OMG OMG OMG! We are so so so so so sorry that it took us so long to update this! Marching band has been driving us both crazy right now and we really want our coach fired! (he threatens us to get us to come to practice!) to add to that, we have a dance competition in...3 weeks? and we are training for that! And to quote our friend "Good lord! when will the madness end! I swear i'm ready to beat that child with a wooden spoon!" So ya...everything will be over soon and this should be getting updated faster.

You cover my eyes and you say

It's not worth, a 7 year olds

Innocence.

You cover yourself and you cry

It's not worth, a 12 year olds

Faith.

And you close all the blinds and you whisper

This isn't something the neighbors

Should have to see.

Roxas opened the door to his bedroom weakly and found himself collapsing on his bed. A brunette boy who was sitting at a desk on the opposite side of the room turned around abruptly.

"Holy crap! What the hell did he do!" Sora ran over to where his brother was, lying on the bed, breathing heavily and holding his wrist in one hand.

"Nothing…nothing I am fine…I just need to rest…" Roxas said, still breathing heavily. His wrist was throbbing, but he knew that it was not sprained. The brunette boy sat down at the foot of the bed. He looked at his brother, laying there, completely helpless with no one that knew how to help him; No one that knew.

"Roxas…brother…he's coming right? Tell him…please." Sora knew that what he was asking was too much. Roxas would never tell anyone, even if his life depended on it. And as it seemed, that time would be coming soon.

The two sat there for a while, waiting for a calm to settle. It was then that the doorbell rang. The short blonde boy looked at his brother apologetically.

"Please…won't you?" He asked in a sincere voice. Sora shook his head and headed to their bedroom door. "I'll be down soon…Kay…?"

Sora looked at his twin brother, worry written all over his face. "Okay…" He said quietly before hurrying down the stairs. He could hear voices coming from the bottom floor. The brunette boy could fell the hand rail becoming warm where his hands were running down it so quickly. When he reached the bottom, a smile flew onto his face.

"Kadaj!" He screamed. Said white haired boys head shot up at the voice his younger brother. Sora came running towards him. "I'm so happy you're here..." Sora looked beyond his eldest brothers' shoulders to see his father, looking at him with utter contempt. He looked back with almost equal distaste.

"Hey, where is your brother?" Kadaj asked, pulling away from the hug. Sora smiled.

"Oh, he is just kind of tired, that is all. He says he will be down for dinner though." The small brunette boy said, ending with a smile. He looked back to his father, who wore an accomplished expression. 'How could he? How could he be proud of something like that!' Sora thought to himself.

"Well, come on, let's get some dinner ready." Kadaj said, rumpling his younger brothers' already messy hair. Sora walked behind his brother, leaving their father in the now empty hall way. As they approached the pantry, Kadaj stopped abruptly, causing Sora to walk into his back. He looked up at the taller boys' figure.

"How is he doing?" Kadaj asked.

"Who, Father or –"

"Roxas." He said, interrupting his little sibling. "It is just that… last time I was here he looked something awful."

Sora shook his head. "And that was what, two years ago? Right after Dad died too." The white haired boy lowered his head, almost ashamed of the time that he had missed with his younger brothers. "He is fine though. Looks almost exactly like Father though…" He said this as he grabbed a frozen pizza out of the freezer.

"I'm glad to know that he is doing okay." Kadaj said, taking the pizza from his brother and putting it in the oven and turning it on.

"But he never stays that way for long…" Sora whispered to himself, on a level where it was almost inaudible.

"What?"

"Oh…nothing…I didn't say anything."

Kadaj POV

I can see my brothers' awkward motions as he tries to get settled at the dinner table. He is sitting so straight and stiff in his chair that you can tell that there hasn't been a family dinner…probably in 2 years.

"So, how about we eat?" I say, trying to ease the tension in the room. As I say this I feel another presence enter the room.

"Hello Roxas, I am glad to see that you are feeling better." My father says to the intruder.

"Hello, sir." The voice says back. I turn to look at my brother. His voice is so much deeper than I remember it being, and even still deeper than Sora's. He is still short, but his body looks like it is a lot stronger and yet weak at the same time. Like these past years have worn away all of his strength. There are big, dark bags under his eyes from a lack of sleep…But didn't Sora say that he had been sleeping upstairs?

Roxas pulls the chair on my left side out and sits down so slowly it is almost painful. I smile at him when he looks at me. "Well, like I was saying, how about we eat something?" I repeat. I see Sora immediately pick up his food, but I can see Roxas out of the corner of my eye, looking to Father and Father giving him a small nod of the head, and I realize something.

