Hey everyone, sorry this story hasn't been updating in so long but everything's been really hectic with exams and everything but I'm back now and hopefully I'll be more consistent with my chapters from now on. I was also lacking inspiration but after watched the Season 4 premiere of True Blood (and saw Eric looking extra sexy throughout the episode), I am quite motivated to keep up with this story.

So to make up for my lack of updating I have posted two chapters in one. This is Chapter 11 and 12 and I hope you enjoy.

Chapter 11

~Cassidy~

"Your going to have to repeat that Jason because I don't think that I understood you correctly." I looked at him in an odd way, not truly believing what he had just said to me. He sighed in a dramatic manner and looked me directly in the eyes.

"I'm going to Dallas for a church leadership camp." He said and I almost burst out laughing all over again. I managed to restrain my giggles and try to keep a straight face when I saw he was completely serious.

"You're kidding me right?" I smiled and punched him on the arm lightly, "Jason Stackhouse is going to find god?" Jason glared at me momentarily before moving to the fridge and getting out a beer.

"Don't be making fun of me, I think it's going to be an important step in my life. After everything that's happened it'll be good to get away for a while." I was still a bit shocked by his words. I had never been the religious type and I definitely didn't think that Jason was. But he had let me crash here with him for a while without asking too many questions about why I was here and I was grateful for that. I decided to be completely supportive towards this new venture in the world of religion.

"Okay, that's umm… great." I gave him a genuine smile and walked over to pat him on the back, "What church are you joining?" I asked casually as I got myself a drink as well. He took a long sip of his beer.

"Promise you won't tell anyone, least of all Sookie okay?" He caught my gaze again and I nodded in agreement, "It's with the Fellowship of the Sun." I nearly choked on the drink I was sipping. I swallowed quickly and looked up at him with wide eyes, "Now don't judge…"

"Don't judge? Jason! Are you crazy? Why would you do that? No wonder you don't want to tell Sookie. You know she's dating a vampire right and a pretty decent one at that! And now you're just running off to join a vampire hating cult?" I wasn't exactly yelling but I wasn't holding back on volume either. Jason took a step back and grimaced.

"This has nothing to do with Bill or Sookie. I met the Newlins and they seem like nice people. They invited me and I think it will be a good opportunity for me." He defended himself but I wasn't buying it.

"Is this about my sister?"

"Rachel? Why would you ask that?" He looked away. I rolled my eyes and walked up to him so that I was right in his face. He couldn't look away or avoid the question any longer.

"It needed to be asked and don't pretend like you don't know why I would ask it. Rachel is now dating a vampire. She left you for a vampire. She's happy with a vampire. Are you really telling me that you joining the Fellowship of the fucking Sun has nothing to do with that?" Jason narrowed his eyes at my tough statements but I needed to be brutally honest with him. I wasn't going to sugar coat the truth and I didn't want him to do this for the wrong reasons.

"Maybe it has a tiny bit to do with Eric Northman but I swear this mainly for me. I have to be able to move on from everything that happened in the past year. Everything with the 'V' and Amy and Renee." He told me in all earnestness. I couldn't blame the guy for wanting to get over all of that. It was a lot to go through. I nodded to him.

"Okay." I said and backed off a little, "But I'm not letting you go to that crazy institution alone. If you do then they'll brainwash you and I'll never have the Jason that left back again. And I like that Jason so there's only one solution."

"What?"

"I'm coming with you."

~Rachel~

"You can't keep this up forever you know, sooner or later you're going to have to talk to me." Eric whispered in my ear but I wasn't listening. I would ignore him for as long as I chose to. At the moment I hated him more than words could express, "You should have seen this one coming Rachel, at least admit to that." Yes, I should have never left the bar alone with him. I should have known that he was only going to take advantage of that situation to get what he wanted but once again I put my faith in Eric and he what does he do? He kidnaps me! It serves me right for trusting him again. I wanted to scream everything that I was thinking at him but I didn't. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of making me that mad so I simply put my earphones in my ear pointedly. I also played a song that he truly didn't like just to annoy him.

We were on a plane flying to Dallas. Sookie was also in the plane sitting in front of us. I was ignoring her as well. Soon, Eric would have to get into what they called a travel coffin and I was anticipating that time eagerly. After about an hour I could feel that I was no longer furious with him instead I was just really tired. I think he sensed this and decided to start talking to me again in hopes that I would respond. I didn't have the strength to fight him anymore.

