A/N: READ THIS A/N! I've been told another time that Tira is like Amu, and it makes me wonder if anyone even reads my A/Ns! You should! It would make you learn something about me saying something so you don't have to say it again! So if you say something I already told in A/N's then it shows that you're being rude, and it makes me very upset… Now that I've said that, moving on: Thank you to i-is-monstarr-RAWR for adding this story to the favorite lists, story alert and for reviewing an awesome review.

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And I'm trying to improve! So enough with telling me that too, please!- Enjoy!

Chapter 15: Thoughts.

I didn't show up to school. I didn't go to the Guardian's meetings. I didn't even leave the house to go to work and now everyone is on my back, trying to found out why. All but the Guardians who thought it was best for me to be alone. And I couldn't stop thinking about the Jack Chair and the Queen Chair. I didn't even give them a chance and now they must think I'm some selfish person…

"Tira?"

Kiki spoke up, peeking out of her Egg since its morning. I didn't speak to her while Luluu woke up as well, looking over to the third Egg that didn't hatch yet.

"…"

"Tira, you should go back to school. Get out and feel the warm sun on your skin. It's good for your heath."

"…"

I still didn't answer. The thing is: I felt selfish. But you already know that. It wasn't me being brave, it was me just feeling like a big fat jerk. Kiki flew out of her Egg and went over to me with a frown.

"Tira, I don't want to do this but you leave me no choice! Character Change!"

Kiki calls out and my eyes shot open fast, feeling Kiki taking over as small angel wings appear behind my back and I started acting like her.

"What a beautiful day to greet the morning sun!"

Damn you Kiki! I stood up and look over to my window with a warm smile. That is until I was able to stop Kiki from controlling me and I glare at her as the wings disappear.

"I didn't ask for your help!"

"Then why won't you go out?"

"Because I'm a big fat jerk!"

"You can show them that your not!"

Luluu was watching us, standing next to the only non-hatching Egg… while eating popcorn…

"How can I show them other wise?"

"By saying your sorry!"

"I can't! I'm not ready!"

"Then go out for a walk and get ready!"

Kiki snaps, for the first time, getting me to stare at her with wide eyes. Kiki on the other hand, realized what she did and frown deeply. Before she could say anything I graph her into a light hug, sighing.

"I'm sorry… You're right. A walk does sound nice after all."

"Tira…"

She smile and hug me back until I let go and went to get myself ready in my normal clothes. After that was done I head out and started walking… Will anywhere I could walk too. At the same time I was thinking, deep in thought about how to come up and say I'm sorry to the new members. After a while of thinking Luluu spoke up.

"Tira, where are we going?"

"Huh?"

I ask, looking at her in question.

"I ask, 'Where are we going?'"

"Oh… Um… Let's see."

I try to answer, looking around but ending up frowning. Where are we going?

"Hey, look!"

Kiki spoke up, getting me to look over to an old abandon building right in front of us in the woods. How did I not notice that?

"Looks abandon. No one is there, so we should keep going."

Luluu pointed, about to move on when I notice that the front door was open a little and started walking over to the building, getting Kiki and Luluu watch in worry.

"Where do you think your going? Tira, hey!"

Luluu calls out, noticing Kiki following me inside. Luluu frowns before following us as well.

"Why do I have a bad feeling something is going to happen?"

"Will you are the bad self Tira wants to be."

"…Fair enough."

"Shh! I think I hear someone behind this door."

I said, watching them close their mouths from speaking and went to open the door to find ourselves in an auditorium room with many rows of red chairs with a huge stage in front. It looks like a movie theater, only for plays.

"Wow."

"You said it!"

"Didn't I tell you two to be quiet?"

They stop talking again without noticing someone behind us. I then felt someone's hand on my shoulder and I, will… Punch the guy in the head.

"Ow!"

He cried, falling down as I panic, seeing that this guy had blonde hair and brown eyes… Wait… He looks almost like Tadase! I watch the man stood up, rubbing his forehead with a frown.