I missed a lot while I was gone.

How much was it? Why are my younger brothers lying to me? What are they trying to hide? Is it something that could have been stopped? But I missed it all and there is no way for them to trust me anymore…because I wasn't there. But what did I miss? Everything seems so much more controlled now than it did before: Like you need approval to be able to eat your food.

A buzzing sound interrupts my thoughts and I see Father look at a buzzer on his hip. He stands very suddenly and I can hear his whisper as he walks out the front door "going to work". I look at Sora and Roxas and I can feel the air around the table becoming less and less dense. I too stand and grab all of our plates off the table.

"Come on!" I say motioning towards the family room. Sora gives me a big, goofy smile and runs after me; Roxas follows, but slower than his twin. I sit on the floor cross-legged and smile at them.

"Okay, spill! It's been 2 years, girlfriends, best friends, hell even boyfriends, I wanna know EVERYTHING!" I say, happily. My little brothers come and sit one the floor, creating a rather circular triangle type thing.

"Well…" Sora says, "I have a mighty sexy new boyfriend."

"Who he sleeps with."

I gasp inwardly at this statement, not sure if I want to believe it. "Roxas! Don't say that about your brother!" I say with genuine concern.

"But it IS true. He DOES sleep with his boyfriend!" Roxas says, half laughing.

"And you would sleep with Axel too if he didn't already have Man Whore written allllllll over his pretty boy face!" I laugh at the argument that my younger brothers are having, still with some amount of concern.

"I don't want to sleep with my boyfriend! Because I am 16! And for your information, Axel is not a man whore! He went out with 1 person and he NEVER slept with them!"

"Fine, you win…"

I look between my two brothers, in utter awe at their previous conversation. "Okay…that was…awkward… because, to be honest, I didn't need to know that. I mean… oh god. I didn't… I didn't need to know that much about your…sex…life.

Roxas raises his thin eyebrows, one of the few traits he got from dad. "Kadaj, don't even try pulling the 'I'm a virgin card', cause we know you are not."

I smile and shake my head. "I wasn't going to. I was just going to say that I think Roxas is right and you are a little young to be having…sex."

"Can we please leave the Sex conversation? How about we just talk about boyfriends, since I think it is pretty easy to figure out that we are all gay here." Roxas say with honesty. "I, for one, like my boyfriend, even if he is twice as tall as me and has feet the size of a clown."

I laugh at the ridiculous statement, but then smile.

"What?" Sora asks in a happy voice.

"Nothing…I just…I didn't realize how much you two had grown up."

Roxas POV

My bed feels so warm tonight as I sit with the covers pulled tightly over my head with my laptop sitting against the wall next to my bed.

DreamsofStars (Roxas): I'm sorry about earlier. My brother just came home from studying in Japan.

FlurryofDancingFlames (Axle): Na its fine. So what is up? You seemed on edge today?

DreamsofStars: Nothing. I was just worried about school…and us.

FlurryofDancingFlames: Are you sure?

FlurryofDancingFlames: P.S. you don't need to worry.

DreamsofStars: Ya, I'm sure.

DreamsofStars: I'm getting kind of tired, I think I'm gonna go to bed.

FlurryofDancingFlames: Okay…Hey um…one more thing.

DreamsofStars: ya?

FlurryofDancingFlames: I love you.

I turn my computer off quickly and set it on the floor next to my bed. Did he mean that? Did he really mean 'I love you'?

I look over to my brothers' bed and notice that he is looking at me.

"You type really loudly you know." I nod my head and turn so that I am facing him not only with my head, but with my body as well. "It is kind of nice having Kadaj here; Nothing to worry about…with you."

"Well, you are wrong." I say, once again turning, this time so that I was facing the wall. "Don't think that just because brother is here, that is going to change anything in Father. You shouldn't be that naïve." I say and what I say is true. There is nothing left in Father to change, if I can even call him that. It is almost like I am stuck in never ending turmoil until the day I die.

How could someone so beautiful

Just throw it away

Because the pressure is building

And life has a meaning that he takes away

And you're a blessing

That is dying so slowly

And fading away

At the hands of the man

Who has taken away your life.

And when you cry, you cry….

Love.

-Kenzie Anderson (prompt: write about the biggest flaw in society)

(I wanted to write about how stupid and moronic the world is, but he said no)

Wow...okay well this is a kind of short chapter, so sorry about that, but when marching band season is over, we hope to able to get things up faster. Thankies and please R+R