Steps have disturbed the peace of the street, while the water fights with our shoes. Demanding entrance.
I could hear their whispers, and in some extent, their joy.
For one moment, I thought that I was crazy.
'Am I the reason for all of this?' I questioned myself, but somehow, I stopped the answer from settling down in my mind.
I was pleased and I felt guilty about it.
However, as we entered in the dorm and as I watched while walking, I've let the drops of water on the floor, from my hair, from my clothes, from my shoes and even from my skin.
But as I unlocked the door and then, I entered before them, turned on the dim light of the room, I no longer looked ahead, I looked at them.
Chapter 9: Part 3- The core of the apple
At the two boys which I've brought in my room, as if I've brought two puppies from the street, all wet from the rain, and also soaking my carpet with their water.
The apartment seemed untouched by the storm outside, and the only proof from which you can deduct that outside it's raining, would be the traces we've left, on your way here, and right here.
Small steps, as if confused, in between the decision: 'Make a step inside, or not?'
My gaze answered to the red haired boy who is the only one still outside the room, while the other is already on my chair, but also looking at him.
"Come on." He said with a voice of which I've never thought that I will ever hear from Cloud.
It was warm, comforting, and then I thought that I don't know him almost at all.
He stretched out his hand, a drop of water falling from it on the floor; even so, just then, the red haired boy has made a step forward, into the room, to accept the stretched hand.
The gesture has made me stop from moving or from saying anything.
Even outside, the storm seemed to watch. The thunder no longer angry, no longer present, and the rain, being quiet and reserved, just to hear further.
Two hands reunited, along with two pair of eyes, as if they were locked in each other's gaze.
Cloud staying on the chair and the red hair boy standing before him, staring in each other's eyes, as the red haired boy's right hand was embraced by Cloud's left hand and then kissed by Cloud's lips.
But their eyes did not disconnect, not even for one second.
As if having a conversation, on their own, just the two of them knowing what words their eyes tell, what whispers, and what messages, letters, whatever they are, but full of hope and lust.
While I just now see the spark in their eyes, the bulb being jealous.
But even the nature was more welcomed to their silent but beautiful show, while I am not needed.
So I've retreated with normal steps to the bathroom.
I've turned on the shower's water and the steam soon raised, the mirror blurred along with the glass of the window.
As I've stripped naked and thrown the wet clothes on the floor and then entered in the shower stall.
The warm water is relaxing my every bone and pore. However, my mind was still in the other room, as if the door doesn't exist.
My mind alarmed while I tried to ignore it with my whole being.
The water still on, while I've let my back to slip on the sandstone on my way down.
I stood there, more than I could estimate, with my eyes staring at the transparent but blurred glass of the shower's stall.
But I am not staring at it at all, not even at the steam, a point in the air, as if a point in my mind, wants my attention.
I refuse to accept it.
But even so, I barely was aware that the other part of my mind already sees their show over and over again.
Or mostly, I refuse to be aware until the end, until the conclusion will be above this whole steam.
'They're together?' I've questioned myself so silently in my mind, with so small letters, and with a voice so low that I've barely heard my own thought, or I wished I didn't.
I knew. I knew from the first time when I saw them, I knew that the boy which Cloud was defending at our parents fancy dinner is someone special to him, and I knew what the look from my eyes meant when I was staring at him, long ago…
'I was so young so I didn't know what they were talking about, I didn't paid attention, and I didn't cared. I almost couldn't hear them, but I know, I heard him.
"You have no right to talk about him in this way. You don't know him! I don't care that you are my father. I do not allow you." He said.'
The way I looked at him in that moment, I ignored it until today, but today I realized while I've looked at them: ' It was lust? '
The spark from my eyes, I've felt it then, it was the same as theirs now, maybe a little more tamed, maybe a little more dead but somehow, more hungrier, more insane, more desperate than theirs.
And it was feeding from his words.
From the simple impulse that someone like us can have someone special.
We were the same after all, I've saw him before but now, he is different because of the red haired boy and I am different because of...
'Sasuke.'
My conclusion, my point, and his name made me get up; turn off the water, to put a towel around my waist, to open the blurred window, and to force my head out of the room, to feel the wind cold against my skin, with my breath quick, desperate for air.
I stood there until I was cold.
While I stood under the hot water which has almost burned my skin, I felt attacked from all around me. And now, I try to freeze my skin, my thoughts and mostly, my emotions.
The weather has calmed down, it no longer rained, and instead it all seems to be wet and cold.
The wind is the only one which is angry, right now.
I've took another towel with which I've ruffled my hair a little, while I tried to get rid of the water.
When I got out of the bathroom it was to no longer see them on the chair, but the red haired boy on my bed which is beside the white radiator, on which Cloud stays, which is under the half-opened window.
I quietly asked myself what they are doing but then I saw. The smoke of a cigarette can be seen flying outside the window and a little inside.
"You mind?" Cloud asked me right when he saw me.
I nodded a no, and then I searched for clean and dried clothes.
I took some and entered back in the bathroom. When I finished, with the towel still around my shoulders, I got out.
I walked to them and I surprised myself by talking first:
"Do you want to do a shower or something?" I asked but I received no answer, while the cigarette was stretched out to me, close to my mouth.
I surprised myself twice, while I accepted by tasting a cigarette and breathing in its smoke.
"Stay a little." He told me while I resisted the urge to let the smoke out; instead, I kept it in my lungs.
"Let it out." He said and I did just that, the proof that I've smoked for the first time is lingering in the air.
