Chapter 13
Spencer's POV
When Ashley left I found myself working as hard as before.. I wasn't sleeping because when I did I was dreaming that she was in danger and that frighten me.. Every time they were bringing a soldier here I would be the first to run just in case it was her and when it wasn't I was feeling relieved..
After a couple of days I received her first letter telling me she was in Russia.. She was doing what she loved the most and I was happy for her.. Inside though I was wondering if I would see her again.. I was in love with a girl and that girl held my thoughts every day.. A girl I didn't know where she was most of the times.. A girl that I realized I didn't know enough about her..
"Spencer? puis-je vous parler? (Spencer can i talk to you ? )
« oui marie, c'est quoi? » (Yes, Marie. What is it ? )
« quelque part tout seul? (Somewhere alone ? )
I followed her outside and before I say anything I felt her lips on mine.. I don't know what got her to do something like that.. Maybe I knew.. I pushed her back and whipped my lips from her kiss..
"Quoi pensiez-vous? (what were you thinking ? )
« You don't like my kisses anymore Spencer ? » she said in broken English..
« Why you did that ? » she came closer to kiss me again but I stepped back.. What was wrong with her?
"Maybe its that pilot you like to kiss now.. Is that really appropriate?"
"Mind you own business Marie.."
"You forget so easily Spencer.. All this long I thought that.."
"You thought wrong.. What we did meant nothing.." she made two more steps and caressed my arm while whispering in my ear..
"We will see that.." and she left.. What really just happened? Was that a threat?
I sat there, in the garden where Ashley and I spent so many hours, and I thought of her.. This was our place and I had the most beautiful memories of her and now this happened.. I couldn't help but think what Marie knew, what she had seen.. What if she would cause a problem? All these questions were driving me insane and I didn't know what to do. It's a good thing I was asked to come inside because if I would sit one more minute there I would go crazy..
The same night when everyone was asleep I sat down to write Ashley a letter.. What could I tell her? I wasn't planning to tell her about what happened with Marie because certainly there was no need.. Instead I chose to write to her about things she didn't know about me.. I wanted her to know as much as possible.. Because these months weren't enough.. And at the end I wrote to her to tell me something about her as well.. I knew she was from a rich family but never told me anything about her parents, I knew she was living in New York but didn't know if she had a sweetheart waiting for her.. But if she had would she have kissed me back?
'Dear Ashley,
The days go by so fast that sometimes I am wondering how it would be if time stopped? Wouldn't be amazing if we didn't get older? And if it stopped then what would happen? I find myself thinking of you every hour a day has.. How are you, in what country you are right now, are you ok.. You know, things like that..
It's 2am in the morning here and I should be in bed but I am not.. Instead I am writing to you this letter.. This time I want to tell you about for when I was a child.. I told you that I realized I was gay when I was fourteen but I think I liked girls way sooner.. There was this girl, Anita, in fifth grade, long brown hair in curls, with her sundress.. She was so beautiful and I couldn't take my eyes off her.. She was the new kid at school and everyone wanted to be her friend.. And although you know how I am now I wasn't the same back then.. I was shy to even get near her.. Can you believe that? I can't.. And you know what? Anita became my best friend.. She chose me from all the other girls, and we were best friends till she had to leave again.. Her father was a diplomat and they had to move.. So I think she was my first crash and after so many years I still have a soft spot for brunettes.. So I don't want to bore you anymore with this long letter..
Please write to me soon.. Eh? I would like to know the Ashley before she became a pilot.. Can't wait for your letter..
Be safe out there..
With love,
Spencer'
When I finished it was already 2.30am.. I closed my eyes for a couple of hours and woke up again from all the noise at the hospital.. Although I had a little apartment not three miles away from the hospital these last days I was sleeping here.. Or taking a nap because sleeping three hours a day wasn't sleep.. And like that another day in hell would start..
Ashley's POV
It was four months after I left the hospital and Spencer.. I was going from one country to another doing what I was supposed to do.. Things were starting to get better if you can actually say that while being on war but I think we were starting to win..
I was writing back and forth with Spencer and that was something that was keeping me sane.. She would write to me about what was happening there and her childhood.. Simple things that was making me falling in love with her more and more every day.. But I couldn't not to write to Aiden though.. One day I would sit down to write to Aiden and the next to Spencer. But my letters to Aiden were less than to her..
I kept playing in my mind the night Spencer told me about her and the way I reacted.. Weren't I an hypocrite? I was married to a man and I was in love with a girl.. I never expected anything like that to happen.. I didn't even know that I liked girls like that.. Or I did? When I was alone I was going back to memory lane, to when I was young and I was trying to remember how I was around my friends.. And especially my best friend Josephina.. I can't believed how I erased these memories but now I could see things more clear.. I liked Josephina more than a friend.. I was jealous when she found her husband not because I didn't have one but because that person would take her away from me.. Yes, things were more clear now.. Why I didn't want to find a husband like all my friends did, why I didn't feel comfortable when they were flirting.. It's amazing what your brain can do.. It can make you forget.. And I did..
"Davies, stop writing your biography.. We have to go.."
"Yes, ma'am"
"You are leaving with Mendez and you are going to France.."
"France?" I said and I really tried to hide my smile because this was so unexpected.. I would see her again..
"Yes, go get ready. You are scheduled to fly at 1500 hours.."
"Ma'am , yes ma'am"
I was so exited.. I would go to France.. I would see her again.. But I didn't know for how long we would stay there.. And I didn't even have the time to tell her that I was coming.. I would surprise her.. Yes, I would..
"Davies, stop dreaming.. We are off to go"
"Mendez, bite my ass.."
"What a language.. I didn't know that women like you talk like that"
"Keep it up and you will find out how women like me fight.."
Mendez was an excellent pilot.. One of the few.. And this was our friendly greeting..
After a long flight we were back to France.. We found out that we would stay here for four days.. I had four days to see Spencer and I couldn't wait.. Maybe at night when everyone would sleep I could go..
The base wasn't that far away from the hospital.. Although I should feel tired the excitement I had was overwhelming.. I would find myself drowning into those beautiful blue eyes again..
"Davies, I need your help.."
"What is it Mendez.."
"Can you cover me tonight? I want to go out"
"Actually I wanted you to cover me.."
"Really now?" she said looking all surprised..
"Really now.. So please?"
"I don't think that you going out is more important than me going out.."
"Mendez I will cover for you tomorrow.. Please?"
"I don't know.."
"If you don't I am not covering you tomorrow.. Simple"
"You are a tough bargainer"
"Either you take it or leave it.. Your choice"
"Ok ok.. Tomorrow.. Now go.."
"Thanks.."
I learned to drive a year ago at the base.. Every woman had to because something could happen and they needed people to know.. So I took the car and found myself smiling while driving to the hospital.. The closer I was the more my heart was beating fast.. And once outside the hospital I couldn't help but run.. Run to find her..
I wanted to meet her inside but I knew that they wouldn't see it as normal so I waited till one of the nurses or someone would come out so I could tell them whom I was looking for..
"Excuse me sir.."
"Yes, mademoiselle"
"Can you please ask for dr Carlin?"
"And who are you?"
"Just one of her patients.."
"Oui.. I see.. One moment"
I was passing back and forth checking my watch every one second when she came out and I stopped.. We both looked at each other and formed the same smile.. Her eyes were glowing and I wanted nothing more than to take her in my arms and kiss her.. She came closer to me and whispered my name..
"Ash.."
TBC
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