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When Worlds Crumble

Ch. 3 – And you thought you knew him?

Kendall walked out of the kitchen half an hour after Logan left to find Katie sitting on the couch watching TV. He ruffled her hair a bit before slumping down next to her.

"What're you watching, baby sister?"

When Kendall turned to look at her he was surprised to see her literally glaring daggers at him.

"Don't you go 'baby sister' on me!", she spat furiously.

He backed away a bit on instinct. "What's wrong Katie?" He took a closer look at her. "Did you... Have you been crying?"

She stood up, slowly shaking her head.

"You know, Kendall." The way she said his name made it sound like it was some sort of insult. "I always knew you weren't smart, but this time you went over the top. You hurt him, you all did." Now she addressed Carlos and James, who came into the living room upon hearing her yell. "And you didn't even notice it. He's a wreck! And it's all your fault. Your fault!" She looked each of them deadly in the eye, silent tears running down her cheeks. They had never seen her so upset before. Kendall tried to touch her, but she flinched away.

"Katie-"

"NO!" She started screaming at the top of her lungs. "HE'S GONE! MY BROTHER'S GONE! AND YOU JERKS DON'T EVEN CARE!" Katie threw herself onto the couch and wept helplessly into one of the pillows. The guys shared a confused look. What the hell was she talking about?

"But... Katie, I'm right here", Kendall said softly.

Katie looked up, suddenly composed again. She wiped her tears away and went to leave the room.

"Why do I even bother?", she murmured quietly to herself.

Kendall grabbed her arm, seriously concerned now.

"Katie! Tell me what's going on! Now!" He sounded demanding, but on the inside he was full of fear that someone had hurt his baby sister. Anger rose when he thought about it. Whoever did would wish he was never born when Kendall got a hold on them.

Katie turned around slowly and the look she shot him was one of pure disgust. It made Kendall flinch uncomfortably.

"No", she said lowly. "That's for you to find out yourselves. Just pray that it won't be too late, because I won't help you pick up the pieces." With that she turned around and left.

When she was out of the room Kendall flopped down onto the couch again, trying to find a sense in this whole conversation.

"What was that all about?" Carlos' confused voice pulled the elder from the train of his thoughts.

"I don't know", Kendall murmured. He rubbed his temples. This whole thing was starting to give him a headache.

"Who was she talking about anyway?" James snorted. "It doesn't make any sense. Maybe she's going nuts or something."

Kendall glared at him.

"Katie doesn't cry unless there's a real reason. There must be more to it."

"Man, where's Logan when you need him?", Carlos groaned. "It bet he could've figured this out."

James nodded. "Probably."

"Yeah and he'd spill out useless facts about how personality works and shit like that." Carlos laughed. "He hasn't done that for a while. I bet he's just waiting for the right opport-"

"Guys!", Kendall interrupted. Carlos stopped his ramble and looked at him expectantly.

"...Seriously, where is Logan?" The boys looked around.

"Down by the pool or something maybe." James shrugged. "He left a while ago."

"Well, maybe he..." Kendall's eyes widened. "Wait a minute..." Realization slowly dawned on his features when he heard Katie's words again in his head.

"You hurt him, you all did."

"He's a wreck, and it's your fault."

"He's gone! My brother's gone!"

My brother... my brother... MY BROTHER!

Kendall paled. He jumped up from the couch, ignoring James' and Carlos' calls and ran to his and Logan's shared room.

His side of the room looked the same as always, but Logan's bed which was usually packed with books and stuff... it was empty. Kendall looked frantically around the room, opening all of the drawers, throwing stuff around carelessly. Logan's books – gone. His clothes – gone. His toilet bag – gone. Even his pictures – everything was gone.

Kendall stood in the middle of the room, panting heavily. His knees were close to giving out and he shook his head repeatedly, a constant murmur of "No, no, no, no, no" spilling from his lips. He spun around again and again, desperately hoping for a sign that his Logie, his brother was still there.

When he was finally convinced that Logan was gone he dropped down onto his bed, head in his hands and tears forming in his eyes.

Carlos and James had stood motionless in the door while Kendall trashed through the room like a hurricane, but now that they saw him so broken their eyes widened when they counted two and two together.

"L-Logie?", Carlos whimpered as if his friend could hear him.

A choked sound escaped James' throat. This couldn't be happening.

"I'll call my mum", Kendall mumbled, rushing towards the phone. A single tear ran down his left cheek when he quickly dialled the number he knew by heart.

