning and sorrow filled eyes. "Why are you helping me Murphy? I've done so many wrong things to your brother and yourself. Why help me?"

I wanted to tell her the truth. I wanted to tell her how I really felt. I wanted to be able to looking into her eyes and tell her I loved her, but I was a coward. Never once did we tell each other we loved each other.

"Love is a foolish word." I remember her saying one day. "Love is only pain and torture. Why would I want to experience that?"

"I... care a lot about you. We've gone through a lot and I'm not about to let you down now." I responded.

"Thank you Murphy. I owe you my life." She spoke.

"You don't owe me anything." I said and kissed her forehead gently.

"Murphy, could I talk to you a second?" I looked up in the doorway and saw Connor.

"Yeah sure." I responded.

I walked over towards Connor and out of the bedroom. Connor shut the door behind him.

"Whatever we have to do to keep her safe, I'll do. I'll help you and her in any way possible." He said.

"Thank you Connor. I-"

"I'm going to be watching her Murphy. I understand you love her. She is like a little sister to me, but I can't help but be cautious of her now. If she so much as makes one wrong move, I won't hesitate to shoot her to protect you."

The door swung open before I could give a reply.

"I want you to do that if it comes to that." Autumn said as she held herself up by the doorway.

Connor looked at her not really sure how to reply. He pulled her into his arms and hugged her.

"I'm so sorry Connor." She muttered into his chest as she began to cry. "I didn't have any other choice. If it wasn't for my sister and other people they are killing because of me, trust me I would have died for you two."

"We're going to get you out of this mess Autumn. We'll do whatever it takes." Connor looked up at me as he stroked her back.

"Whatever it takes..."