I own NOthing
I know this isn't what I wanted
I never thought it'd come this far
Just thinking back to where we started
And how we lost all that we are
"Lucas…" Brooke giggled "Stop it…"
"Ok…" Lucas agreed but kept kissing her neck, before finally pulling back, "Don't you really want me to stop?"
"Umm…" Brooke laughed tapping her chin "No." she smiled pulling him back to her and kissing him, Lucas rolled them over so he was on top of her and they continued to kiss, his heart stopped when she slowly pulled away from him and starred up at him "I've missed you." She whispers.
"I've missed you too," he grins kissing her "So very much."
"Yeah." She smiled up at him running her hand over his cheek and stoking it gently with her thumb.
"You know what else I missed?" He smirked and she just shook her head no "Well I have missed kissing you right here," he started kissing below her ear, "And touching you like here," he continued as he ran his hand slowly up her bare thigh,
"Lucas…" Brooke gasped as his kisses and hands roamed her body.
"And I also missed," he paused leaning in and whispering in her ear "Making love to you."
Brooke flipped them over so she was sitting on top of him then leaning down and kissing him "I missed that too." She grinned as he pulled her down, towards him running his hands up under her shirt sending shivers down her back, "I love you, so, so much."
"I love you too Pretty Girl."
We were young and times were easy
But I could see it's not the same
I'm standing here but you don't see me
Give it all for that to change
"Lucas…" Brooke moaned but then slowly flickered her eyes open to find herself not being with Lucas "Damn dreams," she mumbled to herself as she rolled over in her bed but got nervous when she crashed into someone, "Lucas…" she smiled laying her hand gently on his cheek as he slowly opened his eyes to look at her. As much as Brooke hated having these dreams about Lucas she also loved them since for a short time she was with him again, so if in her dreams she got him she would dream as much as possible.
"Hey," he smiled at her, Brooke moved so she was closer to him, where her nose was lightly brushing against his, and on instinct he wrapped his arms tight around her waist pulling her closer to him. Brooke leaned in to kiss him; and it slightly caught him off guard but he didn't abject.
"What you thinking about?" he whispered pulling away from her lips but keeping his face close.
"You," she whispered back as she again started to kiss him again, that was enough for him and he rolled over on top of her as he deepened the kiss, he missed kissing her like this holding her like this, rubbed his hand up her leg and grabbing her thigh pulling her close to him as his other hand was on the back of her neck. Lucas pulled his lips to her neck sucking hard making her moan, a moan he hadn't heard in months and a moan he missed hearing, "Ahhh…Lucas…" she gasped as her hand pulled his neck closer to her, "I love you so much." She whispered and he pulled away looking at her not sure he heard her right.
"You do?" he whispered and she looked at him confused.
"Yeah why wouldn't I?" she questioned but then looked around the room and realized real quick this wasn't her room, this wasn't her dream and Lucas was actually right there, with her, and kissing her and she just told him she loved him, "Oh my god, Lucas!" she said pushing him off her and jumping off his bed, "What the hell are you doing!?"
"Excuse me?" he asked confused to what just happened, yet couldn't help but smile since she just told him she loved him.
"Why are you kissing me?"
"Brooke you kissed me first." He laughed slightly at her confusion.
"No I didn't!" she protested, then looked down to see she was just in one of his shirts and no pants "Oh my god where are my clothes!" She freaked grabbing her jeans off the floor and pulling them on, "Lucas what the hell happened last night!?" The last thing she remembered was them fighting and then her running inside, the rest was a complete blur and not only was she pissed her head was spinning and she prayed to god she didn't have sex with Lucas last night.
"Brooke calm down," he laughed sitting up in his bed.
"Calm down, Lucas I am in your bed! I am in your clothes and you were just kissing me." She screamed but then held her head.
"Ok come here." He said getting off his bed and taking her hand "Come sit down, I am sure you are experiencing a very painful hang over." Brooke didn't say anything just took his hand as he lead her over to his bed and she sat back down and he handed her some pain medicine and a bottle of water "Here take this."