"Hello, sweetheart."

"Mum?" A quiet sob escaped Kendall's throat. "Please come home. Quick."

"Kendall? What happened?" His mother sounded more than concerned by now.

"Logan... He is..." He couldn't bring himself to say it, it would just make it reality.

"What? Is he hurt? Did Carlos-"

"No, no, it's... L-Logan..." Kendall swallowed hard around the lump forming in his throat. "He left."

There was silence on the other side of the phone.

"That's what I feared", his mother finally whispered gravely.

"W-What? Why?"

"I'll be home in ten." She hung up before he could ask her any further questions.

Kendall stared at the phone in his hand. Why did Logan leave? It really started to bother him that everyone seemed to know the reason for Logan's departure. Only he, Carlos and James were oblivious. He was so deep in thought that he didn't even notice James and Carlos standing right next to him. His mind spun around all the words Katie had said to him.

He's a wreck! And it's all your fault!

What did she mean, he's a wreck? He wasn't! If he was, Kendall would have noticed. They shared rooms after all. Besides he had always treated Logan like his own little brother, just like James and Carlos. Or had he?

You hurt him! You all did!

He couldn't remember anything that could've affected Logan that way. Sure, he, Carlos and James teased him sometimes, but it was just a joke! They didn't treat each other different after all.

That's what I thought.

Kendall wanted to rip his hair out in frustration. How could he be blamed for something that he didn't even know about? And why wouldn't anyone tell him? Logan would've explained it immediately when he asked.

Kendall felt like the wind had been knocked out of him. He crouched under the sadness that finally hit him as he thought about his Logie, the boy he grew up with, his long-time-and-surely-forever best friend. They had been through so much together and now he was gone for good. How should Kendall possibly deal with that? What if he would never see him again? What about their friendship or Big Time Rush? The boys didn't work as a trio, they just couldn't! The time when James wasn't with them was proof enough for that. He was just as important as any of them, without him by their side there was a hole that couldn't be filled unless he was with them again. They fucking needed him! How could Logan not know that? Without him they all would probably be arrested or even dead by now, because nobody would've been there to stop the stupid shit they got themselves into on a daily basis. Well, they used to. Now that he thought about it Kendall noticed that he hadn't spent much time with Logan lately. Well, not just lately but for quite a while. In fact he couldn't even remember the last time he had made Logan laugh.

Kendall snapped back to reality when he heard a strangled noise from above him. He looked up to find Carlos in James' arm, sobbing helplessly into the offered shoulder. James glanced down at Kendall through tear-filled eyes, begging him silently to come up with some plan and make things right again. But for the first time in his life he couldn't. And this made him realize just how bad he needed someone to go to for help, meaning how bad he needed Logan. His friend had been there for him 24/7 no matter what and he, Kendall fucking Knight, had made him leave because he didn't do the same for him. God, what kind of friend was he?

The sound of heels clacking on the floor rang loudly through the whole apartment. When the boys looked up they saw a breathless Mrs Knight standing in the door who looked like she had run all the way back from the grocery store. Well, maybe she had indeed. Before any words could be said she hurried, surprisingly, into Katie's room, ignoring the boys sitting on the floor right in front of her.

"Mum, what-"

The door slammed shut and Kendall closed his mouth again, exchanging a confused look with James.

"Why is she-"

He couldn't even finish his sentence before his mother stormed out into the living room again, dragging Katie behind her by her arm. She rushed out of the apartment, not even acknowledging her son and his friends. A few seconds later the door shut loudly.

Kendall looked at James and Carlos briefly before standing up and running after his mum. He could hear his friends' footsteps quickly following him. Katie and his mum stood by the elevators waiting for one to come while Kendall's little sister seemed to be explaining the whole situation.

"...and found him on the floor. God, it was horrible mum! He was screaming and trashing around like he had a nightmare or something. I nearly had a heart attack when I saw that there was blood on the floor, but then I realized it was because he had a wound on his cheek. I don't know where it came from. When he noticed me he tried to hide and acted like everything was normal. He even apologized for disturbing me. Said he didn't mean to." She closed her eyes briefly as if to compose herself. "I've never seen anyone so... broken. It was painful to watch. And I was scared, mum. I thought he would try to kill himself over it. So I told him he shouldn't. But he only said he didn't deserve that I comforted him, that he was a burden and we'd be better off without him." Katie started sobbing quietly. "He... h-he said he was no use for anybody and t-that he wasn't good enough. I don't w-want him to leave, mum! I miss him!" Now she was crying full heartedly. Mrs Knight rubbed her shoulder reassuringly.