"So who were the children you were with at the bar?" Eric asked. It was an odd question to ask me right off the bat.

"A fellow waitresses kids, she was on vacation so Sam was taking care of them while she was away." I answered and closed my eyes in exhaustion. Sookie turned around in her seat to face us.

"You were with Arlene's kids?" She asked and I nodded nonchalantly at her. She smiled and said something about how adorable they were and how she was surprised each time she saw them about how grown up they were. Then she turned back in her seat and murmured something to Bill who was sitting next to her.

"Do you like children?" Eric asked me. This time in a more shushed tone. I lulled my head over to look at him with confusion. Why was he asking me all these things about children?

"Yeah, I love kids. I was going to study to be an elementary school teacher." My college experience was put on hold when I met Eric also I just didn't have to money to go yet but I always thought that I would go back to school. Maybe if I asked Eric nice enough he would help me with the expenses. Eric looked a little saddened by this. He turned to face straight ahead of him and grimaced.

"Thus you want to have children?" I looked at him and I finally understood what he was asking. It was the one thing that he could not give me under any circumstances. We couldn't have children together. I decided to be brutally honest with him, he would know if I lied to him anyways.

"Yes, very much." I said and Eric stood up. I watched him carefully as he put a hand on Bill's shoulder.

"It is time that we retire to our travel coffins." He told Bill and I moved slightly more into my seat so that he could get by me. Suddenly the time that I was anticipating for him to leave didn't seem as much of a relief. In fact it made me a lot more anxious. Maybe I should have avoided Eric's questions, he literally seemed hurt at the prospect of not being able to give me something that I wanted and I didn't want to make him feel bad. Then again he did take me on this plane against my will and I wasn't sure if I was ready to forgive him for that quite yet. The plane was suddenly immersed in silence. Until Sookie suddenly shot up out of her seat and came to sit beside me where Eric was before.

"There's something that I've wanted to ask you for such a long time." She said and I turned to look at her curiously. All the time we've known each other she's never asked me anything. So I was more than a little surprised to hear that she suddenly had something to say to me. I waited for her to continue, "Why did you stick by my brother when he was in jail for the murder of those girls?" My expression fell from curiosity to sadness. I didn't like looking back on that dark period of my life but now it didn't seem like I had much choice.

I looked at Jason behind bars and I couldn't stop myself from crying. I hadn't cried when Sam had come to my house and told me that my boyfriend was in jail. I hadn't cried when Andy had explained to me what he was accused of doing. But now it was all suddenly real. Here he was, standing before me in a cage. Jason looked worn out but most of all he looked ashamed. He reached out to touch me through the metal bars.

"I didn't do it Rachel." He said.

"Oh and you didn't sleep with those girls either because Andy says that he's got video proof." I sobbed. Jason pulled his hand away and leaned his head against the bar. I could see tears forming in his eyes too. I had never seen him cry before.

"I am such a moron." He almost whispered, "I'm so sorry Rachel." I swallowed back tears as he looked at me again with those deceitful eyes I had grown to love.

"I know you are and I believe that you didn't do it." Jason perked up a little, "I swear I'll do whatever it takes to get you out of here, and I'll stand by your side every step of the way. But when you do get out Jason and we prove that you're innocent we are done do you understand me? There will be no more groveling for me to take you back, no more tears or fights or cheating or love or sex or even talking for a while, do you understand me?" Jason looked so vulnerable. He just looked at me in shock.

"Then what's the point of even getting out?" He said and I rolled my eyes.

"Jason, one day we'll both be very happy and completely in love, I've just realized it won't be with each other. So that's it okay? We get you out of here and it's over. Forever." I looked him straight in the eye and he nodded once. I turned and left him there.

I snapped out of my daze and looked at Sookie, trying not to seem too heartbroken about the entire thing. No matter what happened after that, with Eric and falling in love all over again, nothing would take away the permanent scars that Jason Stackhouse had left on me. That girl he had slept with that Renee killed was literally regarded as trash and he had still decided to sleep with her while dating me. Why? What had I ever done to him to deserve that? Nothing.

"Because it was the right thing to do." I told Sookie and she nodded. There was a long silence that seemed to drag on forever before she finally spoke up.

