One more chapter left, and since it's been so long, I'm going to update Regrets next.
I cried. I screamed, I didn't even know what to do. I was only fifteen. Only fifteen, rang in my head once more. I didn't even know how this was going to work. My parents were divorced, and I was living with my father. I couldn't possibly do this. So I made my appointment at the abortion clinic quickly. I knew I wasn't able to have this child.
I looked down at my stomach. I couldn't be that far along. Just a month. Only a month. No one would judge me for not finding out sooner. I didn't even suspect it until I missed my period. Elysia was happy that she wasn't having a baby anytime soon, but she felt sorry for me. I hugged her as I cried.
"What are you gonna do?" Elysia asked as I cried.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Your not gonna get an abortion are you?" She asked with a sense of terror in her voice. I nodded.
"It's the only way. I'm not going to actually tell my dad I got pregnant, and ruin the family. He would be mortified that his only child, his daughter, was a disgrace to the family, and went off getting pregnant at fifteen years old." I explained.
"He wouldn't think that. Uncle Roy is a very understanding person."
"That's what you think." I mumbled.
Later that week, on the day of my appointment, I decided that it was time I tell my dad where I was going. So, while I was on my way out the door I shouted, "I'm going to the abortion clinic, be back in an hour!"
Of course, my father stopped me.
"Abortion clinic?" He shouted. He was angry. I knew he was. I was spoiled my entire life, so of course I had never been yelled at, nor had I given reason to be yelled at.
"Dad, I'm almost two months pregnant..." I mumbled.
"Two months?" He shouted once more. I saw his pale and sweaty face, and I knew that he was more scared about this than I was. "Alright," He said once he had calme. "here's what we're gonna do. Your going to have that baby, and then you can decide if you want to keep it, or give it up for adoption." My father explained. I nodded. That was a good idea.
I told Elysia what was going on, and my father announced to my god father and god mother that I was pregnant. They were a bit sad that I was only fifteen, but they acted joyously for the baby. I think Gracia really was joyous about the situation though.
I had gone shopping with Elysia and Gracia for maternity clothes, and they took me to my doctors appointments. My father and Maes always hung out while us girls were doing pregnancy things. When I was five months pregnant, I was told what gender I was having.
"Well, what is it?" My father asked anxiously. He wanted to know weather he was having a grandson, or a grandaughter. He really wanted a grandson. He had always wanted a boy, but obviously didn't get one when he had me. My mother didn't want to have anymore children, in fear that it would cause a strain on their marriage.
She had read somewhere in a pregnancy magazine that they should chose carefully about how many children to have since it caused a strain on a relationship. So, in fear of divorce, she didn't have anymore children.
"It's a boy!" I said excitedly. He hugged me, and kissed my forehead. I was most excited about seeing my son. He would probably be the only child I would ever have. The only thing I needed to solve now, was a name.
"How about...Jake?" My father asked me, helping me pick out the name for my son.
"I don't really like it. Zaine?"
"Inventive, but sadly, I would hate to have my grandson running around with such a name." My father said smirking at me.
"Prude." I joked. "What about Sean?"
"...No." My father said with all seriousness. "Steven?"
"Ah, ah." I laughed hard.
"John?" I asked. He shook his head.
"What about Alex? That's a good name." My father suggested. I nodded. It was nice, clean, and simple. My baby would need that.
"I like it. Alex Mustang. What about a middle name?" I asked.
"We could do John? Alex John Mustang?" He asked. I nodded.
I started shopping my for my new son. My father had replaced his little study and created a small nursery for Alex. We painted it together. It's a nice baby blue, and it has a midnight blue crib, with a blue stroller, blue baby seat, blue bouncer, blue walker, and yellow and blue bottles-gifts from Gracia.
I had bought clothes with Elysia, and my dad helped me make a new shirt that had two blue handprints on my stomach that looks like someone's hugging my baby. When Elysia wanted me to actually go shopping with her for shoes, and cute clothes for her, I went. I didn't want to go for some reason, but I went anyway. Elysia needed a break from things that she was too young for.
"These shoes look so cute! You should try these on, I'm kinda sick of seeing you in flip flops." Elysia told me at 'Shoes Galore'.
"My feet are swollen, I don't think that I need to try any shoes on. Maybe after Alex comes out of me." I said sighing.
"You decided on Alex? I thought you were going to do Fabian." Elysia said.
"I'm not going to name my son Fabian just because that's your boyfriends name." I sighed. Her boyfriend and her had been going out for just over three weeks. He hated me because he thought I was a slut that should have never gotten pregnant, and he was always stoned on drugs. Elysia always did say she was into the 'bad boy' type.
"You going to the football game this weekend?" I asked casually trying to change the subject.
"Yeah, me and Fabian are going together, even though he's supposed to go on the bus with the other football players. The coach said it was fine if we made it on time." She explained.
"Cool." I said, looking at other shoes I thought were cute.
"Did you wanna go? I have more than enough room for you, and it'll be fun. Plus, since that sucker's coming out soon we need to hang." Elysia said smiling.
"I don't really want to go, and he's not coming out for another four months." I sighed. I really hated being twenty-five pounds heavier than I used to be.
"Come on, Fabian is gonna kick butt! Please?" Elysia begged with a puppy dog face. I sighed.
"Fine." I huffed out, and then we were on our way to the football game.
Phew, got that done, one more left!