Chapter 39

Ashley's POV

13th of June 1950

There is a saying that goes like this.. 'It is very nice to make dreams and let's not go ever truly'.. I followed that saying since the day I remember myself.. I dreamed of being free, I dreamed to become a pilot, but I never dreamed to find someone I loved.. That just came out of nowhere and surprised me just the same..

Time flew so fast.. Spencer and I were together now for three years.. Of course in those years we had our ups and downs but it wasn't anything important that could actually break us apart.. To the outside world we were two cousins living together or two friends sharing the rent.. But nonetheless a couple..

Of course we both got more at ease on coming out and be ourselves.. Of course to clubs that were hidden.. Clubs with only girls.. I still remember my first time to a club like that.. Once we were inside I couldn't believe that were so many women like us.. They were dancing, kissing, holding hands, flirting.. Like a normal person would do.. Spencer was laughing at me because of my reaction.. It wasn't her first time to a club like that.. And she helped me through.. At the end of the night all I remember is that I could finally kiss my girlfriend in front of other people, hold her hand and dance..

As for our working lives.. Spencer was still driving her co workers crazy.. They were still wondering if she was gay or not.. I do believe though that they had a clue.. Especially when they were seeing me coming at the hospital to pick her up and leave.. But from assuming something to actually be sure about something there is a big difference..

As for me I realized that working at a clothing store even if that store was one of the best in 5th Avenue it wasn't my thing.. I knew what I liked and to what I was good at.. And that was cooking.. With the money I had and with a little help from Spencer I went to study to become a cook.. It's not that I didn't know how to cook but I wanted to have a degree.. And who knows.. Maybe someday I could open my own restaurant.. So yeah.. I was thirty years old and I was a student..

"Hello my wonderful lady.. How's studying going?" Spencer the last couple of days was day and night at the hospital.. They suggested her to be the chief of the hospital.. Never a woman before were to become a chief.. That's how much they respected her and they knew that my girl was the best doctor..

"You don't even want to know.." she removed her shoes, left them right next to the door and came and sat right next to me but not without kissing me first as she always did..

"Well, since I am asking that means I want to know.. So try me.."

"I have to read this whole book and learn the recipes because in three days we have exams and they told us that they will have us cook one of these.." I showed her with my hand and with a little desperation in my voice the fact that I had to read a 300 pages book full of recipes..

"You will do great.. At the end you don't have to go by the rules.. Make something on your own if you don't remember the recipe.."

"It's not that simple Spence.."

"If it's not then make it simple.." she said and kissed me again.. "And since you were studying and since you pretty much you are the cook of this house I am taking you out tonight.. We are going to eat to a restaurant.."

"Spence, I can't.. Maybe after my exams.."

"Nope.. We are going to go out and enjoy ourselves.. I am going to take a shower and get ready.. You have an hour to get ready yourself as well.."

"I can't say no to you.."

"I know.." she said with a smirk and pretty much started to undress right in front of me.. Slowly if I might say.. And when she was completely naked she gave me one last look and got inside the shower.. I licked my lips and went inside to find her.. Of course once I was inside she was there waiting for me.. She knew me so well..

"You are late one minute.."

"I needed to undress you know.."

"You could always come inside and I could undress you.."

It wasn't the first time we were showering together.. Actually it was something we liked to do very often.. Especially after our hot sessions.. And shower sex was even better with the cold water falling on our bodies.. It took us two orgasms and more than an hour to get ready but when we were finally dressed she was the most beautiful woman I laid my eyes on.. She was wearing a black strapless dress that was tight to the right places and her black heel shoes I bought for her birthday.. She had her hair down with loose curls, like the way I liked it, and the only make up she wore was a red lipstick and rouge on her cheeks.. She was like a movie star..

"Ready?"

"Of course"

We drove to a new restaurant in town.. It was classy and a lot of well known people were coming there.. I knew because I wanted to be able to cook to one of these restaurants in future..

"Spence, how are we going to get in? There is an awaiting list for months.."

"Don't you worry.. We have reservations.. I have friends on the top.."

"You had it planned?"

"Mmm.. Maybe.." she looked at me with that smile that every time was making my knees to tremble..