"I wasn't going to attack you. Ow… I just wanted to know why you're here."

I started to feel bad and frown deeply.

"Oh… Sorry. You made me panic. Um, can I get you an ice pack?"

"No, no. It's alright. I'll just got back into the kitchen and get one myself."

He said and left as I sigh and look down. Mad, I need to calm down more…

"I'm back."

The look-a-like-Tadase said, walking back into the room with a small smile and sits down onto a red chair next to me while I only stare at him.

"Come, sit. I won't bite."

He said, laughing a little. I then slowly walk over and sat next to him and we didn't speak until the man spoke up.

"I'm sorry I'd scare you. I don't get many visitors over here now of days."

"Oh, will… This place is abandon."

"Yes, I know. So why are you here? Are you lost?"

I look down again.

"I guess you could say that…"

I answer and he only smiles at me.

"Will then, anyone with dreams, who are lost… They seem to always come right here."

"Huh? What do you mean by that?"

I thought he was just asking if I got lost in the woods…

"Think about it. You have reasons for being upset and you need some fresh air and somehow lost in thought, you came right over here. Looking for answers you seek."

"Oh… I didn't know that."

I think I now understand why Kiki wanted me to go out for a walk now. I have to thank her sometime later.

"So... Would you like some tea? It'll help."

"Oh, no thank you. I'm not a tea drinker."

"Oh, alright then."

"…"

"…"

"Um…"

"Yes?"

I look at him with a look of worry. I feel like its okay to tell him what's wrong. Maybe because he looks like Tadase? But an older look-a-like Tadase?

"I do have a few problems going on…"

"Then go on, and I'll help you anyway I can."

He said and I took a deep breath before speaking. I told him everything. Starting with Kukai moving up a grade and the meeting with the two new members that replace Kukai and Nadeshiko and my out burst about it. Heck, I even told him about me not going out for a few days because of it! He only smiles a warm smile while listening until I was finished.

"I see… Will the way you talk about this Kukai person, I say you have feelings for him. And from how you talk about the meeting, I say you aren't ready for Kukai to be replaced. But this is life and it happens. At least you get to see him still so there shouldn't be any worries. I think you just give Kairi a chance and get to know him. Of course, say you're sorry as well."

Was his reply and… He was right. I've never came to fully realize that I could still see Kukai. That was the main reason for Kukai being replaced by Kairi. And I even thought of this before too… Man, I'm so stupid! I let my love for Kukai get in the way when I should've thought more about this.

"And as for your friend, Nadeshiko. It's the same reason, only you don't have feelings for her. Nadeshiko didn't leave to hurt you. She left so she could learn how to dance in other ways and it was her choice. It was her dream. Sometimes when it comes to dreams, you gotta take a step that comes down right to it: Take the chance to make your dream closer to become your true self and leave your friends behind for now… Or forget the dream and hang with your friends."

I never thought of it like that…

"Life isn't always easy. So when the time comes for you to make the choice… Pick the choice that makes you happy."

I look at him with wide eyes. He was right! Nadeshiko wanted her dream of dancing to get closer, so she took the chance to learn. Besides she will always have us to come back to anyways so it doesn't break our friendship apart!

"I understand now…"

I stood up with a warm smile.

"Thank you for your help."

He smiles warmly at me again.

"I'm happy to help. If you need anything, come right back here when you're lost again."

Odd saying but okay.

"Sure. Bye, I gotta head right over to the Royal Guardians place."

I said and started running off with my Characters behind me. The man smiles, taking out a black joker card from his pocket and sigh in thoughts.

"What a young woman she's growing up to be. Let's hope it stays that way."

In Town…

"I hope I didn't miss the meeting!"

I said, running as fast as I could to Seiyo.

"Check to see what time it is."

Luluu said and I stop running and look at my cell phone and frown deeply. The meeting is over by now.

"I miss the meeting… They always leave two hours after school."

I said and they frown.

"Will- huh? Tira?"

I knew that voice! I look over to see Kukai and Amu staring at me.

