The Queen: I guess we are going to find out if she will or not..
Spashly: Aiden was hurt yes, being a jerk is normal after everything, but i guess we are going to find out everything..
Bo: I feel sorry for Ashley as well but it was her choices who brought her there..She didn't do anything after she came back from war but i guess now she will have to..
Chapter 30
Ashley's POV
I couldn't believe what was happening.. After so long, after so many months of waiting, Aiden finally knew and although I was scared to death when he told me about me and Spencer inside I was feeling relieved that everything was clear now.. From the other hand I didn't want everything to happen like this.. I didn't want to hurt him the way I did but I couldn't hide anything anymore.. Especially now that Spencer was here..
Aiden didn't come back after the talk we had.. I didn't know where he was. I am not a hurtles bitch.. I cared for him and I didn't want anything bad to happen.. Especially the way he stormed out after he found out..
"Mrs Ashley, are you ok?"
"I think so.."
"I am going to make you a hot tea and I'll come and sit here with you.."
"Thank you Rwanda.."
I sat by the window.. It was my favorite place in here.. Rwanda came after ten minutes with a blanket and my tea on her hands.. She covered me and sat right next to me..
"What did you hear Rwanda?"
"I heard everything.. Mr Aiden couldn't hide his anger.."
"And what do you have to say about what have been said?"
"I don't know Mrs Ashley.. I don't know what to tell you.."
"Rwanda.. I wasn't in love with Aiden, I would never be.. Instead I fell in love with a girl and she holds my heart.."
"I don't.. Mrs Ashley, I can't tell you what is right and what is wrong.. All I can tell you is do what makes you happy.. But I am afraid for you.. I saw people being hurt for less reasons than being in love with a woman or a man.. Take me for example.. My people being killed, hung, just because of our color.. People can be very mean.."
"I know.. It's not that I am not scared either but I couldn't continue living a lie.. I couldn't do this.. I did for a year and it was hurting not only me but Spencer as well.."
"And is this Spencer a good person?"
"She is.. She is amazing.. But, I don't know where tomorrow will find us.. She is not talking to me.."
"Go talk to her.."
"That's what I am going to do tomorrow.. I'll go find her at the hospital.."
"Hospital?"
"She is a doctor.. A surgeon"
"I hope everything to go well Mrs Ashley.. Just be careful.. Mr Aiden didn't seem himself.."
"I will.."
I told Rwanda that I was ok and she should go back to bed and sleep.. I couldn't sleep.. And I didn't.. Instead I sat there thinking everything that happened.. Everything that might happen.. Was I prepared? No..
It was after 7am when I saw him coming back.. He looked at me and went straight upstairs without even saying anything.. I wanted to go up as well but instead I stayed where I was waiting for everything to happen..
I was listening to a lot of noise coming from our room and I was wondering what he was doing there.. I decided to go upstairs and face him eventually, face anything that he would say.. When I was right outside our room I saw him throwing things inside a luggage and giving me one of the most harsh looks I ever seen..
"What are you doing?" he didn't answer me back.. "Aiden.."
"I want you out of this house.. You and I, its over.."
"Aiden.."
"How could you? Really.. Why you played me so hard? Just because you knew I was in love with you? Just because you wanted an easy way out?"
"Aiden, please.. Let me explain to you.."
"You have nothing to say to me that can explain what you did.. And I don't want you to.." I realized that the clothes he was putting inside that luggage was mine.. He was throwing me out..
"Where I am going to go?"
"To your girlfriend.. It's not that you don't have a place to stay.. Especially now that she is here.." he said and threw the luggage at me leaving me standing there, crying..
I opened the luggage and I took out a dress to wear.. While I was putting inside things I saw my letters.. Spencer's letters on my bed.. My heart stopped.. That would explain everything.. His behavior the last month, how he knew about me and Spencer.. I left my things there and went downstairs to find him.. He was drinking a glass of whisky..
"How could you to do this? You read my letters? This is personal"
"Are you fucking kidding me? You have the nerve coming here telling me that I read you letters? After everything that you did?"