"He told me what you said to him that day in the jail you know." Sookie said, "I don't think he ever respected you more than he did that day. It really changed everything for him. And for the longest time I guess I blamed you for the downwards spiral that followed. With the drugs and Amy and everything but I guess I was just still mad at everyone after my gram died." I looked at Sookie for a long time.

"We both know you didn't like me much before that. You practically told me so at Christmas one year when I was dating Jason remember?" I laughed, "I guess I never understood why you resented me so much."

"I don't resent you." She said carefully, "I guess I could never completely figure you out and that bothered me." She didn't expand any further than that even when I pressed her to elaborate. Finally I gave up and leaned my head back on my seat and closed my eyes. I fell asleep almost instantly.

~Cassidy~

Luke was crazy. As I watched his interactions with Jason there was no doubt in my mind that this boy would go to the extremes to rid the world of every single vampire on the planet. And it was clear that he wanted to rid the world of Jason while he was at it. On the bus to the leadership camp I was already sure that I was going to regret going along with Jason. I put on a brave face and tried to pretend that I was just as into this as everyone else was. Jason looked excited at least and I felt that I owed him something, which is why I came. It was time that I put on that innocent smile and pretended to be the good girl that I had long ago forgotten.

"Are you okay umm…?" Luke said. He was sitting in the seat behind Jason and me.

"Cassy, my name is Cassy." I said and held out a hand for him to shake. He smiled at me and I tried not to shiver. He didn't seem to notice the fact that I was completely put off by him. After endless attempts at flirting on Luke's part and my not so subtle hints that I wasn't interested he was finally distracted long enough so that I could talk to Jason without him overhearing us. I shook Jason's shoulder.

"What is it?" Jason asked me.

"Luke. He's really creeping me out. Can we please change seats?" I whispered. There was something really off about Luke that made my stomach churn every time he looked at me.

"Nah, he obviously just likes you is all." Jason said.

"I know he does. I don't want to deal with him anymore or with people like him." I said and Jason sighed.

"Fine, then I've got another solution that would be a whole lot easier than avoiding a bunch of hormone driven boys for the rest of this camp." I looked at him with one eyebrow raised and he pulled a silver ring that I always saw him wearing off his pinky finger and adjusted it to my ring finger. It didn't exactly fit but would stay on nevertheless. This made me very curious about what he was going to do next, "Just follow my lead." He whispered just as Luke turned around to face us again, "Sweetheart I told you a millions times that I'm going to buy you a new ring." Luke's attention was suddenly drawn directly to us. I got what Jason was trying to do right away and I smiled at him broadly.

"But I like the one I have right now." I pouted, "You don't have to spend all that money on a new one when in a couple a months it won't matter anyways."

"You guys are…" Luke began to say but Jason cut him off.

"Engaged." He smiled and winked and at me and I smiled back. Luke looked at Jason and I could see that he was jealous. So that's how my experience at the Fellowship of the Sun began and Jason and I would have to act as a happily engaged couple for the rest of the time. It was easy to be around Jason, and it was comfortable but I didn't feel any real romantic connection to him. I didn't mind that he was my pretend fiancé as long as it kept all the slightly damaged people I was about to meet away from me. As we arrived and I stepped off the bus hand in hand with Jason I began to sincerely question my decision to go in the first place.

That feeling remained with me and emerged especially when I met Steve Newlin. He was everything I had heard and everything I hoped that he wouldn't be. I saw him sometimes on TV and I always got a weird and uneasy feeling about him and now at such close proximity that feeling was back stronger than ever. I looked around the place I was going to live for the next few weeks and I knew that something was really wrong but it didn't know what it was yet.

Chapter 12

Jason and I were forced into different cabins for the rest of the stay since it was divided into boys and girls. I looked around my fellow campers with a wary expression. I knew that I couldn't trust these girls, as normal as they looked, and I was sure that I wouldn't really make any close friends while I was here. We all went around the room and told each other why we had decided to come. As I listened to their stories I started to understand their reasons for becoming so anti-vampire. Perhaps they weren't as crazy as I thought they were, they were only human and some of them had some reason horrific stories to tell. The girl who was going to sleep in the bunk next to me, Marissa, had it particularly bad.