"Kukai… Amu…"

I blush, looking at Kukai's new school uniform. It looks hot on him!

Amu notices the blush and smiles a little. I guess she knew I had feelings for him. Kukai, on the other hand, didn't notice it… Or so we think!

"Tira, what are you doing here?"

Kukai ask, as I soon got my blush to go away and replace it with a frown.

"I… Was heading over to the Royal Guardians… But I'm too late."

I answer and they frown.

"They told me what happen."

Kukai started, making me frown deeper.

"Sorry…"

I said, looking down.

"It's okay. You just aren't used to them, that's all. And I don't blame you. I would kind of act a little cold around them too."

Kukai said, getting me to look at him in surprise. He doesn't seem like the type though…

"Will since you're here, you wanna join us for some ice cream? I'll pay."

Kukai said and I smile warmly at him while Amu smiles again.

"Sure."

I answer and off we went to the ice cream shop in town. After that Amu was telling us, what was going on with her. I was just listening and Kukai was the only one talking to her. I wasn't sure what to say.

"And so you lost confidence in your ability to be the White Joker?"

"Yeah… Maybe I'm not like my old self. But I don't know what my true self is like. My character…"

Amu answers, taking a lick of her ice cream as I frown. Rima would go that far to say stuff like that? Something tells me I won't like her very much. Kukai look at me and I look over to him. He then looks back over to Amu and pokes her forehead with his finger.

"Idiot!"

"Ack!"

Later…

"I don't know… What my true character is like either."

"Really?"

"Yeah. I'm sure Tira is the same way, right?"

"Yeah…"

"There you go! And besides, I'm still wondering if I should join the soccer team, the basketball, or track."

"Oh… That's it?"

"…Really?"

Kukai pouts, looking at us.

"What do you mean? It's a big deal."

"Okay, okay!"

"Anyways back to where we were. It's like this image people have of me that I have to play soccer. I want to change myself and do new things. I don't know what it's like to be my true self. But it's more interesting that way."

I stare at Kukai in surprised and spoke up without even thinking of it.

"Does it count when it comes to dating someone you like?"

I ask, now realizing what I just ask and was about to panic when I notice Kukai blushing at the thought of him dating someone.

"Will… I guess it counts in a way."

He answers, and I look away with a smile in hopes. Amu on the other hand wasn't listening to that question and spoke up with a small frown.

"Even if you… Don't know yourself?"

She asks, getting us to look over and Kukai smiles.

"If you don't know… It means you can become anything you want to be, right?"

Kukai asks and I nod my head in agreeing. That's so true.

"Actually… I was feeling this way when Daichi was born. I wanted to know what I could do. How far I could challenge myself. My Guardian Character came from those feelings."

Kukai said and it made Amu to start thinking about it. Feelings, huh? Maybe it's okay if I give my feelings a shot… But I didn't want Amu to be here right now so… I took out my cell phone and started making a text to Kukai's phone.

"So you think it's okay to be worried? Even if you don't know yourself?"

Amu asks, getting Kukai to smirk and gives the thumbs up with a smile.

"Of course!"

He answers and I send him my text in worry. What if he doesn't feel the same way?

"Hm? Oh, hold on I got a text from someone."

Kukai said, hearing his ring tone alerting him that he got a text. Just before Kukai could open his phone, someone came and knock the ice cream cones out of our hands and almost knock out Kukai's cell phone.

"Ow!"

"Huh?"

"Hey, my ice cream!"

"Found you! Amu Hinamori."

Came Utau's voice, getting us to gasps, seeing her with… A Guardian Character? Her new Character looks like an evil devil who's a girl. Just then an angel looking Character, not really looking like Kiki, flew out of no where in front of us.

"Utau! You came for me?"

She asks, but flinches when Utau glares at her.

"El? I thought you were gone, but you became Amu's Guardian Character?"

Utau ask, seeing El frowns deeply.

"No, it's not that-!"

"It doesn't matter. I have… A new Guardian Egg."

Utau said, taking out an X Egg, hearing Amu gasps in shock.

