Chapter 9
Spencer's POV
1941.. The year that changed everything for me.. The year that we had to go on war.. United States were on war before and one of them was a civil one.. But this one was different.. It was global.. It wasn't only our country.. It was the French, Italians, Germans, Chinese, Japanese.. Everyone was out there fighting..
I always wanted to be able to help. To give.. To save lives.. That's why I became a doctor.. It was something I wanted since I was six years old.. But in order for me to achieve that I had to study hard and prove the future male doctors that a woman could do anything.. And I did.. I was the first who graduated from my class and a lot of my guy friends were still there..
My life as a child was good.. I don't have any complaints.. My parents had money so pretty much I could go to the best schools.. I had a huge house, a car, everything that someone needed it.. But to me it meant nothing.. Most of the times I would give my clothes to people who needed them.. I would drive with my car in downtown and give food to people who were starving.. I would volunteer where I was needed.. But i was doing it behind my parents back.. Especially my father's.. He didn't want his precious daughter to hang around these kind of people.. My mom was good.. She was trying to build a bridge between me and my father.. After so many years and she was still trying..
Let me get it straight.. Arthur and Paula Carlin are good people.. I am glad to have them as my parents.. Its just that my father is uptight.. Sometimes I understand his background and the fact that his father were the same.. Sometimes though I believe that we form our own character.. And he chose to become my grandparent.. That didn't mean though that he loved me less.. I knew he loved me, its just that he had a different kind of approach and we were the complete opposites..
I remember the day I told them that I would leave and go on war as a doctor.. He looked at me and he just said no.. Just a simple no.. But being the person I was and him being the person that he was, well you can imagine what happened.. We were yelling at each other.. I was telling him that I wasn't a child for him to talk to me like that. That he had no right to tell me no when I was already old enough to take decisions of my own.. So like that I packed my things and left.. My mom was crying and she was begging me not to go.. In a moment I considered that, only for her but it was a decision I had already made.. I told her that I would write to her and that everything would be ok..
That night I left my house.. At least I knew where I would stay..
I took the bus instead of my car and went to Alex's house.. That would be my girlfriend's house..
"Hey.. What are you doing here?" she said and kissed me once I was inside.. Alex lost her mother a year ago and now she was living alone.. We met the last year before my graduation and since then we were together.. Her living alone made things easier to meet..
"I left my house.."
"Why?"
"Can we sit first?"
I didn't tell her either that I was planning to leave.. No one knew.. I just hoped that she would take it better than my parents..
Alex was my first girlfriend but not the first girl I kissed.. I knew who I liked a long time ago.. Maybe even when I was fourteen.. I always liked girls.. Boys didn't do anything to me.. But I have to say that I kissed boys as well.. It's just that with girls it was easier, it was softer.. It was more unique in a way..
"So are you going to tell me what's wrong?"
"What do you say if we have a glass of wine first?"
"Spencer.."
"Please.. Wine is needed.."
"You are scaring me.. Did you tell them about us?"
"Pour us some wine and I will tell you everything"
Once she came back she sat right next to me and for once I couldn't find the words.. The year we were together was the most beautiful I ever had.. We shared the same thoughts and generally she was an amazing person.. Unfortunately we couldn't be together like all the other couples but at the end of the day I had her all mine..
"Alex.. I don't know how you are going to feel about what I am going to say"
"You are breaking up with me.."
"No, of course not.. It's not that.."
"Then what is it Spencer?"
"I am going to go on war.. I already contacted with the red cross and I am going in France.. I leave in two days" she stayed quiet looking at me like she didn't know me.. "Say something, please"
"What do you want me to say? Go and have fun? This is a war we are talking about.. You are a woman.. How are you going to go there?"
"Like all the other women that are there right now and helping our soldiers.."
"How could you not say anything to me? You kept this from me Spencer.. How could you?"
"I don't know what to say.."
"That's good. Because I don't know what to say either"
And like that she left me all there thinking that I should have said something to her.. She was right.. When I went upstairs to find her I heard her crying and that broke my heart.. I didn't want her to cry because of me.. It wasn't my intention.. I laid right next to her and held her in my arms.. And when I did she held me closer to her.. If I was in her place probably I would react the same..
"I really don't know what to say Spence"
"Don't say anything.. Let's just lay here in each other arms.. Ok?"
I realized that my decisions were hurting the people around me.. But I couldn't always do what the others wanted.. Since I could help I would.. Even if I was hurting them..
The day that I was ready to leave Alex was better but I could see that she was struggling with her feelings..
"What is going to happen between us?"
"Would it be too much for me if I was asking you to be with me? I don't want us to break up Alex"
"Neither do I.."
"So will you wait for me?"
"Yes. Just please be careful.."
"I will.. I am just a doctor.. The real heroes are the one who are fighting out there"
"You are my hero and I want you to be very careful" I leaned close and cupped her face giving a long tender kiss on her lips..
"Don't forget all about me.."
"It's hard to.."
"Goodbye"
That was two years ago.. After eight months of being here I received a letter from Alex telling me that she met someone else and she was sorry.. She couldn't wait for me after all.. I am not going to say that it didn't hurt.. It hurt a lot.. But I was in a place that people were hurting more.. And inside I knew that my relationship with Alex wouldn't last.. I saw it in her eyes that day when I told her that I was leaving.. Only few people could wait for their other halves to return.. And Alex was surely not one of them..
So these two years that I was here I gave all my energy and heart to save as many people I could.. It was hard.. And sometimes I just wanted everything to stop.. But I met good people that were indeed heroes..
And a month ago they brought here a girl.. A girl with no identity.. It was the first girl who was brought in our hospital and that was new.. A girl on war? Maybe she was someone that was walking and she got hit.. Who knows..
I was the one who took care of her wounds.. Two broken legs and a concussion that was severe and left her unconscious.. She had cuts on her hands and I was wondering what happened to that girl..
Since she was the only girl she was kind of special.. I would go by her bed every night to check on her and speak to her.. Only that I didn't know what language to speak so every time I would choose French.. Don't know why but French was coming into my mind when I was looking at her.. Even with cuts on her face she was beautiful and although I did have some flings here with some nurses this girl was taking all my attention even if I didn't know how her voice sounded.. Till the day she actually spoke to me and caught me of guard.. And she talked to me in English.. What a surprise.. And her voice was angelic..
TBC
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A/N Hey guys.. Today i am leaving for my vacations.. I already written the next two chapters so ill update them from my phone..