"My mom fell in love with a vampire about a year after they came out of the closet. My parents had been happily married for 25 years without any problems, but my mom she was attracted to the danger and wanted to feel free again I guess. Anyways, she left my dad for him. It drove him crazy and he killed himself that year." There were a few gasps and Marissa started wiping away tears, "My mom though, she didn't even seem to care, the vampire had changed her, she wasn't the same woman who raised me. She wanted the vampire (whose name was Christophe by the way), well she wanted him to move in with us. I was still pretty young when this happened so I didn't have any say in the matter. When he moved in, he used to do… terrible things to me, at night, then he brainwashed me into not telling anyone. It was horrific." Marissa was shivering now. I moved onto her bunk to rub her back soothingly.

"What happened?" One of the other girls asked.

"I went off the rails. Got into drugs, alcohol, slept with random guys I just met. I was a terror and I couldn't deal with what had happened to me. Then Christophe was killed, staked, a few years later by some drainers who were after his blood. My mom was devastated but I was extremely relieved. I decided that it was time to tell someone and join a community of people who would understand and want the same thing as I do. To make sure that what happened to me, never happened to anyone else."

"Wow, you are so brave." One of the girls said and the rest agreed. I smiled at Marissa and she smiled back.

"So what about you Cassy? What's your story?" Marissa asked. I froze. I couldn't lie to these girls now. Now that everyone else had told the brutal truth about the darkest part of their lives.

"Umm… well my fiancé has some real issues with vampires." I said quickly, "I wanted to support him and all." I said quickly and tried to avoid Marissa's gaze.

"C'mon, there's got to be another reason why you're here. You wouldn't have come unless there was a really personal reason for you to come." Marissa said, "You can tell us you know, no one is going to tell anyone else about what is said in this room." I thought about that for a moment.

"It doesn't really have anything to do with vampires. Is that okay?"

"Of course." Marissa smiled and all the girls around me encouraged me to go on. I had to admit, for the first time in a while, I felt safe. Like I could say anything and everyone who heard it would take it to the grave.

"Well the truth is, I've been having a really hard time lately. My parents died when I was little and I was taken away from my siblings and everything I knew to go to a school in California. My siblings completely lost touch with me and I was totally disconnected with my family until very recently." I left out the part about Rachel dating a vampire, "But I only came back because I'm too scared to face what happened in California."

"What happened Cassy?" There was a long pause before I continued.

"I met this boy." I started, "He was everything I ever dreamed of, sweet, handsome, charming, kind, I fell deeply in love with him. But there was always something off about him and he was always pressuring me into doing things that I didn't want to do. I lost my virginity to him, and he also started me on cocaine. It was pretty heavy stuff but I felt like it was okay because he said he loved me and wouldn't let anything bad happen to me." I took a few deep breaths before continuing, "But soon he started pressuring me into other things. I got addicted to the coke and he said that he would only deal it to me if I started doing some thing for him—dirty disgusting things." I held back a few sobs.

"He started whoring you out?" Marissa asked. Her voice, quiet but loud enough for everyone to hear and she seemed to understand what I was saying.

"At first he said he was just short on money and that I wouldn't have to do it a lot but then it seemed to become a sick sort of pleasure for him and he would… watch." I was crying almost hysterically now. I had never told anyone this before and old wounds were rapidly opening again. I wiped away my tears and looked around to see the sympathetic eyes of the other girls patiently waiting for me to finish, "Anyways, after I woke up in the hospital after having overdosed I knew that I couldn't stay there anymore. So I changed my hair, my clothes, everything and just ran. Back to Louisiana, to my hometown and I guess I just tried to forget everything that happened but I can't. My sister's noticed how much I've changed and I keep getting these phone calls from him, apologizing and begging me to come back and I just didn't know what to do. So I guess that's how I ended up here." Marissa was soothing me and the other girls congratulated me on my honesty and told me how brave I was to tell them all that and for the first time in a long time I felt calm. I felt relieved to have let some people in and I knew that they wouldn't tell anyone. They all had their secrets, their stories that had led them to the camp. I had been wrong about these people, I related to them, maybe they were just like me. Maybe they were just hiding from the world they had left behind. I fell asleep that night with a new sense of peace.

