The past hunts you down.

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Serie: Criminal Minds
Couple: Spencer Reid X Derek Morgan.
Summary: Spencer Reid has a past he wants to forget but when he meets a girl, the past hunts him down. Can he be able to win the heart of the person he loves. Or has his past hunted him down.

Hi guys! I rewrote chapter 3, since I had a major writer block but also I want to thank aku no tensai for letting me know I really moved why to fast with our lovely guys. So once again chapter 3! Enjoy.

Spencer's nightmare.

Preview:

Spencer went to his bed and laid down after grabbing a book and went through it again, he knew every word in it. But still he loved to read it, it was a gift from Derek on when he turned twenty-three. After a while Derek stepped back in and looked at the boy, a smile appeared on his face and went in his bed. "Good night Spencer." He said and turned his light off and dozed off to sleep. Thirty minutes later Spencer was done reading and looked at Derek, whose chest was slowly going up and down. And he went to sleep as well. But it would not last long or a nightmare appeared by Spencer.

Spencer started to turn around in the bed, he was having a nightmare and not a nice one. A dream he had locked up in the back of his mind. And never want to remember it ever again. But now he dreamed about it and couldn't escape from it.

A young Spencer saw his father pack his stuff, while his mother yelled angry at him. How could his dad leave him with his schizophrenia mother. "Don't dare to leave me, William, you have a son!" She yelled, but William didn't react at her. "I can't help you, dear." "Where do you think you are going then?" "A place that is better for me, anywhere but here." He grabbed his bag and walked out of the room. Spencer walked after his dad. "Are you leaving?" Spencer tried to sound sad, so his mother wouldn't notice how much he hated this man. Every night his dad would go in his room and sexual abuse him then. He wanted to scream, but his dad always had his hand on Spencer's mouth and whisper then softly. "Don't wake you mom." His dad sat down in the front of him. "I'm weak, so I need to leave. But I will come back to get you." William said before pulling the young Spencer in a hug. The body of the boy froze and tears started to fall down. "Don't cry. I will be back." After those words William leaved him, for good.

Morgan was sleeping in the opposite bed of Reid's. He heard a cry and some soft screaming. Within a second he was awake, looking where the cries came from. Stepping out of his bed, he walked to the bed of the other. There he saw tears on the blond male cheeks and the blanket wasn't covering his body anymore so he shaking from the cold and maybe more. The moonlight made those tears shine.

"Don't….. Daddy please." Spencer whispered softly as more tears started to fall down. The dark man put his hands on the others shoulder and shook him awake. Big grey eyes of the boy looked scared at him.

"Shh, everything is fine now." Morgan whispered as he sat down on the bed and pulled him in a hug. Feeling Spencer tense once more before relaxing, knowing this was Morgan and not his dad. So he let his tears fall down and his body shook a lot. Softly the older man stroked through his hair in conform. "Where were you dreaming of?"

The other looked up and sniffed his nose. "My.. my dad."

"What did he do to you?"

"He r…raped me." A soft voice said before starting to cry once more. Morgan was angry how a person hurt or even could rape a loyal person, like Reid. But he remembered his time with Carl Burton and how weak he fault not being able to make it stop. No matter how hard he begged it didn't stop until Carl was satisfied.

"He won't rape you anymore, you are safe now. I got you." Derek held Spencer in his arm until his breathing became steady once again, sounding like he was a sleep again. He laid the boy down and was about to stand up, to tuck him in, when a hand grabbed his arm and pulled him down. As a sleeping Spencer snuggled closer to him, he pulled the blanket over them and wrapped his arm the other. He closed his eyes with a smile on his face, even when Reid wasn't in love with him, he still wanted to protect him and make him sleep peacefully tonight, that was his thoughts before his mind went black.