Brooke took the pills and drank some water and calmed down for a second until again she realized she where she was and started to freak again, and Lucas just started laughing, "Why are you finding this funny!?"
"Because it is," he smirked but realized she wasn't at all amused "Ok look, last night you got pretty wasted at the party, I didn't know where Rachel was and I wasn't going to leave you there so I took you back to your dorm. However you don't carry a key, or at least I couldn't find it, so I brought you here to sleep. I gave you some clothes to wear but you didn't want to wear the pants since you were hot, that's why you are just in your underwear." He explained.
"Well then why were you next to me?" Brooke snapped again, not that she was really mad waking up in his arms but still she wasn't going to admit it to him.
"Well I was going to sleep in the chair but you told me it was ok to sleep in my bed." He explained making sure to stress that she told him to sleep there.
"So nothing happened?" she asked again.
"Brooke nothing happened, I wouldn't do that too you." He said kneeling down in front of her taking her hands in his "I would never take advantage of you like that, never." And Brooke knew he wouldn't do that to her, even when she was drunk and they were dating he wouldn't do that to her and she knew she was stupid for even thinking it.
"Yeah I know," she whispered as he again brushed a strand of hair behind her ear.
And I don't want
To lose her
Don't wanna let her go
"Lucas…" she whispered as he leaned up to kiss her and she didn't pull away, the fell back on his bed as he deepen then kiss. Lucas ran his up hand slowly up under her shirt, as her rested on around her neck. Getting caught up in the moment Brooke completely lost all thought of what they were doing and the situation they had been in the last few weeks. His lips like in her dream moved to his neck and Brooke tilted her head so he could reach it better, "Lucas…" she moaned at his kisses.
"Lucas we can't do this." she said pushing him off her neck but he just leaned his forehead against hers.
"Why not?" he whispered as he saw tears build in her eyes, "Baby please don't cry." He sighed knowing she was upset, he hated when she cried and hated even more when he knew it was because of him.
"We just can't, plus you are with Kimberly now." She sighed as a single tear escaped her eye and fell of her cheek onto his pillow.
Lucas just closed his eyes shaking his head "I'm not with Kimberly." He whispered back to her as they stayed laying on his bed and his forehead against hers. "You said you loved me Brooke."
"I…I didn't mean too." She said as he moved off her sitting up in his bed not looking at her as the both sat in silence.
Standing out in the rain
Need to know if it's over
Cause I will leave you alone
Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold ya
Like I did before the storm
"You didn't mean to say it or you don't love me." He finally spoke turning to look at her and she sat up pulling her legs into her chest not wanting to answer. "Then why did you say it?" he asked not letting her answer his first question and not really wanting to hear the answer.
"I…I thought I was dreaming." She whispered drop her head down.
"So you love me in your dreams, just not in real life? Is that it?" He hissed in a little harsh tone, he didn't mean to come off so angry, he was just so tired of this game they seemed to be playing. They see each other with people they get jealous, they say they are friends yet friends don't act like this, friends don't kiss like that and friends don't tell each other they love each other and mean it the way he hoped she did.
"No…I just…" Brooke didn't know what to say to him or how to word her feelings about anything.
With every strike of lightening
Comes a memory that lasts
And not a word is left unspoken
As a thunder starts to crash
Maybe I should give up
"Are we done Brooke?" he finally asked and her head shot up at him "I mean is this it because if it is I need to know, so we can both move on."
"I…I don't know Lucas." Brooke said easing off his bed "I don't know what to do, I don't know how I feel and I don't know anything anymore." She said waving her heads around.
"Brooke it's simple do you love me or do you not? Do you want to be with me or not?" he asked walking over to her, "Brooke…" he asked as she shook her head and tears feel "Damn Brooke will you just tell me!" He begged for her to speak "I can tell you how I feel, I can tell you that I have missed you like hell these past months and I need you Brooke. I need to be with you, I need to be able to touch you," he said rubbing his hands up and down her bare arms making her shiver "I need to be able to kiss," he smiled sadly kissing her hand softly "I just need you and I want you back, just tell me you want that to please."
