Lucas woke up early that morning; he actually had a pretty good night since most of it he dreamed of Brooke. Who was for the first time in almost a year in the same room as him, and though she may not be in his bed least it was something. After waking up he realized Brooke was still pretty much out so he went for a run, came back took a shower and got him and Brooke some coffee.

Yet when he got back to wake her up it confused and upset him when he saw the tear stains on her cheeks.

"Brooke…" he whispered rubbing his hand over her cheek. "Pretty Girl wake up." He said as she started to stir some. "You got class soon, you need to wake up." He told her and she groaned slowly opening her eyes. "Hey…" he smiled.

"Hey…" she whispered sadly sitting up, in the bed.

"I got you some coffee." Lucas told her handing her a cup and she smiled taking a sip.

"Thanks." She said pulling her feet close to her body, Lucas went to brush a piece of hair out of her face and she jumped slightly at his touch which made him nervous. How was it when he went to sleep she was hugging him thanking him for being there but now nervous and clearly crying, or had been crying.

"You ok?"

"Yeah…" Brooke said but avoiding his eyes. She wasn't sure why last night she got so upset, she thought she was over everything that happened. But just thinking about it all last night, she start to feel that pain she felt that day that girl answered all over again.

"Ok…" he said taking her coffee and sitting it on the night stand next to them, then turning back to face her "Now why don't you tell me the truth?"

"I'm fine Lucas I swear." She lies.

"Brooke…" he sighed brushing her hair back and thankful she didn't jump this time "I think I know you well enough and we have been through enough that I know when you are lying to me." And she knows it's true she could never lie to him, she may have been good at getting other people to believe she was fine but never Lucas.

"Yeah…" she whispers looking down, she wanted to talk about everything that happened and her finding the letter, and all she said to him, but was just afraid to what he would say.

"Hey…" he said lifting her chin "Talk to me."

"Umm…I…" she started but gets interrupted when his phone starts going off.

"Just a second…" he says jumping off the bed, "It's just a text from Cam we have an early practice, before the game tonight."

"Yeah…ok." Brooke said wiping the small tear that had fallen before he saw it.

"Brooke, I really want to talk but I got to go." Lucas sighs, knowing something was going on with her but also knowing if he missed practice or was late he wouldn't be able to play tonight.

"Its fine Luke. We can talk later." She said easing off Jeff's bed.

"You sure?" Lucas asked but was more asking if she was sure they would talk about what was bothering her later, not really if it was fine or not. he just really wanted to know what was going on with her.

"Yeah, really. Go on to practice." She smiled pulling on her jeans.

"Well you want me to walk you too class?" He offered thinking maybe they could talk then but she just shakes her head no.

"I think I may skip today. Rachel doesn't have class today so I think I may just go hang with her." She said knowing she wanted to talk to Rachel about all the crazy feeling she felt.

"Oh…umm…ok well I guess I will see you later. You are coming to the game right?"

"Wouldn't miss it." She smiled sadly as he walked over kissing her forehead.

"I'll talk to you later; I have my cell if you need me."

"Ok, see you tonight." She nodded as he grabs his bag and walks out the door. Brooke stood there a few moments thinking. Before grabbing her coffee, the clothes she had with her and headed back to her room.

"Hey girlie how are you?" Rachel asked as Brooke walked into their door room. And Rachel couldn't help but notice she was in Lucas's clothes.

"I'm so confused Rach…" Brooke confessed falling next to her best friend. "God why does it have to be so complicated."

"What you and Lucas?" she asks and Brooke just nods "Well I don't see the complication in it, he loves you, you love him. Seems like a pretty open and shut case if you ask me."

"How do you know he loves me? I mean how can I be for sure what he feels is real?" Brooke asked, more like pleads with her best friend. She wants someone to tell her Lucas did love her, even if he slept with other girls that it meant nothing because he cared for her so much.

"Because Brooke, look at the guy. I mean he is so crazy about you." Rachel reassures rubbing her best friends back.

"He slept with someone else." Brooke confessed, not telling anyone that before, not even Jeff and saw the shocked look on Rachel's face.

"Like recently?" Rachel asked knowing if it was recent she would kick his ass, since he has been all I love her help me. Which Rachel was trying to do, but if he was sleeping with other girls while she was helping him then he was as much of an ass she use to think he was.

"No…I mean he might have I don't really know about since he has been her but when we were broken up." Brooke told her "I know I shouldn't be mad we were broken up but I wasn't even a month before he slept with some other girl. I mean I was sitting at home crying my eyes out and he was ok to sleep with other girls." Brooke said a tear fell.

"How are you so sure?" Rachel asked.

"Because…because when I called some girl answered, telling me how he was in the shower." Brooke cried falling into her friend.

"Brooke…I'm sorry I didn't know." Rachel said hugging her friend "I know what happened sucked and I know that it hurts to think he got over it so quick he had sex with another girl but there is no doubt in my mind he loves you." Rachel said pulling out of the hug "I may not be right about lots of things but I am right about this, I am so right. He is so head over heels for you its killing him that he can't be with you."

"It's hurting me too." Brooke sighed.

"So just let him in Brooke. Let him back into your heart, because he isn't going to hurt you."

The basketball game was almost over and Brooke was really enjoying watching him play again. She always thought he looked so cute when he played.

"Excuse me?" some girl said tapping Brooke on the shoulder.