The next morning Spencer was the first to wake up, his eyes half open he tried to move. But only to be stopped by an arm, that was holding him down. The nightmare of last night came back to him in no time and he started to scream in fear, thinking this arm belonged to his dad. He started to kick and punch to make the person next to him go away. The person fell of the bed, while Spencer made himself as small as possible and started to shiver but he was still screaming and tears started to fall. The person sat back down on the bed and grabbed Spencer, put him on his lap and hold him close to his body. No matter how hard he tried to break free, the arms stayed at their place.

"Spencer, it is just me Derek. Come on pretty boy." Derek whispered in his ears. But it didn't seem to work, it only made it worse. But he didn't give up. "Spencer look at me. It's me Derek. And I would never hurt you. So please pretty boy wake up. I got you." After these words were spoken, the body in his arms stopped to move. He looked down, only to look in a pair of big confused brown eyes, and he let go of the boy's arms.

"What? How?" He stuttered nervously as he moved out of the arms, to sit against the headboard of his bed. Pulling his legs up and wrapped his arms around them.

The black man sat across of him and spoke. "You thought I was your dad, because mine arm was around your waist, when you woke up." Spencer nodded and a light blush appeared on his cheeks. "Did we sleep together, just sleeping I mean."

"Yeah, something like that, since you used me as a teddy bear." He noticed the blush on the others face and smiled softly. The younger one was about to say something but was interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Boys! Hotch wants us down in thirty minutes." The voice of Prentiss said before she walked back to the room she shared with JJ.

"You can take the shower as first." Morgan said, the other crawled out of bed and walked inside the bathroom. He decided to take a quick shower, since he wanted to talk with Morgan about last night.

After a quick shower he walked out of the bathroom, his hair was still wet and dripped down on his skin. The only thing he wore were a pair of dark blue trousers. Looking around he couldn't see Derek, but at that moment the door opened and there he stood with a plate of pancakes in his arms.

"Ah, you are done. I brought some pancakes for you." He said as he put the plate down on the table. "I am going to take a shower now." And walked past him to the bathroom and closed the door behind him. The younger one looked a bit sad when Derek left him alone to eat breakfast. He sighed and started to eat, but after four bites he stopped and walked to his bag and started to dress. Once he was done, he looked back at the pancakes but still not feeling hungry, he grabbed a book out of his bag and sat down to read.

In the meanwhile Derek had turned the shower on but didn't step in, he looked at himself in the mirror and sighed. He still tried to process everything Spencer told him last night. He felt anger but also sadness, because now he didn't think he had a change with the kid, because he still was scared over something that had happened, that triggered that memory in his mind. Finally he stepped in, letting the water calm his body. He would take it slow, not telling his feelings and making sure the kid felt safe and their friendship stayed the way it was.

Derek walked out of the bathroom in just a pair of boxers. While Spencer was sitting on his bed, reading but hearing footsteps he looked at the older one.

"Can we talk about last night now?" The dark man looked surprised up.

"Let me put some clothes on." He said fast and grabbed his pants and a shirt and put them on, before sitting down on his bed, looking to the man who sat just across him. "We can talk now." Spencer putted his book away and looked him in the eyes.

"Why did you let me use you as a teddy bear?"

"You needed someone close to you, because you cried and screamed because of what your dad did to you."

"Oh."He paused and looked at Derek and searched for some emotion in those eyes, but he found none. "I-I-I need to go, Hotch is probally waiting for us." His voiced sounded like he was about to cry, but his eyes said nothing. Quickly he stood up and walked towards the door. He grabbed hold of the handle, when he felt two strong arms around his waist, pulling him back against Morgan's chest. Morgan couldn't let the kid go, hearing those words filled with sadness.

"I got you. Sshh it's okay. You can let them fall." He whispered as he felt the other starting to tremble in his touch. And then the room was filled with the sounds of someone crying. Reid couldn't hold the tears back anymore, letting go of the handle just before he was turned around, he took hold of Dereks shirt and started to cry even harder. Letting the tears he held back so many times fall, he didn't care anymore. Because he knew Derek was here, as his best friend to protect him and hold him when he needed it.

Will Derek be able to safe Spencer every time?
And what did trigger this memory?
We will just wait and see.

Loves Yuko