Chapter 19

Ashley's POV

Eight months and I didn't have a letter from her.. Eight months and I still had her on my mind.. I was starting to wonder if she ever got my letter or even worse she got my letter but didn't want to keep in touch. I didn't know what to do..

My relationship with Aiden was ok I guess.. I was trying to be the wife I was supposed to be.. Although sometimes it was very difficult for me.. Especially when I had to actually fulfill my duties as a wife.. Divorcing wasn't an option.. And if I would take a divorce what would happen after that? My parents disowned me, I didn't have my own money.. At least Aiden was a good guy.. He gave me everything I needed.. Except only one thing.. Spencer.. At the end I wanted all.. But I couldn't have all..

When he wasn't home I would go my secret place where I had Spencer's letters and read them again and again.. Sometimes I was catching myself cry and that because I was so screwed up.. I was starting to believe that I did the wrong thing staying with Aiden.. I was starting to believe that I lost the only person that made my heart beat so fast.. And that because I believed that I was supposed to be with Aiden.. Thoughts after thoughts..

The last three months Aiden had to travel to LA for his job.. When he first told me that he would go there I couldn't help but smile.. Los Angeles was where she lived.. I was jealous because he would be there and I wouldn't.. I wanted to tell him 'take me with you' and one day I did.. He just kissed me and told me what I would do there by myself while he would be out all day.. Instead I saw him leaving more than once and I was feeling my heart breaking every time..

"Ash, I have to go.. My flight is in two hours.. I'll call you once I am at the hotel.. I'll be back on Sunday.."

"Ok.. You do that"

"See you soon" he kissed my cheek and left me there thinking that I wanted nothing more than to be on the next flight and go search all Los Angeles to find her..

The last months when he was coming back from LA he seemed different.. He was acting distant and I would catch him sitting deep in thoughts.. When I would ask him he would say that it was nothing.. Things that had to do with work.. Also, he stopped kissing me on my lips.. Not that it mattered to me.. Actually I preferred that.. When he did kiss me I was just comparing him with Spencer...

"Mrs Ashley? I am going out to do the shopping.. I'll be back"

"Actually Rwanda.. I think I am going to come with you.. I don't want to stay here"

"Of course Mrs Ashley.."

I felt drowning in this big house.. Like it was a big pool that was pushing me deeper and deeper inside and I couldn't breathe..

When I was out with Rwanda doing our shopping the other ladies that were there were looking at us like we were rats.. Especially Rwanda.. Some of them I knew.. For them I was the girl who went to war and became a pilot and now I was here with my black made doing the shopping with her.. I could hear them whispering and looking at us, laughing but I didn't care.. Instead I continued walking with my head up and I told Rwanda to do the same..

"I am sorry Mrs Ashley"

"For what?"

"For those ladies"

"Don't worry about them.. They are depressed women that they live from other peoples lives.. Now let's go home.. Today I think I want macaroni and cheese"

A couple of hours later Aiden called telling me that he was at his hotel and his flight was good.. We said our goodnight and we didn't talk again.. The same night I read Spencer's last letter..

Next morning Aiden didn't call as he used to.. I thought that he had to run early.. I knew that his job was difficult and I didn't worry.. But when night came and he still hadn't call I was starting to think that maybe something was wrong.. I knew where he was staying so I called the hotel but they told me he didn't come back since the morning.. I might wasn't in love with him but he was still Aiden..

"Rwanda.. They don't know.. What should I do?"

"I don't know Mrs Ashley.. You could wait till tomorrow. And if he still won't call then we will see what you are going to do.."

"What if something happened?"

"It's a couple of hours till tomorrow morning.. So we wait"

I didn't sleep that night.. I couldn't.. And Rwanda was sitting right next to me trying to calm me.. The hours till morning were excruciating slow.. Especially when I was looking my watch all the time..

At 9am in the morning the phone rang.. Immediately I got up from where I was sitting and picked up the phone..

"Hello?"

"Hello, I am calling from Feather River Hospital of Los Angeles.. Yesterday they brought here your husband Mr Aiden Dennison. He had a heart surgery.."

"Oh my god. Is he ok?"

"He is recovering.."

"Thank you miss. Tell my husband that I'll be there as soon as possible"

"Of course Mrs Dennison"

He was in a hospital and he had a surgery.. What happened?

"Rwanda, help me pack my things. I am going to Los Angeles"

"What happened Mrs Ashley?"

"Aiden is at the hospital. He had a surgery"

"Oh my God. Is he ok?"

"They said that he is recovering.. So I am going there"

"Of course"

I packed my things and took a taxi to the airport.. I didn't know if I would find a ticket on the last minute but I was lucky.. The next hours I couldn't think of going to California.. I didn't think of her.. I just had one thing on my mind.. To see how Aiden was..

I found a hotel near the hospital, I left my things there and went to the hospital right away..

"Hello, my name is Ashley Dennison. They called me today about my husband. He had a surgery yesterday.. His name is Aiden Dennison"

"Just a second Ms.. Yes, he is room 405"

"Thank you"

I took the elevator to the fourth floor where I found again a nurse and asked about the room..

"Excuse me Ms. I am looking for room 405. My husband had a surgery yesterday"

"Can I have his name please?"

"Aiden Dennison"

"Of course. You could wait here.. He is right now with his doctor"

"Thank you"

"Don't worry.. She is one of the best we have here.."

"A woman did the surgery?"

"Yes.. And she is one of the best"

"I would like to meet her"

"If you wait here she will be out in a few minutes"

While I was waiting there reading some magazines I heard the nurse talking to someone..

"Doctor.. Mr Dennison's wife is here to see him.. She is waiting over there.."

"Thank you Anita"

When I stood up to shake her hand and introduce myself to her I came face to face with my love.. The person that held all my thoughts and my heart.. She was here..

"Spencer?"

"Hi Ashley"

TBC

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