"Hello ladies.."

"Hello, a table for two under the name of Spencer Carlin"

"Of course Ms Carlin.. Let me accompany you to your table.."

The restaurant's atmosphere was the one of Paris in the 1910.. Dark but at the same time light, the chairs were made out of red velvet, there was a small stage were musicians with violins and a piano were playing music from that time.. It was like I was back in time..

"Ladies, if you excuse me.. Your waiter will come to get your order.. Have a beautiful night"

"Thank you" we both said at the same time..

"Do you like it Ash?"

"Are you kidding? I love it.." Our table wasn't in the center.. It was in the back pretty close to the stage.. It was like it was only us.. Me and her.. While I was looking at her I saw her trying to reach my hand but when she was right about to touch it she stopped.. Our hands now facing each other..

"I really want to hold your hand.."

"I know.." I moved my little finger to touch hers and I did for a second before our waiter came..

"Goodevening ladies.." he said and gave us a minute to order

"We would like a green salad and a coq au vin for me and for the lady.."

"I would like a foie gras"

"Would you like to drink something?"

"A bottle of a 1930 red Chateau"

"Good choice.. Thank you ladies"

We sat there and talked about pretty much nothing and everything and all I could think about was that I was so much in love with this girl in front of me that every time I was thinking of her my heart was beating so fast.. She was amazing..

"It's so beautiful here tonight.. Thank you for this night.."

"You know I could do anything for you.."

"I know.."

"But I wanted us to go out tonight and celebrate.. I got the chief position at the hospital" she said with a smile and I matched the same smile with hers.. If we were anywhere else I would get up and kiss her.. But I could do it later on..

"I am so so proud of you Spence.. We really need to celebrate" she leaned closer to me and whispered like someone could hear her..

"I know a way that we can celebrate all night.."

"Maybe.." I said back with a smirk but she knew and I knew that that maybe was a hell of a yes..

The food was amazing and there is no wonder why this restaurant was on the top even if it was new.. While we were eating and drinking our wine I felt someone coming close to us.. It was Aiden..

"Hello Ashley, hello Spencer.. It is nice seeing you here" I got up from my seat and hugged him and Spencer did the same only that she shook his hand..

The last years Aiden and I managed to go back in being friends.. He realized that I couldn't be what he wanted me to be and he was sorry about what happened between us.. Every now and then we were meeting with each other, I would go by his house see Rwanda and eat like we used to.. Spencer didn't have a problem with me keeping in touch with Aiden.. As she told me one day 'if anything I took his wife from him'..

"What are you doing here?"

"I am here with Susan.. I saw you sitting here and I thought to say hello.. Are you having a great time?"

"Yes, we are.. It's a very nice restaurant.."

Susan was his girlfriend and they were together for a year now.. I knew about her because he told me one day.. She was a girl he met one day walking at the park.. She was a teacher and she was coming from a nice family, not wealthy, and she wasn't the snob Aiden and I were used to.. Susan did know about Aiden and me.. But Aiden told her that I was more a friend to him than a wife.. I really liked her for him.. They seemed to fit..

"I am going to propose to her tonight.." he said and his face was shining..

"Really? That's so nice.."

"Yeah.. So it was nice seeing you both.. We could arrange something one day.."

"Of course Aiden.. Tell Susan we said hi" Spencer said and then he left to go back to his table.. I was really happy about him..

"Who would have thought eh?"

"I wanted him to find someone to love and to be loved.. I am glad he found a girl who could give him what I couldn't.."

She was silent after we saw Aiden and I knew she was thinking..

"Spence, what is it?"

"I was thinking that I won't be able to give you that.."

"What do you mean?"

"I can't marry you.. I can't even kiss you in public.."

"Who cares?"

"I am Ash.. You deserve more than that.."

"I deserve you.. And I have you.. And as you always say, behind our door its you and me.. I can be your wife and you can be mine.. No one knows, no one cares.. Only us.. And I am happy that way.."

"Are you sure?"

"I am.. I love you.."

"And I love you.."

Yes.. It is very nice to make dreams and let's not go ever truly.. Only that mine are..

TBC

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