"That's my Egg!"

Amu cried, as me, Kukai, and our Characters gasp out in shock.

"Huh? Yours!"

"Yours! How?"

We ask as Utau smirks.

"Yours? I think you got it wrong. This Egg doesn't approve of you as its owner. As proof, it hasn't hatched yet. That's how it left you! And instead it chose me! Come on, Amu. Let's fight."

Utau orders as I stare at the Egg in worry. Is that why my third Egg didn't hatch yet? I hope it doesn't become an X Egg like Amu's!

"I haven't seen your Character Transformation yet. Let's fight. I want to see it."

"Give it back."

Amu order, glaring at her as Kukai started whispering to his Character, Daichi.

"Hey, I don't know what's going on… But Daichi, is it possible to change Guardian Characters?"

"I don't know. But Guardian Characters change as the owners feelings change. That's why they would get X marks or break. So if the Guardian Character seeks a new owner, maybe it is possible…"

Daichi answers and I frown deeply. Would my Characters do that to me?

"Then you should win."

Utau spoke up to Amu.

"If you win, I'll return the diamond Egg. Even if I win, I don't need El back. But instead…"

She points her index finger at Amu's lock.

"…I want you Humpty Lock."

I cover mine, just in case. Amu did the same thing.

"Huh? Why!"

"Because I want it. It matches Ikuto's key. It suits me more."

Utau answers as X Eggs came out of no where and started to attack when Kukai Character Change and got a skate board and a anime star pin on the side of his head and knocks them out of the way.

"Hinamori! Get it together! You're going to lose."

Kukai warm as Utau smirks wider.

"Amu. I like competition. We are polished and shine when we win and lose. That's why I don't need El. Even if you're kind, there's no point if you're weak. I just need Ll and the diamond Egg."

Utau said as I glare at her. I think Ll is that devil looking Character… El was now starting to cry while I made a fist.

"But… El was born from your heart, too."

Amu spoke up.

"You're going to throw her away because she's weak?"

Amu asks, hearing Utau starting to laugh at the thought of having El back and did a Character Transformation with Ll and attacks Amu. Her outfit looks like a vampire princess. Her dress was vampire like and it was in red and black. She wore long red vampire boots with high heels. On her wrists was a black vampire wing and in her long pink tails was one black vampire wing each. And on her back are human size black vampire bat wings.

"You want your diamond Egg back, right!"

"Ack!"

"Then fight!"

"Utau, wait a second! I don't want to fight-! Ugh!"

Amu cried, getting kick by Utau again so I ran over to help Amu up.

"Idiot. Adults don't mean it when they tell you not to compete. Everyone is ranked and we compete to move up. If you are too nice, you're just going to fall behind."

Utau said and before I could snap at her, Kukai spoke up.

"Whoa. I agree with her."

"What? Kukai!"

"Sports are fan because there's competition. And we all improve to win!"

Kukai said to her as Utau smirks.

"You understand me."

"Hey, Kukai! Come back to our side!"

Amu snaps as I glare at him. Kukai then winks at us.

"Leave the X Eggs in the back to me. You guys fight all you want. Go for it."

"Hey!"

"Kukai!"

We snap at him.

"If you lose, you have to run twenty laps!"

"Wait!"

"What!"

We snap again and Amu frowns deeply.

"But… I don't want to fight or compete. Especially with you, Utau."

"What? Why?"

"Because I like you. You're mean but you're honest with yourself. And you can sing. You're cool. And you're similar to me."

"Huh? What are you saying?"

She went on, not answering her question.

"Besides… I know that you are… Weak but kind at heart."

Amu said but then we all gasp, seeing Amu's lock glow bright.

"Huh? What's going on?"

Amu asks as I stare at her but then notice El joining Amu, making me gasps.

"Is she… Doing a Character Transformation with El?"

A/N: That's it. If you didn't read my A/N still then there's a good chance I won't listen to your reviews… People need to start reading A/N's! And this has been edited two times so I think I did better so good bye till Monday!