Chapter 25

Ashley's POV

When I saw her I couldn't think anything else but how beautiful she looked like.. I didn't realize how much I missed being around her till she was right here, in front of me.. Looking at me with those piercing blue eyes of hers..

All these days she was being distant and I could understand why.. The situation we were both finding ourselved in wasn't easy.. I needed to chose what to do but the problem was how.. How I could tell Aiden and after that I was thinking the what.. What would happen then? I had all these questions and Spencer wasn't talking to me although I tried many times.. I was starting to believe that I was losing her and only in thought of that I needed to do something and soon..

When she stepped inside the room I didn't have any plans of how the night would go.. No.. If anything the only thing I had in mind was to talk to her, sit right next to her and maybe kiss her if she would let me.. But she was still distant.. Even now that there was no Aiden and we weren't at the hospital she still seemed off.. I can't say that I didn't expect it..

"Thank you for coming.. I missed you.. Why you were being distant Spence?"

"Because.. I had to.."

"We lost weeks of being together.. Weeks of kissing you and being with you.." and it was the truth.. I missed everything of her.. The way she smiled when she was looking at me, the way she was touching me, the feeling of her lips on mine..

"How's your husband?"

"Let's not talk about Aiden tonight.. Ok? Please.."

"Ash.."

And that was it.. I stopped thinking.. I just did what I felt.. I started kissing her from her neck to her lips, whispering in her ear what I wanted to do to her.. And the most surprising thing to me was that she actually kissed me back.. That's all I wanted..

I was on top of her straddling her with each of my thighs on her sides.. My hands caressing her arms and finding their way through her shirt.. She was breathing heavy.. At a moment I looked at her in the eyes and saw the same want, the same lust.. She was still mine.. I didn't know what I was doing.. I never been with a girl before in my life but all came natural, like I knew how to touch her.. Like I always knew.. I lifted her just a little bit so to take her shirt off.. I took a moment to look at her again.. How many times I dreamed of this moment.. And now we were both here..

"Ash.. Are you sure about that?"

"I've never been more sure in my life.." I said and laid on top of her kissing her softly and cupping her breasts.. I felt her hands inside my robe.. Yes, I wasn't wearing anything.. Once she realized that I was laying with my back on the bed and she was licking every part of me.. She didn't remove my robe.. Instead she was there moving it a little so to kiss me more and more closely to my breasts.. Now I was the one who was breathing heavy.. I couldn't think.. I was just laying there with my eyes closed enjoying her lips on my skin..

"Please Spence.. I want you"

She didn't listen to my pleading tone.. Instead she was driving me insane more and more.. She was still with her pants on.. I wanted her naked.. To feel her body on mine.. I wanted to feel how she felt.. To touch her.. I unbuttoned her pants and put down the zipper.. I lifted myself so I could kiss her abs.. Her body was so toned.. I put my hands behind her and put her pants slowly down while touching at the same time her ass.. I removed her bra and now I had her half naked in front of me.. I cupped her right breast and started sucking it slowly trying not to hurt her.. Her nipple was becoming harder and harder with each suck.. Her moans were driving me crazy..

"Mmm.. Aaaasshh" her hands on my head pushing me closer to her.. As much as I wanted to tease her I needed to touch her.. I needed to know how she felt down there.. And that I did.. I put my hand inside her panties and oh my.. I never felt something like that before.. She was so wet..

"You are so.."

"That's what you are doing to me.." and now I was the one being completely naked.. She removed my robe and tossed it on the floor.. With a turn I had her beneath me and I was removing her panties while kissing her abdomen, her thighs and back again.. I laid right next to her and kissed her.. My hand still down on her playing with her wet center.. I knew what I was doing and I wasn't scared not even for a minute.. It was my first time but it felt like it was something I knew very well..

After an hour we both were exhausted after coming three times each.. I never felt something like that before.. Even with Aiden and when we were having sex I didn't feel anything.. With her I was feeling everything.. And I couldn't get enough of her..

"Ash?"

"Yes.."

"Do you regret tonight?" I looked at her because I knew where that thing was coming from..

"Not even for a minute.. I wanted it so much Spence.. I wanted you so much" she stayed quiet while I was laying naked right next to her.. She turned and looked at me and then kissed me softly..

"I love you.. I do.. And I don't regret tonight either incase you were wondering"

"It was my next question"

"I got you first"

Tomorrow I would leave.. I would go back to my old life, back to New York and away from the one person I truly love.. And I don't know if it is possible but after tonight I think I love her more.. Because making love to her brought us even closer.. I shared something of myself with her and she shared something with me.. If we were closer before tonight we became one in a way..

" I don't want this night to end.. I don't want to leave you" I knew it was a sore matter to her.. For both of us.. And her being silent proved it to me again..

"Let's try to sleep.. Tomorrow is tomorrow.. Tonight is just you and me.."

I turned on my side and she spooned me from behind holding my hand on top of my heart that was beating so fast.. I tried to sleep.. But it wasn't easy..

Next morning found us with me spooning her.. Once the light of the window woke me up I realized what today was.. It was a difficult realization.. I hugged her and let my tears fall on her shoulder..

"Hey.. Why are you crying?" she turned and wiped my tears with kisses..

"You know why.."

"Aassh.. yesterday was one of the best nights of my life.. I wish there was more time but there is not.."

"We could have time if you didn't.." I didn't continue because I saw her how she looked at me.. "I am sorry.. I didn't mean it like that.."

"You did.. I want you to understand that me not talking to you and keeping my distance from you was what I needed to keep myself sane.. Do you understand?"

"I think I do.. So what now?"

"Now you go back to your husband, back to your life and hopefully we are going to see each other again soon.."

"And what about us?"

"Ash.. I love you.. You know I do.. And I am very much in love with you.. My heart though can only bare few things.. I want nothing more than to be with you but I can't do that if you are married.. It's not that I am threating you to take a divorce in order to have me.. I am just saying that I can't be your second person.."

"I know.. I promise I'll tell him once he feels good again.."

"Don't make any promises you might not keep"

"I will.. You will see.. Because I want to be with you.. I love you too.."

Leaving her behind again was harder than the first time.. It killed me when we said our goodbyes.. We were both crying and I didn't want to stop kissing her.. I promised her I would write to her and I made her promise that she would do the same.. Now more than ever I wanted to end my marriage with Aiden.. And in a way I cursed myself for marrying him and listening to my parents.. But if it wasn't for them I wouldn't be able to go on war and I wouldn't meet her..

I believe that there are not accidents.. What happens in our life happens for a reason.. The people we meet, the people we fall in love with.. Everything has its purpose..

TBC

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A/N I don't know if anyone reads that but i wanted to tell you guys that me and a very good friend of mine started a blog.. There is a link to my profile if you want to visit and follow us.. It's more of a discussion board.. We just express our own thoughts about things.. Also we have our own tweeter that we didn't post anything there yet but we will.. It's twofriends1(at)twitter(dot)com I would like to see you there and talk about pretty much everything..