Chapter 4: Blueberry kisses

Caroline's P.O.V:

After that crazy party I can't remember anything, Just a pain that echoes in my bones... Sometimes some images flash trough my mind, I see Damon biting me and Stefan looking upset, standing in a corner. God, what have I done? And if there's something that scares me more than losing Stefan and ..partying with his brother..it's Alexandra. I keep seeing my dead sister's ghost in every piece of glass, in every dark corner. Sometimes, I think she tries to say "hi" but she can't, so everything that she can say it's "..h..ah..". Maybe it's just an impression, or my conscience it's going crazy... And since I started seeing her I feel insecure. For example, today at school, I could only mumble. Especially in front of Stefan.

Now I'm staying alone at the Mystic Falls Grill, scared. I don't want to go home and see Alexandra. I don't want to see Stefan because I feel horrible. I don't even want to see myself..

"Hey, Caroline!"

Oh, perfect! Stefan shows up and I try to stay calm and to say "hi" without sounding pathetic.

"Hi, Stefan!"

"I didn't expect to meet you..but we need to talk." He is chill, but I can sense sadness behind his words. Damn, I really .

"Oh, yeah, I think..we can talk..."

"But not here, if you don't mind. Can't we go for a walk? Of course, if you want too.."

"Yeah, some fresh air would be perfect. Let's go."

Amazed by my power to focus and scared of what is going to happen, I leave with Stefan. We are going in the park, the weather is cold and the smell of rain is enchanting. The park is empty, so there is only us and my broken heart...

Stefan's P.O.V:

The truth is the only one that can make us free. So I decided to tell Caroline everything. At least, she deserves it, after all that happened. I invited her for a walk because I love nature and autumn, in special. Here, no one stares at me and let's hope Damon isn't spending a peaceful afternoon here.

"Thank you for coming Caroline. What I'm going to say..isn't easy."

"It's okay, Stefan, you know you can tell me anything."

"You know, Vicki's party was..wild."

"Sincerely, I can't remember anything. And I'm sorry Stefan if I did anything that hurt you or harmed you...I'm really sorry, I didn't mean it, I swear!" I stare into her tear-filled eyes and I hug her, feeling warm. Her arms are like a shelter and as her hot tears roll sown my cheek I smell her perfume...blueberries..

"Blueberries.." I mumble, without thinking.

"Yes, it's my perfume. I know the other girls like roses..."

"No, I like this one." I hold her hand in mine, knowing that this may be the last time when she would look me in the eyes, without hating me.

"I am the one that needs to apologize, Caroline. I came in Mystic Falls because I wanted to begin a new life, to make a change, but no matter how hard I tried and how much hopes I made..the demons from my past still followed me."

"I'm sure we can exorcise them..everyone makes mistakes.." She stops for a moment and I think-does she really know what I'm talking about? She..is too young and too good to have demons.

"No, Caroline, they won't go. I tried for centuries to stop them, but they would simply bring me down and break me like I'm made of glass."

"Stefan, it's always darker just before the dawn!"

"I don't think I'll ever see the dawn, Caroline.."

"There is a happy ending for all of us, Stefan. Believe me..Happiness will always come! That's the way the things are going. The price is always worth the pain."

"Oh, Caroline..some stories don't have a happy ending. Like my story. Bad guys don't get happy endings. The writers always stick with the good ones."

"But you are a good guy, Stefan! And you want to know why?" she yells and then stops, like she told me a secret.

"..Because you made me..forget about some crazy things from my past. Because you showed me that I can trust people again...because you showed me that love..."

We both stare into each-other eyes and I feel how green thrills send shivers down my spine. I have again a 16 years old heart that goes crazy when it discovers love.. I can't say the truth to her, I can't now.

"...It's a wonderful feeling, Stefan.."

Naturally, my lips meet hers and dance with them. They have their own rhythm and I simply can't stop because it feels so right. I wanted to break from madness, to have something more than sadness, to feel again human. And now...I feel that itchy feeling that makes you think you're living in a fairytale. I swear, even her mouth tastes like blueberries. When I first fell in love I wasn't afraid of anything, but now I'm scared that she is that important, that she's now my everything. I look again in her innocent, green eyes...and I break down.

Caroline's P.O.V:

With that kiss, he set my feelings on fire. I'm 15, how could I know what love is? And I'm 15, how could I not be afraid to love him? How could I feel so sure, knowing that I hold his hand in mine? How could I feel like flying, when he is holding me tight?

A/N: Sorry for the wait! But I had..a really hard week. I hope you liked this chapter, I enjoyed very much writing it :)! Alexandra will be an important character, I know (spoilers ahead! if you haven't seen the last episode of s2 tvd) in the show Anna and Vicki returns as ghosts but the whole thing with Alexandra is different.

And this chapter is dedicated to someone very special for me...I'm really worried about you, I just want you to be happy...

Am sa fiu langa tine orice s-ar intampla, pentru ca esti o parte din mine. Tii:X