Chapter 8

Ashley's POV

« Salut Ashley, comment allez-vous aujourd'hui? » (hello Ashley. How are you today ? »

« Je suis bien. Encore des douleurs Marie, mais je suis vivant, droite? » (i am well.. Still having pain Marie but i am alive right ? »

« Oui vous êtes » (yes you are)

Marie was a French nurse but pretty much she was doing everything here.. She was in her late twenties, short brown hair and slim.. Like all French women were.. Her having short hair surprised me.. No woman in the states had short hair but I suppose French were always ahead from us.. As for me I was getting better.. I still had pain on my head and my legs were doing better.. At least I could move my toes.. That was something..

While I was laying here on my bed thinking about everything and nothing I saw everyone running up and down.. They brought at the hospital at least thirty men that were bleeding from head to toe.. What happened? Were we in danger? I didn't hear anything last night or this morning..

The boy that was next to me was sent to go home two days ago and the man that was next to me when I opened my eyes was already dead.. Every night I was praying not to bring any other man next to me.. I was praying for this war to end.. But after today I am sure that no one could hear my prayers..

"Put him right there.. Now" Spencer was screaming to a soldier and after so many days it's the first time I saw her like that.. "Slowly.. His leg is hanging. Be careful"

"Aaaaaaahhh.. It hurts.. God.. Just kill me now.. Please"

"No I am not going to kill you.. Now please.. Let us help you.."

"God it hurts"

They put the soldier almost next to me.. I couldn't bear to hear him being in so much pain.. It was like I could feel his pain as well.. I wish I could help..

"Spencer.. Spencer what happened?"

"Not now Ashley" she gave me a look and pulled the curtains.. I didn't say anything else.. I couldn't.. Instead I sat right there and waited.. I was watching pretty much every doctor in the hospital pulling the curtains.. What on earth happened out there?

I wanted to get up.. It was starting to pissing me off the fact that I had two broken legs and I couldn't walk, I couldn't do anything.. I had a wheel chair that they brought for me the previous day.. So I tried to move from the bed to sit on the wheel chair.. Only that my body was still numb because I was laying for a month and the soon I tried it I fell on the floor.. The pain was out of this world and everyone was running so no one could see me laying down.. I didn't want to yell.. I wanted to try from my own.. They had other people to take care off and I only had broken legs.. I wasn't that important..

"Oh my God Ashley.." Spencer said while trying to lift me up from the floor.. "I can't worry about you and stubbornness when I have to do surgeries on hospital beds. What on earth you were trying to do?"

"I just wanted to sit on the wheel chair.. That's all"

"You can't by yourself. You need someone to help you"

"Everyone had more important things to do.."

"Please don't do it again. Ok?" she helped me sit back to my bed and whipped the sweat from my forehead.. I didn't know it would be that difficult..

"You are getting better day after day.. Try not to break yourself again.."

"I am going to try.."

"I am going to check my patients.. I will be back.. You stay where you are. I mean it"

"Yes ma'am" I said while saluting her like she was the general.. She looked at me and she just shook her head..

When I saw a nurse I asked her if she could find a paper and a pen for me.. I wanted to write back to Aiden.. Tell him that I was alive.. I am sure he would already contacted the air force to find out.. But I wanted to write to him.. Tell him everything.. I didn't know if she could find what I asked for but I was glad when she got back and gave them to me.. That's when I started writing..

'Dear Aiden,

First I want you to know that I am alive.. I am sorry for not being able to write you back but considering my condition I couldn't.. My plane crashed and I am in a hospital in France.. Don't worry though.. I am ok.. In a few days I am going to be as good as new.. Just two broken legs.. I promised you after all and as you can see I am trying to keep that promise.. I hope that everyone is good and that Rwanda is taking care of you..

I don't know how long they are going to keep me here but when I am going to be able to walk I am going to go out there again.. I gave an oath to protect and serve my country and that's what I am going to do.. Forgive me please.. Till this war is over I can't come back.. Hope you won't forget my face.. I am going to write you again..

Till then,

Love Ashley'

When I was closing the letter Spencer came and caught me of guard..

"Are you writing to your family, husband?"

"Yes. Ehm, family"

"I am sure they are worried"

"Yes, I am sure they are"

I don't know what got me and didn't tell her that I was indeed writing to my husband.. But Aiden was family right?

"Want me to post it?"

"No, its ok.. I need to write some more things"

"Ok.."

"Spencer.. Come here please.."

"Duty call.. I'll be back"

I watched her leaving and I thought to myself what was it with that girl and why for once I felt alive while being around her.. Alive like someone would make you feel.. I wanted to have her around all the time, talking to her.. She was calming me like no other person did.. And the big question was why I didn't tell her I was married?

And as always round 12.30am she came and sat next to me as she did every night.. I am not sure she was doing the same with her other patients.. Not that I was complaining though..

"I thought this day would never end.." she said and let her beautiful blond hair down from the ponytail she had them on...

"What happened today?"

"The Germans through a bomb to our trenches.."

"That's why everyone was like that"

"Yes"

"Did anyone survived?"

"Few. Some of them were really bad and we couldn't save them all.. I couldn't save them.." After the first day I saw her and heard her crying today I saw her crying again.. And this time I could dry her tears.. The moment I touched her it felt weird.. Like something came through me.. Like electricity.. And she looked at me like she knew what I felt seconds ago.. We didn't say anything till she was the first to talk.. "I guess I can't save them all.."

"Unfortunately you can't Spencer.. But you can do your best and I am sure you already doing it"

"Thanks.."

"I think your patients are going to get jealous.. You are spending more time with me.."

"Mmm.. Maybe because you are my favorite.. Now try to sleep.. It's already late.. Here, take your pill"

"Thanks"

She got up and while she was walking away from me she stopped and looked at me..

"Goodnight and sweet dreams Ashley"

Why my heart was beating so fast..?

TBC

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