This is, as promised, part two. I do not own Death Note nor Within Temptation's Towards the end. Again, I listened to that song when I wrote this so I borrowed its title.
This is Tuesday in L's special week.
Towards the end
It had been a long time ago that he had been shocked like that. In fact, he had been shocked into his old habits. Before being a great detective and eating only sweets, he had been a small, frightened child who never ate nor drank anything. He used to sit in silence and feel miserable about his parents, whom died in a car accident. He survived the crash but never digested all the pain, grieve and loss he felt. When Watari found him in one of those orphanages, he was starved and skinny as if his flesh had been eaten from his bones. It was only when little L discovered sweets that he really started to eat.
Now he had reverted back into those habits, not eating nor drinking anything and just sitting close to the window. He felt as if he was waiting for someone to rescue him like Watari did all those years ago. He was curled into himself, sometimes rocking forward and backward as to relieve himself of some of the stress. Watari could only watch, unable as he was to help L with this kind of pressure and feelings. iLove/i, he mused, iwas something that never came when you wanted it./i L certainly had to deal with some feelings of which he didn't even know they existed.
L, on the other hand, knew he had to die. He knew it would be soon. He was almost sure of his killer's name. He knew he would die with the knowledge of Kira's identity in mind. He knew he would die iin love/i. These horrible emotions, he thought. Light almost sent him in shock yesterday. Now he only wanted to cry. He was in love with his enemy. Damn, he knew Light was Kira, he only needed some proof to put him in jail for the rest of his life. Here came one small problem: L's feelings, his emotions, wouldn't let him put Light in jail. His heart broke with the thought only.
Only Kira could save me from this horrifying destiny...