A/N: I'm back people!I know it's been way to long, but school was really more important. I still have one exam left on monday but I wanted to give you guys another chapter because I'm leaving for New York (Yaaay! xD) soon after and I don't think I'll be able to write until I'm back. Also wanted to thank everyone who read this or put this on alert or to favorites. This really means a lot to me! Special thanks to everyone who reviewed, you guys rock! :D As for the story, I think I've already made it clear that I'm not a Luddy (I totally hated stupid Lucas!), so this will definately be Huddy all the way. But that doesn't mean everything is going to be sunshine and roses for them... Okay, enough with the rambling, gonna let you read now and remember, reviews are love ppl ;)

Disclaimer: Yh yh, I still don't own them, does anyone really doubt that? I could use the money though...

Chapter 4

House felt Cuddy's soft, sweet lips brushing against his once more. He felt all the emotions she tried to tell him, emotions she couldn't verbalize at the moment. As her tongue gently traced his lips, silently asking permission to enter, he could feel desire, happiness, longing, hope, fear and could it really be? It had to be. Overwhelming all the other emotions was the love with which Cuddy kissed him. He brought his hand to her neck and gently raked his fingers through her dark curls.

Cuddy was totally loosing herself in the kiss, trying to convey everything she felt for the man in front of her in it. After he had lent her permission she gently slipped her tongue in his mouth. Their tongues started a slow battle, trying to taste each other completely as if they would never have the opportunity again. It was then that Cuddy became aware of the taste of alcohol on House's tongue. How come she hadn't taste the alcohol in his first kiss? Maybe she was too surprised then, but now she couldn't neglect it. What if all his confessions just came fort of alcohol intoxication? Becoming slightly worried and angry, she broke the kiss and decided to confront him about it.

'House, have you been drinking?'

'Yes, but…'

'You are drunk? House, you come over here to tell me all these things and expect me to change my life for you while you're drunk?' Cuddy was becoming more aggravated with every sentence.

'Cuddy, I'm not drunk! I come here and practically open up my heart to you and the first real thing you can say is that I'm drunk? Way to jump to conclusions…' House scoffed.

'I should have known this was a mistake.' He also felt angry now. But more especially he felt hurt. He couldn't stay there any longer. House turned away before she could see the pain and tears in his eyes and started to limp away.

'House, wait.'

'Why? If you can't trust me I don't see any reason to stay here any longer and let you embarrass me some more Cuddy.'

'Just imagine you were in my place House! How would you react if I stood at your door the day before your wedding saying all these things and then find out that I've been drinking?' Tears were now also shining in Cuddy's eyes. Why did everything between them always have to be so complicated?

'I certainly wouldn't jump to conclusions, Cuddy. Have you considered the fact that, maybe I needed a drink to gather up the courage to tell you about my feelings? Have you any idea how hard this is for me? You can't expect me to be able to do this all by myself! I'm still adjusting Cuddy, still trying to make some changes. But you have to know that I have to take baby steps, I can't change who I am overnight. I've already made a lot of progression in Mayfield, but I've still a long way to go and I thought, no I hoped that maybe I could continue with you beside me. But obviously I was wrong. I'm not drunk Cuddy. You know I can handle my booze and I certainly wouldn't be saying all of these things if they weren't true. Drunk or not, that doesn't change how I feel about you. You shouldn't jump to conclusions that fast; you should at least give me the benefit of the doubt. Since you can't do that I'm afraid all of this was a big mistake. I'm sorry for wasting your time Cuddy, I hope Lucas will make you happy.'

Tears had now once again begun falling from her eyes. He was walking away once more. She couldn't let that happen, not after he had overcome all his fears for her tonight. Cuddy reached out and grabbed his arm trying to stop him and change his mind.

'House, please wait.'

'Let me go, Cuddy, please, it's not worth it.'

'Just listen to me House. If you still want to leave after that I won't stop you but please just listen to me first', Cuddy pleaded while tears kept streaming down her face.

With a deep sigh House turned around again and felt a pang in his heart when he saw the tears in her eyes. He hated to see her sad.

'Okay, I'll listen Cuddy, but then you'll have to let me leave.'

Cuddy nodded and said:

'I don't want you to leave House. You're right, I should trust you more. I'm this stupid control freak and always looking for excuses when I can't control a situation.'

'I'm glad you say that yourself' House smirked.

'House…' Cuddy looked at him with pleading eyes, begging him to shut up and let her continue.

'The fact is, you came here tonight and overcame all your fears. You were willing to risk everything for me and I'm a fool for doubting you. If there is anyone who should make changes it should be me. We both have issues House. It will never be easy between us, but I do hope that if we work on our problems together we can make it. '

'So you're saying you want to give us a chance?' House hesitatingly asked her, needing to hear her say it.

'Yes, I really thing we should try this, whatever it exactly is.'

'But, what about Lucas?'

'Well, I certainly am going to need to talk to him. I mean I've to tell him about us and we need to cancel the wedding…'

'Are you really sure about this Cuddy?'

'House, what's wrong with you?'

'What do you mean?'

'First you're trying everything to make me choose you and now that I've made my decision you're trying to change my mind again?'

'No,no, not at all. It's just a bit hard to believe, you know. I still don't know why you would willingly choose me. I mean, you are my last chance Cuddy. You are my only chance to find happiness. If I can't make it with you I'm not going to make it with anyone and that scares the hell out of me. Nobody puts up with my crap like you do. But you, you can have so much more. Don't take this wrong, I'm over the moon that you want to try being with me, I just find it a bit hard to believe.'

At this Cuddy just smiled.

'What are you grinning at?' House asked dumbfounded.

'I just find the thought that I can scare the great Gregory House as hell funny. But you are right; I am probably the only one who can put up with you. But like I said before, you're not the only one with issues House. Frankly, I'm not the easiest person either and when I'm with you I can be myself, I don't have to pretend to be someone else, I don't have to back down. You're probably the only one who can really put up with me too, so in a weird way I guess we totally deserve each other. And besides, now we will finally be able to act out on all that sexual tension when we bicker' Cuddy said with a wicked grin.

Now House started to smile too.

'God woman, enough with the confessions and foreplay. Will you kiss me already?' He smirked.

Cuddy chuckled and leaned in closer for the third time that night, determined to fully enjoy it this time. It was a kiss of promise and hope and when they separated in need for oxygen their eyes locked and they smiled at each other. House started to go in for another kiss, wanting more, needing to feel that this was really happening when Cuddy stopped him.

'House, in order to kiss you again or to do more than kiss you I really need to go and talk to Lucas first. I want my conscious clear before we take this any further.'

'I should have known that you're perverse sense of guilt would kick in anytime.' House whined.

Cuddy smirked and gave him a chaste peck on his lips before saying:

'I'm going to talk to him right away. I want this to be done.' Then she added with another wicked grin, which he totally loved:

'Wait for me House, I'll make it worth your while.' She winked at him, grabbed her purse and left after she gave him another kiss on his cheek.

'Are you leaving me here to freeze my balls of woman?'

'Go home, House, I'll come to your apartment when it's over.'

'Oh, a booty call huh?' He asked while wiggling his eyebrows suggestively.

Cuddy just laughed and said: 'Go home House.'

And then she left. He watched her car disappear around the corner of the street before he walked back to his bike, with a visible spring in his step and a smirk plastered on his face while he thought about all the things he could do to Cuddy tonight.

That's it for now! Next: Cuddy talks to Lucas, how will he react? That's for you to guess and for me to know! ;)

Also, how do you guys feel about smut? I've never written it before, but I do want to give it a try, that is of course if you want some Huddy smut. So hit that review button and let me know! :)