~Rachel~

I had hoped that Eric would get over what I had said to him earlier by the time he got out of the coffin but he didn't. His demeanor was as cold as ever as he led me out of the plane and onto the tarmac. Two black cars were awaiting our arrival and Eric and I slipped into ours and drove all the way to the hotel without a word passing between us. The hotel was beautiful, modern and appropriately dark. Eric took my hand as we walked in and pressed my body against his, subtly brushing my hair back to show my neck. I knew this was an act of possession not affection and that he did it to send a message to the other vampires at the hotel. I also knew that he would be keeping an extra close eye on me while we were staying in Dallas. We checked in, our sweet was located on one of the top floors and I anxiously waited to see the room.

"You know this was my favorite part of travelling when I was a kid." I told him without warning while we were in the elevator. It was the first words that were spoken out loud between us since we left the airplane, "Seeing the new hotel room that we were staying in. Of course the hotels we stayed in as a kid were nowhere as luxurious as this one but I was always really excited about room service and jumping on the beds." I smiled to myself.

"Did your family travel a lot?" Eric asked but didn't look at me.

"No, that's probably why it was so exciting. We never really had enough money to go far but we took some road trips in the summer. Cass was really little back then and probably doesn't remember those trips but I do."

"Cassandra looks lost." Eric remarked and I turned to him sharply.

"What do you mean?"

"When I first met her I could tell that something horrible had happened to her, first of all she had obviously changed her appearance very recently, secondly she avoided all questions about why she was suddenly back in town and thirdly she had this haunted look about her. Her blood smelled like that of a human that had been abusing drugs and very impure, though it was quite alluring. Godric revealing the phone calls she had been receiving simply confirmed my belief. " Eric explained. I listened in shock, I hadn't picked up on any of that while we had been talking, "She hides it very well, and you shouldn't feel bad about not noticing it."

"Why didn't you tell me any of this before?" I demanded.

"I figured you had enough to deal with."

"I'm not that fragile Eric."

"You're extremely fragile Rachel." He stated and we returned to the silence.

Things were uncomfortable between Eric and I for quite a while. He lounged on the couch flipping through the channels as I unpacked.

I sighed, exhausted, and finally went to bed an hour later. Neither me nor Eric were in the mood for conversing with each other or even being pleasant to each other for the time being and I didn't see the point of being awake anymore. I barely heard the door close behind Eric as he left the sweet in the middle of the night, when he thought I was definitely asleep. But I didn't really take notice of it, I was drifting the middle of dream and reality.

Light. It was extremely bright, wherever I was. The light was shining in through a huge skylight above me. I squinted and looked up at it. Someone was standing in front of me. I knew him. Jason. He was standing there in front of me all in white. Beside him was someone else I knew. Cassidy. She was smiling at me. Her blonde hair glimmering in the sunshine, she was also only wearing white. It was strange and yet they looked somewhat angelic. I looked down at my own appearance only to see that I was dressed completely in black.

"What happened to you Rachel, you used to be so pure, so kind and look at you now." Cassidy spoke first and she was no longer smiling. Instead she wore a look of hatred. Jason wrapped his arm firmly around her waist, "You are such a disappointment to us."

"A spawn of the devil." Jason said and furrowed his eyebrows at me. He looked down at Cassidy, "I will repent for ever even involving myself in such a sinful creature." Cassidy smiled up at him and he returned the gesture before leaning down and kissing her firmly on the lips. I started to back away from them in shock. Not fully comprehending their hurtful words on what I had just witnessed.

"Oh my darling sister, you're not going anywhere." Cassidy pulled away from Jason and started advancing on me.

"What? Why?" My voice seemed panicked. Cassidy caught my arm and held onto me. I tried to struggle free but she was extremely strong. Suddenly, other people (men and women) dressed in white started to surround me. They all seemed to be reaching towards me. I once again tried to force Cassidy away from me but she didn't budge, "Why are you doing this to me?" I screamed.

"You have gone turned away from god and you must be punished for sympathizing with the devil. You must be cleansed of your sins." Cassidy told me and let go of me as the other people started to descend upon me. I shrieked as multiple pairs of hands started to grab me and grope me. Through the crowd I could see Cassidy and Jason, sitting back and watching without doing a thing to defend me.

I heard myself truly screaming as I shot up in bed.

If you want me to update even more quickly, I feel really guilty not writing more when a lot of people review. So please feel inclined to do so and let me know if you have any ideas of what should happen next so I can include them or just a leave a comment. Thanks

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Summer Jane