"Don't worry, honey. We will find him. I think I know pretty sure where he is." Suddenly she noticed Kendall, James and Carlos standing behind her, frozen on their spot by what their had just heard. She didn't yell at them, she didn't make a scene, she didn't send them back to the apartment. She just looked. And that was worse than anything.

A few moments later Katie turned around too and narrowed her eyes as soon as she saw who it was. "What do you want?"

They didn't answer at first, still paralysed by shock. Then, after a long moment of silence, James was the first to find his speech again.

"L-Logan is... depressive?"

Katie snorted. "You're such an idiot James." She turned towards her mother. "Do you know what they did when they walked into the apartment? When Logan and I stood right in front of them after he cried his eyes out?" She glared murderously at the three boys. "They walked in all cheery and shit, it was sickening to watch. Do you think they would have noticed Logan or the state he was in? NO!" The boys flinched. "They only had eyes for the cookies you bought and went to the kitchen without even looking at us!"

To say Kendall felt like the biggest asshole in the world right now would be an understatement.

"I wanted to yell at them, but Logan stopped me. The look in his eyes at that moment, god. It nearly made me cry. I don't even want to know what those jerks did to him before all of this."

A sob escaped Carlos' lips, which earned him a glare from Katie.

"Oh yes, that's right. It is all your fault. Because you weren't there. I tried to help him, I really did, but every time I wanted to talk to him he just said that it was nothing or I shouldn't worry about it. I only let it go because I thought his so called best friends would take care of him. Only you didn't! Not one single time! Do you know how often I heard him cry himself to sleep? Or screaming because he had nightmares? Didn't you hear it Kendall?" Said boy felt tears rolling down his cheeks. No, he hadn't heard him indeed. How could he not have heard his best friend crying? What kind of horrible things also happened without him noticing? Katie continued without giving her brother time to recover. She knew she was being cruel, but everything she said was the truth and that was just what these guys needed to hear right now.

"When he packed his stuff he said goodbye to me and wanted to leave."

James' heart twanged at that. He didn't want to say goodbye to his friends? Well, after what he heard he wasn't sure if they could even call themselves his friends anymore. Jesus, how bad had they treated him?

"And what did I do? I told him to say goodbye to those assholes." She pointed a sharp finger at them. "They didn't deserve it, but I gave them a chance to fix all of this. I thought that they would at least realize when their brother left them! I fucking hoped!" Even though Katie was cussing really badly her mother didn't stop her from rambling. She just continued staring at Kendall with such disappointment it was nearly too much to bear for him.

"But they didn't. They let him leave." Katie hid her head in her hands so no one could see her tears finally flowing. "And you know what?", she whispered straight at the guys now. "He told me that he didn't think Kendall, Carlos and James would even notice if he was gone. It must hurt him to see how right he was."

This last statement was too much. Kendall fell to his knees and started sobbing helplessly. Despite their own tears Carlos and James were shocked to see their leader shivering on the floor, crying his eyes out. The last last time they saw him break down like that was when his dad died. And that was over eleven years ago!

Mrs Knight seemed to notice it too for she pulled her son into her arms and stroked his hair softly. He clung to her like she was his lifeline and sobbed loudly into her shoulder.

"You know Kendall", she said quietly after a few minutes. "Katie is right. You messed up this time. And you can't fix it just like that."

"G-God, I-I'm so s-sorry", he choked out between his sobs. "I-I don't k-k-know h-how this c-could h-ha-happen."

"I'm not the one you need to tell this, Kendall", she sighed and stood up, pulling him with her. He wiped his face messily.

"I-I know." He looked at his mother through tear filled eyes. "D-Do you t-think he w-w-will f-forgive me? F-For letting h-him d-d-down like t-that?"

She wiped his cheek with her thumb and kissed his forehead.

"No."

He hung his head.

"But he might if you try to make things right again", she continued. "Everyone deserves a second chance."

Kendall looked up in surprise to see her soft smile and knew that she really meant what she said. He hugged her gratefully.

"Thanks, mum", he whispered. She pulled away and eyed them all with a serious look.

"We should go now." She pointed towards the open elevator doors. "We have to find Logan before it's too late."

To Be Continued...