"Yeah," Brooke said confused never seeing her before.

"Hi I'm Nicole, I was wondering…well me and my friends were wondering is he your boyfriend?" she asked and Brooke just looked at Rachel confused and Rachel just shrugged also confused.

"Umm…I'm sorry there is like a whole team down there I don't know who you are talking about." Brooke smiled, the girl seemed sweet and Brooke didn't mean to if she came across rude but she had no clue what or who this girl was talking about.

"Lucas…Lucas Scott, the new guy." The girl clarified and Brooke just sighed a little.

"Oh…Ummm…" Brooke said looking over at Lucas who gave her a smile and wink before he passed the ball to his teammate, "Well…"

"Why would you ask that?" Rachel asked and the girl just turned to look at her.

"Well she has a Scott sweatshirt on and we didn't know if it was because they dated or something. Because if he doesn't have a girlfriend well then…" she paused looking up at Lucas all but drooling over him.

"Well she is." Rachel said quickly and Brooke just looked at her, "Sorry but you will have to find someone else to drool over. He is happily taken."

"Oh, well you're lucky because he is fine." The Nicole girl said walking off.

"Rachel you just lied." Brooke whispered to her friend so that girl didn't hear her. Not that she really cared Rachel lied since she didn't want to witness some girl all over Lucas but still, she wasn't his girlfriend, not anymore.

"Look Brookie, if I didn't lie that skank would be all over him by the end of the game and I know you don't want that. So I told her what I needed to for her to back off. I told her what you wanted to and good job wearing his sweatshirt I mean all the girls must me insanely jealous of you."

"I didn't even think about it ok. I had it on last night and just never took it off. I didn't wear it so girl thought he was mine or something. It's just…it's..." Brooke paused thinking "It's my sweatshirt." She smiled remembering the letter he wrote her.

"Yeah well it's also your Lucas so I was just helping you out." Rachel shrugged happy with what she did.

"Yeah well I am going to go to the bathroom I will be right back." Brooke said scooting past people and off the bleachers.

"Ok I will make sure no one keeps your boy warm until you get back." Rachel yelled and Brooke just rolled her eyes, but had a small smile play on her lips as she walked out of the gym, to the bathrooms.

After leaving the bathroom Brooke stood in the corridor enjoying the cool breeze. Normally she hated the cold but right now it was kind of relaxing, almost calming as she looked up at the stars taking a deep breath.

"Ugh Brooke what are you going to do?" she whispered to herself "Wish there was just a sign that told me I could be happy with him. Let myself forgive him for everything and trust his love for me." She sighed breathing in the cold air that almost burned her nose a little, "Just need a sign."

"Brooke?" she heard someone call.

"Yeah…" she turned around the last person she wanted to see, "What are you doing here?" she said taking a step back.

"I just wanted to talk." He sighed stopping his steps, knowing every step he took she took one back.

"You want to talk to me?" she yelled "You raped me why the hell would you think I wanted to talk to you. God you screwed my whole life up and I hate you! God I hate you!" she screamed with her voice cracking, while she tried to hold back her tears.

"I know I just wanted to say I was sorry."

"You're sorry? Keith you were so supposed to be my friend and you did that to me! Do you know what my life was like after it happened? I cut myself off from everyone and freaked every time someone would touch me or get near me!" she yelled still not believing he was here in front of her and it scared her she had nowhere to run.

"I know that Brooke I do and I just wanted to say how sorry I am. I was drunk and I was so drunk honestly I don't remember any of it, I guess I blacked out or something." he told her.

"I wish I blacked out from it." She whispered more to herself.

"Look I know you don't want to see me or care to hear how sorry I am but I am. I know what I did is unforgiveable but I just needed to tell you that. I never got to tell you that and I tried to find you too tell you and I heard you went to school here and I just needed you to know that." He told her and Brooke just stood there not saying a word as tears ran freely down her face, the boy who completely shattered her and her trust in people she was considering saying it's ok to. He messed her up bad but he was also one of her friends and right now all her emotions were too much to handle and she didn't know what to say but thankfully he started again.

"Look Brooke, you are an amazing person. You are sweet, honest, and so beautiful and you have a great heart, don't let what I did keep you from showing that to people. Don't let the biggest mistake I ever made ruin your life like it has mine. I wouldn't be able to handle that."

"Do you expect me to forgive you for what you did to me?" she asked but not in a yell anymore just wanting to know what he wanted from her.

"I would be lying if I didn't say knowing you forgave me would make me feel better, be able to live with myself but I don't expect your forgiveness. I hurt you Brooke bad, I messed up bad and I wish every day I could take it back and not even because how much it has messed up my life but because I know how bad I hurt you, and I am sorry." He told her and she just nodded "I am going to go now, leave you alone and don't worry I don't go to school here so you won't run into me ever again. Just know how sorry I am and that I never meant to hurt you." He finished and with that he was gone.

Brooke felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders. Knowing he wouldn't be around that when she turned the corner she wouldn't be surprised if he was there because he would never be there. It was like a chapter of her life had been officially closed and she could move on. Though she didn't forgive him she would never forgive him for what he did she did believe when he said sorry, and she also believed he truly meant that it was because he hurt her and not any selfish reasons.

She finally made her way back to the gym and felt something she wasn't sure what it was but it was something.

"Brooke you ok?" Rachel asked and Brooke just looked at her friend with a smile and nodded.

"I'm perfect."

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