"You're good." He said while his smirk has been present on his lips for the entire time.
But right after those words were spooked, I confronted with a sudden cough which seemed to refuse the smoke which I've inhaled.
The red haired boy has begun to rub my back in circles with a small smile, while Cloud has begun to laugh.
I wanted to tell him a piece of my mind for laughing of me, but the cough stopped anything I wanted to do.
The red haired spoke while he still rubbed my back:
"It's natural to react like this at first." He said and his words comforted me, along with his circles on my back. My cough stopped and I just nodded a thank you to him.
I guess he understood while he sat back on my bed.
"Again." I've said to Cloud while he just smoked himself, but he just smirked and then he gave the cigarette to me.
I inhaled again and again, at first I begun to cough again but at the third cigarette, I already felt familiarized with the taste, and my lungs have accepted the nicotine and the other substances with no other choice.
They just watched me at first, and then smoked with me, but soon enough, our little party became suddenly quiet when the door of the room has opened.
Revealing no one, but...
"Sasuke." His name died in my throat as if it said enough.
One unlit cigarette which is still between my fingers and two complete strangers which are still in our room can make Sasuke think at anything else but the truth.
Even so, he just stood there, after he closed the door behind him, made two steps, let his backpack on one of the desks and just stared at all of us as he said just three words:
"What is this?"
However, I didn't felt alarmed at all; it was just that I forgot the fact that Sasuke knows nothing about my two new companions and everything else.
"Look, he is Cloud, the son of another rich family, I've first met him years ago at one of my family's dinners and he is his..."
I've pointed out to the red haired boy of which I know nothing at all. And not to mention that the word 'boyfriend' has stuck in my throat.
'If he knows, it won't make him like them at all.' I thought as I closed my eyes for a second to open them again and then to continue:
"…his friend and they just want to stay a little here, I will help them enter in our school and that's it."
I suddenly felt ridiculous.
'Why am I giving him explanations as if I've done something wrong?'
I ignored my sudden urge to turn back in time and to act different, so I just stared at Sasuke which has his hands at his chest and looks incredulous at me.
"If he's rich why he needs your help to enter this school?" He asked me and I almost realized that I don't know the explanation myself.
But without me being able to respond, Cloud has begun to talk with a calm but firm voice:
"I've ran away from my family, I've hated my family for caring more about appearances than anything else, and to add more, they didn't cared about me and what I want, just what I am supposed to do to look good in society, I don't want a life like that, so I've left." He said, with a smirk at the end.
"And now you have nowhere to live." Sasuke finished Cloud's explanation. But then, he looked at my bed, or mostly at the red haired boy:
"And you are?"
"My name's Ryuu, and I am not rich, quite poor, I've met Cloud by accident and we've became friends." He said while a faint pink blush has appeared on his cheeks while he spoke but continued:
"My mother died when she gave me birth and my father always blamed me for her death, but anyway, the reason I've left was that my father didn't let me work, while he still works at his old bar, he said that artists aren't paid well, and I gave up but when I met Cloud, and when we've realized that none of us is happy where we are, we ran away together." He said and after he finished, Cloud stretched out his hand and Ryuu accepted it.
"God..." Sasuke said as he put his fingers between his eyes and massaged them.
We waited for him to say something and he did, and outside the rain has started all over again.
"And you want us to give them a home or what? This room is not big enough even for us and how do you intend to make the principal listen to you? They no longer have parents!"
Sasuke said to me, and just then, I felt the urge to fight back.
"But I can..."
I begun but Sasuke cut me off.
"And neither do you." He said, accusing me.
"I know. But I can talk to them on the phone, pull some strings..."
'Is this me?' I thought silently.
I said but again, Sasuke spoke over me.
"You know they will accept just if you come back home." He said as a matter of fact.
"But maybe you..." I begun but my voice died.
'Is this us?'
"You're kidding me, aren't you?" He said almost laughing, but ironical.
It all stopped, but the thunder has echoed outside, the rain has begun to sing, but in this room, everything was silent.
I took Cloud's arm, hoping that he still holds Ryuu's hand, and just like that, I got out, not looking back, and leaving Sasuke in the same place, in the same position, in the same silence.
I let go of the hand as I ran on the stairs up, I heard my name being called by Ryuu but I knew that they were following me to wherever I was going.
I ran on stairs and then, on more stairs which are leading to the roof of the building.
I stormed while I pushed myself on the door of the roof, as I realized that the rain is not very angry and the thunders rare.
I never thought that I am that immature, but I guess that life always had her ways to surprise us.
I am on the roof of the dorm. With no one but myself, but I wait for someone.
One year has passed since I left that doomed house. I am now 17. And I think that I hit the bottom of the river.
'I had a fight with Sasuke...' I let the time pass for this thought to spread through me, and a smirk has appeared on my face.
The reason is now between my lips.
As I put the cigarette between them and lit it with Cloud's lighter which he gave to me when I was about to lit it but Sasuke came in.
And then, I heard Cloud's swearing from the stairs.
Soon, I saw them both. Trying to catch their breath from the entire running.
Ryuu still breathed quickly with his hands on his knees, as Cloud's breath is steady already and as he put one hand on Ryuu's back.
"Now what?" Cloud asked me as I just stood there, the wind being stronger than ever.
To be continued…
Not so very long but it's good for me. Hope everybody liked it and hope I didn't disappoint anybody. I liked this chapter; I think it turned out how I wanted it to be.
A little action at least!
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