Hey, I'm sorry I took me a while t write this I have been busy I needed time to think about how I was going to write this chapter. It's in Meredith's POV

A slamming door down stairs woke me up, luckily Zola was still asleep next to me . Carefully I picked her up and put her in her crib. I heard someone slowly walk up the stairs, I thought maybe Cristina's talk with Owen didn't go to well ,but when I opened the door I was surprised to see Derek at the top of thestairs, he looked at me and I looked at him and for a couple of minutes we just stared at each other not knowing what to do or what to say finally he said "Hi"

"Hey" I said sadly

"ummm... I heard that you took Zola home tonight"

"Ya I did..."

"oh well is she asleep or can I go in and see her"

"Oh so the only reason you are here is to see her"

"...No...Well... I don't know " he stuttered

"Well she's asleep and you can't see her, so if that's the only reason oyu are here then you better go back to where you came from"

"Mer"

"No don't"

"Don't what!"

"Say my name like that Derek!"

"how else am I suppost to say your name!"

"I don't know but you can't say it like you love me because you obviously don't if you want me to get fired, and say I'm going to be a bad mother!"

He stood there not saying anything so Meredith took the chance to yell again.

"You said I would be a bad mother Derek! A Bad mother! Come on how low is that! And you know I was here alone with zola all night! I was the one to change her diaper, feed her, and settle her down when she cried! Where were you! huh! Obviously not here!"

"I didn't mean what i said, I was just angry"he said softly

"Well then why the hell did you say it, that is not a very good reason! I'm angry but I not saying stuff to hurt you!"

"I'm sorry"

"Ya well I don't think I accept it. Why the hell does it make you so angry. This clinical trial wouldn't really do anything to your reputation because you are already one of the best neurosurgeons in the country, maybe even the world, so why the hell does it bug you so much!"

"Because Meredith! It was not about being published it was about saving you! And now there might never be a chance that I can heal the disease you might get!"

"oh, Well was that really so hard to say instead of calling me a bad mother! That was totally random in this whole situation! And what do you care abut me getting alzheimer's if you are acting like you don't love me!"

"Meredith why the hell would you ever say that! I love you so fucking much it hurts!"

Just at that moment Zola woke up and started to turned around with tears in her eyes and slammed the door in his face.

"You can sleep in alex's room!" She yelled though the door.

So whatcha think,Review please. This is part one. I'm Going on holidays starting tomorrow and won't be back for 14 days so I will try to write some chapters while I am away but I can't guarantee anything I do write some I will post them when I get back. Bye!