"These were mine.. It was my letters.."
"Then you shouldn't left them on our bed for me to read.."
"What are you saying?" he put his glass down and walked to where I was standing.. I was afraid that he might do something..
"Let's start from the beginning.. You coming home from war, you crying every night saying Spencer's name, you leaving one of her letters on the bed, you in California.. Up until then I didn't know that Spencer was a girl.. I thought it was a guy you met there.. But seeing you with her, I don't know.. It just clicked.. I saw you how you were looking at her.. I saw you both how you were reacting with each other.. And that's when I knew.."
"Why you didn't say anything all this long?"
"I was just hoping it wasn't true.." and then it clicked me.. Spencer in New York, working at Metropolitan Hospital.. Aiden knew a lot of people there.. Could he really?
"It was you.. You brought Spencer here.. I don't believe that you would do anything like that.."
"What? Are you crazy?"
"You brought Spencer here to punish me or something?"
"You really start losing it.. Why I would do something like that? Like I would make it easier for you to be with your girlfriend"
"I don't believe you.."
"Believe anything you want.." he stood up and walked to the door.. Without looking at me he said.. "When I come back I don't want to see you here.."
Rwanda came from behind me and hugged me.. I turned and cried on her shoulders.. What I would do from now on?
"Mrs Ashley.. Go find Ms Spencer.. You need to talk to her.. Tell her everything"
"I will.. I will go now.."
I managed to calm myself, grabbed my handbag and went to Metropolitan Hospital to find her.. All the way there I was thinking what I would say to her.. And most of all I was hoping that now that I was free we could be together the way she wanted.. The way we wanted..
"Goodmorning, ehm.. Is doctor Carlin here yet?"
"What is your name miss?"
"Ashley Dennison.. I am a friend of hers.."
"She is here.. Her office is on the sixth floor.. They will tell you which one.. There is a chance she is not there though.."
"I will wait.. Thank you.."
Taking the elevator to the sixth floor my heart was aching.. What if she didn't want to hear what I had to say, what if it was over between us, what if.. Once the door was open I was walking to I don't know where when I heard a woman's voice..
"Miss, miss.. Excuse me.. Where are you going?"
"Oh, I am sorry.. I am looking for Dr Carlin.. Is she here?"
"She is doing her rounds.. And you are?"
"Ashley Dennison. A friend of hers"
"Do you have any medical problem?"
"No, I just want to see her.."
"Sit there and when I see her I will tell her.."
"Thank you.."
I was waiting for her for an hour, then two, the three.. I asked the nurse a couple of times if she saw Spencer and told her I was here but every time I was getting the same answer 'she is with a patient', 'she is in the OR'. I wanted to believe that she wasn't avoiding me but inside I knew that that was the case..
"Excuse me miss.. Tell Dr Carlin that I have to go.."
"I am sorry Mrs Dennison"
"It's ok.. Thank you"
Going home I couldn't help but wonder where I would go.. My parents disowned me.. Opening the door it was a good thing that Aiden wasn't back yet considering that his car wasn't outside.. I went inside and I found Rwanda at the kitchen cooking..
"I didn't talk to her.. She couldn't.."
"I am sorry to hear that.."
"Rwanda, what am I going to do? Where am I going to stay?"
"Mrs Ashley, I might know a place to stay but it's not for a lady like you.. This is where I was staying before.."
"Tell me.. It's not I have a better solution.."
"It's a shelter down to Brooklyn.."
"A shelter.."
"I have some friends there.. I can talk to them and then maybe you could go there"
"Thanks Rwanda.. I am going to stay to a hotel for two days.. I have some money with me.. I will come by tomorrow when Aiden won't be here.. Thank you for everything"
"I wish things were easier.."
"Nothing it's easy in this life Rwanda.. We just hope it is going to be.."
I took my luggage and didn't look back.. It was like I was leaving behind the person I used to be.. Someone that was untrue to herself and to others.. Tomorrow would be harder than today..
TBC
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