"Lucas..." she whispered about to answer when his door opened and not only did Jeff enter but so did Kimberly.
"Oh hey guys I was going to come ask if you wanted to go get some breakfast and I ran into Kimberly in the hall," Jeff explained.
"Umm… is everything ok?" Kimberly asked noticing Brooke being upset and Lucas standing really close to her holding her hand, she could defiantly tell they just interrupted something major and felt a little jealous by it.
"Yeah it's fine umm…could ya'll just give us a second please." Lucas asked his roommate cursing his timing and then cursing the fact Kimberly was there.
"No it's fine… I was just umm…about to go." Brooke said thanking god Jeff showed up when he did even if he brought Kimberly with him.
"No Brooke… Lucas said grabbing her hand to face him not caring if Jeff and Kimberly were there right then, he wanted to hear what she was about to say, "You were about to say something, what were you about to say?" he pleaded.
Standing out in the rain
need to know if it's over
cause I will leave you alone
Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold ya
Like I did before the storm
"I…" she started again but looked over at Kimberly, Lucas saw her look over and he knew whatever she was about to say he wasn't going to hear anymore, he just closed his eyes shaking his head as he felt her hand slip out of his, "Brooke…" he sighed.
"I got to go." She whispered, to him with a sad smile blinking away her tears. She let go of his hand brushing past the two people at the door, running to her room as tears started to fall again.
"Luke… man…" Jeff sighed knowing he probably interrupted something huge, something that probably was his best friend getting back together with the guy she loved.
"We're sorry Lucas." Kimberly sighed, of coursed she liked Lucas but he was clearly so in love with Brooke that what she felt didn't really matter, she wouldn't ever have him and felt bad she really did.
"Yeah, I'm going to go take a shower." Lucas said not really wanting to talk about it, he wasn't mad at them it wasn't their fault but he was still angry he wanted Brooke back and he knew he was about to get her back just then and someone stopped them. He brushed past them and took the walk Brooke took but instead of going to her dorm room he just walked to the bathroom at the end of the hall.
Trying to keep
The light from going in
And the clouds were ripping out my broken heart
They always say
A heart is not a home
Without the one who gets you through the storm
"Oh my god Brooke, what is wrong?" Rachel asked as Brooke ran into their room crying and falling onto her bed. She knew Brooke didn't come home last night because Jeff came back with Rachel and he stayed with her. She was worried about where Brooke was but then Rachel noticed the shirt she was wearing and that was defiantly not the one she had on the night before. "Brooke did you sleep with someone?" Rachel asked wondering if that was why she was so upset because she slept with some random guy, Rachel knew Brooke's past and everything she had been through.
She also knew how Lucas was with her after he found out, he didn't judge her or make her feel bad he told her how much he loved her and how sweet and gentle he was with her. Though Rachel knew Lucas a long time they never really talked that much and she kind of thought he was an ass, even when she found out about them dating she still thought he was an ass, but then Brooke told her how he was with her and that's when Rachel realized how much he loved her and she saw it even to this day.
"No…" Brooke cried as Rachel rushed over hugging her, rocking her and rubbing her back.
"Then where were you last night?" She whispered but Brooke just started to sob at her question, and whispered "Lucas…"
Rachel should have known she knew that Lucas wouldn't have let her go home with anyone last night, every left and asked him to come but he said no he wasn't going to leave Brooke. "Shhh… your ok….it's all going to be ok." Rachel soothed knowing what she said didn't matter because at the end of the day they weren't together anymore and Brooke was broken, but Rachel had a small amount of hope that Brooke and him would get back together, because she knew Lucas Scott was completely in love with Brooke, and he loved her maybe half as much as she loved him, Rachel just had to get them both to realize that, and she knew that was exactly what she would do.
Standing out in the rain
Knowing that it's really over
Please don't leave me alone
I'm flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold ya
Like I did before the storm
A/N: I hope you all don't hate me for this chapter, this is Brucas you saw them in the last story so you know they will be together in the end but it's the beginning of the story so I can't rush it that quick but will tell you that within the next few chapters Brucas will be together, well I think they will hah well review please.